glory [rebirth]

May 391, 11 sunny

This is my first diary entry since I came to the palace.

Since I gave Jason a copy of the diary, I haven't started writing again. In fact, I have forgotten how to translate part of what I wrote earlier.

Jiang Yao said that he could help me, but I asked him to tear up and destroy all the content before I investigated the Science Museum. That memory is irrelevant to me.

This new notebook was given to me by Jiang Yao. He also told me that every empress would write a diary, which is now stored in a secret safe.I protested to him that I didn't like the title very much, and he said it was something I had to get used to, which I was very speechless about.

My mother is still lying in the hospital. I asked Jiang Yao today if he wants to bring his mother to the palace.Jiang Yao said that it is safer to stay in the hospital, and it will be more timely in case of an emergency, so he and I plan to see her once a week.

Liangliang is very active and active, and seems to sleep less than other children.Although he is still so young, he seems to be able to tell the difference between me and Jiang Yao, and Jiang Yao said that this kid is a little tricky, and he will act extraordinarily coquettish in front of me.

In fact, this is just Jiang Yao's prejudice?

Liangliang likes to let me hold him out to bask in the sun, and he especially likes to swim. Every time he goes into the water, his calves will kick wildly.

In fact, until now, every time I see him, I feel like I am sleepwalking. I can't believe that it is my child and Jiang Yao.

This incident is too incredible for me. Even though I still reject pregnancy, if Liangliang grows up in a few years, if Jiang Yao wants another child, I don't think I will refuse.

Speaking of Jiang Yao, in fact, I really want to complain about it, I can't stand it anymore...

I have only lived in for three days, he ####### (marked out)

Jiang Yao's sexual desire is too strong ####### (crossed out)

Suddenly I found that I couldn't remember how many times I did it. Jiang Yao said that I went to bed early last night, so I had to make up for it this morning, but I felt very tired when I woke up this morning.

Jiang Yao must be lying to me.

The frequency was quite normal when I was in school before, why did it suddenly become like this now?Does he want to make up for the full amount of the year?

I have to talk to him about this problem tonight, so that he can stop in moderation.

I am still not used to the life in the palace. I have never received the service of a butler or a servant since I was a child, and I feel uncomfortable every time they appear.

Jiang Yao laughed at me for not seeing the world, but he never asked me to learn the rules of the royal family.

I know why.

In fact, when I was in the hospital, I vaguely felt that there seemed to be something wrong with my brain. I couldn't remember what I said or something I did before.

I'm trying to read a novel and find I can't remember the main plot in its entirety.

My memory loss is worse than I thought.

The doctor said that my condition will gradually improve, but I know that I can't go back to work in the original department.

Jiang Yao told me that if I want to leave the palace, I must go with him. If he is not there, I have to submit an application to him. Only after he agrees can I go out with the guards.

Because I will get lost when I go out.

He didn't mention my illness at all, and he didn't tell me what happened when he found me that day. I had to read some news reports to understand the whole story.

He is always avoiding.

I can understand Jiang Yao's thoughts. If I switch roles with him, I will not agree to let him go to the enemy's camp alone, let alone recall what happened that day.

In Jiang Yao's statement, Lin En did not appear, perhaps because the memory is too deep, I still can't forget Lin En's actions in the end.

He committed suicide, I'm pretty sure of that.

He doesn't admit that he is Lynn, he just doesn't want to disturb my life with Jiang Yao, this choice is his style.

In fact, he could have escaped with me that day ##### (marked out)

Only when he is dead, will I stop thinking about looking for him, and only when he is dead, will I completely eliminate future troubles.

If one day I will forget everything, except for Jiang Yao and Liangliang, I will never forget him, and he should be the only one left.

Hope he is free from all pain in heaven.

Jiang Yao didn't arrange for me to do anything, so apart from communicating with the doctor every day, I almost stayed with Liangliang.According to Jiang Yao, Liangliang is the one who spends the longest time with his parents among the little princes. Like himself when he was a child, servants and housekeepers took care of daily chores.

In fact, there's nothing wrong with it, at least I won't feel bored because I can't work, and this is very good for Liangliang's growth.

What he needs is a normal warm family, not a cold royal family.

I hope he grows up to be a cheerful and sunny child.

September 391, 12 Cloudy

Today Jiang Yao told me that I will be awarded the First Class Order of Imperial Honor at the New Year’s Ceremony next month. I asked him why, and he said that the Ministry of Supervision would hold a press conference to announce the investigation of the case, and then commend me.

