like drinking ice

"The face is a bit off, yes," I wrapped ice cubes in a towel and applied the fingerprints on Zheng Ao's face: "Don't frown."

Zheng Ao turned his face away very upset: "It's too cold."

"If it's not iced, it won't work." I advised him, "You don't want to meet your subordinates tomorrow with your fingerprints on your face."

He looked at me with an aggrieved expression.

"I don't have to go to work tomorrow, so I'm going to stay at home with you on purpose." He loudly accused me of going too far: "As soon as I got home, the housekeeper told me that you were not at home, and called me to say that I would sleep in your house." Outside! I knew it was that bastard Luo Xi who did it! I searched all over the city of Beijing, and finally found this place! Fortunately, I came early, so there is no loss... By the way, there is really no loss, right?"

As he said that, he began to check my body. When I tapped him on the head, he raised his eyebrows and started to yell again.

"Stop making trouble," I had no choice but to change the subject: "You didn't ask my dad, did you?"

He had a "what do you think?" expression on his face, as if asking for credit.

I suddenly felt a headache.

"If your dad hadn't told me, how would I know that you came to the outskirts of the city." He was very proud: "If you want to find grass for the alpacas, just ask me. I have a friend who owns a horse farm, and there are all kinds of grass in it." .”

"Let's talk about it later." It was really hard for me to imagine what kind of scene I would face when I went back, and my scalp felt numb just thinking about it.

"Li Xiu is also an idiot, what can I give as an alpaca?" He was in a good mood, and then scolded Li Xiu: "The alpaca looks so stupid, just like Li Xiu, isn't he building airplanes recently? "

"I'm not sure." I've already started thinking about how to explain it to my dad when I go back.

Seeing that I ignored him, Zheng Ao lay back on the car seat in a daze for a while, then cried out in pain: "Why is my face so hot, is it bleeding..."

He has been clever since he was a child, even Li Yao can't beat him, now he "takes the reason", he is going to go to heaven even more, he looks so naive, he commands me around.

I agreed to associate with him at first because I wanted to give up on myself and punish him by the way.I am used to being a lawyer, and even my thinking is the thinking of a lawyer. If someone feels sorry for me, I don't necessarily have to pay compensation, as long as he is punished, it is the same.

But the development of things seems to have gradually deviated from my original intention.

He seemed to grasp this possibility, and then kept creating new incidents. I couldn't hold on to my attitude any longer, so I could only be led away by him.For things like tonight, even if I am determined to ignore him, as long as he puts the fingerprint on his left cheek in front of me, I can no longer be aggressive.

This is probably how people interact with each other.

As long as it's not about life and death, if you don't really break up with each other until old age and death, but continue to stay together, live together, and get along with each other over time, all kinds of trivial matters and emergencies will gradually wear off your edge. In the end, the two of you will return to the original state again, but there is still a thorn in your heart, which will come out from time to time to sting you.

Friends are like this, couples are like this.

But I don't want to.

When we returned to Zheng's house, it was already dark.

The butler probably thought that he had caused a big deal by talking too much, so he waited at the door with a worried look. When I saw him, his eyes were evasive.

According to Zheng Ao, because he "went in a hurry, he only brought two cars", and he came back with two cars. Zheng Ao and I sat in the front one, and there was only one driver in the car. Zheng Yan and the others were all behind. In the van, I saw that Zheng Yan’s posture was very awkward when he got down, and I thought it was strange, but when he opened the door, three people sat in a row, grabbed the alpaca’s feet and neck, hugged the alpaca, and let it lie horizontally , the alpaca looked at me innocently.

These bodyguards were all young guys, laughing and laughing, and the last one came down and complained with a smile: "This grass mud horse kicked me dozens of times."

"What are you arguing about?" Zheng Yan reprimanded them like a little old man despite his young age.

Zheng Ao seemed to be seriously injured, he pressed his body on me while walking: "Xiao Lang, my foot hurts..."

I really want to know if my slap was filled with internal strength, why he could hurt his whole body in this hour.

The housekeeper paid off his merits by ordering the kitchen to prepare hot soup in advance, and also brought a lot of dishes one after another. It was probably prepared early in the morning and started frying when he got home.Zheng Ao took off his coat, and inside was a light gray shirt. He was tall, with a long waist, and he lay lazily on the table: "Xiao Lang, my hand hurts..."

I glanced at him: "Did you hit someone?"

He rolled over on the table in protest, his hair almost dragging into the soup, but he refused to pick up the spoon.

"Take off your clothes so that you can clean the table better." I ignored him.

He heaved a long sigh.

"My face hurts..." He put on a pitiful tone, "I don't want to eat."

"Then don't eat." I'm already eating.

Actually, I wasn't hungry at all, but in order to show my determination to ignore him, I pretended to eat seriously.

He reached out and grabbed my chopsticks.

"I'm very hungry……"

"You won't be hungry if you eat by yourself."

"Xiao Lang went to the hot springs with people behind my back, and he didn't care about my food, he wanted to starve me to death..." He looked in pain: "Xiao Lang must not like me anymore."

