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When Zheng Ao woke up, it was already dawn.

He had a dream, it was night in the dream, it seemed to be Li's house, because he remembered the Monet's painting hanging in the corridor of Li's house, Teacher Xu liked it.He didn't think about why he appeared here in his dream, he only knew to go forward, and then around the table with roses, there was a small room, the door was ajar, he opened the door, and a little boy sat There, he was playing a puzzle quietly, and there was moonlight shining on the carpet from the window. He turned around and smiled at Zheng Ao.

Zheng Ao couldn't remember who he was, he instinctively felt that it was very important, and the more he thought about it, the more anxious he became, but the little boy smiled at him, and he settled down again, walked over to sit beside him, and played puzzles with him .Zheng Ao looked at his quiet appearance, a name seemed to be coming out of his throat, like a layer of mist on the glass, as long as the mist was wiped away, he could get the answer.

But the mist cleared and it was dawn.

The moment he woke up, he remembered that it was Xu Lang.

Then he remembered—Guan Ying said Xu Lang was dead.

"Hey, don't move!" Li Xiu was standing by the window of his bedroom, stepping on a stool, not knowing who he was talking to on the phone, when he heard the movement, he turned around to deal with Zheng Ao: "It's useless if you move, this is steel of."

Zheng Ao was looking at his left hand.

After these days of tossing, his wrists are so thin that you can see the shape of bones, and they are white, with bandages wrapped around his hands, and he is currently locked in a pair of handcuffs and handcuffed on the head of the bed.

It seems that Li Xiu had lingering fears about his abnormality yesterday, and was afraid that it would happen again today, so he locked him here.Although Xiao Man Niu is a little stupid, he still cherishes life very much.

Zheng Ao shook his hands, and the handcuffs jingled. He looked at his hands, as if he was still in a daze.

Li Xiu hastily ended the phone call, walked over, dragged a stool away, and sat down.

"Don't go crazy," Li Xiu tapped the head of the bed with his mobile phone, and he didn't know whether it was a threat or a lure: "I have already let everyone out to find Xu Lang, and I still have to hide it from my dad. I'm looking for trouble, and I'll beat you up."

Zheng Ao didn't speak, his eyes didn't know where to look, and his eyes drifted to the ceiling.

Although Xiao Yan Wang was fierce in fights, he couldn't bear to see him like this, and he was embarrassed, so he pushed the thermos cup by the bed towards him in a rough voice: "Do you want some soup!"

Zheng Ao glanced at him and said nothing.

Seeing that he was ignoring him, Li Xiu felt a little bored, so he had to go to the housekeeper and yell at the door of the bedroom.

"Housekeeper! Your lunatic master is awake, cook!"

Zheng Ao called him suddenly: "Li Xiu."

"What are you doing!" Li Xiu didn't make a sound.

"I've known you for 19 years." Zheng Ao's voice was tired, probably because of a hangover and headache, and he was sick.

"Tch, have you remembered things since you were born?" Li Xiu poured cold water on her, "Don't try to trick me into letting you go, my dad told me to lock you up, lest you do stupid things, and the housekeeper agreed."

Zheng Ao didn't take it seriously, but raised his eyes to look at him.Even though they are the same age, he seems to have something more in his eyes than Li Xiu.

"Li Xiu, do you really not know where Xu Lang is?"

Li Xiu felt guilty when he was seen, and said ferociously: "Why, doubt me! I want to know where Xu Lang is and I am still here? I have already gone to look for him."

Zheng Ao chuckled lightly and stopped talking.There was no warmth in his smile, it only made people feel cold.

Maybe it was the headache after the hangover, maybe it was the cold, he curled himself into a ball, curled up in the quilt, and buried his head in it, his hair was a little long, blocking his face, Li Xiu couldn't see The look on his face.

Little Hades is good at fighting, but he is not very good at doing bad things. Seeing Zheng Ao's appearance, he became more and more stern, and said beside him: "Don't think that I will let you go if this is the case, Xu Lang, we are looking for you. , I'll tell you when I find it, and I won't lie to you..."

Zheng Ao didn't speak.

These days, he has been avoiding thinking about one thing, which is Xu Lang's attitude towards him.He thought that as long as he found Xu Lang, he could stay by Xu Lang's side whether he was left out or ignored.Over time, it will get better.