Jiang Yao said that without me, he would not be able to beat Herman.

To be honest, I was quite frightened.

Jiang Yao has never said anything similar to me. He seldom expresses his emotions directly, but since I was injured, he seems to be a different person.

I asked Jiang Yao who else got the medal, he lost his temper and told me that he thought the first-class medal was sold on the street, eight for ten yuan.

Later, I found out the history of the first-class medal. Since the establishment of the Anbar Empire, a total of 14 have been awarded, of which 3 were awarded to generals and marshals by the emperor at the founding of the country, and the rest are all celebrities in history.

I was frightened again, but Jiang Yao's decision did not allow me to doubt it.

I asked Jiang Yao what I should pay attention to when awarding the medal. He said that as long as I stand out for a while and take a few photos for the reporters, the media cannot interview members of the royal family without authorization.

I found it very strange, and later he explained that the interview script had all been written, including my life experience.I took a quick look at it, and I couldn't believe the content inside. I felt that it was a completely different person, just like the kind of special reports I often see in magazines.

Today the tailor also came to me, asked me to try on shoes and clothes, and asked me how I felt. Although I was personally very satisfied, after Jiang Yao instructed for a while, they took all the things away and said that they would make further adjustments.

This way of life is also something I am not used to.

A few days ago, Liangliang was fed by servants, but today it was me.In order to remember when he ate today, I specially carried a small book with me so that I would not make mistakes.

Although the servants took good care of Liangliang, I was still a little uneasy.

Played games with him for a while today, and then fell asleep with me in his arms. After Jiang Yao came back, he put him in the crib, and said that I was too used to him, and slept with me when he was so old.

I asked him why he still slept with me when he was already in his 20s, but he gave me a glare.

ps I was still very tired when I got up this morning, it must be last night #### (marked out), Jiang Yao lied to me again.

May 391, 12 sunny

Jiang Yao is going back to the military academy today to take the final exam. In order to save time, he will be away for a week. I can finally sleep well.

I couldn't stand him, I was so busy last night that I didn't come back until two o'clock in the morning, I just woke up to see how Liangliang was sleeping, and when he saw that I hadn't slept yet, he ##### (marked out)

The bright teeth still haven't grown in, the gums have hardened, and the ability to imitate syllables is better.

The weather was fine today, so I took him to see Jiang Yao out in the afternoon and played in the garden for a long time.

In the evening, they delivered new shoes and clothes. The style was very nice, and it was indeed more comfortable to wear than before. The shape of the shoes fit the feet perfectly.

I have never enjoyed this treatment in two lifetimes.

October 391, 12 Light Rain

After sleeping in the same bed with him for so long, now that I haven't seen Jiang Yao for a few days, I miss him a little.

I just spoke to him on the phone, I asked him how he was doing, and he said no problem.

The chef in the palace cooks delicious food.

May 391, 12 sunny

Jiang Yao came back in the early hours of yesterday ####### (marked out)

I didn't wake up until ten o'clock this morning. I wanted to kick Jiang Yao out of bed, but he was already at work.

May 392, 1 sunny

I have been very busy all day today. Jiang Yao’s New Year’s Ceremony will be broadcast live from 06:30 in the morning. He and I got up at [-]:[-] to prepare, but he is mainly preparing, and there is also a speech.

Only then did I know that none of these speeches were written by him, but he was also very busy. The intelligence department and some other people had been talking to him. I held Liangliang in the room and waited for the notice from the guards.

When it was time to award the medal, I stood outside for a few minutes and let the media take pictures.

But there was one thing that was beyond my expectation. Jiang Yao hugged me in public. Our relationship was not made public, which made me a little nervous. I was afraid that the media would catch up on rumors, but Jiang Yao didn't seem to care.

But the scariest thing is not this.

At night, Jiang Yao handed me a small box, and I recognized what it was at a glance. I ###### (crossed out marks) Oh, I seem to have no memory of what happened afterwards, but now the ring is wearing in my possession.

Jiang Yao told me that someone would come to take photos of us two tomorrow, and I asked him why, and he said that he would release engagement photos.

Jiang Yao entered the room, and he forbade me to write.

May 392, 1 sunny

My communicator has been ringing all day today.

In order to facilitate contact with former friends, I did not change the number. After the office released the photos, my phone and mailbox were almost overcrowded.

