Re-walk the road of life

Fengyun Guose Hotel, "To Youth" room.

Han Modong came out of the bathroom shirtless, holding a wet towel in his hand, the muscles on his arms looked very toned. "Let me carry you to wash?"

Ma Haoran was lying on the pillow with his upper body bare, and the gold-rimmed glasses were placed on the bedside table. He tore off the thin quilt that only covered one leg, and said weakly, "Go in a while."

Han Modong paused for a moment, walked up to him and sat down, "I'm sorry, today is a little bit insignificant."

He opened Ma Haoran's buttocks, and gently wiped the red and swollen area with a wet towel.

"Well, no need..." Ma Haoran looked back at him with vacant eyes, wanting to wave his hand away.

"Cover it with a wet towel, it will be more comfortable." Han Modong insisted on putting the towel between his buttocks.

Ma Haoran hissed, half raised his body, a little wronged, "Take it away! Cool!"

When he wore glasses, he looked like a schoolmaster with sharp eyes, but when he took off the glasses, he looked at least seven or eight years younger. A 29-year-old man, who feels like he is only in his early twenties, is actually a little cute.

He snatched the wet towel angrily and threw it on the floor. Han Modong looked at him silently for a moment, then suddenly pressed up to hug him and kissed him.

"Hmm..." Ma Haoran groaned softly, turned over, faced up, and hugged Han Modong back.

"Today... don't you want to go home?" Han Modong kissed him, pressed his forehead against him, and asked softly.

Ma Haoran was silent, and sneered for a while, "My girlfriend will check the post."

Han Modong stopped talking, stared at him, and suddenly seemed to lose his temper, and forcefully opened Ma Haoran's thigh...

This time it was even worse than the previous one, and he didn't even take the proper protective measures.

After Ma Haoran finished having a good time, he gasped, sneered and said, "You... bastard, who knows if you're fooling around with other people in the capital? Don't pass the aids to me... Hmph."

"I'm not as unfeeling as someone else. I've never been fooling around. If you want aids, you have them. Pass them on to me. Let's die together." Han Modong looked at his steamy cheeks and tears in his eyes, feeling a little regretful .

Every time I was half-dead by this anger, I always couldn't make sense of it.He was crying so hard just now, I'm afraid he was injured again in the back.

"Why do I have to die? I have only been promoted to the deputy director level for a year, and I don't know how great the future is. In this life, I have to be a provincial and ministerial-level official. With luck, the national level is not impossible." Ma Haoran snorted softly and spread his hands Lying down with legs spread out, I have no energy to toss about.

"...Official career, is that important to you?" Han Modong leaned on him with his whole body, supported his body on his elbows, and looked down at him.

Ma Haoran glanced at him, "...Everyone's pursuit is different, don't judge me by your benchmark."

Han Modong looked at this cruel man with hatred, and suddenly asked: "Today, you have no idea at the party of Yun Feiyang and Gui Haifengxing's third wedding anniversary?"

Ma Haoran asked with a smile: "What do you think?"

Han Mo said without blocking his mouth, "Aren't you envious? Are you not jealous? Are you not uncomfortable?"

Ma Haoran sneered, "If you want to envy and hate, that's your business. I know you have liked Yun Feiyang for many years. But don't let Fengxing know, he will regard you as an enemy."

Han Modong really wanted to strangle him to death, "Don't be so popular, is it meaningful to be so affectionate? He won't look at you too much."

Ma Haoran was not happy anymore, squinted his eyes and stared at him, and said word by word: "Han, Mo, Dong! Pay attention to what you say! You can see clearly! Which bed am I lying on now?"

Han Modong looked at him helplessly, and kissed him tenderly.

For a long time, Han Modong said a little lonely: "You followed me, but I always feel that you are reluctant." He laughed at himself and said: "No, Ma Haoran, it's not that you followed me, but that I have been following me all the time." Chasing after your ass. Who knows what's on your mind?"

Ma Haoran was completely angry, "Han Modong, if you continue to speak in such a sly way, get the hell out of the capital! No one is here to listen to your bastard talk!"

