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After recruiting people in Xia Tian, ​​Zheng Ao's company doubled in size.

Yu Susu got to know him well, and dared to joke, and said to him: "Zheng Ao, what if you are reported by a newcomer for your illegal and criminal activities."

Zheng Ao glanced at her and continued to read the document: "You are also an accomplice."

"I'm underage." Yu Susu was very proud.

She is actually very smart, but she is smart in doing things, and her attainments in people's hearts may not even be one-third of Wang Xian's.Since what happened last time, Zheng Ao has paid special attention to Wang Xian. This girl is not amazing, but she is very smart, and she will instinctively hide it, which is very rare.There is never a shortage of smart people in this circle, smart people have to be able to live to the end.

But she doesn't seem to be interested in doing things, and only occasionally reminds Yu Susu of her mistakes.She probably also noticed that Zheng Ao was watching her, with a calm attitude, the two smart men secretly made a move, Yu Susu didn't realize it, she played foolishly all day long, desperately learning Russian, and hired a Russian who looked like a bear , and talk to him every day.

After screening the new recruits, leaving aside those with too righteous and bad intentions, Yu Susu quickly got to know the rest of them. A girl of her age is already very likable, just like the six in the morning. Some sunflowers, with dew on the petals, grow towards the sun, the sun is on the face, and there is a natural cohesion.If the girl can do things better than adults, that's even more remarkable.

On summer nights, Yu Susu often asks people from the company to eat supper. She saves the pocket money her uncle gave her and sells it to the supper shop downstairs of the company. She is very good at eating and earns a lot , Every time the whole company is invited, Zheng Ao checks out.In the past, Zheng Ao would not have participated in this kind of thing, but recently the days are getting longer and longer, and the newcomers are getting familiar with each other. They get off work early, and when they go home, they seem to have nothing to do.

It was probably at the end of July, Yu Susu's birthday, Zheng Ao couldn't match Yu Susu's entanglement skills, so he was also taken to eat supper, Wang Xian also came, and a group of people from the company sat at a food stall by the roadside, eating barbecue Oysters and scallops, the whole big lobster is split, wrapped in tin foil and grilled with minced garlic, the wild mushrooms in Yunnan are strung on a skewer, absorbing the chicken soup, and grilled until dripping.Yu Susu was like a female bandit leader who robbed her. She reached out to ask for a pinch of wine, and a bunch of people poured it down. The driver of Yu's family was waiting to take them home without even looking for an excuse.

Zheng Ao sat on the left side, and no one dared to drink him. After Xu Lang left, his eyesight did not decline any more, and he occasionally wore glasses. His eyes were so beautiful that wearing rimless glasses was just right.Drinking until it was dark, the moonlight outside was very good, and the ground seemed to be covered with a layer of mercury. He suddenly remembered the small house that Xu Lang rented back then.

Nice moonlight there too.

He still remembers that balcony, remembers Xu Lang's smile, so warm, so close, as if he could still touch it with his hand...

His hand touched the beer glass, and there were drops of water hanging on the wall of the glass. The golden beer was filled up, but he still didn't seem to be able to react. Unable to catch the moonlight.

"Come on, have a drink." Yu Susu drank happily, but she was also strong and cowardly, and slapped a glass of beer in front of Zheng Ao: "Let's drink. Boss, I offer you a toast. I thought you were a bad person before. Now that you're not an asshole, let's have a drink!"

Even though they were already dazed, the people around quickly cast their gazes to this side.

Zheng Ao raised his eyes and glanced at her.

To everyone's surprise, he wasn't angry, he just hooked the corner of his mouth and picked up the glass of wine.

This is the bitter fruit he planted with his own hands, and it has been brewed into a glass of fine wine, even if it is gut-piercing poison.The wine brewed by oneself must be swallowed by oneself.

A group of people were so drunk that some of them were unconscious. Even Wang Xian was toasted a few times. She sat next to her and sipped a glass of beer.If someone is still awake at this time, they can probably see that something is wrong with Zheng Ao.

He drank too much.

One cup at a time, meat and vegetables are not taboo, even if you have a good capacity for alcohol, you can't drink it like this. Unfortunately, his employees are all on the table, and they are respectful and awe-inspiring, no one dares to persuade them.

Zheng Ao felt that he was very sober. The more he drank, the more sober he became. The hustle and bustle around him seemed to be far away. He probably drank too much and his stomach was cold. He drank a glass of wine. For a moment, it seemed that He heard a voice whispering in his ear, "Don't drink."

Yes, it is that person.

He didn't dare to move or speak, for fear of scaring that person away.After all, I had done such an exorbitant thing to him, and he was so angry that he hid for so many days, how could he come out.

