Reborn Yanqin

The study room is in cold colors, no matter what the item is, it looks cold without any warmth.Lin Zhengqin moved the Newton's pendulum on the table casually, as if he wanted to add a rhythm to the room.

There was a clattering sound of steel balls colliding, and Jing Yan set his eyes on Newton's pendulum, not knowing what to say for a while.

"If you don't have anything to say, please do what you want." Lin Zhengqin reached out to grab a book on the table.

Jing Yan bit his lower lip, he had a hunch that if he walked out at this time, the relationship between the two would be irretrievable.

"I... I mean, in my opinion, you are no different from normal people."

"There is no difference? A normal person will sit in a wheelchair all day long like me?" Lin Zhengqin didn't even lift his eyelids, "Do you really think there is no difference? If a normal person stood there last night, you would have nothing to do. He takes the blanket?"

"Yes!" Jing Yan said loudly, "It's just because you are sitting, so I took a blanket. If it were someone else, I would take a coat or something else. But this difference is not because you are not a normal person, It's because of objective conditions. Of course, it's not out of sympathy."

Slap.Newton's pendulum made a final sound and stopped in place.

Jing Yan took a few steps forward and walked in front of Lin Zhengqin. Just as he was about to speak, the other party took the lead and said: "In this situation where you have to raise your head when you speak and it's inconvenient to do anything, how can you make me believe in myself?" A normal person? Not that I want to think so, but that's how it is."

Jing Yan squatted down, made his gaze level with him, and said seriously: "Could it be that this way you will feel more comfortable? I think the difference between the so-called 'normal' and 'abnormal' is not due to physiological The difference is physical, but mental, I don’t think you are a mental patient?”

"It is undeniable that you do have a physical defect, but please don't confuse it with a psychological defect." Jing Yan spoke slowly, carefully considering every word, "Even if you are more than Considering those who are in good health, you are too good, why do you think that those who are not as good as you will sympathize with you?"

"Look more clearly... We don't have sympathy in our eyes." Jing Yan smiled, and there was too much self-deprecation in that smile, "If you insist on grasping your bad side and magnifying it infinitely, It is really painful to speculate on other people's thoughts with such a mentality. Even a person like me...you can see my strengths and tell me that I am actually a very good person. So, why not put that gaze on yourself?"

Lin Zhengqin's fingers resting on the wheelchair trembled, and the other hand that was reaching out to the book also stopped moving, and retracted to the side, his gaze was cast on the ground, avoiding meeting Jing Yan's gaze.

Jing Yan looked at him expectantly, but he didn't respond for a long time, and finally Jing Yan continued with a little disappointment: "According to your thinking, people like me should have been hiding all day long and not seeing people. , you are the only one who, in my opinion, is better than me in every aspect—whether it’s in the game or in reality.”

"Since you, the confidence I have built up in the game has collapsed. At that time, I was thinking, if I lose even the advantage of the game, what am I going to be proud of?" Jing Yan didn't know where it came from. Without the courage, he stretched out his hand directly, and gently pressed his warm palm against the side of Lin Zhengqin's face, "You are clearly—a person of that class that I will never be able to touch in my whole life."

His fingers just stopped next to the other's ear, trembling slightly due to the agitation of blood.The vibration that hit the ear directly reached Lin Zhengqin's ears very keenly, like thunder.

"I'm really angry, you have such a mentality." Jing Yan continued, "After I admit that I am inferior to you in all aspects, you still put yourself in a very low position, thinking that everyone Come to see you with sympathy. Do you really think that anyone can find a reason to sympathize with you? Legs? But you lost your legs and still do better than them, I think before the emotion of 'sympathy', Have you already died of low self-esteem? You are putting me in a lower position in disguise, which I cannot accept."

Lin Zhengqin's Adam's apple trembled, his lips moved slightly, as if he wanted to say something, and finally he raised his hand and squeezed Jing Yan's wrist: "I don't intend to belittle you."

"Then don't belittle yourself." Jing Yan felt his heartbeat suddenly quicken, and the heart was throbbing violently in his chest, as if there was something he couldn't find his way out—"Even a person like me, you can kill me." Affirm, then, just affirm yourself once. Or, the affirmation of me all this time is just you lying?"

The lowered eyelids moved, and Lin Zhengqin pulled Jing Yan's hand down and put it on his knee.After a long time, the voice returned to Jing Yan's familiar low and soft voice: "I always thought that I could see things well, but everyone, including myself, was deceived by me."