Han Modong held his face, pressed his thumbs against his lips, "...Have you ever thought about staying with me for the rest of your life? Just like Yun Feiyang and Guihai Fengxing?"

Ma Haoran didn't think about it for a second, and said directly: "No."

Han Modong's heart was cold, he withdrew his hand, turned over and lay on the side, resting his head on his hand, and stopped talking.

Ma Haoran was physically and mentally exhausted, lay down for a while, and kicked him, "...Get up, I'm going to take a shower."

Han Modong pursed his lips, didn't say a word, got up, hugged him with his hands in his pockets, and walked to the bathroom.

Even though he was angry, he still moved extremely carefully. He put Ma Haoran in the shower, put his arms around his waist, and gently scrubbed him.

Ma Haoran may also feel that what he just said was too heartless, so he leaned on him obediently, with his chin resting on his shoulder.

After taking a shower, Han Modong carried him back to the bedroom and put him on the bed.

Ma Haoran got up and started to put on his clothes.

"You really want to go back?" Han Modong was surprised, "It's already two o'clock!"

Time is not the point, the point is, the two times just now were more impulsive, at this time Ma Haoran's legs are weak, how can he go home now?

Ma Haoran put on his pants expressionlessly, stood up with difficulty, put them on his waist, and zipped them up, "I'm going to Jinlin District to check work tomorrow morning. Too late."

"You..." Han Modong didn't know what to say anymore.

Ma Haoran also knew that he had better not speak, so as not to piss off the man again, he couldn't stand another round of "punishment" tonight.After he got all dressed, he picked up the glasses and bag on the bedside table, hesitated for a moment, and looked down at Han Modong. The tall man was sitting there wrapped in a towel, with a dejected expression on his face.

He put his hand on Han Modong's strong shoulder, bent down, and kissed the man's wet head.Wanting to say something, he opened his mouth and closed it again.

"I am leaving."

He walked slowly to the door, and when he turned the handle, he said, "I will probably get married in the second half of the year. After tomorrow, let's not meet again."

Han Modong suddenly raised his head and stared at him in disbelief.

Ma Haoran didn't look back, opened the door and walked out.

Han Modong was frozen into a stone by the words just now, and sat there without speaking for a long time.When he reacted, he cursed harshly, "Damn it, Ma Haoran! You have guts!"

It's kind of...

The corners of Han Modong's eyes gradually became moist.

This man is really cruel.Not to mention himself, even Guihai Fengxing might not be able to stop him from pursuing his career upwards.

How could you fall in love with such a man?

Han Modong leaned against the head of the bed, staring at the ceiling, lost in thought.

Back then, they met in the ktv corridor, and they went to parties with their high school classmates.At that time, he had a slight affection for Yun Feiyang, and found that Yun Feiyang hadn't returned to the private room for a long time, so he couldn't help but go out to find him.

Then I saw the stunning boy Yun Feiyang and the handsome boy Gui Haifengxing chatting in the corridor, seeming to be intimate.At that time, his heart sank, knowing that the secret love was stillborn.

And then, he saw Guihai Fengxing's good friend, that proud young man with gold rim glasses, he didn't expect to be in the same university or the same class as him.

In the dormitory of Qingda University in Beijing, he and Ma Haoran were just a little better than strangers, but they couldn't be called friends.Occasionally, we will go home together during winter and summer vacations, and we will discuss with each other when we have something to do.

This indifferent relationship didn't change until Ma Haoran received a call from Guihai Fengxing in his junior year...

Ma Haoran didn't tell Han Modong about that incident in detail, but Han Modong knew a little bit about it.Probably, Ma Haoran used to speculate in stocks with Guihai Fengxing, and then just entered university, Guihai Fengxing liquidated his position, saying that he wanted to start another business, so Ma Haoran lent him his own money, anyway, it was out of friendship The most important thing is not to rush the other party to return it, and I also want to form a joint venture with Guihai Fengxing.

