Rebirth one way to the north

The three talked for a while, and Wei Yuxuan took the manuscript to get busy with publishing. Before leaving, his grandma stuffed him with a big bowl of freshly fried meatballs.

Mo Bei lazily leaned on the kang, leaning on Xiaomao, stroking the kitten.Xia Duo also took off his shoes and got on the kang, leaning against Mo Bei.Mo Bei put his shoulder on him: "Stay away, it's too crowded."

Xia Duo smiled and pulled Mo Bei into his arms: "This way it won't be crowded."

Mo Bei adjusted a comfortable posture, dragged the kitten to his stomach and put it away, and smoothed the kitten's fur. "Who is that person who saved me? Can you tell me?"

Xia Duo said: "Do you remember that I took you to the basement of Xiaobailou? It was originally his place, but after I got to know him, he handed it over to me. He and I are both teachers and friends. His experience I have been through a lot of things, and I have a lot of thoughts, and I am not willing to deal with outsiders. When I have a chance in the future, I will see if I can introduce you to each other."

Mo Bei said: "Thank him for me, I owe him a favor, no, it's a life."

Xia Duo smiled and said, "I begged him to save you. I'll settle this favor with him. If you have time to thank him, you might as well thank me."

Mo Bei also smiled: "Then how do you want me to thank you?"

Xia Duo slightly turned his head and kissed Mo Bei's ear. This angle and distance made his heart beat faster and his body temperature higher and higher. "Well... for example, invite me to watch a movie?" Xia Duo said absently, unable to restrain the urge of hormones, a kiss fell on Mo Bei's ear.

A little itchy, but very comfortable, Mo Bei didn't move.

Another kiss landed on Mo Bei's neck, another on his cheek, one on the corner of his eye, and one on the tip of his brow... Mo Bei turned his face, and that kiss fell on on the tip of his nose.

Xia Duo probably didn't expect Mo Bei to turn his head suddenly, his lips stuck to the tip of Mo Bei's nose and did not dare to move.Mo Bei wrinkled his nose: "Itches."

Xia Duo hurriedly pulled some distance away, looked at him with a blushing face, and licked his lips.

Mo Bei said, "Do you still want to kiss?"

Xia Duo's face turned even redder, and he looked at Mo Bei without blinking: "I think so."

Mo Bei chuckled, raised his chin slightly, his lips with a little blood color were beautifully shaped, and the corners of his mouth were slightly curved, like a small hook hooked in Xia Duo's heart.Xia Duo held his breath and lowered his head, and put his lips on Mo Bei's.He could hear the beating of his own heart that was about to jump out of his chest, as well as the sound of blood boiling and rushing in the arteries, like a river rushing against the river bed, whoosh, whoosh, whoosh, he thought in a daze: so soft...

Mo Bei stuck out the tip of his tongue and licked Xia Duo, then took his lower lip and sucked it lightly.

The river broke its embankment, rumbling away Xia Duo's sanity.

Sucking, biting, poking the tip of the tongue timidly, licking, entangled, the soul will fly away...

After a long time, this overly lingering first kiss stopped. Xia Duo buried his face on Mo Bei's neck to pant, and called out in a low voice: "Bei Bei..." He didn't know how to fully express his love for Mo Bei, No language is enough, he can only bite Mo Bei's neck lightly with his teeth, like a young animal expressing its exclusive desire by biting and devouring.

Mo Bei enjoyed the warmth comfortably, and the kitten purred softly under his fingers.

A long-lost kiss is ecstatic, and physical intimacy can properly relieve tension and loneliness, and is beneficial to physical and mental health.Mo Bei thought indifferently.

"Beibei," Xia Duo said vaguely, biting his neck, "Can I kiss him again?"

Mo Bei said: "Don't make marks on my neck, it's hard to explain for others to see."

"Yeah." Xia Duo reluctantly let go of his teeth, and kissed his lips along his neckline and chin, but when he was about to kiss Mo Bei's lips, he avoided it.

"Stop playing, my mouth should be swollen after a while."

"Oh." Xia Duo was very disappointed, and suddenly a thought flashed through his mind, and he called out, "Wait! Beibei, are you thanking me for this?"

Mo Bei frowned, then quickly loosened his brows, and said flatly, "You don't like it?"

Xia Duo immediately said: "I like it! But I don't like it either! I like to kiss you, but I don't like it. This is a thank you gift."

Mo Bei said, "Oh, it's not a thank you gift."

Xia Duo soon became happy again, "Beibei, do you agree to be with me?"

Mo Bei said calmly, "It's too early to talk about this."

