Rebirth of a Writer's Life

The ear-piercing sound of cars, the chaotic crowd, and the faint blood all over the ground.

Guo Huai stared at all this in a daze. He couldn't remember how he rushed forward to pick Tao Sheng up, or how he carried him all the way to the hospital.

But subconsciously, he wanted to hug him tightly, as if this could stop the blood gushing out.

But Tao Sheng was still dead.

The extinguished operating light, the doctor who said he did his best, and the way everyone looked at him.

They were clearly telling him that Tao Sheng was dead.

Guo Huai looked at the door of the operating room in front of him, without saying a word, his eyes were empty.

"Young Master Huai..." Xiao Qing couldn't stand it any longer, and stepped forward, "The doctor just said that he might really..."

"You fucking fart!" Guo Huai violently pushed Xiao Qing away, rushed forward and grabbed the doctor by the collar, and shouted, "I'm on the way to fuck! I can feel his heart beating! He's not dead at all ! Why do you tell me that he is dead now?!"

"Master Huai!" Xiao Qing jumped up and grabbed his arm, shouting, "Don't do this! He is really dead!"

"Shut up!" Guo Huai pushed Xiao Qing away violently, with one hand tightly wrapped around his neck, "If I said he wasn't dead, he wasn't dead! Stop talking nonsense to me!"

"Then go in and see by yourself!" Seeing that Guo Huai didn't pay attention to him, Xiao Qing roared with red eyes, "Go in and see by yourself! Does he still have a heartbeat? Is he breathing? Can you open it?" Eyes look at you!"

These words slammed on Guo Huai's body hard, making his eyes darken in pain.But he was still persistent, insisting on the last thought in his heart.

Tao Sheng didn't die, he couldn't have died.

Guo Huai pushed Xiao Qing away and stumbled towards the operating room.

It's impossible for Tao Sheng to leave here, he hasn't taken him to Hawaii yet.

Thinking so, Guo Huai pushed open the door of the operating room, and then fixed his eyes on Tao Sheng.

Pale skin with a touch of blood, a chest that didn't rise and fall, and eyes that were closed.

Guo Huai stared at all this in a daze, unable to move his body.

impossible.

There's no way he just left.

Guo Huai rushed forward and said with a trembling voice, "Tao Sheng?"

"Open your eyes and look at me," Guo Huai held Tao Sheng's hand and put it to his lips, "OK?"

"From now on... I will definitely go home before eleven o'clock every night in the future, and I will not worry about you by messing around outside. Oh, and, if you don't like the smell of cigarettes, I will quit." Guo Huai said later, his voice trembling even It was impossible to guess what he was talking about, and fear attacked his whole brain, he said softly, "Wake up and look at me, okay?"

no response.

Guo Huai looked at the person lying on the bed, as if he really realized all his thoughts.

He likes Tao Sheng, every night when he comes home and sees him sitting on the sofa waiting for him, he is always drunk, knowing that someone will come to pick him up, every time he comes back hungry in the middle of the night and sees him busy in the kitchen When the voice was heard, Guo Huai knew that the peace of mind could not deceive anyone.

It was completely different from those friendships that mourned the past. They used to stop by his side so genuinely, but he never looked back.

Like this kind of thing, it never simply means vigor and vitality, this kind of emotion that is flat to the bone, but at this moment, it is like a sharp dagger, stabbing at Guo Huai fiercely.

By the time he realized all this, God had taken this person away from him.

forever.

Guo Huai looked at the still motionless body below him, and closed his eyes in pain.

Warm liquid flowed from his eyes, and Guo Huai even found it difficult to breathe.

Tao Sheng's smile flashed before his eyes again, Guo Huai was so painful that he couldn't speak.

half year later.

"Huh? Young Master Huai, are you leaving so early?" Noticing Guo Huai's figure getting up to leave, someone in the darkness stretched his neck and asked loudly.

"Hey, that's why you don't understand, right? Mr. Ren Huai is married, and he's coming home late later, in case the people next to him are worried." Someone answered immediately.

Everyone laughed, Guo Huai was not annoyed, he just turned around and nodded at them, and left the dinner without further explanation.

45:[-].

Guo Huai glanced at the time on his watch and put the briefcase aside.Then he raised his eyes and glanced at the empty rooms around him. Everything here has not changed in the slightest compared to half a year ago. Guo Huai took care of everything himself. Anyone who walks even a step into this house.

Guo Huai looked at everything in the room, suddenly smiled lightly, and said in a low voice, "I'm back."

No one answered him.

Guo Huai didn't care, he loosened his tie and went to the kitchen.

"Today, Luo Zhe was finally yelled back to the army by his old man. My mother is almost annoyed by him. Every day, my wife doesn't look for her, so she just follows me around." Guo Huai picked out a bowl and washed it with water. Chong, "I always say that I will have accidents, I will be overwhelmed, I will seek death, and I will be too long-winded."

