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As expected of a father and son, even the lines came out of the same mold—the corners of the mouth involuntarily turned up when this idea came to mind, but they didn't complete all the movements.

After all, the action of "laughing" has not been completed in front of my father for a long time.

Qi Jin murmured back with that half-formed smile: "Just calling home...asking about the situation..."

Obviously the same as the reply to my younger brother, but the tone started to be sour and soft like the nose, like a piece of crumpled paper that can't be pressed back to its previous flatness.Qi Jin hoped that his left hand was not injured, so that he could hold the phone with both hands, otherwise he wondered if his hand would shake so badly that he accidentally dropped the phone to the ground.

The person on the phone was silent for more than ten seconds.

"nothing to say."

Sure enough, even the answer was the same.When the conversation reached this point, it finally ran into a dead end.

Sure enough, I still have to hang up.

Qi Chen felt that he did not breathe enough cold air before making a phone call, because he could still feel the biting chill in his chest, which made his shoulders start to tremble slightly.He tried to keep his tone within the range of not losing his composure: "Okay... I see."

The other party did not reply.

Qi Jin's thumb lightly moved to the button to terminate the call, but she couldn't press it gracefully for a while.Come on—he urged himself, because that person must be waiting for him to hang up.

But at this moment, my father suddenly said again: "What happened?"

Qi Yu was taken aback.

The other party paused at this moment, and added a sentence that could almost be said to be mean: "Did you get dumped by some man again?"

What my father said was nothing more than an allusion to the fact that I came out for my ex-boyfriend, but the other party chose to marry and have children, and left me alone to bear the consequences. It was obviously a sarcastic and hurtful sentence, but Qi Yu actually had a kind of Let go of a boulder-like lightness in your heart.

He actually felt that... he could handle such a conversation.

"I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm still as obsessed as ever," he said, citing his mother's catchphrase.When mentioning Shen Yan, he didn't stop the gratification in his voice from passing directly, "And... I met a person who treats me very well, and lives a very ordinary life every day."

"Humph."

The other party snorted coldly.

I can't tell if it's more contempt, more disappointment, or more surprise.

There was another long silence.

During the silence, the background music of the radio station on my father's side sounded clearer—it was a very old tune that Qi Si used to hear often.Familiar notes flowed into the ears one by one, as if someone had embedded fragments of memory into his mind one by one, recalling in a trance the scene after getting up every morning when he was still living in that home.

At that time, my elder sister Qi Xi had just graduated and was working in her hometown. She helped her mother cook eggs and filter soybean milk early in the morning, while he put on his school uniform while kicking his younger brother Qi Zhe out of bed, and hurried to take the bus to high school together after breakfast.My father would usually sit on the rattan old-fashioned rocking chair in the living room, swaying and tapping on the handle of the chair with his fingers following the tune.

He even remembered where the rocking chair was, what direction it was facing, and the "squeaky" sound it made as it swung back and forth.

Her lips parted slightly, and she blurted out: "I don't know why, recently... I always think of you."

The same is true during the "Changdi" game.

Subconsciously turned up the past memories and imitated his father's drunken and crazy behavior in his memory.The more vivid the performance, the more it can prove that my impression of my father still exists deeply in a certain drawer in my heart.And these days, the drawer seems to be opening more and more.

"Maybe I've been outside for a long time, even if I can't go back, I still think about it."

Whether it is the father or the family.

After finishing speaking, Qi Jin lowered her head and silently reviewed the tone just now, hoping that her voice did not tremble, and that her tone was not much different from usual.But the surrounding cold air was too strong, after all, he couldn't help but suck his nose.

The other end of the phone seemed to intend to remain silent until the end, without answering a word.

After a while, Qi Jin took the initiative to change the topic, so that both parties would not have a step down: "Actually, I called today because I have an interview later, so practice in advance."

"Practice? I've been a reporter for six years, and I'm still so worthless." It turned out that my father still remembered how many years he had been working.

"Because the subject of the interview is a mother," Qi Wei paused, not sure if it was wise for her to continue, but she had made up her mind.He took a deep breath and said slowly, "This mother...abandoned her son back then, and today I am going to ask her a few questions instead of her son."

Without waiting for any response from the other party, Qi Yu paused for a moment, then smiled self-deprecatingly.

"I was thinking, if I can calmly face my parents who abandoned me, then I can also calmly face her—if I can know what my parents think, I can probably know what she thinks too."

There was a slight rapid breathing sound from the microphone, which was obviously the prelude to the rage.

Qi Yu secretly squeezed the phone tightly.

It was as if his heart had been whipped, and his chest was pounding loudly. That huge impact was urging him to give up—but the conversation between father and son hadn't reached this level for many years, so he had to Force yourself to persevere, and don't click on the hanging line symbol on the screen.

