my husband's boyfriend

Chapter 60 Ling Qiusi's Last Wish

From the night when Ling Qiusi reappeared, until Que Hanshuang returned to the United States, An Ruqiu's expression was always calm, without the resentment and anger towards Xu Xiaobai at the beginning, what was left was infinite sadness and reluctance .

At first, he wanted to help Ling Qiusi fulfill her last wish so that her soul could rest in peace, but now, he didn't know what he should do. It wasn't because he almost lost again that he was reluctant to leave Ling Qiusi again, it wasn't that he wasn't afraid Will her soul be replaced and devoured by Ling Qiusi's soul one day? She simply feels that such detachment is too cruel for her...

"An Ruqiu..."

The voice in his head has been hesitant to talk to himself recently, but before Ling Qiusi can speak, he knows that Ling Qiusi must want to persuade himself to help her fulfill her last wish.Because An Ruqiu understands what her last wish is, and their brains are now connected, even if Ling Qiusi still doesn't remember what her wish is, it has passed An Ruqiu's request. Guess I know...

However, after An Ruqiu found out about it, he never said anything back to Ling Qiusi. No matter what Ling Qiusi said to him, how many times he greeted him, whether his voice was deep or pretending to be cheerful, he would never reply. He didn't answer again, as if he completely blocked this voice in another space in his mind. For the first time in more than three months, he had the idea of ​​wanting to escape from this voice...

"An Ruqiu...can you say something? You are always like this, and I always feel so sad..."

Hearing such a sentence after a few days, An Ruqiu's hands were stunned when he was working, and a bitterness surged in his heart, which made him even more at a loss.

"..."

But after hesitating again and again, An Ruqiu still couldn't say anything in the end, and he even forced back the tears that almost fell from his eyes suddenly.

"An Ruqiu...I beg you one thing..."

Seeing that An Ruqiu still didn't answer, Ling Qiusi said directly: "Help me lead Xiaobai and Xiaoman down the red line!"

An Ruqiu's hands trembled, and the bitter feeling that had subsided just now surged up again.

"If...you really don't like Xiaoman that much, you can switch to someone else. I think Frost seems to like Xiaobai very much. If you want to fulfill Frost, you can switch to Frost... ...don't the fat and water flow into outsiders' fields!"

Seeing that An Ruqiu still didn't speak, Ling Qiusi continued: "Alternatively... if one day you meet a girl who is suitable for Xiaobai... I just think that Xiaoman has been in love with Xiaobai for so many years. If it was her, maybe I would be more accepting..."

"how about you?"

After many days, An Ruqiu finally spoke to the voice in his head again.

"Me? Am I already dead? I no longer exist in this world..."

"Who said no more? Aren't you here now? Aren't you in my head?" An Ruqiu immediately became excited again after hearing this.

"Ru Qiu...I..."

"Why do you want to make such a cruel wish to yourself at the end of your life? Matching Xue Xiaoman and Xu Xiaobai? Then what do you do? How much does your heart hurt when you see Xu Xiaobai not denying the relationship with Xue Xiaoman? See How sad do you feel when Xue Xiaoman lives in his house? Match the two of them? Then what do you do? Do you know that you are not only torturing yourself, but also torturing me!"

"Ru Qiu...I...I'm fine..."

"It's okay, it's okay! It's the last moment of your life! If you really have any wish, shouldn't it be the desire not to die! To be with him again! To be separated? But what is your wish?

Seeing Xue Xiaoman and Xu Xiaobai together, on the one hand, my heart hurts like hell, but on the other hand, I feel relieved?Want to match Xu Xiaobai and Xue Xiaoman with your own hands?You are stabbing a knife in your own heart, you know that!Shouldn't rest be the most reassuring and happiest thing for you as a soul?But look at yourself, what kind of wish is that?Let me watch you disappear from this world with tears streaming down your face, in pain and sorrow?Then you might as well kill me! "

For this sake, Ling Qiusi finally couldn't say "it's okay" anymore, the two souls were squeezed into the same body and shed tears together, but they couldn't even hug each other and weep... …

"But didn't you just want to help me fulfill my last wish and let me rest in peace earlier?" Ling Qiusi said again after a long time.

"That's because my brain is rusty! Don't compare the previous psycho with the current me!"

"That's you too..."

Hearing this, Ling Qiusi's originally sobbing voice slowed down and simply turned into a relaxed chuckle.

"..."

"An Ruqiu... When I beg you... Can you?"

"..."

"It's been more than three months, and our souls have become more and more fused...Maybe I'm really just like you suspected before. I'm just an evil spirit, and I'm here to take revenge on you and devour you..."

"..."

"Since my death, you have helped me a lot, and Xiaobai a lot. I don't want to owe you so much, and I don't want to always cause you trouble, and I don't want to devour your soul and rob your body one day... I I don't want to hurt you..."

"..."

"An Ruqiu... There are six or seven years of affection between us, so let's see it off for me and trouble you one last time, is that okay?"

"..."

Ling Qiusi didn't see An Ruqiu's response, and said in a relaxed tone: "Guess where I went after I left you these few days?"

"..."

"Actually, even I don't know where it is. It was a snow-white, white world. Although I had little consciousness at that time, my mind seemed to be too lazy to think on its own, but I was more or less still I remember that world... and because of this opportunity, I seem to have mastered some methods that we can merge more slowly."

"..."

"Whether you like it or not today, I won't quarrel with you in the future. I will let myself be like those few days... I will actively seal my consciousness and try not to affect your life. In this way, you probably You won’t be affected by me anymore. You won’t worry about going out to sleepwalk at night, and you don’t have to worry about me giving you sleeping pills without your knowing, and you won’t let people see you talking to yourself Talking to myself, I think you are crazy...

But don't worry, even so, I am... no... my soul!I will still guard here, although I may not be able to help you, but I will still watch you quietly, protect you, and protect Xiaobai.Until one day...you have completely forgotten about me, and I can rest in peace.I think that disappearing secretly without even saying hello to each other like this should at least be more acceptable than this sudden disappearance.That's pretty good...really..."

After Ling Qiusi finished speaking, he also waited silently for a long time, waiting for An Ruqiu, who fell into silence again, to answer, but he never got an answer, even, he couldn't feel An Ruqiu's thinking, as if his brain, Since the conversation with Ling Qiusi started, it has turned into a void...

"Then...just take it as the last reward for bothering me, and answer me a question, okay?" After a long time, An Ruqiu finally spoke again.

"What?" Ling Qiusi asked back.

"If... I mean, if, in the past three years, Xu Xiaobai was not with you, or in other words, there was no Xu Xiaobai at all from the beginning, and you didn't die, and I'm still pestering you...you can still accept me ?"

After Ling Qiusi listened, she fell into silence this time... for a long time... for a long time...

"No matter what kind of thing, the past is the past, no matter what happens, there is no turning back..."

An Ruqiu smiled wryly, and said: "Although I already knew that I would hear such an answer, I just want to ask... Okay! Isn't it just to find a girlfriend for Xu Xiaobai! Who am I Ah! If you want to find a decent woman, you can catch a dozen!"

Pretending to be relaxed, the two fell into a long silence with each other...

"Then you have nothing to say to Xu Xiaobai?"

Ling Qiusi raised his head, but did not answer.

"Let's see him again for the last time! Take it as a farewell. Not for Xu Xiaobai, but for yourself." An Ruqiu added.

"I..." Ling Qiusi hesitated for a moment and asked, "Can I?"