I looked straight at him.

"Zheng Ao, stop pretending."

"I'm not pretending..." He acted vigorously: "My head hurts, and my hands hurt too."

"You and I know very well in our hearts that you don't care about me as much as you show." I put down the chopsticks: "I don't care whether you are possessive or want me to believe you are true, I hope Enough is enough. We're all smart people, and it's boring after the show."

My original thought was that after we dated for a while, he might be unable to bear the loneliness and go to bed with someone else, or he would find that I was not important and stop flirting with me.I feel that I can make peace with him and maintain a superficial calm.When the day comes, I will completely give up on him.

But he got into the drama so deeply that he almost deceived himself.

Acting is most afraid of being exposed in person, and I don't want to suddenly say such harsh words while eating, but I don't like his current appearance even more, as if I really are the person he cares about the most.It seems that he is planning and intrigue all day long, as long as he comes back and lies next to me, acting coquettishly and making trouble with me, watching me frown but helplessly circle around him is the happiest thing for him.This model belongs to Li Xiu and Lu Jiaming, Li Zhurong and my father, and maybe even Zheng Yehu and Lin Wei, but it cannot be mine.

I was born to be a supporting role, and he was born to be a protagonist. I can't subdue him, and he won't really fall in love with me.

I used to think that as long as I stay by his side, it doesn't matter whether he is sincere or fake, or even acting. I watch from the side, and I can enjoy it.After all, I like him so much, as long as I stay with him, I will feel happy.

Unfortunately, I am not so open-minded.

I am born to be such a serious person, whether I love it or not, I am completely devoted to it. I can't learn his half-hearted skills, and I don't want his half-hearted perfunctory.I am not suitable for playing this kind of game. The rules may be very reasonable, very modern and scientific, but unfortunately it is not suitable for me.

Zheng Ao's eyes darkened.

"Do you think," he paused before uttering the word, "do you think I'm acting?"

I didn't answer.

"I'm acting, I'm lying to you, everything you see is fake..." He reached out to touch my hand: "Is that what you tell yourself these days? Xiao Lang."

"I don't know." I avoided his hand: "I can't believe anything, I just know you won't fall in love with me, so nothing seems real."

"Maybe there's truth in it?" he asked me.

"But you acted so realistically, I can't believe you really care about me so much."

Zheng Ao sneered at himself.

"I thought you would understand," he looked into my eyes, his amber eyes seemed to be covered with mist, covering those emotions: "I'm always like this, Xiao Lang, I will use any means to seize an opportunity, It is necessary to squeeze out the last bit of use value. Don't you know it all the time? Xiao Lang..."

"I don't want to understand anymore." I turned my eyes away: "I used to really want to know the answer, I thought there would be an answer to everything, but maybe even you can't explain clearly..."

"But I really care about you, can't you see? When I don't even want to say a word, when I feel cold, I just go to you, Xiao Lang, you are very warm, you are not suitable You are too warm in this circle, but I can't help but drag you in..."

"But I'm freezing to death! Can't you see!" I shook off his hand, I don't know why I stood up, I don't know why I yelled at him: "You can find him when you are cold." Me, what do I do when I'm cold! This city is so big, I always feel like I'm alone, eat alone, sleep alone, I can't even raise a cat! You want me to love with all my heart You, you want my whole heart to be tied to you, so I will live without a heart like this! The heart must be exchanged for the heart! You are so smart, why don't you even understand this truth!"

He didn't speak, just reached out and hugged me, even though I was struggling desperately, even if I waved my fist and brushed his cheekbones, he still hugged me tightly, as if he didn't feel any pain at all.

I tried very hard not to cry.

I can't help it, I'm working hard to be a rotten person, I also want to be as cold as ice, I also want to find someone to sleep with, I also want to be like he said, when I feel good, but I don't feel good at all, my heart hurts It seemed that there was an empty hole, and the wind blew through the middle, taking away the last bit of temperature.

I'm freezing to death.

He smiled at me, he pretended to be affectionate, but he didn't like me.He lied to me like this, acted like this, but he didn't like me.

I have no choice but to become that solid, indifferent blue glacier.

He is my deadliest weakness. I have tried all methods, but I can't pass this level.I told myself over and over again that he didn't love me, he didn't love me, but as long as he smiled at me and looked into my eyes, I felt a little better again, and I began to yearn and forgive again.I can't die completely, I can't nirvana.

I'm so mean.

Loving someone is too cheap.

"I'm sorry, Xiao Lang, I'm sorry..." He apologized in my ear over and over again: "I'm sorry."

I did not speak.

I have nothing more to say.

"Xiao Lang, you want my love, but I don't know how to give it myself..." His voice was clearly in my ears, but it seemed to be far away: "I will work hard to treat you well, I will not Go to bed with someone again, I will always be with you, Xiao Lang, let's go back to the past, okay..."

