Last Words of Rebirth

There is an old saying that there are only those who can be thieves for a thousand days in the world, but there is no one who can guard against thieves for a thousand days. When Pei Jiamu rolled over his wheelchair and let his arms relax so that he fell into the water, he thought of such an insignificant sentence.

Others, I have said it hundreds of times, and I have left what should be left, so I have no regrets.Oh, one thing, certain people who live in a certain mansion will never see their retribution in this life, if they can become ghosts after death...

No, even if you become a ghost, you will definitely spend all your time looking at Tongtong, and you will never look at those disgusting people who make you want to pull out your eyes.

So be it!

The warm water poured into the lungs, and the severe pain hit. It seemed that he lost consciousness in an instant, and it seemed that he was still conscious to control himself. After all, he didn't struggle to get up!

Looking outside through the water for the last time, the dazzling golden fragments made it impossible to see anything clearly, but Pei Jiamu knew that outside the window, the sun was scorching like fire, the tall trees were dark green, and there were cicadas and frogs, the world was so beautiful!

It won't be long before Ji Tong will come back, and he shouldn't look ugly at that time.

……

In the supermarket, Ji Tong's heart was beating wildly, his head was hurting like a needle, and he staggered and half knelt on the ground. Several different fruit bags in his hands fell to the ground, and half of a watermelon smashed the ground full of red melon juice.

The crowd queuing at the front and back suddenly dispersed, and the supermarket staff in charge of weighing tentatively came over and asked, "Sir, what's wrong with you? Do you need an ambulance?"

Ji Tong struggled to stand up, took out some money from his wallet, "I pay you watermelon." Then he ran towards the parking lot almost crazily.

Running a red light, overtaking, almost hitting someone at a corner, stopping suddenly, Ji Tong rushed home at a speed beyond ordinary people, the door of the villa was opened a crack, the curtains of several windows fluttered in the breeze, and the air was filled with the fragrance of surging sea water.

That's Pei Jiamu's favorite smell, so I specially learned how to perfume and handmade perfume for him.

It's so overwhelming...

Ji Tong crashed into the door, the huge TV wall in the living room was connected to the computer rack, there were several familiar fonts on the computer screen and the wall, [Tong Tong, goodbye ^_^] The sound of rushing water was like thunder hitting the ears , Ji Tong rushed into the bathroom, and the huge double bathtub was surrounded by small waterfalls, and water flowed outward.

Pei Jiamu was lying on the bottom of the water with a peaceful and smiling expression, his slender eyebrows stretched out, his straight nose was not wrinkled, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, as if he was sleeping in a flowing crystal, his hair was softly sinking and floating, and occasionally strings of water bubbles came up.

Kneeling on the cold ground with a plop, Ji Tong picked Pei Jiamu up, checked his breath with trembling hands, slid open the first aid board next to the bathtub and called 120...

Thousands of words came to my throat, Jiamu, why did you lie to me, your words don't count!you do not believe me?Why are you willing to let me go?Please don't go! ...

Can't say a word!

Ji Tong sat with Pei Jiamu in his arms for a long time, and was torn apart after the doctor arrived, and then watched them call the funeral parlor, and then cleaned and changed Pei Jiamu according to someone's instructions, and watched him be put into a risky room. Air-conditioned drawers!

The color of the world is gone!

Go home with the help of friends in a trance, sit down quietly, and drive away all the people who are making noise for different purposes.

Why is he so sad and relieved to leave?What to look forward to?What will always be with me in the future?

You are not him, how do you know? !Where am I willing to look to see what is your business?I do not care!Go away, go away!Get out of our house! !

The night was dark, the cicadas were singing loudly, and the cool wind poured into the house. Ji Tong, who was sitting stiff, suddenly jumped up, ran around quickly and closed all the windows in the house.

If there is no wind, the smell of Jiamu will last longer.

Going back to the bedroom of the two of them, holding the other half of the pillow and opening his eyes until dawn, Ji Tong got up with bloodshot eyes, washed meticulously, opened the closet, picked out the most handsome clothes that Pei Jiamu had said, took the cuffs that Pei Jiamu had chosen, and buttoned them. Put on the watch he gave you and fasten the tie he gave you.

To accompany him, to see him off for the last time, he drew a smiling face after saying goodbye, so, don't cry!

Pushing open the door, there was a car outside the yard, two piles of cigarette butts, and two buddies squatting on the ground looking up at him at the same time, stood up and rubbed their hands, and finally said nothing.

Zhou Han came up and patted him on the shoulder, "Let's go, I've chosen the place as you said."

The other Zhao Xuanyu hurriedly opened the car door, "Don't drive, the two buddies are fine today."

"Thank you." Ji Tong didn't refuse, and sat in silently. Among his friends, these were the only two people who had a peaceful attitude towards Pei Jiamu, and they finally didn't miss him.

Without telling anyone, it took only three days. With the help of two friends, Ji Tong sent Pei Jiamu to the beautiful cemetery outside the city, which he once said was very good.

