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I didn't expect Zheng Ao to appear here.

Over the past few years, I have occasionally dreamed of him, but they are all fragmented fragments, such as the scene of playing together at Li's house when I was a child, such as the snowy day when I sent him out for a ride on the first day of the new year.

But I never thought he would come back to me, I remember when I left he was engaged, he should be getting married soon, he has matured a lot, his hair is shorter, he is thinner and taller, now it is autumn, he The windbreaker he was wearing was very nice, and he seemed to be a different person.His eyes are more powerful than before. When he looked at me, he felt that the weight of time was heavy inside.

I know what I should say, I should treat him calmly, like an old friend for many years, time flies, we are not who we used to be, three years is enough for Ruirui to grow from a baby to be able to speak kid who can laugh...

By the way, Rui Rui!

Something in my heart gradually hardened, and I knew it was my support.I can't let him know that Rui Rui is here - even if he knows, I can't let Rui Rui go with him.I tried my best to build up my courage, and I even smiled at him: "Long time no see."

There seemed to be something flickering in his eyes, which was suppressed again, and then he also greeted me: "Long time no see."

My sanity gradually came back.

"Why did you come here?" I even stood up, ready to make tea for him: "Are you okay, Ye Susu?"

"We're not engaged." He said behind my back, "I called off my engagement and have been looking for you."

"Oh, is it?" I put the tea into the cup without looking back: "What do you want me for?"

He seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and then replied softly, "I just want to know where you are."

I remembered the fake death trick that Li Xiu did for me, he must have seen through it.

"I've been here all the time." I told him, the water in the thermos was still boiling hot, and I poured it into the teacup, the tea leaves swirled, and the heat came up together, my eyes looked at the bottom of the teacup: "I'm doing well Yes, you don't have to worry."

He stopped talking.

I handed him the teacup, and he took it, but there was no chair to sit on, and I didn't want to drag him a chair—the longer he was here, the more likely he would see Ruirui, and I couldn't take that risk.He was holding a teacup, his knuckles were a little white, his eyes still followed me greedily.

I started to organize the books on the shelf.He stood there, a bit blocked from the light, probably because of his thinness, the outline became clearer, and he was still as delicate and beautiful as before.Those eyes, even if I didn't meet his eyes, still come to my mind from time to time.

"You," I sorted out the book for a while, seeing that he was silent all the time: "Do you have anything else to do?"

This sentence was actually to sniff out his mouth, he couldn't have made a special trip just for me, after three years, he should have gotten used to living without me by now.If he came all the way here, it might be for Ruirui.

"I'm here to find you," he told me.

I'm a little unhappy.

With his ability, he wouldn't be ignorant of Ruirui's existence. If he wanted to take Ruirui away, everyone would say yes, why beat around the bush like this.Although it was a bit unpleasant when I left, but now that three years have passed, things have changed, so there is nothing to pretend.

"Are you sure you didn't come here for anything else?" I asked him back.

Zheng Ao was taken aback for a moment, he was smart after all, and then he realized that the corners of his lips curled up: "Are you talking about that child, I know."

"Do you want to take Rui Rui away?" I put the book in my hand into the bookshelf, and then asked him: "Do you think you can give him a better life? You will definitely marry in the future. When the time comes, Rui Rui's identity How do you calculate it?"

"His name is Ruirui?" He asked me, and I couldn't believe he didn't investigate.

"Yes," I told him with emphasis: "His name is Xu Rui! When I took him away, you didn't even know he existed!"

"I didn't intend to rob him from you..." Zheng Ao's voice stopped abruptly, and then he turned his head to look at the door connecting the bookstore and the back room.His perception has always been so sharp.

I turned to look over.

Rui Rui stood there.

He was barefoot, probably because he woke up from a nap and couldn't find me, so he jumped off the bed, still wearing the milky white pajamas, very aggrieved, not sure whether to cry, standing there staring at me Looking at Zheng Ao intently.I don't know how much he heard of the conversation just now, but he is so smart, he just needs to take a look at Zheng Ao's face, and he will understand it instantly.

They look so much alike, their outlines, eyes, pupil colors, and even the way they look at each other at this moment are all exactly the same.

"Rui Rui, come in quickly." I quickly called Rui Rui: "Don't come out."

Ruirui's eyes were still looking at Zheng Ao, and only turned to look at me.

