Xingchuan

"What happened later?" Xiao Shu was sleepy, but he still listened with gusto, "Did the deer be rescued later?"

Ling Yi squeezed his face, "I'll tell the story later, you should go to bed, go out and find Dad. Remember our agreement, don't tell grandma that I'm here."

He put the kid off him, stretched out his denim jacket, "Hey, go."

Xiaoshu nodded ignorantly, and staggered out.

Not long after, a voice came from near the entrance, it should be that Li Wei had left.Ling Yi turned on the light in the room, sat back at the desk and worked without distraction, deliberately not thinking about what the people outside were doing.

An hour later, Tu was almost done. He stood up and stretched his legs, and got up to go and see Li Xingchuan.As soon as I opened the door, I found that the living room had turned off the light at some point, and there was a geography documentary on the TV, only the picture but no sound.

Where's Xiaoshu? Where's Xingchuan?

He took two steps towards the wall, and just as he was about to turn on the light, he found the man on the sofa.

Li Xingchuan was lying on his back on the sofa, with his head resting on the armrest, his left arm covering his eyes, one leg hanging down to the ground, and the other stretched out on the sofa.

Fell asleep?

As soon as he approached, Ling Yi smelled a smell of alcohol in his nose.He turned his head and saw that there was an unfamiliar cup on the coffee table, and the amber liquid in it must be wine.

Looking at Li Xingchuan again, he was breathing evenly, his exposed lower half of his face was flushed, and his chest rose and fell slightly.Under the collar of the shirt that was torn off casually, the raised Adam's apple slides slightly with the breathing rhythm.

"Xingchuan." Ling Yi called him softly, "Are you asleep?"

The body on the sofa did not move.

Ling Yi had no choice but to squat down next to him and call out again, this time a little louder, but still no one answered.

But it was only over an hour, and he fell asleep like this.

It was inconvenient to move him, so Ling Yi got up and went to the bedroom to find a blanket, thinking of covering him to avoid catching cold.On the way, he even went to Xiaoshu's room to take a look to make sure that the child was sleeping soundly before he was relieved.

Back in the living room, he unfolded the blanket and covered Li Xingchuan. When he shook it off, he accidentally dragged a corner of it onto the carpet, and squatted down to tidy it up again.Unexpectedly, when he lowered his head, he found a board of capsules on the carpet.

I have eaten most of the medicine tablets, and there are no ingredients and curative effects on them, and even the names are very strange.For some reason, Ling Yi's heart suddenly jumped violently, and some bad associations appeared in his mind.

In the prison, some inmates committed suicide by swallowing drugs, and some even collected drugs for taking, and many of them caused accidents due to inappropriate doses of drugs.When he looked at Xingchuan again, his chest and lungs felt tight.

"Xingchuan," he leaned over and pushed Li Xingchuan's shoulder, "Xingchuan, Li Xingchuan—"

The peripheral nerves were stimulated by the strong smell of alcohol, and his brain seemed to be out of control for a moment, and he was desperate to wake up the person in front of him.

"Xingchuan, wake up—"

In the next second, he felt a force in his wrist.

Li Xingchuan opened his eyes at some point, and pushed him away with his arms, staring at him intently with bloodshot eyes.

Ling Yi's heart that jumped into his throat suddenly fell back, almost thumping, "Are you okay, I couldn't wake you up just now."

"What could be the matter..." Li Xingchuan's voice was slower than usual.He threw back the blanket and sat up drunk, his back slack against the sofa.It is rare to see him with such a decadent posture.

Ling Yi breathed a sigh of relief, picked up the blanket he had thrown away from the ground and slowly folded it up, "Why don't you drink when there are children at home, what if something happens?"

"He can sleep by himself." Li Xingchuan rubbed the base of his nose indifferently.

In order to cultivate Xiaoshu's independence from an early age, the father and son began to sleep in separate rooms as soon as they turned three years old. He can use the small toilet by himself, pour water to drink, and call Dad when he is afraid of thunder.

"Even if there's nothing wrong, if he wakes up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and sees his father drunk unconscious, it's not good." Ling Yi had long felt that there was something wrong with the way Li Xingchuan raised his children, thinking that it would be difficult to meet again in the future, today Wan finally couldn't help pointing it out.

"I heard from Xiaoshu that you often ignore him all day long and just let him play at home. How can this work? He is still so young and doesn't understand anything. You should spend more time and be patient with him, even if you watch together Watching cartoons is also fine." He carefully chose his words and said in a gentle tone, "Xiao Shu has no mother, it is already pitiful enough, you should try your best to be his father."

This is his truth.

"Have you finished speaking?" Li Xingchuan seemed impatient, "Leave after finishing speaking."

Ling Yi tightened her grip on the blanket, "I've finished drawing the picture, if you want to take a look, I'll leave after finishing it."

Li Xingchuan reacted for a while, then stood up slowly, his body still shaking slightly, "Where is it?"

"On the computer in the bedroom."

He started walking towards the bedroom, his feet fluttering.Ling Yi wanted to help him, but he didn't move forward in the end, he just followed silently.

No one turned on the lights along the way.

After entering the bedroom, he motioned Ling Yi to show him the 3D map.Ling Yi sat on the chair in front of him, connected her computer to the monitor, "Wait a minute, my computer is stuck."

As soon as he finished speaking, the smell of alcohol hit the back of his neck.