Xia Duo said, "Why?"

Mo Bei said: "You are only 15 years old, it's too early to talk about relationships."

Xia Duo said: "Being young doesn't mean you don't know what true love is. Beibei, I have loved you since I was a teenager, and I have loved you until I am dozens. We can spend a lifetime together, watching each other grow up, aged."

Mo Bei was a little dazed and sad, "You think so now, but maybe tomorrow, next month, or next year, you won't love me anymore."

Xia Duo was a little angry, "Beibei, you dare not start because of an uncertain possibility? But what if we can really be together for a lifetime? Or, maybe I can't live as long as a few decades, maybe I can only If I live, then I can only love you for another four years, and it is impossible for us to be together every day for more than 1000 days. Beibei, isn’t your avoidance a waste of time now? What if I die in the future, and You haven't promised me all this time, won't you regret it when I die?"

Mo Bei was stunned for a moment, then smiled: "Xia Duo, your eloquence is really good, have you ever thought about becoming a diplomat in the future?"

Xia Duo tightened the arms holding him angrily, "No! I just want to be with you!"

Mo Bei patted his arm reassuringly, "What is your dream?"

Xia Duo said, "Don't try to change the subject!"

Mo Bei sighed: "I was wrong. I shouldn't have kissed you just now... Ugh!" Before he could finish speaking, the angry Xia Duo kissed his lips, and all the rest of the words were blocked.

While enjoying this fierce and clumsy kiss, Mo Bei thought, Xia Xiaoduo, Xia Xiaoduo, you have learned a big move without a teacher.

When Xia Duo finally let go of Mo Bei, his grandma came in to invite them to dinner, so the conversation just now did not continue.After dinner, Xia Duo lingered on, ignoring Mo Bei's stare, coaxing grandma to be very happy with her super sweet mouth, and finally stayed overnight as a matter of course.

Feeling my conscience, Mo Bei doesn't hate being intimate with Xia Duo. Although this child is still far from his aesthetics, he is one of the best in terms of appearance, brains, and temperament, not to mention the fact that he has been with him for the past few years. emotion.But every time Xia Duo mentioned the phrase "together", Mo Bei subconsciously refused.

why is that?Mo Bei asked himself.

He has a habit of listing all possibilities one by one on paper whenever his thoughts start to get confused and he can't discern what he really thinks in his heart, and this time is no exception.Xia Duo fell asleep with the kitten in his arms. I don't know if it was because of the fruitless dispute with Mo Bei during the day, or because he dreamed of something unhappy. He was still frowning in his sleep.

Mo Bei leaned against Xiaomao, put a magazine on his lap with a white paper, and wrote on it with a pen: 1. He is too young, his emotions are changeable, and he is unreliable—but people of any age group can do it Change of heart, and the person who changed his mind first may be me.

2. I am not a pedophile - but it may be good to have a lover who suits you - but who can guarantee that he will not grow crooked?

3. His family, his future—these obstacles are likely to be encountered by homosexuals—I have these problems myself, and I don’t know how to solve them in the future—relatively speaking, I am also his trouble...

N. What if he grows up and finds that his current feelings for me are actually an illusion?

N+1. I am not in love with him yet

Mo Bei stopped writing, stared blankly at the last two lines, and smiled wryly for a long time.

"Beibei, are you still asleep?" Xia Duo turned over and managed to open his eyes. He couldn't see whether Mo Bei was writing or reading, so he asked vaguely.

Mo Bei leaned forward and put the pen and book on the small table beside the kang, tore up the page and threw it into the wastebasket, reached out to turn off the lamp, and lay down in the darkness.As soon as he lay down, Xia Duo's arms wrapped around his waist under the quilt, his head moved closer, and the tip of his nose rubbed against his face, and soon his breathing became heavy again.

Mo Bei thought helplessly, maybe he had to add another item to the balance that was biased towards Xia Duo: he didn't hate Xia Duo's smell.

The darkness, the darkness where you can't reach your fingers, if you immerse yourself in it for a long time, you will have the illusion that even your body has melted away in the darkness, leaving only a vague thought.

It is quiet, without any external sound coming in, but the sound of its own heartbeat and breathing has become extremely loud, and it seems that even the sound of blood flowing through the arteries and the sound of the subtle peristalsis of internal organs can be heard clearly.

Mo Bei groped for a while, and touched the wall covered with sponge. He groped all the way, walking against the wall.One, two, three, corner, one, two, three, four, corner, one, two, three, corner, one, two, with a gap, the same sponge-covered door, without a handle.There are no windows.There should be a ventilation window, but it may be at a relatively high position, and he cannot touch it.The ground is also soft and there is no furniture.