He never thought that even if Xu Lang stayed, he would never want to see him for the rest of his life.

Never thought that Xu Lang would die.

The car was found in the afternoon.

At that time, Zheng Ao ate for the first time today, and the housekeeper was overwhelmed with gratitude. After all, there were only two people left in the Zheng family, and they went on a hunger strike together. It was the end of the world for him.Zheng Ao sat cross-legged on the bed, drinking porridge with his uncuffed right hand, while Li Xiu folded his hands and watched.

Zheng Yan broke in.

"I found a car," he said to Li Xiu. Since last night, Li Xiu was instructing them to find someone. When he saw Zheng Ao woke up, he was taken aback for a while, and found a place to stand next to the housekeeper. , whispering to Li Xiu about the situation.

Zheng Ao didn't even raise his eyes, he was still stirring the porridge in the bowl leisurely.

"Zheng Yan," his eyes were drooping, but his tone was cold: "You are also very fast in recognizing the Lord."

Zheng Yan immediately fell silent, and bent in his direction: "Sir, I see that your health is not good..."

His words stopped abruptly, because Zheng Ao raised his uncuffed hand, and the bowl of hot porridge splashed on him directly. The housekeeper was startled, and wanted to wipe Zheng Yan with a handkerchief, but Zheng Yan avoided it. He pursed his lips without saying a word, standing as if made of steel, as if he didn't feel anything.

Li Xiu couldn't stand it anymore.

"What are you crazy about?" He was very irritable, and immediately started scolding: "I told Zheng Yan and the others to report everything to me. I'm afraid that you will be hurt again after hearing this. What excitement!"

"Are you afraid that I will be stimulated! Or do you not want me to find Xu Lang at all!" Zheng Ao raised his head and asked sharply.

He is a cynical fox these days, making people forget that he was also a demon king like Li Xiu back then, the hostility in his eyes alone is enough to make people shudder.

But Li Xiu is obviously not afraid.

"Okay, listen to it if you want!" He raised his chin towards Zheng Yan: "Tell him what we found."

Even if he knew that he had just bumped into Zheng Ao's furious gun, but this bowl of porridge was a great insult to Zheng Yan, who had always demanded himself with the self-discipline of a soldier.

But his loyalty to Zheng's family was engraved in his bones. He didn't keep silent or say anything else, but lowered his head and reported the situation he found to Zheng Ao in detail.

"We monitored all the way from Ye's house, and finally found the black Honda that robbed Mr. Xu in the outskirts of the city," Zheng Yan seemed to hesitate.

"What's in the car?" Zheng Ao asked softly. Li Xiu said he was crazy, but in fact his mood was a bit up and down. With such a soft voice, it seemed that the person who threw Zheng Ao a second ago was not him.

Zheng Yan raised his head and looked at Li Xiu inquiringly, and Li Xiu with a displeased expression motioned him to continue talking.

"There is no one in the car," Zheng Yan considered his words, "But there is a lot of blood on the ground outside the car."

"A lot?" Zheng Ao didn't seem to understand, so he repeated.

"Yes, more than ten blood samples have been taken for testing. The Li family provided a DNA sample from when Xu Lang was adopted." Zheng Yan said: "I can ask the person guarding there to send a photo."

"No need," Zheng Ao stopped him: "I'll go and watch it myself."

Although his attitude was firm, Zheng Ao's face was still uglier than last night when he really saw the tragedy at the scene.

The scene has been taken over by Li Xiu. Zheng Ao was the first to jump out of the car and lifted up the blue and white tape that sealed off the scene.Li Xiu worked very hard and found a group of people to investigate on the spot.

Zheng Ao's shoes stepped in the muddy water, and he strode to find the awning. In order to protect the evidence, the awning was set up on the car and the bloodstains.

The first thing he saw was the blood.

Most of the dark red blood stains had soaked into the soil, but they were still shocking. Several people were inspecting the scene wearing shoe covers. Li Xiu introduced later: "This is the trace inspection expert I brought from the military area."

"How long will it take to get the DNA test results?" Zheng Ao asked, staring at the blood on the ground.

"It has already been sent, and the results will be available in the afternoon." A trace inspector wearing a mask who was taking samples answered him: "We have taken a total of 25 bloodstains for testing, and three of them were taken from the car. But preliminary analysis , this is the first scene of the murder."

