Rebirth one way to the north

I'm a piece of shit.

Sitting in Xiawan's car, Mo Bei commented on himself like this.

Just looking at him made me faint from fright!Or at someone else's wedding!Is there anything more humiliating than this?waste!

When he woke up, he still rolled and crawled to escape, and shrank into a ball, just like a little kid who was scared stupid by the big bad wolf!waste!waste!

For more than six years, it was broken, rebuilt, and then broken and rebuilt again, and he was pinched and fiddled with in the palm of his hand like a humble ant. The process of reincarnation is like rebirth after death, life and death again.But even in such a painful process, didn't I survive it?After getting out of that person's grasp, it took five years to glue a fragmented self back together.After being reborn, it took more than seven years to learn to be a normal person, and even... even began to look forward to having a sincere and warm love...began to naively believe that I can be happy in this life...

What is the power to make that person appear in front of him again?Is it because I'm still too weak?After so many years, it's still a waste!waste!waste!waste!

"Xiao Bei!" Wei Yuxuan hugged Mo Bei hard, restraining his hands, preventing him from beating his head hard.

Xia Wan, who was driving, was taken aback. Mo Bei had been in a daze without making a sound since he got in the car. Just now, he beat himself like crazy just now. Now that he was hugged by Wei Yuxuan, his His expression was like waking up from a big dream, he blinked his eyes and smiled!

Could this kid be a lunatic?Xia Wan felt a chill down his back.

Back at Xiawan's house, Mo Bei acted as if nothing had happened, and went directly to the refrigerator to get the ingredients: "Brother Xia is also eating here at noon? I see that there is Niu Nan in the refrigerator, and you can make stewed beef brisket with tomatoes .Does Brother Xia have any taboos?"

Xia Wan said: "Oh, you know how to cook? Then I will have a good lunch. In this way, you cook the soup, and I will cook the rest of the dishes. I will also let you taste my cooking skills." Leave it to Mo Bei to do it, what if the child faints again in the kitchen.

Wei Yuxuan came over to close the refrigerator door, took Mo Bei's hand that was as cold as a dead man, and said disapprovingly: "You should go to bed for a while, and I will make lunch." He pushed Mo Bei to the bedroom, Seeing him take off his coat, lay down and close his eyes, and sat on the edge of the bed holding his hand for a long time, until he felt that Mo Bei's breathing was steady and deep as if he was asleep, and then he went out lightly.

If Wei Yuxuan hadn't been so flustered, he would have realized that it was impossible for Mo Bei, who always needed to hold things while sleeping, to just fall asleep like this.

Mo Bei opened his eyes, listened to the subtle sounds outside, and guessed how Wei Yuxuan would respond to Xia Wan's various questions.However, with Xia Wan's upbringing and demeanor, he probably wouldn't ask too many questions, right?

Mo Bei's head hurts, as if someone was stirring his brain desperately with a spoon.The shiny steel spoon, the pale yellow brain, the warm semi-solid liquid splashed during stirring...

No!stop!Mo Bei warned himself, stop fantasizing, absolutely not!This disgusting fantasy does no good at all.And don't think about those things anymore.Those memories are best buried under the thick fallen leaves and rotted into fertilizer. If you have to dig them out, they will be of no use except to interfere with your judgment.

Quiet!Quiet! ! !

Hell, the heartbeat was so loud it gave me a headache.

No, it is impossible to hear your own heartbeat under normal circumstances, and the headache will not be caused by this.Stop fantasizing!

That person's eyes behind the lens are still so sharp, like a scalpel, a light glance seems to be able to cut open the person's skin soundlessly, exposing the heart.Nothing can be hidden from him.They were all revealed to the world together.

Heh, Mo Bei, has your IQ degenerated into that of a three-year-old?It's 1993, not the year 2000 when you first met him.He is not the one who is omnipotent now... No, he has never been omnipotent, and his magic is all exaggerated because of the small and closed environment of the mental hospital.Mo Bei, you are no longer that helpless little patient who can only be slaughtered by him!Can a mere Luo Yi, in a place outside his power control, really be able to turn the clouds and rains upside down?joke!

You needn't be afraid of him.Your fear of him now is just from the memory of the past, the residual sequelae of those years.He can't hurt you at all now.Mo Bei, remember, as long as you don't want to, Luo Yi can't hurt you.calm!cautious!Yes, step by step, you can't be too careful when dealing with a pervert like Luo Yi.

Mo Bei, your performance today was too bad. You could have just met Luo Yi by chance, but you have completely aroused his interest by showing your fear of him so clearly.That bastard will try his best to get close to you.He must be dying to see you faint with fear again.abnormal!abnormal! !

Wait, did Luo Yi know Xia Wan?Doesn't he sound like an ordinary acquaintance?How is this going?