He tried his best to pretend nothing had happened, but he was very happy in his heart.He knew that that person would not really leave him alone, so he came back to see himself.As long as he comes back, I can keep him, as long as I beg a little, he likes me very much, and I have to apologize, take him to see the house I prepared, he definitely doesn't want to live in the old house ...

Zheng Ao had thousands of thoughts in his mind, but he didn't show anything on his face. He drank another glass of wine, swallowed the cold wine into his throat, and finally felt a hand on the back of his hand, it was him!

He grabbed the hand backhand and smiled triumphantly.

"I got you, Xu Lang!"

All the voices stopped abruptly, and the surrounding world seemed to come back to him little by little. He saw the drunk employees on the table, and everyone who was looking at him in surprise.

He stood there with his hand in his hand, and there was no one around him, no Xu Lang, no hand to stop him, no warmth, no concern.

The ecstasy on his face hadn't faded in time.

However, he stood there without that person by his side.

The wine he drank seemed to have turned into ice in his body, and thousands of ice edges pierced out of his body, nailing him on the spot with thousands of arrows piercing his heart.

He sat down a bit dullly and slowly under the surprised eyes of everyone. He had never felt such pain before, as if his heart had been dug out, and placed it on the spot, so that he could see clearly whether the burn on it was a lot of blood or not. Lang's name.

He tried to smile, but it didn't come out.

He said, "It's okay, I'm drunk."

It was Wang Xian who sent Zheng Ao home, and the steward helped Zheng Ao in with great gratitude. Wang Xian called him to stop and wanted to tell him, but she frowned and thought for a while, but she didn't think of what to say. All he asked was, "Be careful tonight."

The housekeeper seemed to understand.

Wang Xian returned to the car and was silent for a while. The driver waited for a long time and couldn't help but ask, "Miss, where are we going?"

"Go back." Wang Xian glanced out the window and suddenly changed her mind: "Let's go to Luo's house."

When Luo Xi heard that the housekeeper came to announce his name, he was at a loss.

It was already late at night, and he was about to fall asleep, not to mention that the Luo family and the Wang family had never had much contact with each other.Moreover, Wang Xian has never had a sense of existence. If the housekeeper hadn't reminded him, he wouldn't even know there was such a person in the Wang family.

The Wang Xian he saw really had no sense of existence.

It was strange that she was standing in front of the Luo family under the moonlight all over the floor. The other families planted very ornamental plants, roses from the Li family, plum blossoms from the Zheng family, hydrangeas from the Wang family, roses from the Xia family...

Only the Luo family grows pines and cypresses.

As soon as the moonlight shines, the shadows of the trees are flickering. There is no handsome posture, but only verdure, and it will always be verdant.

"Hello," Luo Xi introduced herself to her gently, "I'm Luo Xi."

Wang Xian didn't reach out her hand, but just looked at the butler of Luo's family, and the butler consciously stepped aside.

In the moonlight all over the floor, there were only two people facing each other and the guard in the distance. It was probably a bit cold. Wang Xian put her hands in her pockets. After Xu Lang left, she gradually stopped wearing short skirts, because she Knowing the contrast between myself and Yu Susu, and no one would tell her from the bottom of my heart: "Actually, I think you look good too."

"Give the video to Zheng Ao." She started with this sentence.

Luo Xi smiled.

"You came so late to be a lobbyist for Zheng Ao?"

"I'm here to be a lobbyist for Xu Lang." Wang Xian told him clearly: "Let him find Xu Lang, he won't arrest Xu Lang again, let Xu Lang choose by himself. You are not qualified Make decisions for Xu Lang, Xu Lang himself knows what is best for him..."

"This is your reason?" Luo Xi disagreed.

"No matter what, Xu Lang won't like you. Instead of letting Xu Lang stay outside alone and suffer, it's better to let him go back to Beijing. He has a child and hides his name. Life will not be easy. How can he be a lawyer? If you want to punish Zheng Ao, you will have a chance in the future." Wang Xian is still talking.

Luo Xi didn't speak, he was looking at the shadow on the ground.

"My father likes pines and cypresses very much." Luo Xi said: "He said that when flowers bloom, they fall, and only pines and cypresses are evergreen."

In the end is evergreen, or long love?

When he was young, he was not very happy.There was no love in his family, his father was good-natured, silent, taking what he wanted, but no love.He later learned that love needs to be learned, and children who grew up in a family without love have no way to love others.But there will be a paranoid longing in their bones, like moths chasing firelight, they will naturally follow the kind of warm and bright people.