The strange thing is that the other party did not hang up for a long time.

As if this is a contest to see who can endure more than whom, the atmosphere is tense and emotions are on the verge of breaking out.

"Dad," Qi Yan called out this already unfamiliar address, each word he uttered was hard, "Why do you think parents... can abandon their own flesh and blood? Let them go back outside Without a home, living alone?"

"It must be because her son did something wrong." When the father answered, the heavy panting sound hit the microphone again and again, which was extremely loud.

"No," Qi Wei interrupted sharply, "her son has done nothing wrong—never."

The two fell into a stalemate for a while.

After a while, the other party said coldly: "Maybe it's because her son didn't realize that he did something wrong."

Hearing this, Qi Jin smiled sadly, and walked a few steps under the wall, finally persuading herself to restrain her swelling emotions, and asked in a slightly trembling voice: "...you can't choose your own life experience, you can't choose some of the things you are born with. What is doomed, it turned out to be a wrong thing?"

The person on the other end of the call seemed shocked by his sharp tone and did not answer immediately.

Qi Qi couldn't stop.

"Dad, is it because I was born gay that I deserved to be in a car accident? Is it right to almost die in a car wreck? Is it right to lie alone in the hospital with two broken bones and no family to visit? In my most desperate When you can't go home, you can only work alone and go on business trips, is it right to paralyze yourself?"

After enduring years of questioning and screaming, Qi Min finally realized that she was out of control. She shivered all over, sweated suddenly, and returned to reality.

"I'm sorry," he panted slightly, apologizing in a low voice, "...I just digressed."

Even he himself was surprised that the call was still going on until now, and none of the parties hung up halfway.If it was me a few months ago, I would have pressed disconnection long ago.Others have the impression of him as a very gentle and open-minded person, but only he himself knows that he is actually stubborn in his bones.

Of course my father knew too.

"Ah……"

He suddenly smiled wryly.

"Actually, I know that you feel ashamed to have such an 'abnormal' son in your family." He murmured numbly into the microphone, "My sister has been married for so long, and she never dared to mention my story to her brother-in-law and his family. Something. Xiaozhe used to be so close to me, running behind me all day long, and now she doesn’t even want to say ‘Brother’. But you and mom…”

——I would rather not have my son.

Can't finish sentence.

His throat was choked and he couldn't make a sound.

Qi Jin's eyes turned around on the ground in a daze, then lifted up, and stopped on the plaster wall in front of him.He suddenly felt that after a person realized the thickness and height of the wall, standing under the wall seemed so powerless.Even if I wanted to go behind the wall, I couldn't do it.

"Actually, it doesn't matter what the reason is. What matters is the fact that you don't want me to go back, and I can't go back anymore."

He numbly took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

"So when I interview later, I don't want to beg that mother to accept her son again, reunite mother and son or something, because the damage has already been done, and it is impossible to pretend that nothing happened. What did she think... ...It doesn't have any real meaning to her son. Today, I want to ask her what she thinks now, whether she has regretted the act of abandoning her own flesh and blood back then, that's all."

At this point, what should be said is over.

"Thank you. After we chatted, I think I probably know something about the thoughts of these parents," Qi Jin said with a dry smile, but her tone was very frank.His finger moved to the end call button, and finally said goodbye, "...Dad, I hung up."

Unexpectedly, my father suddenly stopped him from performing this action: "Wait a minute."

Qi Min was stunned, her thumb that almost touched the screen froze, and she didn't press it down.

He heard a weak cough coming from his father's microphone. He was getting older, and his physical condition was not as strong as it used to be. His voice, which was damaged by tobacco and alcohol, was extremely hoarse when he spoke in a low voice: "The interview is over, please call me." Call back... tell me if she has."

Do you have--

Do you have any regrets?Do you mean this?

Qi Jin was a little dazed in his mind, and this idea surprised him even more than his father's initiative to ask him to make a second call home within the same day.

He blinked twice in a daze, and subconsciously responded: "...OK."

Yu Yin hadn't landed completely yet, and there was already a "beep beep" sound from the phone after the disconnection.And he actually listened for a while before slowly letting go.

The inpatient department of the hospital is still deserted at this time.Because the morning is the time for routine ward rounds, family members are generally not allowed to visit patients, and basically only medical staff walk back and forth in the corridors.

Fortunately, Qi Jin had done a report at the Provincial People's Hospital before, had a little contact with the leadership, and was a TV reporter herself, so the hospital always wanted to show some face in front of the news media.It is not difficult for him to win the opportunity to enter the inpatient area by relying on this relationship.

Qi Yu found the ward where the woman was without much effort.

However, the woman is not in the ward.