Zheng Ao seemed to be stabbed by that word: "Murder case?"

The trace inspector was obviously dragged out by Li Xiu from which laboratory he didn't know. He didn't know that the person in front of him might kill him by making a sudden attack, and he was still explaining to Zheng Ao in a professional manner.

"Most of the bloodstains at the crime scene are foggy, obviously left by the shooting. We have calculated the shape and angle of the bloodstains, and it should be shot from this angle," he compared the position of Zheng Ao's ears: "A normal person This position is all head. And bullet casings were also found at the scene."

Zheng Ao pursed his lips tightly, there was no trace of blood on his lips.

After a while, he said softly, "How did you get the shape of the blood stain?"

"Use the luminol reagent." The trace inspector probably felt that all the things that should be collected were done, and covered the evidence box.

"I want to see."

"A lot of photos have been left." The trace inspector was closing the box: "Lumino has to turn off the lights, which is very troublesome."

As soon as he finished speaking, Zheng Ao grabbed his collar and slammed him heavily onto the table where the evidence was placed.

"I'll just say it once," he told the trace inspector word by word: "I want to see it! Immediately!"

In the dim canopy, trace inspectors handed masks and goggles to Zheng Ao and Li Xiu, and sprayed a little reagent on the ground. When the fluorescent light shone, the blood stains on the ground appeared little by little, with clear edges, like stains attached to the blood stains. The soul gradually manifests itself.

"This is a foggy bloodstain caused by the gunshot." The trace inspector pointed to Zheng Ao: "This is the bloodstain that flowed out after falling to the ground. Look carefully at the bloodstain in this place. Is it blocked? We judge that there are two murderers. Personally, one shot from a distance, and the other restrained the victim in front of him, but there was something wrong with the position, the murderer seemed to be half-squatting..."

He talked more and more vigorously, but he didn't pay attention to Zheng Ao's face next to him.

The area of ​​the bloodstain was very large, it was fluorescent light blue, and it quietly stained the ground, as if telling a story that ended abruptly.

Zheng Ao stretched out his hand and touched the bloodstain that was said to be the blood after he was shot and fell to the ground.

The ground was cold and wet, and it seemed that Xu Lang's body smell still remained.The bloodstains under the fluorescent lights are where Xiao Lang stayed last.

How desperate must he have been then?

Where was he at that time?

Do you stand at the entrance of the hotel and plan your future life, do you think that you can pursue Xu Lang confidently after the divorce, or stand on the stage of the engagement banquet and announce the news of the divorce.

He thought everything could start again, but in fact it was over.

Someone outside the shed lifted the shading blanket and came in, as if saying something in Li Xiu's ear.Zheng Ao raised his head and looked at Li Xiu.

Li Xiu also looked at him.

In the dimly lit awning, Zheng Ao raised his face, the glowing blue light was imprinted on his face, his lips were pale, but there was a sharp light in his eyes.The expression on Li Xiu's face was as cold as ice, and seemed a little sad.

He said: "The results came out. The DNA on the bullet casing was the same as that of Xu Lang."

Zheng Ao is not crazy.

He kept his word. When Li Xiu uncuffed him, he said to him: "We have three chapters in the agreement, you can't go crazy, you can't hit me, and you can't hurt yourself."

He did nothing.

He just slowly stood up from the ground, his fingers were still stained with blood on the ground, his body shook for a while, as if he was about to fall, but in the end he didn't.

He just stood there, cold as ice.

He said: "Give me the scene, and I will use my own people to test the DNA again."

When the second test result came out, Zheng Yan found Zheng Ao in Zheng's study.

He was sitting by the window of the study without drinking, and there was a cup of tea in front of him.

Zheng Yan went in lightly and stood cautiously on the side.

Zheng Ao has been looking out the window.

"He used to stay here a lot," he suddenly said softly. "He likes to read books. I didn't know why. I just remembered now that he has no other friends."

That person is always very busy. He is not a very talented person, but he does everything he can.Zheng Ao couldn't understand him working so hard for other things, but occasionally he thought it was fun.Because he would only put down his book or work for Zheng Ao, Zheng Ao likes to be that exception.

Zheng Ao is used to being an exception to many people, he will be welcomed wherever he goes, the proud son of heaven, he sings every night, but he never thought about how that person got here in the days without him.