He only knew the name Xu Xu because of an accident. His father loved Xu Xu, silent and stubborn, as if this was the only special thing in his boring life, a bud in the ashes, a world without color The only sliver of light in the world, as if he had been alone and forbearing in the darkness for so many years, as if he came to this world just to love this person.

He hated Xu Xu, but instinctively paid attention to him.He often peeked at his father's things, stole Xu Xu's photos, drew many crosses, and then burned them.

Later he saw Xu Lang.

He resisted instinctively, but couldn't help approaching.When he was standing in the kitchen making breakfast and waiting for Xu Lang to wake up, the sun shone in, and at that moment, he suddenly forgave his father.

It was a very, very warm thing, like you were buried under the snow, so cold, so hopeless, and then you suddenly walked into the woodsman's cabin and sat in front of the warm fireplace, holding A bowl of hot soup.

Before Xu Lang knew him, he had known Xu Lang for many years.

He thought, maybe he needs to be despicable, he thought his father was too incompetent, he would not let Xu Lang go, he chose the right time to break into Xu Lang's life...

It's a pity he didn't make it.

It doesn't matter if he was a step too slow, or his methods were not clever enough.

Everything is destined, no one can help.

He thought, maybe he won't get married, and he won't have children. There is no need to pass on such a fate. He has never felt truly happy, and maybe his father didn't either.

"I won't give the video to Zheng Ao," he told Wang Xian, "but if I find Xu Lang, I will tell you."

In any case, it is the light that he cannot get. Instead of hiding him in the dark and burning him out, it is better to let him find someone who can make him burn.

He was born a moth, a silent child, a melancholy youth, that ordinary friend, a passing supporting role, a name that disappeared silently.It is a maple leaf tucked in the page, which has faded over time and is still waiting for the hand that turns the page.

He is a pine and cypress, but it is a pity that Xu Lang likes plum blossoms.

It's just that they didn't expect that Zheng Ao had been looking for it for so long.

The summer was over, and a car belonging to the Li family was found in the video, but it disappeared at the next toll booth. Wang Xian sent a message to Zheng Ao, and Zheng Ao searched for half a month along the south direction.

The clue ended up at the tollbooth.

Zheng Ao has been looking for September, Mid-Autumn Festival, Christmas, and New Year's Eve.It snowed heavily again in Beijing, and the whole world was buried in the snow.

On New Year's Eve, he sat alone at the table with two seats and drank a glass of wine.

He didn't know that at this time last year, someone was very worried about whether he was alone during the New Year.However, last year's New Year's Eve he didn't feel bleak, because he could go to Li's house to pay New Year's greetings the next day.

A man with a child and no relatives, how should he celebrate the New Year?

At night he couldn't sleep, so he found Xu Lang's clothes. In his impression, Xu Lang always wears a lot of clothes in winter. He is very afraid of cold, and his body is always cold in winter.When he left, he didn't take anything from the Zheng family.

Zheng Ao has never told anyone what dream he had that night when he was drunk in Xia Tian.

He dreamed of the Li family again.

Many people, Li Xiu, Li Zhurong, Xia Chen, everyone is there, he has been looking, has been looking, and found Teacher Xu, but he is holding another little boy, beautiful, clever, Like Ning Yue, but not Xu Lang.

Not Xu Lang.

He grabbed Xu Xu and asked, "Where's Xu Lang? Where did you hide Xu Lang?"

Xu Xu didn't speak, and everyone didn't speak. He searched all the places, the roof, the balcony, under the bed, the study room, the flower room, and inside the quilt...

No, not at all!

In the dream, he became so small, he was very tired, and he was still looking for it stubbornly, he grabbed the little boy's face, trying to see if it was a joke, he pushed and pushed Xu Xu, scolded him loudly, and angered him, Even beat him, he asked them to hand over Xu Lang, Xu Lang is his, this is predestined, no one can change it, Xu Lang will meet him, fall in love with him, treat him well, I will walk with him for more than ten years...

When he woke up, he found tears on his face.

He knew it wasn't a nightmare.

Because he has indeed lost Xu Lang, as if he never got it.

He became keen on collecting Xu Lang's photos.

He collected Xu Lang's photos from Xu Lang's school, Xu Lang's company, colleagues, and Li's family.He found Xu Lang's orphanage.

He saw Xu Lang when he was placed at the gate of the orphanage, he saw Xu Lang painted a turtle on his face by Li Xiu when he was a child, he saw Xu Lang wearing a red scarf and speaking under the red flag, he saw the class spring outing, Xu Lang sat on the grass, smiling so happily.He saw Xu Lang doing exercises in the university, he saw Xu Lang working overtime late at the company, he saw Xu Lang falling asleep in his own cubicle from exhaustion, his profile was just as he remembered.However, when he stretched out his hand, he could only touch a cold photo.