After finishing his work, the two of them accompanied him on the ground in front of the monument. Zhou Han held back for a long time, "Jiamu hopes you are doing well."

Ji Tong nodded, "Yes."

Zhao Xuanyu thought for a while, "It's good that you know, don't feel at ease if you ask him to go, let's go." Turning around and taking a step, he stopped again, "If you can't let go in front of the two of us, come tomorrow by yourself , Say what you want to say, cry once you want to cry, just be careful when driving."

Ji Tong nodded, "Okay." Following Zhou Han's pressure on his shoulders, he also got up.

After walking for more than ten meters, I walked around the path of the cemetery and looked back. The person in the photo was too small to see clearly, but it seemed clear in my mind that he was standing in front of me.

Ji Tong stopped for a few minutes, then slowly turned around, and walked out step by step.

Zhou Han and Zhao Xuanyu sent him home, Zhou Han was careful, went into the house and checked the refrigerator, quietly sent a message to his girlfriend to ask, lost some things, drove out to make up some, and patted him before leaving, " My buddies will come to see you tomorrow, don’t starve yourself to death. I’ll give you a short vacation without deducting your wages.”

Zhou Han works as the financial director of Ji Tong's company, and Zhao Xuanyu, who is in charge of technology, also agrees, "I will solve all the problems for you, you should take a good rest, and come back to work when you are willing."

"Go, I understand in my heart." Ji Tong waved his hand, "Let's go, let's go."

If there are too many people, the taste of Jiamu will be diluted...

The door clicked shut, the sound of the car starting outside went away, Ji Tong wandered around the room a few times like a soulless person, touched Pei Jiamu's computer with his fingertips, and the dormant computer started up.

A villain popped out of the specially customized desktop and asked, who does Pei Jiamu love the most?

Ji Tong choked up, "Ji Tong."

The villain opened the screen saver like a curtain, in the middle of a folder, a few simple words [To Ji Tong] Ji Tong opened the file, and inside were the photos of the two people who have been together for so long, some documents, thousands of words. audio.

The photo files were organized by Ji Tong according to Pei Jiamu's request. You don't need to look at them to know what's inside. When were those audio files recorded?

He opened the first one almost shaking his hands, and said a few scattered words, "I woke up in pain last night, I raised my head and hit your chin, and got stubbled. handsome."

The next one, "I secretly watched some kind of movie, if I can get better, I am willing to cooperate with you in any way."

"I can't like rainy days anymore, not even snow, I'm afraid my heart will hurt, so I won't tell you."

"I'm being selfish again. I'll be even more sad if you hear me say the above. It doesn't hurt that much. It's as warm as a stove when I'm close to you."

"I'm afraid that you will remember me and feel sad when you think about it, and also afraid that you will forget me. If you really have a soul, you will probably have nowhere to go."

……

After listening to dozens of pieces, Ji Tong took a deep breath, turned off the audio, backed up all the files several times, and put them on different electronic devices at home, for fear that if something happens, they will never be found again.

Then he went to the kitchen calmly, cooked three dishes and one soup with meat and vegetables, had a full meal, took a bath, returned to the bedroom, lay down on Pei Jiamu's sleeping side, looked at the ceiling for a while, and closed his eyes.

All the sensor lights in the room were turned off, and two lines of tears finally flowed from the corners of the eyes to the temples.

The next day, Ji Tong got up at six in the morning as usual, made breakfast for himself, went out for a jog, walked along the path they walked twice, went home, opened the work mailbox, and found that his subordinates thoughtfully did not send anything.

I wanted to tidy up the room, so I turned around and everything was tidied up, there was nothing to do.

...to turn audio back on.

"Fool, you cried yesterday. I knew you would only listen to so much. I'm sorry I was so cruel to you, but as long as you cry every day and cry every day, let all the things in your heart flow out, then think about it and it will pass. You told me mine."

"Think about what I said before. You don't need to forget me, and you don't need to remember me in particular. When you hear Pei Jiamu, you will think, oh, the person you used to be is enough."

"Sure enough, it's snowing. I've gotten better recently. Listening to the previous things, I actually want to make you cry all the time. I'm a big bad guy."

"People are selfish after all, so I really hate those men and women who surround you, and I just want to yell at them, Ji Tong is mine!!! My tonsils are all exposed, so stupid..."

"It's not good. If you have more people in the world who are kind to you, you can be better. I probably need a psychiatrist."

"The sunshine in spring is so warm and the flowers are so beautiful. I don't know if I can watch it for another season."

……

It took a week, listening to a little bit every day, and finally came to the end.

"I've made a decision, I'm not afraid of anything, I'm just afraid that you won't be happy. Maybe I overestimated myself, time can wipe everything out, I don't want to be too sensational, I've tortured you enough, it's too much I can’t even face it myself. So, after I’m gone, please find someone who loves you again and treat yourself better.”

Across the thick green leaves, Ji Tong sat quietly for three days from the room covered with specks of light like broken gold to the moonlight sprinkled like a veil, without a drop of water in, without moving an inch, after the new sun rose , stood up stiffly, slowly opened the door and went out.