Divorce!I want to feed you.

They deliberately keep a long distance when they go out together, and Qiu Ye dare not even look at Jingshan.After ordering a meal, the air is frozen if you don't chat during the blank time.Qiu Ye would rather be so cold than open his mouth easily.

He is also a man, so how could he fail to guess what Jingshan's vaguely profound words meant.I have endured the invisible pressure all the way, but the feeling of being humiliated in my heart has not subsided.As for how to communicate with him, Qiu also felt that he might not know the point for the rest of his life.

But then I thought about it, how could I have been with Jingshan for a lifetime.Even if they have more opportunities to meet as friends or because they live in the same apartment, as long as they don't want to see him or talk to him, the fragile and ridiculous friendship between the two will be broken immediately.Soon after, they will be strangers, the kind who will be regarded as strangers when they run into each other by chance.

"Qiu Ye?"

His train of thought was interrupted by Jingshan, and his head that was originally cranky came back to his senses in an instant, looking at the food that was delivered at an unknown time in front of him, Qiu also ignored Jingshan and started eating on his own.

"Why don't you talk? Is there any discomfort?"

Yes, from the inside out, the whole body is uncomfortable.

But Qiu didn't want to say that either.As long as you say it, the other party will definitely ask you, right?I don't know what made Jingshan care about me, just like I didn't know why Muma chose me back then.But Muma probably chose it because she was more gentle. She is so strong, maybe she just likes her obedience, which makes her worry free.

After drinking saliva, Qiu also felt that he had eaten enough.Although I haven't eaten all my portion yet, my stomach doesn't feel very comfortable, so I simply gave up.

"I'm fine, I'm just out of energy and don't want to talk."

"We slept together for six hours, are you so tired?"

The mood that had just calmed down was instantly ignited again. Qiu also felt the blood in his body rushing to his brain, and his face was obviously heating up.

Staring at Jingshan, Qiu Ye spat out a warning through his teeth.

"Please don't talk like that in front of others! It will be misunderstood!"

Looking at the distorted face because of embarrassment, Jing Shan thought carefully for a while.

"Okay. But you have to tell me why you have no appetite."

The man sitting opposite had focused and serious eyes, but Shuya was speechless with his mouth open.

Is it not because of him that I have no appetite?Today's Jingshan seems to be more abnormal and more difficult to deal with than usual.Qiu also thinks that he has never encountered this type of person in his life, and it is normal to be helpless now.

"I have an upset stomach, so I can't eat."

A word that was scribbled, but what Qiuya said was the truth.Ever since my stomach started to feel uncomfortable, from time to time there will be such a situation that it will start to feel uncomfortable after eating a little.But at the beginning, he was worried that his stomach would collapse first, but found that it was nothing serious. Qiu, who was lucky, didn't worry about it anymore.

"If you have a stomach problem, go to the hospital early for a checkup."

The commanding tone is really annoying.But in the name of the other party caring about her, Qiu couldn't refute it.

"Let's not talk about this. What time do you need to go out tomorrow?"

After eating, I remembered that I had agreed to Jingshan's kidnapping invitation, and I was going to see some solo exhibition tomorrow.

"You can sleep a little longer, and I will knock on the door to wake you up when it's almost time."

"No, you just need to tell me the time and place."

Finally, after suffering such setbacks for so long, Qiu also understood a little how to communicate with Jingshan.I can't say any unclear and ambiguous words, and I can't express euphemism because of politeness.If you don't want to, you have to directly refuse. This is really a difficult problem for people who have always been gentle and used to it.

"I'll pick you up at ten o'clock sharp."

Finally, when Jingshan finished eating, Qiu also had to wait very hard.After paying the bill, as if it had become a convention, Jing Shan silently walked beside Qiu Ye until near the hotel, where Qiu Ye persuaded him to go back for the second time.

"It's late, why don't you go back?"

Looking at Qiu Ye who was standing there, Jing Shan thought for a while but smiled.

"If calculated according to the time of waking up, it's morning. The park over there is nice, let's go for a stroll together."

If the Jingshan I met in the apartment was a piece of ice, the man standing in front of me now began to feel warm.He was melting, and the heat was starting to scare Shuya.

Lowering his head and remaining silent, the retreat from Qiu Ye's heart became more and more intense.It's okay to refuse, but at this time, why did I run away? Is it because I don't want to get along with him too much, or because I don't have confidence in myself.

But if he refused, he would never be able to understand it, as if he had made a major decision, when Qiu Ye raised his head again, he returned a relaxed smile to the other party, narrowed his eyes, and answered Jingshan gently.

"Okay, let's go for a walk."

If you don't understand now, Qiu can't guess how troublesome the future will be, but this retreat must be long and tormenting.

The park is not small, and there is a large man-made lake in it, and there are even rented boats next to it for people to row on the lake.

"Well, can you row?"

Jing Shan suddenly stopped, pointing to the dark boat moored on the shore.

"No, what's wrong?"

"Then let me paddle."

After all, he went to the rental booth to rent one, and stood by the side waiting for Qiu Ye to go up.

"No way? This looks so dangerous..."

Qiu Ye, who kept retreating, didn't move a step. Thinking of his very poor swimming skills, he began to imagine that when the two of them fell, they might be choked to death.