Unexpectedly, two years later, Guihai Fengxing returned all the money to Ma Haoran at the interest of usury, including principal and interest.The attitude of drawing a clear line is very obvious, and Ma Haoran is a little unhappy.

So, that day, he found Han Modong and wanted to drink with him.

"I know...he doesn't want to have a joint venture with me because...he is a joint venture with Yun Feiyang...he doesn't want to have any special relationship with me..." Ma Haoran took a sip from the wine bottle.On the surface he seemed calm and self-possessed, but in fact he was already drunk.

This person, even when drunk, is in a cold state.

When Han Modong thought of this incident in the future, he always felt very strange.He obviously felt uncomfortable when he heard those words and heard that Yun Feiyang had a special relationship with Guihai Fengxing, but he was still distracted to observe Ma Haoran's state?

Maybe it was at that time that Ma Haoran began to pay special attention.

The two of them were drunk on the school playground that day, supported each other, and stumbled back to the dormitory, which shocked several people in the same dormitory.It goes without saying that Han Modong has a good personality and popularity, but Ma Haoran, who has always been a top student and has a cold temperament, has a moment to drink away his worries?It's rare.

Han Modong was a little better at drinking, so he helped Ma Haoran to the bed, let him lie down, and helped him take off his glasses.

Immediately, a much more delicate and weaker appearance of this person appeared in front of his eyes.

For a moment, Han Modong's heart skipped a beat.

At this moment, Ma Haoran opened his eyes, facing him with defocused eyes, narrowed his eyes and smiled, "...Thank you."

——Maybe, at that time, he fell into the enemy without knowing it.

After that, during the remaining two years of college, the relationship between the two became much closer.Ma Haoran put the recovered money into the stock market as if to vent his anger, but unfortunately he was caught accidentally.Han Modong became interested in the Internet, and started to start a business with a few friends from the computer department.

The first time between the two was actually initiated by Ma Haoran.

In Lin City, the winter vacation of senior year.

That year, the Yangyun Garden project of Qianxing Zhenzheng Real Estate, hosted by Guihai Fengxing, achieved a great success. Ma Haoran and other high school friends celebrated his success with Guihai Fengxing.

On the second day of their party, Ma Haoran suddenly ran to Han Modong's house to play.At that time, there was no one in Han Modong's house. Just after the new year, he gave Ma Haoran sunflower seeds candy and macadamia nuts to eat. Now, do you have anything to eat at home?"

Han Modong was a little inexplicably embarrassed, so he went to cook some glutinous rice balls for Ma Haoran.

Ma Haoran followed him to the kitchen, and when he turned his back to put the glutinous rice balls in the pot, he suddenly stood behind him and put his arms around his waist.

Han Modong froze in an instant, turned around, and saw Ma Haoran take off his glasses, "If I don't wear glasses, don't I look so indifferent?"

He reached out, pressed Han Modong's head down, and kissed his lips.

After kissing for a few seconds, he said softly, "It feels good."

If Han Modong didn't do something, he wouldn't be a man.

The glutinous rice balls that day were not eaten, and they fell into the pot during the passionate kiss between the two.Han Modong turned to turn off the fire, and couldn't wait to return to his bedroom with his arms around Ma Haoran.

Ma Haoran took out a bottle of lubricating oil and a box of condoms, frowned and asked in confusion: "I bought three packs, I wonder if it's enough?"

"You..." Han Modong was completely speechless, and pulled him over and put him on the bed.

After the kiss was over, Ma Haoran explained pantingly, "It's not because I'm afraid that you'll use too much, but because I'm afraid that you'll waste it. I heard that when the stimulation is great, it's easy to be early, what... um..."

"Kiss still can't stop your mouth?!" Han Modong was annoyed, "What is that early! I won't!"

But it turns out that three is enough.It was really a waste of two to make it once, and it was broken that time...

……

After so many years, there is a question that Han Modong always wondered, did Ma Haoran regard himself as a substitute for Guihai Fengxing?

And I...do I regard Ma Haoran as Yun Feiyang's substitute?

