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I sat for more than ten minutes, and he finally finished writing.Looking back at me, I was startled.

I called him "Dad".

He often has that kind of embarrassed look on his face that only good-tempered people have.

"When did it come?" He put the marker pen away, and said to me with a little apology: "I just thought of a solution, and I wrote too intently. You have been waiting for a long time..."

"It's okay, I just arrived." I took out the book that I had been putting in my backpack and gave it to him: "Last time, our school had an event to sell used books. This set of books is from Professor Qi. There are notes on it. I understand, I don't know if Dad wants it or not."

"I want it." He quickly took it, and took my hand very naturally: "You haven't eaten dinner yet, there are new live shrimps at home, just put the bag here, go eat first. I I had chicken stew at noon. And Li Xiu helped me and made some biscuits, you can eat some to fill your stomach first."

When I was a child, I was very greedy for this kind of meticulous warmth.So when I was studying, I was looking forward to the holiday and going home every day. I just wanted to sit at the dining table at home, listen to him talk about some trivial things in life, follow him to the kitchen, and listen to him talk about the dishes that my grandma is good at.

It's just that I gradually learned to let go by myself and don't make things difficult for him.

In the dining room, Li Xiu had already been waiting there.I saw him bathing the horse just now, but now he has not changed his clothes, so he is sitting carelessly in the tidy dining room, looking ready to fight.

My dad went to the kitchen to cook, and I sat down at the rectangular dining table.

Li Xiu gave me a fierce look, and pushed a basket over, which contained biscuits packed in plastic bags.

"Thank you." I told him.

He acted arrogantly as if he hadn't heard.

I sat at the table, unwrapped the biscuits and ate them.

There are a few of them with very unique shapes, almost lumpy, probably made by Li Xiu's "help".

I laughed.

I haven't laughed yet, but I can't help but raise the corner of my mouth, and there is a fierce voice: "What are you laughing at?"

"I didn't laugh at you." I didn't want him to be angry: "I remembered something in the company."

"What's so funny about your dilapidated company!" He has always been self-confident: "If you take it apart and sell it for eight figures, it will go bankrupt sooner or later."

I didn't refute him, and ate the biscuits silently.

He sat there for a while, probably because he was bored, and called me again: "Hey! Has that ladyboy Zheng Ao troubled you recently!"

"He's my friend and he won't trouble me."

"It's best. He's a troublemaker. You should stay away from him in the future. Don't be sold and count the money. Something is wrong with the Zheng family recently, and I don't know what the hell is going on."

He and Zheng Ao have become friends almost since birth. They have been playing together since they were young. Although it seems that they are not at odds, and they will fight when they meet, the relationship is actually very good.Later, when I played with Zheng Ao, he felt somewhat upset.

I didn't answer him, but he seemed to want to say something else. Seeing my dad come out with the food, he took it back, and continued to act like he was never in touch with each other.

My dad's cooking is very good, and he learned it from his grandma.There is a secret recipe for this stewed chicken, with ingredients of seven or eight flavors, boiled in water before frying, and you have to pay attention to the heat.I have time to try to do it myself, after all, it tastes a little bit worse.

I served rice for myself and my dad, and there was another bowl. I picked it up and served it to Li Xiu. He said bluntly, "I don't want it."

I was stunned for a moment and put the bowl down.

"I'm not hungry, who wants to have dinner at this hour." He didn't know whether to explain or complain, seeing that I didn't speak, he took out his phone to look at it boredly, stood up and left.

I eat with my head down.

"Actually, Li Xiu really misses you coming back." My dad sandwiched a piece of chicken for me: "He was asking about you this morning."

It's a good word, but it's a pity that even the people who say it don't believe it.

"Well, I know."

Li's house is very big, and I have always kept my previous room. My dad said that he had just cleaned it up this morning. I said it was too troublesome to move things upstairs, so let's sleep in the guest room.