"About your evaluation, I'm not lying. I'm telling the truth. I think you are a rough stone, and a rough stone that can bloom without too much polishing." Lin Zhengqin looked at Jing Yan, with too much Jing Yan in his eyes. Yan couldn't understand something, "When I saw you, I really wanted to help you, just like I wanted to dig out a gem from a mountain made of gems."

"The way you looked before was the same as when I woke up from the car accident." Lin Zhengqin's smile gradually turned bitter, "So I was full of confidence to help you. Now that I think about it, the mentality at that time was only because of me. I haven't recovered from that slumped state at all, I just want to give myself a little hope—"

"If you can dig me out, it means that you also have the hope of being dug out, right?" Jing Yan said, "But now I am already trying to break through that barrier, but you have sunk yourself into a deeper place gone."

Lin Zhengqin opened his mouth slightly, looked at Jing Yan and nodded in a daze, tightened his fingers, and held Jing Yan's tightly, like a climber who is climbing up the last rock on the top of a cliff.

Jing Yan didn't avoid his gaze, hoping that he could at least give him some support, and said softly: "People who really stand above the sky will not fall down because of anything."

This sentence has been verified a lot after his rebirth. Even though the trajectory of history has been changed a lot by him, those who should become masters will not be buried.Even if it is fragmented, Jing Yan believes that he will have an achievement not inferior to his previous life.

He didn't say the following words, he knew that Lin Zhengqin knew what he wanted to say very well, that sentence was "and you have always been above the sky, you don't need anyone's sympathy, and no one can find a reason to sympathize with you".

Lin Zhengqin didn't speak, but looked at Jing Yan's hand. Both the index finger and the middle finger had thick calluses, and they weren't particularly strong. It was a very ordinary student's hand.But in his opinion at this moment, it is more powerful and direct than any other facts.

The morning sunlight was not too strong, but it quietly penetrated through the heavy curtains. Even if there was only a little bit of twilight left, it still projected the light firmly and persistently.

The light in the room was dim, and Lin Zhengqin didn't turn on the light when he came in. Jing Yan just looked at him like this, his face was cast with a layer of shadow, but his eyes were bright.

I don't know how long it has passed, so long that even Jing Yan has no sense of time, and his half-squatting legs are a little numb, but Jing Yan didn't stand up, and didn't move his hands, just stayed in place so quietly.It was still silent, just like when he just walked into this study, but the atmosphere was different, at least the person in front of him had become the same as he had always known.

Suddenly there was warmth on the back of his hand, Jing Yan was surprised, but saw the person in front of him lowered his head, preventing himself from seeing his face.From Jing Yan's perspective, he could only see the tear stains on half of his face - just like what can be seen under the mask in the game.

The corners of his mouth drooped hard, as if he was clenching his teeth to prevent himself from making a sound. At the same time, he was constantly trembling. Transparent tears rolled down his cheeks, and finally broke away from his chin, falling drop by drop on the ground. On the back of Jing Yan's hand.

The tears were like magma, hitting Jing Yan's heart hotly, not only bringing blazing emotions, but also a great heaviness.He couldn't help stretching out his other hand, trying to touch the other's cheek, and gently touched the corner of his eyes with his index finger, but it didn't help to stop the tears.

Jing Yan withdrew her wet fingertips and held them tightly in her palm.

He recalled the scene when he regarded the opponent as the King of Holy Light in the game. His tall and straight figure was covered by armor, and his attitude and aura were far more mature than his own.He also remembered Lin Zhengqin's elegant demeanor and handling skills, as well as his calmness and confidence when he saw Lin Zhengqin for the first time in reality.All these gradually coincided with the person in the wheelchair in front of him. Without seeing it with his own eyes, Jing Yan could imagine Lin Zhengqin's grace and ease when talking with others.

Let such a person cry, I seem to have done something very wrong.

But Jing Yan didn't regret it, just based on the attitudes of the Lin family's parents and Lin Rongjing, one could guess their mentality, and people with this kind of mentality would not be able to break through this barrier.

"Before, you used your way to build my confidence to climb to a higher level. Now, let me use my way to let you get out of all this."

Lin Zhengqin raised his head, even though his eyes were still red, even though he couldn't make himself stop crying, Jing Yan had already let go of his heart.

"I have to go back. As for bringing the helmet... It's too much trouble for you, so forget it... It's just that Wei Ze is here waiting for his girlfriend to wake up, so don't scare him." Jing Yan put Said softly.

Talking about making trouble is definitely an excuse, he just couldn't figure out how to face Lin Zhengqin.

After speaking, Jing Yan got up, rubbed his numb legs, gently pulled his hands back, and walked out of the study on the heavy carpet.