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Many years later, Zheng Ao would still think of that morning, the morning when he was supposed to get engaged, he stood at the door of the hotel, watched that man holding a girl's hand, and left without looking back.He wanted to leave himself so desperately that he would not hesitate to let go of his dignity.

He grew up as the sole heir of the Zheng family.

He was put in that position before he was born.His father had a stable and loving gay man, he was just an accident, no other siblings were born after him.

He grew up surrounded, and learned without a teacher to enjoy the love and loyalty of others, words that were never used to claim him.

His grandmother was a very strong woman.His grandfather died early and his grandmother has been in charge of the family.She almost held his hand and taught him: You are Zheng Ao, you are the sole heir of the Zheng family, you are responsible for the future of the entire family, and you are born to enjoy the best things.No one is qualified to teach you how to do it. You can live according to your own wishes. When you make a decision, there are countless people behind you. You don’t need to be kind, and you don’t need to worry about anyone. Invincible, invincible.As long as you keep winning, you are worth these things, because you are Zheng Ao.

He did a great job.

So much so that for a long time, he didn't even know where he was wrong.He thought that he was very similar to his father, so he would end up with a happy life and a happy life.

Many years later, he found out that his grandmother regarded his father as a failure.She loves him like any mother loves her child, and trusts unguardedly that he won't let herself down, but he ends up putting his family second because he's found something better than that.

So she learned her lesson.Improved her educational methods.

For many years, Zheng Ao has been living a very happy life, happy and reckless.He was already very good, his family background, appearance, and IQ were all superior to others.He has changed many people around him, and he has seen the most beautiful appearance, the most gentle personality, the most flamboyant boy, and the most absurd enjoyment.

He was living so well that he didn't have time to stop and think, what is the most important thing among all the things he owns?Is it family background, ability, desire to vent, or a certain way who has been watching him tenderly.

He has loved three people in his life.

The first one is his father, when he was very young, he instinctively wanted to stay with his father, father and son nature, not to mention they look so alike, maybe he was too young at that time to be aware of his situation, it was just instinct love him.

When he found out that Zheng Yehu would only declare him as his nephew in his life, he withdrew his love and only respected him.

He has the arrogance of the Zheng family, he wants the best in everything, and he would rather not have anything offered by others willingly.

The second is his grandmother.

She has taught him many principles of life, taught him to read Zuo Zhuan, learn about emperors, and how to control others. She taught him that the strong don't need anyone's pity, and they don't need any weak warmth. Everything, like or dislike everything.Because he was the only heir with irreplaceable blood, she indulged him so much that he regarded it as family affection.

Later, when the Guan family got into big trouble, she called him over and told him in a commanding tone that he had to help the Guan family.Even though it would be a tough battle for the Zheng family.

How did he answer her?

Do you use the words she taught herself: "No one in this world is qualified to teach you how to do it."

The third person is Xu Lang.

Zheng Ao probably knew that Xu Lang liked him when he was in high school.

It was some afternoon.He fell asleep lying on Xu Lang's lap. Xu Lang who was reading a book raised his hand to remove the hair blocking his breathing. He squinted his eyes half asleep and saw the way Xu Lang looked at him.

He likes that look.

Like a beggar with nothing, looking at his only dollar, like a traveler lost in the desert, seeing an oasis when the sandstorm is coming.As if he was his dream, the only salvation, the first and last persistence.

He didn't say it.

He felt that Xu Lang would feel embarrassed if he said it out, and he might hide it in the future, but that was not possible.

At that time, he had already played too much, passing through thousands of flowers without a single leaf touching his body.No one told him it was wrong, everyone thought it was right, and no one could keep his heart.

In fact, he has liked Xu Lang very much since he was a child, the kind he likes for little tiger cubs, new cars and comfortable beds.This love lasted for many years until they were all grown up and had their own lives.

He never lied to Xu Lang. In front of Xu Lang, he always only said what he thought in his heart, including that he hoped to continue like this with Xu Lang, that sometimes he felt cold and could only come to Xu Lang, and that even though he didn't Love, but willing to fall in love with Xu Lang and live together.

It was in Xu Lang's repeated rejections, in his tears and resistance, that he realized how bad a person he was.