The nurse in charge of ward rounds told him that after waking up in the morning, women often go to a secluded corner and sit down alone, staring at the glass window in a daze for two or three hours, and rarely communicate with nurses or other patients.

"I don't see any family members coming to visit her," the nurse said.

Qi Min was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled wryly in her heart—Mother Shen, I never imagined that you and I had a similar experience.

"Good morning."

The woman was staring blankly at the half-cloudy gray sky outside the window in a daze, when she suddenly heard a clear voice greeting her, she was startled and turned her head in a hurry.

There were hardly any people coming to this place at this time of day, not even doctors and nurses passing by.

At this time, there was a young man standing quietly in the corridor.

The young man's clothes are simple and concise, a very simple white shirt, buttoned in a refined way, both energetic and laid-back, making him look very comfortable.In terms of appearance, it is not eye-catching, but the eyebrows are straight and generous, and even the standing posture is polite, and the corners of the smiling lips are lifted up, giving people an impression similar to the morning sun.

It's a pity that the left hand ruined the picture.

A sling held a thick layer of plaster on his left arm around his waist, and only the right sleeve of the jacket went in, and the left side only lightly covered the shoulder.

Anyone who saw him in that attire would know he had a broken bone, which was a good reason for his presence in a place like a hospital.

But it wasn't because of this that the woman turned pale all of a sudden.

It was because she recognized this person - when she met Shen Yan yesterday, it was this person standing beside him, obviously the person who was walking with Shen Yan.

"Ah..." The woman's face was bloodless, her whole body froze slightly, and she sat still in place like a stone, unable to move.

"Auntie," of course Qi Jin noticed this, but she kept smiling at her without changing her expression, "What a coincidence, your ward is also on this floor."

After finishing speaking, without giving the woman an excuse to get up and leave, he first pointed to the position beside her.

"If Auntie doesn't dislike it, can I sit here?"

The woman looked terrified, but she couldn't think of a reason to refuse, so she lowered her head and moved slightly away.While Qi Jin sat down calmly, the soles of her shoes were grinding on the floor over and over again, as if she wanted to kill time as soon as possible.

On the surface, Qi Zhen was lowering her head and brushing off the dust on the bench, but in fact, her eyes had been watching her body language.

"Auntie," he called softly again, "Has Auntie had breakfast yet?"

The woman didn't speak, but shook her head hastily.

"I know, the food in the cafeteria here is really not good." Qi Jin had the experience of being hospitalized, and she said everything as if she was really still in the hospital.

The woman still doesn't speak.

What Shen Yan said to the nurse was true, she didn't like talking, and it was even more difficult for her to speak to a stranger like herself.

At this time, Qi Min lowered her eyelids slightly, and suddenly smiled "heh".Rather than laughing, it would be more appropriate to say a sigh.Probably feeling a little surprised by such laughter, the woman looked at him slightly sideways, only to see that he had a desolate expression, staring at the floor for a long time without saying a word, and the time of staring at him was unknowingly prolonged.

"However... For a person like me who doesn't have family members to visit, no matter how unpalatable the food is, he can only swallow it slowly by himself," he whispered, "otherwise what else can I do?"

When the woman heard this, she loosened her hand in a daze, and no longer tightly grasped her wrist.

To let go also means to let go.

If people with the same disease can meet each other in the world, then perhaps the place with the greatest opportunity is the hospital.Resonance is often the first key to open the chatterbox——

"You... your family doesn't want to come and visit you?"

Hearing the first sentence spoken by the other party, Qi Jin's eyes lit up slightly, but they were buried in the shadows, not letting the other party notice.

"Well," he replied in a muffled voice, and even raised his hand to gently wipe the underside of his nose, "I was in a car accident, with double fractures of the ulna and radius, and the people who dealt with the scene said it was lucky that I didn't die... and now, I am alone People were hospitalized, but no one from home came over.”

"Car accident..." The woman's face turned slightly pale, and her voice trembled when she repeated it.

Obviously, the car accident sounded like a pretty scary experience to her, and it was unbelievable that no one came to see her because of the specifics of the injuries Qi Shi had described.

Qi Jin glanced at her when she lowered her head and muttered.

While observing, he pointed out the most important piece of information without any trace: "Even my biological parents... didn't come."

The woman trembled and was speechless for a while.

Qi Yu didn't intend to continue talking because he had to wait.Waiting for the other party to ask him why——

This process is a test of a person's patience, especially when he is not sure whether he can really let the other party take the initiative to ask questions, such waiting is simply a kind of torture.Fortunately, this torture did not last long.

"Why?" the woman asked.

The voice betrayed the violent struggle in her heart, trembling slightly.

Qi Jin was silent, and took a deep breath.

After a long time, he finally confessed with a gloomy expression: "Because...they don't want me anymore. I was abandoned by my parents many years ago."