In fact, this answer is taboo between the two of them, and when it is mentioned, they will quarrel, intertwined with unwillingness and anger.

He thought he was not like Guihai Fengxing.That man was handsome, wealthy and persistent, obviously he was the one who knew Yun Feiyang first, but he chased him after him.

He felt that Ma Haoran was not like Yun Feiyang either.Yun Feiyang's handsomeness is the only one he has ever seen in his life. He is no less handsome than an entertainment star, and his temperament is softer; but Ma Haoran is cold, arrogant, even cruel and cruel.

The last point, he only realized when he graduated.

In the second semester of his senior year, he and Ma Haoran sneaked around and almost made out in the most famous area of ​​Qingda campus.In the large classroom where there was no one in the middle of the night, in the grove beside the sidewalk, Ma Haoran's panting sounded in my ears.

Han Modong once said jokingly: "When you put on glasses, you are an abstinence type, but if you take off your glasses, you are an indulgence type."

Ma Haoran's response was an unbearable groan.

Han Modong tentatively mentioned to Ma Haoran that the two of them would stay in the capital to start a business together after graduation, and with their education and excellent grades from Qingda University, they would surely have a bright future.

Ma Haoran always smiled slightly, noncommittal.

Han Modong thought he agreed.

Unexpectedly, he only found out when he graduated that Ma Haoran had returned to Qian Province after taking the civil service exam. This person never thought of being with Han Modong for a long time.The indulgence in the last semester of senior year is more like a youth sacrifice before entering the society.

Han Modong really hated this man.If he had told himself earlier that it was just a game and a joke, why did he have the idea of ​​staying away from home and staying with him in the capital?

After they separated and stayed in the capital for a year, Han Modong planned to try to socialize with people in this circle.He has entered the gay circle and it is difficult to turn back.

However, Ma Haoran came to the capital from time to time, intentionally or unintentionally finding all kinds of excuses to stay in his rented house in the capital, arousing his desire, and doing certain things they were used to.

Han Modong felt that Ma Haoran did it on purpose.This guy doesn't want to be with him, and he doesn't want to let him have a good time.He even felt that Ma Haoran would let himself be so concerned about him for the rest of his life, that he would never live beyond his lifetime.

Hehe, getting married... This bastard is actually going to get married...

Han Modong fell on the pillow in a daze and closed his eyes.

He hugged the pillow tightly, but encountered a small hard box inside the quilt.

When I took it out and looked at it, my eyes suddenly flickered.

It's a ring box.

——Is that what he meant?

——Ma Haoran said just now that he was going to get married and that he would never meet again, was he joking?

Han Modong took a deep breath and opened the ring box.

There was indeed a bright men's ring inside, but at the same time, there was also a thin sticky note.

【Thank you for your company for so many years. 】

Han Modong held the thin sticky note with two fingers, "Hehehe... Hahahahaha... You can do it, Ma Haoran, you can do it..."

Han Modong never wanted to talk to Ma Haoran again, and he didn't want to ask why.He knew that Ma Haoran was very ambitious, and he was definitely not bragging when he said that he wanted to be a "provincial and ministerial level official".There are not many deputy directors at a young age in the whole country.

How could such a person cause a homosexual scandal.

He certainly wouldn't lie to himself about his marriage.

Sure enough, half a year later, Han Modong received a call from Yun Feiyang, saying that Ma Haoran was married, and asked him if he would return to Lincheng.

Han Modong was flirting with his new acquaintance in the bar, and replied with a smile: "I don't know him very well, forget it. Yishi Literature.com is about to publish, and it's busy here. Otherwise , Feiyang, give me a gift, and then I will send the money to your account to pay you back."

"Ok."

After hanging up the phone, Han Modong kissed Xiao Shou on the face, "My ex-boyfriend is getting married next week. This bastard, he was the one who seduced me on his own initiative, but ended up getting married by himself. Tell me, it's not a thing !"

Xiao Shou laughed so hard, "Okay, Brother Han, I'll be with you tonight, okay, don't be angry."

