[Comprehensive] I feel tired and don't love Sakuragi-san

045 Living Alien

I don't know how I managed to listen. It may be because the nightmare has been holding me, so I didn't fall down because my legs and feet were weak, but my mind was still blank.

The nightmare said that when the young master killed me, he was watching and did not step forward to stop me.

The nightmare said that he hoped the young master would kill me.

Why?I wanted to scream and punch someone, but I just listened in silence.

Although I haven't spent much time with the nightmare, I know in my heart that he won't hurt me. In the words of the people in the alliance, the nightmare is a loyal dog.

I had to know why, and believe he did it for a reason.

After finishing those two sentences, the nightmare fell into silence again, but Loki was different.

As an evil god in Norse mythology, although Loki does not quite match the image I know, he is also a god. To him, the nightmare is just a monster, even if he signed a contract with me.

He clenched his fists, but didn't move. He just stood in front of the nightmare. He was about the same height, but his aura was enough to make the nightmare's body stiff, and his tone was cold: "The reason."

The nightmare looked up at him calmly: "Don't you think this is the best way for Sakuragi to recognize his true face?" He looked down at me again with a slight smile on his face, "Actually I'm just a very ordinary dog, and I don't know why I protected Sakuragi in the first place, but I just followed."

"In that winter, I died, but after I died, I became a monster like a nightmare. I also found that there were many monsters coveting Sakuragi, so I kept guarding her. It's a pity that I was too weak at that time. She can only watch from the sidelines, unable to step forward to protect her, and even bring her nightmares."

"I've been watching Sakuragi grow up. Even if she had amnesia, I still remember everything she experienced. Therefore, I know the true face of the guy she doesn't know."

"When I found out that Sakuragi liked him, I went to Earl D and asked him to hand me over to Sakuragi at the cost of his work, and to learn how to sign a contract. Only in this way can I really be with Sakuragi Become a master and slave, even if Sakuragi dies, I can follow her to the next world."

I was overwhelmed by what he said, and I just felt dizzy.

It turned out that he was always by my side when I didn't know it, but——I didn't know it.

If I don't know, I won't be able to feel all of this. I still regard myself as alone, so I can only seek the protection of the young master, so... I like the young master?

Thinking of this, I want to laugh a little.

Do I really like the young master?Even I don't know, but the nightmare?Probably this is the so-called "bystander clear"?That's why he made this kind of decision - let the young master kill me.

This doesn't take my point into consideration at all!

I tried to push the nightmare away, but he hugged him so tightly that I couldn't push him away. I simply lowered my head and bit his arm, my teeth barely penetrated into the skin and muscles, and my tongue tasted the salty taste of blood.

But the nightmare did not let go, just said in a low voice: "I'm sorry."

This is the second time he has said this today.

I finally regained the ability to speak, my voice was dry and hoarse: "...what's the use?"

I broke down and yelled, "What's the use! I'm dead! I'm dead! Others don't even know I'm dead, just disappear without a trace! I still have so much to do I don't want to die!"

After I finished speaking, it seemed that my throat was blocked by something, and I was choked up and unable to speak. After a while, I whispered: "Xiao Hei, wouldn't it be better if you didn't tell me? I can blame all my faults on my own negligence. Carelessness and the young master's capriciousness, why do you say that?"

"It's not the same," said the nightmare, "I hope you know the truth. If I keep this matter in my heart, I will be driven mad by guilt. I hope you can forgive me."

"How do you forgive this? You killed your master." Loki said mercilessly.

"My purpose is only to let Sakuragi recognize the nature of that guy, and I also guessed how he will treat Sakuragi, and I have already prepared for it——When it is safe, Sakuragi can return to the present world .” The tone of the nightmare was very calm, but it sounded like thunder to my ears.

"Back to the present world?" I repeated the words of the nightmare.

"Hmm." The nightmare took a deep breath, "Since Sakuragi, you already know about being occupied by a traverser before, there is one more thing you should know, and that is your memory."

"Although the traverser is dead, her memory still remains in your brain, and she even has some inexplicable abilities, which have a bad influence on your soul."

I nodded subconsciously. After all, those belongings belonged to other people. They were indeed the experience of "Sakuragi-san", but not mine. Different memories conflicted and caused repulsion, which must have caused a lot of damage to the soul, right?

Loki touched his chin: "Isn't Sakuragi fused with that part of the memory?"