Li Xingchuan leaned over slightly, supported the back of the chair with one hand, and leaned against the edge of the table with the other, holding Ling Yi half in front of his body, and lowered his head, which had become heavy after drinking, "What broken computer..."

He could tell he was really drunk.

Slightly heavy breathing came from behind the ear, Ling Yi forced himself to calm down, opened the drawing software, and the crisp clicking sound of the mouse was very clear in the silent room.

"Okay." He stabilized his fingertips and fixed his eyes on the screen, "You can watch it."

The person behind him didn't speak, but the ends of his hair were a little closer, almost neck-to-neck.After a while, he pressed his body forward and wrapped his hand holding the mouse with his right hand.

Ling Yi was so pressed by him that her upper body moved forward involuntarily, her chest pressed against the edge of the hardwood table, and she couldn't even move.

Li Xingchuan controlled the mouse without saying a word, flipped through the pictures, and after a long silence, asked in a low voice, "When did you learn it?"

"Learn what?"

"Software, I remember you couldn't before."

For Li Xingchuan, these drawing software are housekeeping skills, but they are unfamiliar to Ling Yi, who used to use brushes and paints.

But a prison is a place where people don't sit around.In order to prevent people serving sentences from committing crimes in the future, prisons with better conditions will organize prisoners to learn some skills.Women learn weaving and beauty, and men naturally learn repairing and computers. After knowing these things, they can always make a living.

Ling Yi studies drawing, both 2D and 3D.

He rolled his throat, and pulled his hand out of Li Xingchuan's palm, "I just learned it recently. Actually, it's not difficult, just follow the online self-study."

"Why don't you draw anymore?"

"Don't paint if you don't want to paint. There are so many reasons." He raised an ugly smile at the corner of his mouth, "Didn't you also say before that I can't paint well, so you should change careers sooner?"

"Did I say that?"

"It's fine if you don't remember."

Li Xingchuan, who was behind him, was silent for a moment, subconsciously pressed even tighter: "I have said so many things, do you remember this one?"

After a long time, I finally spoke at such a close distance again, but unfortunately the content was sharp and things were different.Ling Yi's heart was empty, and all his emotions had nowhere to settle.

Since the reunion, some questions have been lingering in his mind for a long time. If he really doesn't meet again in the future, then if he doesn't ask now, he will never have a chance.

"Xingchuan, when did you get married?" His lips parted slightly, "Why didn't you inform me?"

Or call me dead.

The arm muscles on the shoulders were slightly stiff, and Li Xingchuan asked in a low voice, "What do you think?"

With his personality, if he decides to have a child, he will definitely get married, and he will not be confused and anonymous.Xiaoshu is almost four years old, which means he has been married for at least four years.Ling Yi knew it all in his heart, but he narrowed his eyes and said, "I don't know."

"You don't know?" Li Xingchuan's voice suddenly sullen, "Did you forget everything I said before?"

There were so many words in the past, but Ling Yi knew which sentence he was referring to.How many times have I dreamed back at midnight, and my ears are filled with the conversation between the two on the top of the building.

"Xingchuan, I can live my whole life without getting married or having children, do you believe it?"

"Who knows what will happen in a lifetime."

"You don't believe me? I'm serious Xingchuan, I'm serious! I don't want anyone in this life except you."

"Stop talking crazy."

"Forget it if you don't believe me, anyway, this is what I have in mind. What do you think?"

"What do you think?"

"In the future, I'll ask you in the future. Will you marry someone and have children...you turn your head...you look at me..."

"I don't like children."

The past is vivid in his memory, and now Xingchuan's child is sleeping peacefully next door.Thinking of the past, Ling Yi's heart clenched into a ball, and he managed to stabilize his voice: "It's you who forgot."

In the next second, Li Xingchuan dropped the mouse, lifted him from the chair, and pushed him down on the table, "Who forgot?"

The photo frame behind him fell to the ground, the lamps and speakers were all toppled over, and there was a lot of noise.Ling Yi was so excited that his eyes were red, and he looked at him stubbornly with his hands on the table: "You."

"Say it again," Li Xingchuan leaned forward, bending his whole body backward under the pressure, "Who forgot?"

The voice was as hoarse as sand and gravel.

Ling Yi's back was so painful that he was about to lose consciousness, but his tear-filled eyes still looked at him, and he didn't give in under the pressure.

The two looked at each other, Li Xingchuan's eyes were dim, and his two hands tightly grasped his arm, as if he wanted to crush the bones, "Who forgot?"

After speaking, his eyes turned red like blood.

In such an instant, the strong tower in Ling Yi's heart collapsed, he grabbed his arms with both hands and straightened up with difficulty, desperately raised his head to find his lips, wanting to kiss him.But Li Xingchuan was still a little sober after being drunk, as soon as he approached, he would suddenly push away, not giving him any chance, not even being touched by him.

The two were entangled in front of the table, and it didn't take long before there was a bang, and the monitor on the table fell to the ground, shaking the floor.Ling Yi didn't seem to hear it, and still grabbed Li Xingchuan's sleeve and asked persistently: "Xingchuan, have you forgotten?"

Li Xingchuan turned his head away.

"Xingchuan...you hug me...Xingchuan"

Ling Yi's face was full of tears, and she took out all the courage left in her life at once, stubbornly wanting to hear an answer.

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