When I was young, my room was adjacent to Li Xiu's.He pretended to be a ghost in the middle of the night to scare me, so scared that I hid under the quilt and dared not go to the bathroom, and wet the bed at night.I really wanted to find my dad, but unfortunately the door was locked.The servant came to clean up the mess the next day, and everyone in the family knew that I wet the bed.

I saved a long time to buy a set of Harry Potter, and he tore out the ending of each one.

When Lu Jiaming planted flowers, he dug earthworms and secretly put them on my bed sheets, saying that this is my family, and he didn't want to be my younger brother because I was ugly and stupid.

I used to really want to be nice to him. When I was young, I spent 20 yuan as a prize in the Mathematical Olympiad. I decided to buy him an electric toy car. He used it to collide with his Transformers and smashed it to pieces.It took me a long time to pluck up the courage to ask him if he liked it, and he said that you can tell by looking at the trash can.

I never hated him, or disliked him.I just don't want to be close to him that much anymore.

It's like I don't want to go back to my room.

It's like I don't want to come back to this home.

Whether I'm cowardly or a white-eyed wolf, I don't want to come back here again, I don't want to think of the humble and lonely me back then. In the long, long time before I grew up to be the Xu Lang I am today, I was alone. People walk in the dark, as long as there is a little light, I am grateful.

Li Xiu told me not to play with Zheng Ao.

But he didn't know that it was because of what he did to me that made me feel that Zheng Ao was the only light in my life. Even if it was such a hard secret love, even if I knew that continuing was just wishful thinking and a waste of time, I didn't care. I can't let go no matter what.

Arrived in City C around eleven o'clock.

I ate near my hometown and went to say hello to my neighbors downstairs.Downstairs, Grandma Yu passed away at the beginning of the year. When she was a child, she often came to chat with grandma, standing at the kitchen door with a cane, and complaining about her daughter-in-law.Grandma sat in the sun to choose peppers, chopped up the wilted red peppers, layered them in jars, marinated them for a sour taste, and asked someone to send them to Dad in Beijing.

Grandma is not considered well-off, her pension is very small, and she refuses to accept money from the Li family. She also supports my education and buys me clothes and milk.I secretly threw out my breakfast when I was a kid because I hated how fast I was growing up, my pants were getting shorter, and I was going to have to buy new clothes soon, and new clothes cost money.

Grandma has always told me that the most important thing to be a human being is to be decent, not to spend a penny of your own money, and if you spend it, you will not sleep well at night.I studied very hard when I was a child, and I really wanted to skip a grade, go to college soon, and then work to earn money to support her.

I remember the small cloth bag she put the money in, the jade bracelet in her hand, and she picked me up from school and asked me to recite the multiplication table to her.I remember that we were enjoying the cool on the balcony in summer night, and I was dazed, listening to her tell the story of Grandma Monkey.I remember her hair getting grayer, her back more curved, her hands as dry as bark, and I remember that morning when I went to school, instead of getting up to make me breakfast, she lay in bed and slept.I kept calling "grandma grandma", but she never woke up again.

Later I went back to Beijing and lived in Li’s house. My father said that the beautiful little boy was my younger brother. He kicked me under the table very hard while eating, but I didn’t dare to make a sound for fear of being caught by the new family. Hate.

When I first arrived at Li's house, I was very scared. I always dreamed that my grandma scolded me because I was eating the food of Li's family and I was not a decent person.I cried and promised her that when I grew up, I would return the money to them.

When I was a child, Li Xiu bullied me, soiled my new clothes for Chinese New Year, and robbed me of chocolates.Zheng Ao told me that he could ask his father to adopt me, instead of being Li Xiu's brother, he wanted me to be his brother.There will be lots of new clothes and chocolates, and no one will bully me again.

I did not agree.

Because I promised my grandma a long time ago.I will study hard, get admitted to university, and earn a lot of money. When my father is old and the Li family does not support him, I will take him over and give him a pension.

When I was a child, I was very afraid that my father would not want me.Even if Li Xiu says this is not my home, I will stay here all the time and refuse to leave even if I die.

Because this is what my grandma told me.