Xingchuan

Three years ago, in a border town.

There is still more than a year before he is discharged from the army, and he has survived the most difficult period of recruits. Now Li Xingchuan can use his mobile phone freely, and he is allowed to go out during vacation time, so he no longer needs to be on duty in the army day and night.

However, conscripts only have half a day off every week.During this half-day, some people will go to the supermarket to replenish some daily necessities, some will go to billiard halls, restaurants, and some will meet the most important people.

Li Xingchuan seldom stayed with them. During those days, he always went to the border guards to find local farmers to buy foreign cigarettes.Stuff like pouring cigarettes is very common here, and the border guards will turn a blind eye when they see it, and no one will embarrass a few hard-earned farmers.

That day he borrowed a bicycle from his comrades-in-arms and rode all the way to the border.It was still hot at that time, and he was only wearing a gray-green short-sleeved sleeve, camouflage pants and Martin boots, and his thin and strong back began to sweat slightly after riding for a long time.

Halfway through the ride, the asphalt road turned into a narrow path, the surrounding leaves whirled and the breeze was silent, and the wheels rolled over my own shadow.There are two kilometers of continuous cornfields in the middle. Under the moonlight, the long and narrow coir leaves sway with the wind, really like a sparkling river.

As we approached the border, the cornfields dwindled a bit.Following the wind, he suddenly smelled a familiar, burning smell, and his spirit was in vain.

Someone is burning marijuana.Sweeping across the field, he saw two figures squatting inside surrounded by a cluster of flames, and immediately stopped the car and approached quietly.

Addicts can do nothing else, and their vigilance is always the highest.But when they heard the movement of grass, they stood up suddenly, and when they turned around, they saw a figure flying down from the field stalk, and they rushed like themselves like lightning!

"Don't run!"

Those two people didn't even have time to collect the marijuana leaves, they picked up the fire stalks for smoking marijuana in their hands and threw them at Li Xingchuan.He couldn't dodge in time, and got hit on the waist immediately.The oil on the fire stalk smeared on the pants and ignited immediately. The two fled separately and became more familiar with the route. When chasing after a field, a small piece of the right pocket of his camouflage pants was burned through, and finally he was let go.

Fortunately, the marijuana leaves that the two smoked were still in place, so it was not nothing.After returning to the previous place, he took off his shirt, wrapped the marijuana and tied it to the back seat of the bicycle. Just as he was about to get in the car, he suddenly remembered something important.

He paused suddenly, lowered his head and took out a peace talisman from his burnt pocket.The outline of the whole talisman bag is still there, but the red lining and yellow silk threads have been scorched yellow, and the hanging tassels underneath have turned gray.I had no choice but to open it, and the last piece of the paper that had been flipped through countless times was burned.

It used to say "I don't want you to wake up" on it, but now the word "Wake up" has been destroyed, and only I don't want you.

miss you.

Li Xingchuan frowned and looked at these three words.

He has lived for more than 20 years and has never believed in God, but at this moment, for some reason, he is somewhat resigned to his fate.Maybe it really came to that kind of time, when I had to try to accept the reality.

He suddenly lay down, just sleeping on the empty path, his back was pierced by the stones on the road, after a while, he suddenly started to shout into the night sky, the hoarse and rough voice echoed around the field, as if to Shatter this mountain.He shouted so loudly that even the birds in the trees flew up by him, flapping their wings and fleeing far away.

After venting heartily in such a wilderness for nearly a minute, a person suddenly came behind him, a woman.Before hearing footsteps, Li Xingchuan smelled the perfume on her body first.He got up in a jerk, turned around and entered a state of alert.

The woman approached with the moonlight behind her back, her slender figure was graceful and graceful, her long feet dangling methodically under the miniskirt.After approaching, she covered her mouth and smiled: "I thought someone was yelling here, it turned out to be Brother Bing. Why, I can't find my way home, why are you crying?"

After she finished speaking, she walked closer without fear, and when she saw it clearly, she said, "There is no one here, what kind of hooligan are you?" But while talking and laughing, she still glanced at him with those seductive eyes .

"Stay away from me." Li Xingchuan scolded.

"Tch, do you think I rarely look at you?" The woman turned around gracefully, her skirt swaying in a beautiful arc, her snow-white buttocks looming behind her.

Li Xingchuan ignored her, but when she walked to the side of the bicycle, she suddenly stopped, her tone a little wary: "Are you smoking marijuana?"

"How do you know it's marijuana?"

"It smells so strong, can't I still smell it?"

She was about to lift up her clothes to check, when Li Xingchuan walked over and brushed her right hand away: "Don't touch it, I just paid for it."

"Where did you pay?"

"Someone tapped in the field just now, maybe it was a nearby farmer, and let them run away."

The woman nodded thoughtfully, and then looked at him with a more serious look: "These harmful things should be paid in full."

After such an interruption, Li Xingchuan didn't have the heart to buy cigarettes anymore. He got on the bike and wanted to leave, but she grabbed the back seat, "Take me a ride, Brother Bing, my legs are sore."

It's getting late now, she is a woman, and she doesn't know why she is walking on such a secluded path alone.

Li Xingchuan turned his head and looked at her carefully for the first time.It was only after looking at her that she was wounded, and there were slanted red marks on her arms and calves, as if someone had whipped her.

Without waiting for his answer, she simply rolled up the marijuana-wrapped clothes and hugged them in her arms, and nimbly jumped into the car.Seeing Li Xingchuan frowned, he smiled and made a military salute: "Serve the people!"

The laughter swayed and swayed, blowing everywhere along the wind.

This is how Li Xingchuan and Xiaoshu's mother, Xu Xiaojie, met.The two walked for such a distance together, chatting and found out that they were fellow villagers, both from Linjiang, it seemed like a destiny destined by heaven.After getting acquainted with each other slowly, she revealed what she was doing that day.

