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Received a text message from Zheng Ao before going to bed.

"Where are you?"

"A friend's house."

Zheng Ao didn't return for a long time, probably something happened.

When I finished the shower and was about to go to bed, the phone turned on again: "Luo Xi?"

"No, other friends."

I think Zheng Ao probably changed his strategy and started to play text messages with me.

I didn't know until the next day that he had already returned to Beijing at that time.

Probably because I have been to my house, I will ask me: "Where are you?"

It's a pity I've been very busy these two days.

In fact, our two life circles have no intersection at all. If I didn't deliberately cater to his activities, we might not meet each other for a year.

But this time he came to me.

I went shopping for Lawyer Su, and I vaguely sensed something when I saw someone in the group post "Lawyer Su's client is so handsome...".

Then I saw the car parked downstairs in the company.He loves cars more than people, and hasn't changed them in half a year.

I almost ran into the office, so fast that everyone looked up at me in unison.

I calmed down instantly.

This is my law firm, where I work, and everyone in it is my colleague. In any case, Zheng Ao cannot be allowed to affect this place.

I knocked on the door of Lawyer Su's office.

"Who?"

"I, Xu Lang."

"Please come in."

When I entered, I saw Zheng Ao sitting with his back to me.He probably rushed over after a meeting somewhere, still wearing a shirt, with one leg folded flat and resting on the knee of the other leg, looking very comfortable.

I went over to remove the cigarette from his hand first.

He didn't care to smile at me, and he was playing with a mobile phone or something in his right hand.Probably due to a lot of work recently, his hair was cut short and only reached below the ears. The original hair was longer and a little curly, which somewhat eased the impact of his facial features.Now it was cut short and wiped back, revealing a face as delicate as a jade carving, smiling heartlessly at me.

"Lawyer Su." I greeted Lawyer Su first and handed him the things.

Lawyer Su lowered his head and was writing something, as if he was not disturbed at all, took the things and glanced at me.

I pursed my lips.

"You, come out with me!" I said to him in a low voice, trying not to get angry in the office: "Don't go with me, you go to your car and wait for me first! I'll come down right away."

He smiled nonchalantly, picked up the suit jacket on the chair, and walked out very smartly.

I stood in front of Lawyer Su's desk.

"Sorry, I really didn't know he would come to the company to find me..."

"He pays me by the hour, it's a good deal." Lawyer Su didn't even look at me: "You can go out with him in the afternoon, three hundred an hour."

Really angry.

"I'll be right back."

Zheng Ao looked very obedient, waiting in the car, I opened the passenger seat, got on the door and got in.

He smiled at me.

"What are you doing here where I work?" I asked with suppressed anger.

"Come to play with you." He leaned on the seat leisurely: "I thought I could find you when I came to the company, but who knew you were not here, so I can only stare at that guy Su Zhenyuan and pay for it." Give it to him, I feel uncomfortable even thinking about it."

I was speechless at his confident tone.

"I'm at work, not playing. Even if I'm in the company, I can't come to accompany you. I have to go to work." Even though I knew his logic was very unreasonable, I still tried to explain it to him.

"I know," he smiled brighter. "I'll pay your company, and you can play with me and go to work at the same time. It's the best of both worlds."

I pressed my forehead.

"By the way, I brought you a gift when I went to Hong Kong this time." He turned around and brought a set of books from the back seat: "It's an ancient book, it's about detectives, but it's in traditional Chinese, you can understand it right?"

If I could lose my temper with him, I would probably have done so by now.

Too bad I couldn't really get mad at him.

"Xiao Ao, I'm not you, I'm a nine-to-five office worker." I interrupted his introduction to the book: "Even if it seems to you, it's just a very ordinary job that anyone can replace Work, but for me, is also the most important part of my life. I work hard and strive to get promoted. Every trivial case is a big deal for me. This is my job, my life achievement, even if You pay me far more than my salary, and I still do my job because I'm an adult."