The nightmare took a look at him: "That is a memory from another soul. Different souls have different personalities. Do you want Sakuragi to cause schizophrenia under different personalities?"

"Pfft!" I couldn't control myself and laughed out loud.

Schizophrenia or something is really an alternative cute attribute suitable for blackening.

The feeling of oppression and heaviness just disappeared in an instant, and I had to lament my heartlessness and nervousness—now that I know that I can return to the present world, I feel much better.

The nightmare continued: "Sakuragi has died once now, and her soul has left her body. The memory of the traveler who was originally in her body will not be able to affect her soul."

I raised my hand: "But I still remember those memories."

"It's not the same," Loki seemed to understand, "accepting memories directly and looking at those memories from the perspective of a bystander are two different things. It's just 'someone else' for us."

This example sounds easy to understand, and I immediately understood it.

"Then, the question now is when and how Sakuragi will return to the present world." Loki glanced at the nightmare, "If I guessed correctly, her body was also hidden by you, right?"

Unexpectedly, the Nightmare Tapir shook his head: "Sakuragi's body is in the hands of another person, and this involves the deal that the young master had with that person. I have no way to get it back."

"Another person?" I frowned, and the nightmare explained: "You were indeed killed by the young master seven years ago, and after that, you were able to resurrect with your true soul because of that person."

"Do you know the identity of that person?" I asked curiously.

"The real identity is unknown, but according to the legend among the monsters, that person is called the 'Witch of the Dimension'." The Nightmare Tapir added, "Her magic power is very powerful."

"Ah," Loki exclaimed in surprise, "it's her."

"Do you know Loki?" I rubbed my forehead, the witch of the dimension sounds very powerful...

Loki nodded and said with a smile: "If it's that witch, you don't have to worry about anything. Although she always behaves as she pleases, she's actually a very nice person." He pondered for a while, "Since your body is kept with her now , don’t worry, I’ll ask her when I get back.”

I just nodded, since Loki said so, it should be fine.

After sending Loki away, I turned my head and looked at the nightmare who was still standing obediently beside me. My eyes fell on his arm. The wound I just bitten out was still there. It seems a bit funny now.

Although I would be a little moody during my menstrual period, my mood seems to change even more after death. I actually bit the nightmare like this. Should I feel sorry for my good teeth?

"I've already said, I forgive you. Go back and bandage."

The sudden voice in my head froze the smile on my face.

At the beginning, he also bit the young master, biting the young master's right index finger, but the next day, the young master bit the left middle finger instead, and bit a ring...it looks like a ring, right?

I looked down at my left hand, the trace had long since disappeared, but I could still see the shadow in front of my eyes.I don't know the meaning of wearing rings on different fingers, but the young master obviously did it deliberately at that time, right?If so, do you like it?

Sighing silently, I put down my hands, looked up at the nightmare, tilted my head and smiled and said, "Since Xiao Hei is a jailer in hell, you must know what fun things are in hell, right?"

The nightmare's expression softened: "Of course, I'll take you right away."

Sometimes it seems good to have no worries, at least I can roam around in hell without worrying about other people's concerns, not to mention that I can return to this world.

Speaking of which, the difference between hell and this world is actually not that big.

I looked at the vendors on both sides of the street with great interest. There are actually a lot of food stalls like a festival, and the materials used are not too strange... Wait, what is this?

Silently looking at the raw fish sashimi lying on the plate, I swallowed hard, tugged at the sleeve of the nightmare next to me, and asked softly, "Xiao Hei, what is this?"

Doesn't it look like a goldfish?But why is the stem attached to the belly of the fish?

The nightmare looked sideways and said, "Oh, this is a snapdragon."

The antirrhinum that I know is a plant with a flower that looks like a goldfish at the top, not the current plant and animal that really has a goldfish growing on the top!

By the way, can this stuff be eaten?I took another look at the snapdragon on the plate.

Wow, its eyeballs turned, looked at me, and opened its mouth!

Eh, open your mouth?

Before I could react, the nightmare quickly covered my ears, and then the undead snapdragon let out a piercing scream, which I could hear clearly even though my ears were covered.

...Hehe, this is actually written as a snapdragon and read as a mandrake, right?

Can this alien-like creature really be eaten?Won't it really turn into an alien shape if you eat it?

Well I shouldn't bother with whether it's edible or not...

In the end, I still ordered a snapdragon sushi.

Well, the taste...it's actually not bad.