Mo Bei was thinking in his mind, subconsciously digging at his fingers with his nails, and by the time Wei Yuxuan and Xia Wan had prepared lunch and called him, his fingers were already stained with blood.

Seeing Wei Yuxuan's distressed expression and Xia Wan's concealed surprise, Mo Bei was very annoyed, he really didn't realize this little trick.As long as you meet Luo Yi, everything will be wrong!

I don't know what Wei Yuxuan and Xia Wan exchanged when he was "sleeping". The two didn't ask any questions. Go to the bathroom and throw up.

Brother Yuxuan must be suffering from anorexia, right?Mo Bei was very worried.

How to treat patients with anorexia, and this kind of anorexia caused by psychological reasons?It's all because of Teng Jimin, Wei Yuxuan and his ten years together, no amount of love and tenderness can match his determination to go further in his official career.If Wei Yuxuan really can't let him go, should we get Teng Jimin out of power and let him get a divorce? If that doesn't work, kidnap him and lock him in a small dark room so that no one can see him except Wei Yuxuan .Mistaking him for Brother Yuxuan... No, no, Mo Bei, these thoughts are not yours, they were instilled into your mind by that bastard Luo Yi!You are not a pervert!

"I'm sorry for your father, I'm sorry for your grandparents, I gave birth to a pervert to the old Mo family!"

Mom, don't say that, I'm just a man but fell in love with the same sex, I'm just young and frivolous and made mistakes, but I'm not a pervert.I'm a normal person, but I'm just a normal person. I can't stay awake in an environment full of mental patients, let alone a perverted doctor who likes to play games that drive normal people crazy.I'm fine now, right?I'm not completely crazy.I didn't really kill myself.I didn't play with other people's lives either.I'm just a little depressed, a little autistic, a little paranoid, a little evasive... But most people have these problems more or less, mom.I am not crazy.Not perverted.Not mentally ill.I am your son, why can't you love me?I'm sorry I've embarrassed you and let you be pointed at.I'm sorry, I don't want to see you cry, I don't want to see you so sad, I don't want to see your wrinkles and gray hair, I also want to be filial to you, I want you to grow old, I want you to go out and hold your head high I'm proud, but I didn't do anything... But Mom, don't you love me because I didn't do it?

No matter what kind of love, there are conditions, right?There is no equality in love, let alone eternity.Most people love themselves more, but expect others to love them more than anything else.How ridiculous.Get rid of this hypocritical feeling from your heart, you don't need it.I will protect you, and I will make a treaty of existence for you. As long as you abide by it, you can be sure that you can live without burden. As your master, I will bear all this for you. I only want you to admire with all my heart and obedience...

Who is following the temptation?Devil's voice.

lie!It's all lies!wake up!Wake up!Mobei!

Xia Wan was really terrified. As a good young man with a good family background and good morals, although he would play around from time to time to experience various excitements, it was the first time that he came into contact with a child who was suspected of being a lunatic so closely.Seeing that Mo Bei was still fine while eating, but when he washed the dishes, he saw that everything was wrong with his grandma!

From the moment they met, Xia Wan felt that Mo Bei's eyes could talk, but he never thought that these eyes could not only talk, but also tell fucking horror stories!At this moment, Mo Bei didn't have much expression on his face, it could even be called calm, but the madness in his big apricot eyes was almost overflowing.Xia Wan even felt that it would not be impossible for Mo Bei to suddenly grab the fruit knife on the coffee table and kill someone in the next second.

hell!He really grabbed the paring knife!

Xia Wan involuntarily took a step back.

Mo Bei picked up another apple and began to peel it, "Does Brother Xia eat apples?"

Xia Wan: "..." Look!In less than a second, he seemed to be okay again!Is this what normal people should do?Xia Xiaoduo, Xia Xiaoduo, how did you meet such a scary friend?The reason why his novels are wonderful is not because the author's mental state is too abnormal?

As a good brother who loves his younger brother, Xia Wan really wants to study the importance of choosing friends with Xia Duo!

Wei Yuxuan just came out of the bathroom, looking exhausted. He didn't know what Xia Wan witnessed just now, so he sat next to Mo Bei as usual, touched his head gently, and said, "Do you want to sleep again?" when?"

Mo Bei smiled: "Go on to sleep, what should we do at night?" He handed the peeled apple to Xia Wan, Xia Wan hesitated.

Wei Yuxuan said with a smile, "Xiao Bei rarely helps others peel fruit."

Xia Wan was a little embarrassed, and hurriedly thanked him for taking it - in this room, he felt that he was more like a guest.

"Yeah, I'm lazy. Xia Duo usually peels the fruit for me. If he doesn't cut the fruit into pieces and insert a toothpick, I don't even want to eat it."

