The second marriage of the stars

Xing Zai kissed the mute in a feverish state, and the pleasure didn't last long, and soon he woke up, feeling ashamed of his outrageous behavior, and also had the idea that this man couldn't stay for long, and he had to leave as soon as possible.It's not because looking like a certain person will hurt your feelings or anything, the main reason is that I'm afraid that keeping him by my side will disturb my mind and make me think wildly.He is not afraid of remarriage, but he is afraid of giving up his feelings. He just wants to find someone who can live with it, not a partner who talks about love.

Having been emotionally hurt, he was discouraged from love and developed fear.

What's more, others don't have that kind of intention. If I take the initiative, I will make it ugly and embarrassing.

"Do you have any relatives or friends?" On the way back, the small space was embarrassing, so I had nothing to say, and asked if there was any other place to go.

The mute palmed the steering wheel, unable to write, and could only shake his head instead, and then heard a disappointed sigh from his right hand.Since yesterday, Xing Zou's behavior has been a little abnormal, he is not stupid, he can naturally see the change, and he also knows that the other party is trying to drive him away, but he is not easy to speak, and is looking for a suitable entry point.What on earth had I done wrong to make him so flustered and restless, even mistrustful?

The man recalled every detail carefully, but still couldn't figure out what was wrong.Moreover, if you really hated him, why did you secretly kiss him again?

You can't ask, and you can't take the initiative to provoke this topic, otherwise it will become out of hand.The best way is to pretend to be stupid, don't say anything, if he wants to drive him away, he will give up his dignity and stay with his face.By the way, I have to win over Doudou, so that the little guy is reluctant to let him leave, and help me keep a place for myself.

"I don't know what's going on with Doudou." I don't know if it's a sympathetic heart, but just as the mute thought of the child, Xing Zou spoke.Although he had only been separated for two days and one night, his fatherly love and motherhood erupted together. He especially missed the young son who stayed at home, and wished he could fly back immediately with his wings: "I didn't buy him a gift in a hurry this time. Wait for him later." Stop for a while, I'll pick some watermelons, he likes them the most."

Brother Geng, who grows melons, lives outside the town. Doudou especially likes his melons with thin skins and a sweet aftertaste. In addition, Xingzhao is worried about the illness of Geng's son-in-law, so he wants to take a look.

Unexpectedly, as soon as the car stopped, I saw tall white flowers erected beside the melon field from a long distance away, and the low-pitched mourning and crying sounded one after another, spreading far away.No, I'm afraid something went wrong.Xing Zai's heart tightened, and he hurried over there, the mute quickly followed behind and carefully protected him, lest he walk too fast and might not be stable and fall.When the two arrived at the temporary mourning hall, there were already many enthusiastic neighbors helping out. They asked acquaintances and found out that the Geng family's son-in-law had a heart attack last night and had already gone.

"I told him that this disease should not be careless, and he must go to a regular hospital for treatment, but he is afraid of spending money, so he endures it every time he gets sick, and at most he comes to me to buy some medicine to deal with it... Hey, let's go now, leaving alone What should the father and daughter do, the child is only eight years old, how pitiful it is." Sighing, Xing Zou went in to burn incense, and saw Brother Geng and his little daughter, dressed in linen and mourning, kneeling in front of the coffin and weeping heartbroken. Get sad.

Considering that they still had a lot of things to deal with and it was inconvenient to stay for a long time, he said a few words of comfort before leaving accompanied by the mute, but his mood was depressed for a long time.

"My sweet baby, dad misses you so much, I'm sorry, I won't leave you alone again." Perhaps he had witnessed the parting of life and death, so he went straight to Xiaolin's oil tea shop as soon as he got out of the car, picked up his son, and hugged him tightly. In his arms, he didn't let go for a long time.

"It's so hot, sweaty, dad, what are you doing?" But the little guy who ate, drank, and had a good time didn't have so much sadness of parting and joy of goodbye, he just felt breathless being hugged.

He propped his father's head open with two small hands, and complained: "Let go, I want a dumb hug."

As he spoke, he stretched out his hands to the man, wanting to hug him.Xing Zou deliberately gritted his teeth, but he didn't get angry, and sent the child to the man with a smile: "It's rare that he likes you so much, you play with me for a while, and I'll see Granny Zhou. This time it's just a street , nothing will happen, I promise, don’t follow me, prepare the meal and wait for me to come back to eat, order more food.”

Granny Zhou, who is facing the street, is a widowed and lonely old man in her 80s. She has no children and is self-sufficient with her good embroidery skills, and her body is still in good health.But just now in the mourning hall, someone said that she had a bad cough these days, Xingzhao was worried, went home to see her son, didn't take a saliva, and went out with the medicine box.The mute looked at his back as he left in a hurry, feeling very unhappy in his heart.Doing good deeds is a good thing, he has no objection, but with his current physical condition, why bother to work so hard!