His voice is very soft, but very clear, very seductive, like the best deal in the world, he painted a very beautiful picture for me.It seems that as long as we take one step forward, the spring will be warm and the flowers will bloom, the sun will be shining brightly, and we will live a happy life from then on.He said he would always be with me, he said we can go back to the past.

I always remember the old days.

I remember that night, when there was a faint fragrance floating on the balcony, he leaned on me to read a book, and I was pruning the flowers. The moonlight shone down, and he smiled at me, like the most incredible dream I have ever had in my life.

Too bad I pushed him away.

Although it was difficult, although I struggled, I finally pushed him away.

He looked at me in surprise.

I opened my mouth, my voice was hoarse, like a sharp barb stuck in my throat, but I finally made a sound.

"No, Xiao Ao."

I love you, it is [-]% devotion, it is the unyielding stubbornness, it is the bad habit that even I can't get rid of, it is looking up, it is humble, it is watching with a smile every day, it is the joy when I think of your name , It is to take the whole heart to sacrifice, the road is blue, life and death are uncertain.

You say you want to exchange something, and that thing is very good, very good, very attractive, and exudes a fragrance, but unfortunately it is not love after all.

Because I gave 99% affection, so I want the same affection.Even if the opponent's score is [-], it is absolutely not acceptable.

The companionship you mentioned is probably also very warm, relying on each other, there is no third person, no deceit and disappointment.You will stay with me and we will have a good time.Occasionally when you feel cold, I will take good care of you. When you hug me, I will also have a slight illusion, as if you are really in love with me, as if we are truly in love.

Probably will be very happy.

You say the world is big, you don’t have to be serious, just be cool.

But there is always something in the world that is more important than having a good time.

My grandma said that to be a decent person, you can't take a cent of anything that isn't yours. God is not confused, what doesn't belong to you will be taken away one day.Instead of making a fool of yourself on that day, it is better to be ruthless from the beginning.

Love is not alms, not a transaction, not a hypocrisy for the company of an occasional night, love is no hesitation, it is what the heart yearns for, and it cannot be stopped by thousands of rivers and mountains.Love is wanting to take care of that person from the bottom of the heart, wanting that person to live happily, not a habit developed in childhood, not being greedy for the warmth of someone and unable to quit.

Everything in this world is beautiful, but only love can repay love.

Zheng Ao didn't say anything else.

He has his ego, and this is the biggest concession he can make.His IQ also prevented him from suddenly telling me that he fell in love with me.

He stayed me overnight at Zheng's house.

I did not agree.

Now that we have talked about it completely, there is no need to live permanently. We will be friends in the future, but we can't be so close anymore, because I like him, so we have to stay away.I can't help being nice to him, it's so unfair.

I was packing my things in the room, and he was standing at the door.

When I was leaving, I said to him: "Xiao Ao, in fact, I have always wanted to tell you that I hope you can find the person you love. In fact, falling in love is very good. If you find it, you will not feel cold in the future. .”

You will meet a very good person, someone who can really make you fall in love with her, and you will instinctively want to be with her, without commitment or guarantee.You will not only love the part of her that can warm you, but also her fragility and her demands.You will have a happy life, and you will be smart and strong until the day you don't need me anymore.

Zheng Ao didn't speak, just helped me carry the box and sent me to the door.

I walked into the snow and looked back.

He stood at the door, the light shone on his face, but I seemed to see the little boy when I was a child, he stretched out his hand when I was pushed down, and smiled at me and said his name was Zheng Ao.

I used to want to be by his side for the rest of my life, until he got married and had children, and he was getting old.

However, time is a torrent, and we were finally washed away, going the opposite direction and drifting away.

I left Zheng's house so late, the butler was very worried. The version he heard probably deviated a lot from the truth, and most of it was edited by the bodyguards. It should be very strange, otherwise he wouldn't have sympathy and blame for me. expression.I don't know if someone stuffed money in my coat pocket because they thought I was leaving the house.

"I'm leaving first, I will pick up the alpaca in two days."

I think it's better to return the alpaca to Li Xiu.

Luo Xi said that his family has a farm, and Zheng Ao said that his friend has a horse farm, but this is not mine after all. I am just a young lawyer who has just been listed and cannot afford to raise alpacas.When I make a lot of money, I will raise it back, I hope it will remember me then.

It's inconvenient to go back so late, and I'm afraid my dad will be worried if he finds out.

I took a taxi to the hotel and opened a room. I had opened this hotel for Lawyer Su before.

I rarely stayed in hotels before, and I didn't like hotels because I felt that hotels didn't feel like home.

But this time I lived in the room I opened, took a shower, couldn't sleep, poured a glass of wine, sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows in a bathrobe, and watched the lights of Wanjia outside. Looking at it, I actually felt good.

I used to think that red wine was not good, but now I suddenly like it a little bit. Maybe red wine is very suitable for drinking alone. It is sweet and sour, with a sweet taste on the bottom of the tongue. The taste of wine is like a mountain range. I read documents while drinking wine, and soon There is drowsiness.

It's fine to live alone like this.