I have wasted so many years, those days spent outside, if I went to him and stayed with him, even if I just leaned together, read a book with him, and talked with him about some trivial things, it would be better than now Thinking back to the time I spent with him, I found that there were only a handful of them.

"I really want to find him now and have a conversation with him." His eyes were looking at the rain and fog outside the window: "I have never asked him about his life. I don't know what he likes to eat or play. I don't know when..."

Zheng Yan's heart trembled and he dared not speak.He has followed Zheng Ao for so many years, and he has never seen Zheng Ao say such a thing.

Zheng Ao turned his head and looked at Zheng Yan, with a self-deprecating smile on his face, but his voice was so sad.

"The result is out, isn't it?"

If he could exchange his own life for this change in result, maybe Zheng Yan would really change it.

He didn't dare to speak, just nodded.

Zheng Ao chuckled lightly at himself.

"What are you afraid to say?" He seemed to be talking about himself, and seemed to be telling a joke: "I'm not afraid of anything, so what if it's his, I won't believe it. The DNA given by the Li family Sample, how can you believe it? Their family has always ignored him, maybe they made a mistake? Li Xiu likes to joke so much..."

His voice trailed off, and finally he turned his head and looked out the window.

"It's a bad result, isn't it?"

Zheng Yan felt like he was swallowing hot charcoal in his throat, the worst injury he had ever suffered in his life had never been so painful: "Yes."

"I won't believe it. What's there to believe?" Zheng Ao's tone seemed calm: "Li Xiu likes to lie the most. I want to find Xiao Lang's DNA sample by myself. Yes, I will go find..."

He seems to have forgotten that Li Xiu seldom deceives people, and he is the one who likes to deceive people the most.

He is also the one who likes to deceive himself.

Until Zheng Yan quietly left, no one came to tell him that he did not have Xu Lang's DNA.

When I was young, I also said something like "I want Xiao Lang to be my brother", and brought Xu Lang to my house and gave him to sleep in my own bed.I want him to stay by my side forever.

How did it change later?

Is it because the outside world is too much fun, or is it because I grow up and realize that I am not the poor kid who is not recognized by my father, but the proud son of heaven with a golden spoon in his mouth, and he begins to like the pursuit of outsiders, or is it because he knows Xu Lang? He is such a gentle and firm person, he will always be with him, so he has no fear and can do whatever he wants?

She once wanted to treat Xu Lang well and give him a warm home, but in the end she threw this idea behind her.When I was four years old, I knew that this person named Xu Lang was very important to me. Why did I lose him when I grew up?

I forgot what I said at the beginning, but the person named Xu Lang remembered it very clearly.

He cooked so many meals for himself, he was so tired that he couldn't stand up, and he still remembered to cover himself with a quilt, even if he was depressed, he still endured his unreasonable demands...

But I never asked him: Are you doing well?Is there anything you want to say to me?Are you tired from work?Do you need me to accompany you today...

During those long dark nights, would Xu Lang also feel cold, and how did he resist calling himself.In those cold times, how did Xu Lang face his chaotic private life, like a gentle friend, tidying up his room after a one-night stand?

This world is so cold, but I have always left him alone.

In the past ten years, has he ever had a cold, has he had a high fever in a place he cannot see, has he woke up in the middle of the night, thirsty, but no one poured him a glass of water?

I don't even have his medical files, let alone DNA.

Zheng Ao curled up in his and Xu Lang's bedroom, pulling his hair, not daring to think about it.

Since Xu Lang left, this bedroom has become a forbidden area of ​​the Zheng family. Even the housekeeper dare not come in to clean it. The smell of Xu Lang's body seems to remain on the sheets. He occasionally has the illusion that Xu Lang is still here , right by his side, everything was just a nightmare he had, and when he woke up from the dream, there was still time for everything.However, when he stretched out his hand, the person who would always sleep peacefully by his side was long gone.

Xu Lang is such a good-tempered person, he always believes in himself so easily, even if he is hurt, as long as he stretches out his hand to touch his head and say a few soft words, he will quickly forgive himself, and never again Be unreservedly good to yourself.

But he is gone.

In the future, in those dark and long years, there will be no one named Xu Lang appearing, like meeting for the first time, smiling gently at himself, and giving himself half of the blanket.

The world is so big and so cold.

He finally lost Xu Lang.