People like him and Li Xiu often fall into a misunderstanding.The ancients said that the sea was difficult for water. They have lived in the sea since they were young. They have seen the most majestic situation and the most expansive world.Therefore, the storms in other people's lives are basically waves in their eyes.

It is easy for them not to take others seriously.

It's not malicious, it's not deliberate, and they're not bad people, they just can't take others seriously.Because from their point of view, that's not a big deal.

There is a saying in the movie that there are three realms in life, you can see yourself, see the world, and see all living beings.

They have seen themselves, seen the world, but do not understand all living beings.

90.00% of the people in this world are like me, living an ordinary life, being born step by step, studying, working, getting a salary, and doing simple or complicated jobs.All living things, birth, old age, sickness and death.

Those rules that seem insignificant to them are precisely our entire life.They have never lived such a life, how could they understand the young couples who just graduated cuddling each other on the subway, how could they understand the small vendors selling cheap clothes in the cold wind at the night market stalls, how could they understand how to drag their families in shanty towns Migrant workers who depend on each other in the district.

I stood on the edge of their world, and I occasionally glimpsed sensual dogs and horses, but in the end it was just a sneak peek.

Whether it’s Cinderella or Alice, when midnight arrives, the rabbit hole is closed, the carriage turns into a pumpkin, I have my own life, admit it or not, I’m just an ordinary trainee, but he chases me from the ball Come out and ask me why I don't play with him.

How should I answer him?

I have seen Li Zhurong's work, and countless people are waiting eagerly. When he makes a decision, the people below have to move and work hard, but the final success or failure depends on whether his decision is right or wrong.

Those who work hard govern people, and those who work hard govern others.

They are the top laborers and decision makers, each guarding their own world, and the working hours are not many, but success or failure only depends on one action.So that position is lonely.

But most of my work is just meaningless repetition, collecting evidence, going to court, and after the fight, there is another case, disputes in life, property, and arbitration.

Different road non-phase plan.

But he probably didn't think so.

He said to me: "But you are very tired after get off work, and you have other friends, I can only come to you while you are at work."

After speaking, he spread his hands.

I smiled helplessly.

"It's okay." I told him, "You can come to me anytime, as long as it's not working hours."

Even though I knew he had a trick in his words, I was still willing to sneak in.

He is redeeming, I know.

He doesn't want me to have other friends, and he doesn't want me to hang out with others in my spare time. He wants to come and find me at any time. He's doing very important things recently, so he's under a lot of pressure, and I can see that.

He broke up with Ning Yue, tried to make my house comfortable and moved in, he even came to my place of work.

How else could he save me—as a friend.

It is my own insatiable greed.

I think I'm probably about to give up.

Just be his friend. When he is tired, he can come to me. When he is not tired, he will naturally go outside to have fun.I don't care and I'm not jealous.

After all, it won't be my thing, so what's the point of keeping it.He may pity me or accommodate me if he speaks out, but that is not love after all.

All I want is his love, if I can't get it, I don't want it, cut off my extra thoughts, and be his most trusted friend.

I will keep this secret, bury it in the past, and bury it thoroughly with that young Xu Lang. As time goes on, I will forget it completely one day.

I will work hard, work hard to make money, and make myself a strong person, strong enough to have enough time for myself to control and accompany him.

I will be his friend and accompany him through his magnificent life, peaks or valleys, depression or triumph.I will always be with him, just like he was with me.

Earlier, Luo Xi asked me what it was like to be in love secretly.

I said that if a person drinks water, he knows whether he is warm or not.

Now that I think about it, I probably drink ice instead of water.

It was cold and sharp, and it was swallowed bloody and bloody all the way, so cold that the heart almost burst.Even in a dream, thinking that he doesn't like you will still cause a dull pain.He is a thorn in my throat, a name that can never be spoken, a deep wound that lasts forever.

But what does that matter.

Once you swallow it, no one will know it's ice.