Everyone was asking me what was going on with Jiang Yao, and the most shocked were the classmates in the military academy. Alger asked me if I had fallen in love with Jiang Yao before I went to school, and then I dropped out of school to investigate Herman because of him. The thing...it left me very speechless.

I don't know how to answer him.

Later, Jiang Yao ordered me not to answer any calls or reply to any messages. I knew he was worried that what I said would be different from what was reported.

Too much talk is too much, and I understand that.

But of all the messages, the one that surprised me the most was the one from Harris, I still remember him, I was in the same ward with him, and told me he was having a daughter.

He said he was very shocked. He asked me if Liangliang's father was His Royal Highness the Crown Prince. I asked Jiang Yao if I could reply to this message, and briefly told him about the care the Harris family took for me.He asked me how I made it up at the time, and I said I forgot, but fortunately he didn't pursue it...

I told Harris that Liangliang's father is Jiang Yao, and we will get married after he graduates from the military academy. Harris was very shocked, but he didn't ask me what happened. He just said that it was very difficult for me and blessed me. Me and Jiang Yao.

When I get better, I want to take Liangliang to see them.

However, taking pictures is really a very troublesome thing.

I thought I was just asking the photographer to take a random photo of life, but who knows that the temporary studio has already been set up, and the shape is gradually corrected bit by bit. It took dozens of shots for a photo to choose the most satisfactory one.

In the photo, Jiang Yao was wearing a military uniform, and I was wearing a suit. I held his hand and leaned towards him, with the ring facing the camera (this is the most speechless point I have).

But I have to admit that the effect after shooting is very good. I look much better in the photo than in real life.And I thought the pose between me and him would be awkward, but in fact it is very harmonious. I can't figure out why.

Because of my engagement, the report on me was changed again. Jiang Yao showed it to me and added some stories about our relationship. What love is stronger than gold... I got goosebumps all over my body. He deleted it.

Moreover, I was written too noble in the report, but when I raised objections, Jiang Yao didn't listen to me, saying that it had to be written like this, and I couldn't hold him back.

The report also mentioned the matter of Liangliang, saying that his arrival was an accident. Although the environment was very difficult at that time, I still gritted my teeth and persisted, allowing him to be born smoothly. , my god...

Schwartz and Damian came to see me in the afternoon and said goodbye to me, saying that Damian would take him home for a few days.Schwartz secretly told me that he was very nervous and a little afraid to go. I asked him what he was afraid of, and he said that he was not good at words and was afraid that he would not get along well with Damian's parents.I told him his worries were unfounded.

Until Schwartz left the palace, I didn't remember what question I wanted to ask him, a very important question, what was it...

May 392, 3 sunny

Today Liangliang will call Dad, although the pronunciation is not standard, but he can hear it very clearly!

So happy, so happy...

September 392, 3 Cloudy

Liangliang can stand up today, but she still can't walk.In the afternoon, I took him to the hospital to see his grandmother, and I taught him to call, but he still couldn't pronounce the syllable, he could only make a simple duplication of sounds, and now he calls Jiang Yao is also a father.

Hope he grows up soon.

May 392, 7 sunny

Today is Liangliang's first birthday. The office released two photos of Liangliang. One was when he was just born, and the other was a photo of him playing on the grass just now.

With the lessons learned from the engagement, Jiang Yao set up a few special numbers to answer, and all others were blocked, so I was happy and quiet, and I didn't know what the commotion outside was like.

When I read the news at night, I saw all the praises of Liangliang and cuteness. He was very happy to see his own picture on the screen. He kept pointing at himself, and then clapped his hands, not allowing me to turn the page.

I found it very interesting, so I showed him the photos of Jiang Yao in my wallet when he was a child. Liang Liang stared at the photos for a long time, thinking that the two photos were of him, and laughed while looking at them.

Schwartz and the others gave Liangliang a lot of birthday presents. His favorite is the little guy who can shoot guns that Irmo gave him. After pressing the switch, he crawled forward automatically, and then continued to crawl after shooting a few shots.

It's a pity that he grabbed the toy's head and smashed it to the ground in less than three hours.

In Jiang Yao's senior year in the next semester, there are no classes anymore, but the handover of power has slowly begun to prepare for his enthronement at the end of the year. Recently, he has been busy with work a lot.

But generally too busy to have the energy to go to #### (marked out), I want to kick him out of bed, really.