But he can no longer be a good person.

It's hard to let go of the warmth you've already tasted. After seeing the bright sunshine, how can you be willing to return to the darkness.He is such a selfish person, he can't wrong himself for a day, he must grab the person he wants, if he can't invite him, he will grab it, lock him by his side, and never return it.

He was afraid that Xu Lang would leave.

He always thought that he was the proud son of heaven and knew everything, but later he realized that he knew nothing.He doesn't know how to cook, doesn't know how to take care of people, and his temper is even very bad. Every night when he wakes up in the middle of the night, he will find himself with his hands and feet wrapped around Xu Lang. group fell asleep.Even if he grabbed his own hand and woke up the next morning, it was still the same.

He never realized that he relied on this person named Xu Lang so much, bullied him, and entangled him, so that it became a habit engraved in his bones.

So he couldn't let Xu Lang go.

There are such nice people out there, who have a good temper, will take care of others, and won't bully him.As long as Xu Lang has a little contact with them, he will find that he is so good, and there are so many good people outside who are willing to get along with him, Xu Lang will attract those people, and they will find the light on Xu Lang, like a treasure follow him, take care of him, and eventually take him away.

He used to think that he liked Xu Lang's kindness to him, his smile at him, his cooking, and the way he looked at him...

Later, these things were gone.

Only then did he realize that he just liked Xu Lang.

As long as you stay by his side, it doesn't matter if you are indifferent or silent, as long as this person is still here, where you can see him, you won't be deceived by those who pretend to be gentle and kind, and you won't just because others treat him well. But realizing how bad he was, he left without looking back.

He told Xu Lang that he is learning, he will learn, learn to take care of others, and learn to love someone.Xu Lang told him that love cannot be learned.

He learned.

But he found that no one had told him that if he learned it, he would lose Xu Lang.

He once asked Xu Lang what love is when he couldn't find a clue. At that time, he was very angry and impatient, because he knew that if he couldn't learn this kind of thing, he couldn't keep Xu Lang.Now he is self-taught.

It turns out that when you love someone, you will have weaknesses, dead spots, and something more important than yourself. You will care about his frowns, his smiles, his rejection and alienation, and when you want to hug him, he will retreat. Even if they hugged each other in the end, their hearts were cold.Love is to wrong yourself willingly, just for that person to live well.

Because he didn't fall in love with him, he snatched him over.

Now that she fell in love with him, she wanted to let him go.

He stood at the door of the hotel for a long time.

He is still the same Zheng Ao, the proud and powerful Zheng Ao, and the guests who come and go have lingering fears about him. In the six months after Zheng Yehu left, these people have more or less seen his methods, and the affairs of the Guan family are even more shocking. People startled.After all, it is also a big family of nearly a hundred years, with deep roots and luxuriant leaves. In just half a year, the trees fell and the monkeys scattered. These people can't help but feel a little bit sad.

He was very used to this kind of thing before, and he also enjoyed this kind of thing. He was born for this position, and he is familiar with the way of survival in this jungle.

He turned around and looked at the people in the hall.

Resplendent and resplendent, with criss-cross cups, the most beautiful appearance, the most elegant etiquette, each of them hides sharp minions under the decent smile, this is a hidden and dangerous game, under the surface of the water, the torrent is undercurrent.This is the world he lives in.

He seldom lost anything in his life, so he just realized today that if you lose the most important thing, the whole world will gradually fade away like a painting soaked in water and become dull and tasteless.

He was also asked who he was waiting for.

He said just to come out and see.

In fact, he is waiting for someone.

He is on isofelin.

Later, people often asked him why he wanted to divorce.

He thought, maybe it was that afternoon, when he was standing at the scene of his engagement ceremony, and it started to rain, what he was thinking at that moment was: where is Xu Lang now, will he get caught in the rain?

Guan Ying taught him so many things, at least one thing was right.

He is Zheng Ao, the former heir of the Zheng family and the current head of the family. No one can teach him how to do it.He doesn't need to force himself, he can get whatever he wants, as long as he is strong enough.

He is Zheng Ao, he deserves the best things in this world.

Including love.