Can't you close the clinic? It's too hard—at night, the mute discussed things that he had considered for a long time——If you feel financial pressure, I can find a way, don't force yourself, and bear all the difficulties yourself with.

"Who is the employer after all? If you want to support me, wouldn't you be making a living? Why, you look down on my ability like this?" After the change, I felt that every word was harsh: "I can not only support myself, but also support two children, take care of the whole family, and feed you if necessary!"

After speaking, he lifted his legs and left, slammed the door, and sulked on the bed.

During the unhappy conversation, Xing Hao knew that the mute was right, and he shouldn't take his anger out on others.But he was very afraid, afraid of the long-lost gentleness and consideration, afraid that a man would treat him too well, afraid that he would fall into it, and he would be lost forever...

According to the almanac, it is not suitable to break ground in the next few days, so the Geng family's male and female daughter-in-law were buried in a hurry after only one day.Xingzhao was kind-hearted, so he went there again before the funeral. He paid 200 yuan and brought a lot of things for the child.

Is it possible to burial here? - The mute watched the funeral procession carrying the coffin, and under the leadership of Mr. Feng Shui, sprinkled money and danced to invite the gods all the way, along the winding path up the mountain, he couldn't help asking curiously - I thought it was all the time. Forced cremation, unexpectedly no one cares.

"Cities and regions above the county level must implement cremation, but here the mountains are high and the emperor is far away, and it is a multi-ethnic place where the policy is relatively loose. Didn't you notice that there is no crematorium within a hundred miles?" He thought for a while and added: "Ethnic minorities have many different funeral customs, such as cave burial, rock burial, water burial, sitting coffin, hanging coffin, etc., all of which are of research and scientific value. Besides, the national culture that has persisted for thousands of years cannot be ignored. The wishes of the local people were set on fire. The specific situation needs to be analyzed in detail, and a unified policy cannot be implemented simply and rudely.”

It is true that today, as the ethnic minorities are gradually sinicized, it is imperative to maintain their original life style and sacrificial ceremonies-it is enough to talk about this, but they are dumb and talkative-by the way, you are Miao, right? What do you plan to do in the future, and burial like them?

Because people who study medicine are used to seeing death, they don't shy away from talking about afterlife, but Xing Zou's answer makes the man completely angry.

He said calmly: "I don't have the idea of ​​resting in the ground. I signed an organ donation agreement a few years ago. All the organs that can be donated will be donated. The rest will be used by medical students for medical anatomy. What? When the time is used up, throw it away."

This is your decision?Leaving a child a specimen that can be hacked into pieces?Do you think it's okay to make them think of a pile of rotten meat every time they miss you - can't understand his madness, noble?Maybe yes, but the mute couldn't accept that he even donated his own body for autopsy or experimentation.Thinking of people who don’t know where they come from talking and laughing in class, discussing insignificant things, and cutting his body with a scalpel, the man can’t control his anger—donating organs can help more people Sure, but it's not necessary...

"It's up to you to do what I want to do." Xing Zou frowned and interrupted him: "The concept is different, and it doesn't make any sense to tell you these things."

Irritable, for some reason, the more he cares about everything about him, the more irritable he gets, which is not a good sign.

Walking forward in anger, he stepped on something round and hard, Xing Mao staggered and almost fell face-on.Fortunately, the man quickly hugged him from behind. The two of them were in a stalemate for a while, and the pregnant woman shook off his hand first: "Don't worry about it."

What did I do wrong, why do I hate me so much? Didn't I be fine a few days ago--the mute chased after him and asked.

If he doesn't answer, he will continue to ask; if he leaves, he will keep chasing after him.

The two walked back and forth in the melon field for a long time. The man was afraid that he would be exhausted, angry and angry, so he finally couldn't help it, hugged him, and locked him tightly with his strong arms. tantrums.Knowing that Xingzhao is still sulking, but not knowing the reason can't solve the problem, I want to write to ask, but when I let go of him, he wants to run again, so I can only hold him tightly, not daring to separate for a moment.

"You didn't do anything wrong. It's my own fault. I don't know what's wrong. Why did I..." Xing Zou rested his head on the mute's shoulder, his chest pressed against his chest, and he could feel his chest. Vigorously beating.He wanted to break free from this fiery embrace, but was locked up firmly. In desperation, he had no choice but to tell the truth. Fortunately, his self-esteem became the last line of defense, so he did not make a big mistake.He gritted his teeth, unable to reveal the second half of the sentence: "Let go of me, let people see what it is like!"

I won't let you go, never again.The mute said in his heart, but this idea could not be conveyed to the other party's mind, so he could only hug him harder and repeat silently: I love you, please don't leave me again!