Han Modong laughed out loud.

——The story is about to end here.

……

Seven years later, Han Modong heard that a group of high-ranking officials in Qian Province had been dismissed.This year, because of the crackdown and anti-corruption, many local high-ranking officials have been investigated, and news will break out every once in a while.

Han Modong didn't take it seriously, just casually looked at the online news, looked at the names, photos and deeds of those high-ranking officials, and then forgot about it.

Instead, he paid more attention to another matter.

Guihai Fengxing completely broke away from Guihai's Zhenzheng Real Estate Group, and established Xingfei Real Estate and Fengyang Investment Management Co., Ltd., which caused an uproar in Guihai's family.

After all, this man is not a pawn that can be controlled.If Gui Hai's family treated him sincerely, he would not resolutely leave like this.Yun Feiyang and him should be happier and more carefree.

Han Modong himself has established a solid position in the capital. The Yishi Literature Network has evolved into two sections: Yishi Literature and Yishi Games. It has even acquired a number of literature websites under its umbrella, and is committed to the development of mobile phone reading. The development prospects of the entire Yishi Group are even brighter. good.

He is not married yet, nor does he have a regular partner.But I usually pay attention to health and maintenance. If I want to associate with new people, I will ask them to check their bodies and insist on safe sex-behavior.But he still couldn't maintain a long-term relationship with anyone.

One night, two months after the high-ranking official in Qian Province was sacked, Han Modong saw a person who was absolutely impossible to appear at the courtyard gate of his townhouse.

Under the street lamp, Ma Haoran sat on a large black suitcase with bent legs, took off his glasses, rubbed his eyes, and said unhappily, "Why did you come back so late, you're so cold."

Han Modong stood at the entrance of the path, laughing and laughing.

"What are you doing here?"

Ma Haoran didn't put on the glasses, but played with the gold-rimmed glasses in his hands, looked at him, and said casually: "I was fired from public office, so I came to see you, if there is any possibility of taking me in."

Fired from office!

Han Modong's heart skipped a beat, as if rushing off a roller coaster, he was a little breathless.He understood that the sacking of a senior official two months ago had affected Ma Haoran.

How can this man, who puts his career first, say that so easily?

Ma Haoran stood up, walked in front of him, put his arms around his waist without asking anything, put it on his windbreaker, put his chin on his shoulder and sniffed, "It smells so bad of smoke and wine, Did you go to the bar just now? ... Well, you're right not driving."

...How could he approach him so naturally after breaking up so resolutely back then?

Han Modong couldn't figure it out.

He estimated that he would not be able to understand what Ma Haoran was thinking in his whole life.

His hands drooped naturally, and he didn't hug Ma Haoran back. He frowned and looked down at this fair man who had lost a lot of weight.

Ma Haoran looked at him for a few seconds, then raised his head to kiss his lips.

Han Modong turned his head, pushed him away, and walked to the gate of his courtyard.

Ma Haoran stood behind, just looking at him, without moving.

Han Modong pressed the password, opened the door, and walked in.

After a while, he turned around and asked:

"What are you still doing there?"

Ma Haoran blinked, an uncontrollable smile appeared on his face, and with a "ah", he dragged his suitcase and walked into the room.

While walking, she said: "I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore. When you pushed me away, I really thought I lost the bet....Fortunately, I know you better."

Looking at that damned, determined, treacherous smile on his face, Han Modong regretted it to death.I really wanted to grab his neck and shake him.He assigned Ma Haoran a second bedroom guest room.

Just when he thought Ma Haoran would object, the fellow smiled and nodded in agreement.

Just when he thought that Ma Haoran would come to his room to attack him at night (this was often done before), the guy slept soundly all night.

Just when he was sleepless all night and fell asleep at dawn, the guy actually pushed open the door and ran over to share a bed with him openly.

A vicious and dignified "punishment" is inevitable.

After finishing, Ma Haoran smacked his lips and commented pantingly, "You are faster than before."

Han Modong immediately turned dark.