Dare my brother serve you as a servant at your place?Xia Wan was indignant.

Wei Yuxuan was a little puzzled, Mo Bei is not a person who likes to show off, let alone publicize his special relationship with Xia Duo, why would he say such things to provoke Xia Wan?

Mo Bei has already picked up another apple and peeled it.

Xia Wan touched his nose, pinched the apple with only one bite, and said to Wei Yuxuan, "Take a step to talk."

Before Wei Yuxuan stood up, he heard Mo Bei say, "Brother Xia, who is that Luo Yi?"

Xia Wan said in his heart, it's finally here!

"Luo Yi is a doctor. He was also involved in the company where Xiaoduo and I were engaged in border trade in the Northeast. Have you met him before?"

Mo Bei thought for a while: "I seem to have seen it somewhere, but I can't remember it. - So, Xia Duo also knows him?"

"Xiao Duo has met him a few times, but he is not very familiar with him. Speaking of which, it seems that I have never had a chance to tell you his name."

"It seems to be oh."

This is the end?You really don't intend to explain how you met Luo Yi?Xia Wan roared in his heart.

Mo Bei used the knife quickly and well. After peeling an apple, the entire peel was uniform in width from the beginning to the end, less than half the thickness of his little finger.Then, Xia Wan and Wei Yuxuan watched in horror as Mo Bei sliced ​​the apple evenly, then shredded it, and finally chopped it into pieces.The most frightening thing is that Mo Bei's expression was like a dream during the whole process. It wasn't until after the apple was shredded into thousands of pieces that he let out a soft "ah" like a dream, and then looked at it with a very innocent expression. They asked, "Have you ever eaten dumplings stuffed with apples?"

Probably Xia Wan and Wei Yuxuan's expressions explained something, Mo Bei put down the fruit knife obediently, stood up in a daze, and said, "I think I should sleep a little longer. Sorry."

When walking past them, Wei Yuxuan seemed to want to hold him back, but Xia Wan coughed lightly: "Sleep peacefully, we are in the living room, call us if you need anything."

Mo Bei smiled at him and said, "Thank you."

This "sleep" was until dark, during which Wei Yuxuan came in lightly to take a look, and Mo Bei pretended to be sound asleep.He heard Wei Yuxuan sigh softly, and his slightly cool palm gently stroked his hair.If Wei Yuxuan can have a child, he will be a very gentle and loving father.

If Teng Jimin hadn't let him down, maybe the two of them could still adopt a child.But now, will a person like Wei Yuxuan, who is so affectionate, end up alone after breaking up?Maybe it should be considered to help him get to know some of his kind, some of his kind who are braver and more affectionate.But love, it has never been something that others can decide, if Wei Yuxuan can't get out of it... no, it will definitely be possible, time can heal all wounds.

Mo Bei's thoughts this afternoon have been immersed in how to help Wei Yuxuan. Although there is no definite and effective plan until the end, at least there is a little advantage-he didn't think about Luo Yi again.

Someone was talking in the living room, the voice was very low, but Mo Bei could still recognize Xia Duo's voice.

Mo Bei got up from the bed in surprise, he couldn't make up his mind whether to go out and have a look - maybe it was his auditory hallucination?Didn't Xia Duo go to Shenzhen?

Despite repeatedly telling himself that it was an auditory hallucination, Mo Bei was still driven by a desire that he didn't even understand. He opened the bedroom door and walked to the living room.

From the dark room to the brightly lit living room, the light made Mo Bei's eyes ache. He saw a tall and handsome young man talking to Xia Wan with gestures, as if he was very excited, while Wei Yuxuan But not here.

The young man suddenly turned his head, and shouted joyfully, "Beibei!" In three or two steps, he crossed half of the living room and ran to Mo Bei, squatted down and hugged him, and said in a low voice, "Beibei, I miss you so much." Then his eyes fell on Mo Bei's bare feet. Mo Bei rubbed the instep of his calf blankly and awkwardly. He vaguely felt that this man was about to lose his temper, so he hurriedly said, "Why are you here?"

Xia Duo took off the slippers on his feet, put them on for Mo Bei, and muttered angrily: "Why are you running barefoot? What if you catch a cold? I think you're here."

Mo Bei reached out and brushed his thick black hair, and suddenly felt in a good mood, so good that his whole body seemed to have lifted a heavy cross, and he became relaxed from head to toe.Cold fingers slid a strand of hair to Xia Duo's ear, Xia Duo raised his hand to grab it, pulled it to his lips and kissed it with a smile on his face.

So Mo Bei also smiled.

Xia Wan felt that he had already been frightened a lot this whole day, but the total amount was not as much as at this moment. A very ominous guess made him feel like he was soaked in ice water.