Looking at Qiuya with his head protruding from the toll window, the uncle spoke to the timid customer in a very strong Osaka accent.

"Don't worry, little brother, my boat is very safe! Don't worry!"

The uncle who was chartered said something, and Qiu, who blushed slightly, also began to hesitate.Jingshan doesn't seem to have much patience either, should he be unable to persist...

"Are you waiting for me to come over and drag you aboard?"

Jingshan's threat made Qiu Ye's heart ache, so he ran to the shore in two steps.

"Go up."

Seeing that the small boat is big enough for two people, and the gently swaying hull of the boat cannot be fixed on the water surface, Qiu, who experienced it for the first time, was very nervous, hesitating and not knowing how to get on it.Don't you need to wear a life jacket?What if it falls.

"That...do I need to wear a life jacket?"

With a tangled face, Qiu Ye looked at the uncle as if asking for help, and the other party pointed to the shelf next to it, on which were life jackets for people.But because of the usual wind and sun, it has faded and is a little dirty.Qiu couldn't help but refuse, hesitating whether to wear it or not.

"What are you worrying about, do you need me to carry you up?"

"No need no need!"

She quickly waved her hands to refuse, there was really no way out, so Qiu also jumped up without even thinking about it.And the swaying hull tilted slightly to one side and sank slightly after bearing the weight. He opened his mouth and didn't know what to grab. After seeing Jing Shan jumping up behind him and stretching out his arms towards him, he grabbed it without hesitation. .

"hiss……"

The arm pinched unsuspectingly was aching, Jing Shan took a slight breath, but he did not forget to fold his arms towards Hui Hui to keep Qiu Ye balanced.

"Are you an idiot? Jumping so hard, you expect me to go into the water to catch you?"

The timid man who had been refusing to let go slowly sat on one side after spreading his legs and standing firmly. Jing Shan, who was also much heavier than Qiu, sat down and found out that his side sank more obviously.No way, Jingshan let Qiu Ye sit still before rowing the boat away from the shore.

There are lush trees on both sides of the lake, and on a May evening that is warmer than Saitama, there is nothing but the quiet sound of paddling.Neither of them spoke, until Qiu Ye's nervous mood gradually calmed down, and his eyes looked around.

If only you are alone, such a quiet evening will be a very pleasant leisure time.You can think quietly, and if it is convenient, you can call Muma to chat, even if Muma never needs to worry about herself.

But now it's different.

Jingshan was right opposite him, swinging the oar lightly, looking at the scenery from time to time, more often at himself.I always want to ask him what's interesting about me, but Qiu also can't ask him.

"Qiuya, what does it feel like to be married?"

The two of them took the boat to the very center of the lake in silence. After Jing Shan stopped, he lowered his head and asked this question.

Qiu also secretly surprised, then smiled.

"Do you mean the wedding ceremony or life after marriage?"

"How was the wedding ceremony?"

Turning his head to look at the entire row of trees on the shore, the gradually darkened park began to light up.

"The wedding ceremony... is to swear ownership to everyone in front of everyone. Two people start to own each other, and then drink. Everyone wants to bless you, so it is likely to be drunk. But I drank that day A lot of champagne mixed with Sprite, in fact, it's quite uncomfortable to say."

Thinking back to the vague memory of the day of the wedding, Qiu also found himself somewhat resistant, so he stopped talking.

"What about married life? Is it that good?"

Qiu also understands that Jingshan, as a single person, cannot imagine the confusion of life after marriage.Maybe everyone has their own fantasies in their hearts, but in fact, no matter who they are, after they get married, it takes a period of time to realize that reality is inconsistent with imagination.Jingshan's confusion now seems to have happened to him.

After thinking for a while, Qiuya finally lowered his head and answered Jingshan in a relaxed manner.

"Well, that's about it. Aren't we all happy?"

"Are you happy, Qiuya?"

Not daring to raise his head to meet Jingshan's gaze, Qiu Ye could not hide the sadness in his downcast eyes.

"……happiness."

After a long silence, he bit his lower lip and squeezed out an affirmative answer.But the tightly grasped hands kept digging at the hull of the boat, and the oppressive feeling spreading in his heart made Qiu also breathless.

Qiu also no longer knows what kind of definition happiness is for herself.As long as Muma is around and the life pattern of the two of them continues, they will never understand what happiness means.Facing the unacceptable things numbly, and then paralyzing his entire nerves, resisting those unacceptable, seemingly complete, but broken truths in this way.

If you don't have the power to change others, try to change yourself. This is what Shuya has always believed in.No matter life or emotion, Qiu Ye is like a turtle shrunk in its shell.

"Why lie to me."

Staring intently at Qiu Ye, who bowed his head, Jingshan seemed to know everything, patiently waiting for Qiu Ye to tell the truth.

"Why should I lie to you?"

This unreasonable man is really difficult to deal with.But the constricted eyes that followed made Qiu Ye dare not face nothing to hide. In front of Jing Shan, no matter how much he pretended, he was inferior.

"Please tell me the truth, if you don't, I can throw you in the water until you do."

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Come, come, come~ Evil spirit, this man!