"Xu Rui!" I called his name: "You don't even listen to your father!?"

I have never spoken to him so harshly, Ruirui pursed her lips, and ran into the room with a very aggrieved look.However, in the next second, he rushed out quickly.He ran to me barefoot, hugged my leg, and cried loudly: "Dad, don't let the bad guys take Rui Rui away!"

I was a little overwhelmed. I remembered that he had never cried so much since he was sensible. I quickly bent down and hugged him, coaxing him patiently: "Don't cry, Dad didn't want to send you away, why don't you wear shoes? What if I catch a cold?"

Ruirui didn't care, just hugged my neck and cried loudly, probably used up the energy from lunch to cry, cried and cried and looked back at Zheng Ao, and started crying again.

Zheng Ao frowned and looked at me.I didn't wait for him to speak, I carried Ruirui to the room to look for shoes.

By the time I coaxed Rui Rui to finish, it was almost ten minutes later.Ruirui soon got tired of crying, just hugged my neck and sobbed softly, I kept coaxing him, Zheng Ao followed me all the time, as if I would run away with Ruirui if I left his sight for a second.My room is small and full of things, he couldn't move around in it at all, I don't know how many knocks, but he was more pain-resistant than before, and he didn't say a word.

I hugged Ruirui and sat down, but Ruirui refused to let go, so I could only talk to him like this.

"Go back," I said to him, "I can't give Rui Rui to you. Just be a friend, let me beg you. When Rui Rui grows up, you can ask him to go back. Whether it is inheritance or not, he can make his own decisions.”

Ruirui cried so hard, only heard the words "When Ruirui grows up, you want him to go back", and hugged my neck tightly: "I won't go back, I want to be with my father, don't go back now , I won’t go back when I grow up!”

I quickly comforted him and patted his back, Ruirui's health has never been good, crying like this hurts his health too much.

Zheng Ao's eyes were dark: "You beg me?"

"Yes." I looked at him completely honestly: "For Ruirui."

He didn't know what he was thinking, but suddenly said: "What if I let you live with me for Ruirui?"

Ruirui also felt that this was an important question, so she immediately pricked up her ears to listen.

I said: "Yes. But I only care about Ruirui, not you. You should have gotten used to living without me in the past few years. It's okay for us to live in the same house."

Zheng Ao's eyes suddenly looked a little sad for some reason, and he even smiled self-deprecatingly.

"You don't want to care about me anymore?"

"Didn't you understand this three years ago?" I asked him back, "From the day you decided to get engaged to Ye Susu."

You think I'm just a man who likes you and can firmly control me, so you say you like you, but you don't even give me a partner position, and ask me to be a concubine.Even for a woman who is in love with you, this is an insult enough to be remembered for a lifetime, let alone I am a man.

Zheng Ao did not refute or defend.

He just asked suddenly: "Then if I ask you now if you still like me?"

I patted Ruirui on the back and glanced at him.

"Do you know how many seconds it takes for a person to wake up?"

He shook his head.

"For me, that number is three seconds." I told him, "I used to have dreams about you, dreaming that we were very young, very young. You know in dreams people take it seriously and remember I don't know the memory and rules of reality, so I always like you in my dreams. Then every day when I wake up, the first reaction is to find you, because I liked you at that time. But the second I remembered The things you have done, I can calm down in the third second."

I asked him: "Zheng Ao, do you think it matters now whether I like you or not?"

When I was in the past, I often felt that love or not was very important, and opening my mouth meant love and hate. After these years, I gradually realized that the important thing is not love and hate, but the things that have passed between us.Because those things are enough to turn love into hate, and they are also enough to make the closest friends and crushes in the past become strangers today.

Zheng Ao didn't answer me.

He said, "What if I fell in love with you?"

I laughed.

"Then what does it matter to me?" I asked him, "It's not that you love me, so I must be with you."

This is what he said to me back then, and now I will repeat the original words.

I still remember the moonlight on the balcony that day, the conversation between him and Li Xiu in the greenhouse, the manner in which he said this, his posture, and his appearance at that time, young, arrogant, as if there were countless people in this world. A new kind of happiness is waiting for him to experience happiness, and everything is more important than that person named Xu Lang.

Now that the river has turned to stone, I have become the one who said this.

Really bad retribution.