Although I couldn't see anything, it felt very familiar.

What is this place?

Mo Bei suddenly felt that the groping and walking just now was an illusion. He had been sitting curled up on the ground, with the corners of the wall resting on his two shoulders. There was something behind him to lean on, which made him feel a little safer.But the darkness made the space in front of him seem to expand infinitely. In his imagination, he felt that he was actually facing a boundless wilderness. There was something terrible hiding in the darkness and staring at him silently, slowly. Approach slowly.

In a trance, he felt that the four walls were shrinking quietly, the room was getting smaller and smaller, the ceiling was also lowering silently, or the ground was quietly rising when he didn't notice it.He stretched out his hand in a panic to refuse, no, nothing.No, he has already felt the pressure brought by the oppressive wall, why can't he touch it?Maybe just a millimeter away from his fingertips, and a little further forward to touch.Go a little further.A little more forward... the back can no longer feel the support of the wall, and the feeling behind me has also fallen into nothingness.No, step back, okay, lean against the wall, okay, get down to earth.No, the oppressive feeling of being surrounded by all sides still exists, but you can’t touch it. Maybe you stretch out your arm an inch more, and the wall in that direction will quietly retreat an inch, but when you stretch out your hand in the other direction, the wall on this side will quietly move back. bully...

He could hardly breathe.

It's hot, and every pore is sweating, sticky sweat, it's disgusting.

No sound, what a nuisance.

say something.sing a song.A few strange screams are also good.Just to break the silence.

His lips are wooden, his tongue is also wooden, and his vocal cords are also wooden, so he can't make any sound.

In addition to the sound of heartbeat and breathing.

Breathe like the wind.Really annoying.

I don't want to stay in this kind of place for a second.

But the outside is more terrifying, more dangerous, and more breathless.It's better not to go out.What a nuisance.

It would be nice to have someone by your side, someone with warmth, you can touch his skin, his bones, feel his hug, his heartbeat, he will definitely speak.If you don't talk, then he can definitely kiss.A powerful kiss, a kiss that can bite people into pieces and swallow them.

If such a person appears, he can give him whatever he wants, body, life, surrender, trust, love, worship, whatever he wants.As long as there are such hands that have soothed the lonely skin, it is okay to be strangled to death, and the pain he brings is also willing to accept.

No, it will really be eaten.Even the soul will be torn apart.

This nasty place.Damn it.

Only myself.

Only myself is left.

Is there only the soul left?

And me?Where am I?

who I am?

"North……"

Mo Bei suddenly opened his eyes, panting sharply, the moonlight shone in through the gaps in the undrawn curtains, reflecting a hazy line on the ground, and the furniture in the house cast quiet shadows on the ground.

There is a dim light here.

There are people around who are breathing shallowly.

Mo Bei turned over and hugged Xia Duo, tremblingly kissing and touching him, using his whole body to feel his temperature, his skin, and the shape of his bones under his flesh and blood.Xia Duo who was awakened dazedly responded to Mo Bei's kiss and caress, and called vaguely, questioningly and happily: "Beibei?"

Mo Bei gnawed hard on Xia Duo's neck, collarbone, shoulders, chest... wherever his lips touched, he didn't know how hard he bit, but Xia Duo's soft voice came from above his head: "Hiss -"

At this moment, Xia Duo was fully awake. He didn't know what happened to Mo Bei, so he asked in a low voice, "Beibei, are you awake?"

Mo Bei didn't speak, his lips were too busy.

Xia Duo didn't make a sound, and only made a vague nasal sound when he was bitten in extreme pain.

"Meow——" the kitten crawled out of the quilt from the bottom of its feet, and let out a small cry, as if it was very unhappy to be disturbed, jumped from the kang to the desk, and swept the pen to the ground with one paw.Then, as if it had found a toy, it jumped to the ground and pulled the pen back and forth with its claws.

Mo Bei finally stopped, sweating profusely in Xia Duo's arms, short of breath.

Xia Duo's breathing was also very fast. He turned around and kissed Mo Bei's face and neck vigorously. After a while, he tightened his arms and tensed his body.

When the breathing of both of them calmed down, Mo Bei chuckled softly: "It seems that my family doesn't have any underwear for you to change."

Xia Duo murmured aggrievedly: "Beibei, you bullied me."

You don't need to look to know what his blushing has turned into. A shy and joyful young man, at this moment, Mo Bei is really willing to give him anything.

this moment.