He missed so much Xu Lang, and never had a chance to get it back.

When Li Xiu started to take power, Zheng Ao's company no longer needed him to sit in charge.

But he's still busy.

He gradually became a less lively person, he was no longer like his father, nor like the original him, there was something else in his eyes.Many people left the company, and many people came again. They gave him nicknames, and various people would express their love.He is still excellent, but has gradually become silent.

He has become friends with Wang Xian.

Wang Xian likes Xu Lang, he knows it.

They once liked such a good person together.

In the second winter after Xu Lang left, Guan Ying passed away.He sent her back outside the pass to be buried with her father and brother.

On the car returning, he saw the heavy snow covering the sky, and the sky and the earth were vast. At that moment, he suddenly thought, where will Xu Lang be now?Does it snow there?

He never fell in love again.

The photos hidden in his wallet, the seat of the co-pilot, the other half of the empty seat on the bed, and the seat left on the left when eating are all his remaining love.

There is still half of the place in his closet, and he buys clothes for Xu Lang every year, as if he still believes that Xu Lang will come back.

He later bought the ring, and several of the female employees were very disappointed.

But they tried everything, but they couldn't see the person who wore the other ring.

It was the third year after Xu Lang left.In October, for the birthday of the Medicine Buddha Buddha, some eminent monks from other countries traveled to Beijing to hold a water and land meeting in Guanghua Temple. It is said that they are eminent monks who have attained the Tao. Elderly people from many families went to the temple to worship one after another, and he also went.

He didn't expect to meet Xia Zhifei there.

He hadn't seen Xia Zhifei for a long time. He seemed to stay at home a lot, and it was said that he was taking care of Lu Feixia. Some people said that Lu Feixia had actually died long ago.

When he saw Xia Zhifei, his sideburns were already gray, his brows were downcast, and he didn't look at people.

He watched this man who had never believed in Buddhism kneel in front of the Buddha, knelt three times and kowtowed nine times, performing this great ceremony, he looked up and saw the Buddha statue, the Buddha statue was full of pity, high above, looking at the common people in the world.Life is separated and separated, Baiyun Canggou.The eminent monk sat cross-legged on the futon, like a dead wood and dead ashes.

Zheng Ao bowed before the Buddha...

He once met a person, a very good person, and he wanted to stay with him for the rest of his life and give him a good life.For a hundred years of life, he just wanted to live with him.Only then he made a big mistake and lost that guy.

If there are gods and Buddhas in this world, if gods and Buddhas can really hear, he only wants that person to live, even if he is in a place he can't see, even if he has a new life, even if he still hates him and doesn't want to see him he.

As long as he is still alive somewhere in this world.

He will keep looking.

After the Water and Land Dharma Assembly, the eminent monk sealed the scriptures copied by everyone, and what he copied was a volume of "The Medicine Master Sutra".

It is written in the scriptures: I wish that when I attain Bodhi in the next life, my body will be like glass, clear inside and outside, pure and free from blemishes; the light is vast, the merits are towering, the body is good and peaceful, and the flame net is more solemn than the sun and the moon;-

Half a month after the Water and Land Ceremony, the eminent monk sat down and burned his body to release the relics.

He went back to Guanghua Temple once, and there was a new pagoda outside the temple. He knew that the scriptures he copied and his lifelong wish were buried in the pagoda.

When he sent Guan Ying back outside the pass, he got a hundred-year-old wild ginseng. Thinking of Lu Feixia, he sent it to Xia's family.

The next night, Xia Zhifei invited him over for dinner. For the first time, he knew that Xia Zhifei could also cook. The serious middle-aged man told him that Lu Feixia used to like to eat his dishes, and often took advantage of him not paying attention. Steal food that he can't digest.

He said: "He knew that there was always a sword hanging in my heart, so he purposely made noise, trying to divert my attention and have a better time."

It was cold at night, Xia Zhifei put on a coat and sent him to the door.Asked him: "I heard that you are looking for someone."

Zheng Ao said, "I'm looking for Xu Lang."

"Xu Xu's son?"

"Yes."

He took it as a small matter.

However, half a month later, Xia Zhifei sent a message.

He didn't know that the reason why Xia Zhifei was so good at finding someone was because about twenty years ago, he also frantically found someone. He exhausted all the methods, and those who got on the table and those who couldn't.He even took his own life as a threat.Unfortunately, by the time I found it, it was too late.

Not all stories have happy endings.

Fortunately, everything is still in time.