A regular customer orders her, and she has to walk several kilometers to serve the customer's home for 100 yuan.But in her words, 100 yuan is a high price there, Li Xingchuan, don't look down on me, someday you order me and I will charge you [-] yuan.

Xiao Jie is indeed much more humorous than Xingchuan.She has been addicted to drugs for nearly a year, has lung cancer for two years, and has been in the flesh and blood business for five or six years, but she can still joke about herself and others at any time.

Li Xingchuan couldn't understand her optimism, because he always felt that when a woman reached such a desperate situation, it seemed that she no longer had the need to live.Later, when he went to her dilapidated and cramped little home, he understood where her optimism came from.

It turned out that she had a child.A very small baby, with a round face, sleeps on all fours in a stroller, except for eating and sleeping.No, I still laugh.Xiaoshu loves to laugh since he was born, and he loves to laugh even more when he sees Li Xingchuan. The saliva is foaming and dripping from the corner of his mouth, but he still laughs.

"I was diagnosed with cancer when I was pregnant with him. After giving birth, there was no money for treatment. The pain was so unbearable that my girlfriend always gave me injections. I don't care. Anyway, I can live a good life for a year or two. I can earn a little more. A little." Xu Xiaojie said while flicking her tongue at the child, "Smile, smile."

Li Xingchuan, the black-faced god, occasionally teases Xiaoshu.He stretched out his fingers, and the little tree would gently hold it in his mouth. He leaned his face over, and the little tree would push up with his feet, really pushing his nose to his face.

After that, Xingchuan was with Xiaojie almost every time he went out.Xingchuan wanted to smoke, Xiaojie accompanied her, Xiaojie wanted to get an injection, Xingchuan was responsible for tying her up.They don't often talk about their concerns, they only like to talk about the customs of Linjiang.

The moonlight shines, all are hometowns.They were homesick together.

Once Xiao Jie became addicted to drugs, Xingchuan held her in his arms, she shook so that the whole bed was shaking, her body was hot and cold.Slowly calming down after a long time, she was lying in Xingchuan's arms dripping with sweat, chatting with him in a very shallow voice: "You like children so much, why don't you want one yourself, soldiers are not allowed to get married?"

The lights were turned off in the room, and there was no one there. Xiaoshu's father didn't know how many times he had entered the drug rehabilitation center.

"I will never have children in this life." Li Xingchuan told her his secret.

While shivering from the cold, she laughed loudly: "I've never seen anyone stupider than you. They're joking, but you take it seriously. Haven't you heard a story about a couple who made an appointment to jump off a building and die in love together?" , the result is that one jumps forward and the other jumps backward?"

Xingchuan said: "Maybe the other one is just afraid of heights."

Xiao Jie laughed so hard that she shed tears: "Xing Chuan, I know where we went wrong, we took the wrong name. My name is Xiao Jie, but I happen to be the dirtiest one. You called Xing Chuan, but you have never been sober , so ironic."

Xingchuan told her what he said to Ling Yi: "The one who is willing to degenerate is the filthiest."

When Xiao Jie heard it, her face was full of sadness: "You are right, I am willing to degenerate."

It turns out that some things can be said in front of one person but cannot be said in front of another, only then did Xingchuan understand.

"Do you know why that Ling Yi repented? Xingchuan, because you can't speak, you are the dumbest person I've ever met." Xiao Jie looked up at him with hurt eyes.He also looked at Xiao Jie, of course he was regretful, but at the same time he felt even more desolate.He said, "You're right."

"I haven't finished my sentence." Xiao Jie wept silently, grabbing his neckline with both hands in vain, "You are also the most trustworthy person I have ever seen. Xingchuan, I beg you for one thing, you promise me, I'll give you a present."

"You said."

"After I die, you will be Xiaoshu's father and train him to be useful to society. Don't be like me. I'm the dregs of society. Anyone who sees me can spit on me."

Xingchuan said, "It doesn't include me."

"I know it doesn't include you, I just want to provoke you with words." Xiao Jie cried and laughed, "I just like to see you anxious."

They are absolute confidants, the purest friendship, but it is a pity that the good things in the world are not firm, and the colorful clouds are easy to disperse and the glass is brittle.

"Do you promise me?"

"Live well and take care of the little tree by yourself."

"You refuse to agree?"

"I have an appointment with Ling Yi."

Come first, come first, Xingchuan cannot let Ling Yi down.

Xiao Jie loosened her hands and almost fell off the bed, lying on the pillow and weeping bitterly.She vented all her life's grievances that night. She told Li Xingchuan that she would not have fallen so hopelessly. The finger was amputated, and their family had no way to ask for help, and their mother was deaf-mute.She was forced to go out to sell, and finally followed her boyfriend to the border. The family only regarded her as dead.

She also took out a photo and said, "Look, I didn't lie to you. I used to be prettier than now. There were boys in junior high who had a crush on me. There are so many men around me, but you are the only one who is not attracted to me."

Li Xingchuan put away the photos and told her to get a good night's sleep. There are revenges that she doesn't need to avenge.

A week later, Xiao Jie delivered the gift to him, which was the time and place for the next transaction of a group of people who were selling, raising, and sucking.Because the informant only listened to him, the special police made an exception and asked Li Xingchuan to accompany him with a gun.During the fierce battle, Xiaojie knew that Xingchuan was wearing a bulletproof vest, but she stubbornly blocked a shot for him.

"You see how bad I am, I like to see you anxious..." Xiao Jie lay in Li Xingchuan's arms for the last time, still teasing him.

She stretched out her blood-stained hand, and Li Xingchuan clenched it tightly.

"Xingchuan..." Xiao Jie swallowed with a smile, "You owe me your life."

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