"My parents said the same thing, and I drove them back, but what surprised me the most was my grandpa, who actually accepted that I was gay." Guo Huai suddenly smiled, "My grandpa, you Do you still remember? You have seen the stubborn one, who would blow his beard and stare when he saw me, and said that I like to mess around. But when I went back a few days ago, his attitude was completely different from before. "

"Hey, if I can bring you home, he will definitely recognize you without saying a word, that would be great."

"After sending off Luo Zhe in the evening, I went to another dinner party. A group of people ate and drank, and then I had to go to the bar. But I said in advance that I didn't think about any other thoughts. I just ate something. That’s all, I don’t like anyone there.”

"But having said that, I have eaten in so many places, where is the food not as delicious as yours?"

As Guo Huai said, he threw two packs of noodles into the pot, "I don't think anyone's cooking is as delicious as yours, so I plan to learn by myself. If there is something wrong with the cooking, you must tell me I say."

Opening a bottle of beer, Guo Huai took a sip, "I always feel that I must surpass you, um... no, no, no, as long as I do the same as you. Look at me now, when others ask I will say whether the food my wife cooks is delicious, delicious, delicious, but after a few months, what should I do if I forget all the smells? So I want to learn, don’t worry about it Dizzy, I forgot about this."

"But you are smart, and you always like to mix recipes when you make things. I took out all the things you put in the study and watched them last night. Seriously, give me a month, and I will definitely be able to cook that boiled fish. Make it, just the one you like best."

"But when it comes to this, I want to protest. You have written such a long list of notes, and the characters are so small that I almost had to find a magnifying glass last night. But your characters are beautiful, much better than mine. I will definitely study them seriously. "Guo Huai took the softened noodles and after a long time, took out the sauce from the refrigerator, sprinkled some on it and started eating.

"I come back before eleven o'clock every day, didn't I worry you?" Guo Huai sat down on the chair and took another sip of beer.

"Usually I have sweets at home, and it sounds pretty...sorry, but I didn't know where you like desserts until I asked Li Yao later." Guo Huai scratched his head, "I bought them, and I bring them with me after get off work every day. , just put it on the table, you can eat it if you want."

"If you can't eat it..." Guo Huai's eyes suddenly darkened, "If you can't eat it, come and tell me in your dream, and I will find a way for you."

The room was silent for a while, except for the sound of chopsticks hitting bowls.

"Oh, by the way, talking about dreams." Guo Huai suddenly put down his chopsticks, "Baby, you are so stingy, you really have the heart not to let me see you once? Anything is fine, you want to scold me , You can beat me if you want, but you can take me away if you want."

After Guo Huai finished speaking, he bit his chopsticks and ate two more mouthfuls of noodles.

The two packs of noodles were gone in front of him, and he returned to the kitchen with the bowl in hand.

"Hey, speaking of Hawaii, I really want to go to play," Guo Huai said while washing, "I remember when I told you that you looked very happy, so I didn't dare to go. You see I've done so many wrong things, what if you blame me for not taking you with me and get even more angry? I don't want to take the risk. "

"Well, whenever you want to go, just tell me, and I'll go right away, and I'll record the whole process for you to play at home." Guo Huai turned the clean bowl aside and walked out again.

"Oh yes, look at my memory, these things are not what you care most about, right? You are thinking about your mother." Guo Huai slapped his head, "I took care of her for you, the old man's mental state is slightly better than before point, but she also misses you very much. If you don’t want me to see you, then you can go to see her. I go to see her every day. She is always angry with me, and I dare not approach her. I am worried that she will be angry. It’s uncomfortable, I know she is your biggest concern, so don’t worry, I’ll take care of it for you.”

Guo Huai looked around, thought for a while, took his clothes and took a shower.

There was the silent sound of water in the bathroom, but the silence in other places made people panic.

Guo Huai packed the clothes that should be sent to the laundry, threw the rest into the washing machine, and then lay on the bed.

"I did a lot of bastard things before. Bai Ye always said that I don't know the blessings when I am in the blessings. This time I have completely recognized it." Guo Huai turned over and said with a wry smile, "If I had A little bit of awareness of my own thoughts will definitely not be what it is now, don't you think?"

"If you want to forgive me, come out and meet me, okay?" Guo Huai said suddenly, looking at the ceiling.

After a while, he turned over, his arms were empty as usual, but he didn't care, just murmured to himself.

"I think you may never forgive me in this life. This kind of punishment is really uncomfortable. I couldn't bear it several times, so I don't know how long I can last this time. Sometimes I feel that it is better to be with you Let's go together, sometimes I feel, I'm going so soon, you still don't feel how to calm down."

"So, I have to live at least another six years, let myself have a taste of it, take good care of your mother for you, and then go find you."

"But in the next life, if there is a next life, you have to remember to stand there and wait for me, even if I crawl, I have to crawl to your side."

"I admit everything, I just ask you one thing." Guo Huai suddenly tightened the quilt.

"If I really stand in front of you in the next life, you just... just give me a chance."

After a while, Guo Huai's voice came from the room.

"Are you okay, Tao Sheng?"