Ma Haoran then added, "It's not very fast, just a few minutes."

Han Modong couldn't help but venomously said, "Your body is not as soft as before, you sit in an office?"

Ma Haoran turned his back to him, and took his mobile phone from the bedside table to browse the webpage.

Han Modong: "What are you doing?"

Ma Haoran squinted his eyes and looked at the phone screen, "I'll check to see if there are any men's yoga classes in Beijing."

Han Modong: "..."

……

What happened before was like this: when Ma Haoran went up and chose the object of allegiance, he chose the wrong person.Therefore, the top fell, and he was also dismissed from his post due to various affairs.

At the critical moment, it was Guihai Fengxing and Yun Feiyang's efforts that prevented him from suffering a worse result.Of course, expulsion from public office and removal from the civil service ranks are not considered a happy ending.

"I don't know what the reason is. It turns out that I was just the last choice." After Han Modong heard the whole story, his voice was neither sad nor happy, neither hot nor cold.

Ma Haoran didn't explain.

Han Modong himself was suspicious.

Ma Haoran has been smart since he was a child, how could he not see the tricks above?How could he not be able to judge which person will go the longest and which person will fall?

Ma Haoran smiled, "The form changes rapidly, who knows?"

Han Modong didn't believe it.

Could it be that Ma Haoran deliberately followed a boss who would fall...?

After he was dismissed from public office, his wife quickly divorced him within a month and got married again. The two were married for seven years and had no children.

And his parents, because he discredited the Ma family, threatened to sever ties with him.

Guihai Fengxing originally asked him to work in Xingfei Real Estate, but Ma Haoran refused, and asked for Han Modong's address in the capital from Yunfeiyang, and came here alone with a suitcase.

How could he be confident that Han Modong would take him in?

... For many nights later, Han Modong embraced the sleeping Ma Haoran, feeling pity and hatred.

This person is ruthless to others and even more ruthless to himself.

Was he taking a big gamble from the start?

On the night when he came to Beijing, he wanted to kiss Han Modong but Han Modong pushed him away. When he stood behind and watched Han Modong enter the room, did he think that he lost the bet?

So he didn't dare to say anything, and stood behind silently watching.

He didn't laugh until Han Modong asked that sentence.

When Han Modong turned his back to him that day, what kind of expression...was on his face?

Han Modong didn't want to think about anything anymore.

……

After Ma Haoran stayed, he found a ring box in Han Modong's closet, and smiled happily: "That's great."

Han Modong glanced, "It's still there? I thought I lost it."

"Fortunately, you kept it." Ma Haoran took it out, "All my property has been confiscated, and I can't afford such a ring now, otherwise I don't know what to do when I propose....Come, come, stretch out your hand."

Han Modong stretched out his hand as he said.

The ring was a little tight, Ma Haoran frowned inexplicably, then stretched his brows, looked up and down the tall man, nodded, "...you are getting fatter."

Han Modong gritted his teeth.

Ma Haoran asked: "Will you..."

Han Modong shouted: "Stop! Where's that piece of paper?"

Ma Haoran tilted his head, "What paper? I didn't see it?"

"The paper in the ring box!" Han Modong picked up the box and checked it carefully, but the paper was gone, "Don't even think about just uncovering this article! What is Tianya Molu? There will be no future? I will never see you again! Since you wrote Why do you still come to me after buying this kind of thing! ——If you don’t explain it clearly to me today, don’t think I said ‘ido’!”

Ma Haoran took his arm, "Okay, it's been so many years, some things are better to be confused than to be sober. Let me ask you, do you want to find that note, or do you want to hear me say 'I love you'? "

"...What?" Han Modong was startled.

Ma Haoran smiled, "Mr. Han Modong, are you willing to stay with Mr. Ma Haoran and depend on each other for life and death?"

Han Modong: "...Didn't you want to say 'I love you'?"

Ma Haoran: "It's all the same, it's all the same."

Han Mo Dongmo.

He didn't understand, and he didn't want to understand again, why Ma Haoran made such a fuss.

"Okay, I do."