Premeditated favor [rebirth]

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The winter night wind carried a biting chill, but it couldn't match the coldness in Fu Nianyu's heart at this time.

He had already forgotten how he hung up the phone, and when he came back to his senses, he had been sitting at the desk for an hour in a daze.

why?

His mind was full of the same question.

Why lie?Why don't you tell me the truth?Why would you rather stay alone in the dormitory alone than go to Shimu's party?

He remembered that Zhou Ye said that Chi Fan originally wanted to attend the party, but he changed his mind only after he asked.

Because of me?

He changed his mind because he knew I was going to participate?

but why?

Fu Nianyu really couldn't figure it out.

Is it because you are still angry?Because of the unpleasantness of that night on Christmas Eve?But when he and the other party apologized that day, Chi Fan didn't show any resistance. The other party's attitude was normal, and this matter should have been turned over.

Or because...he doesn't want to see me at all?

This thought made him feel hesitant. Fu Nianyu suddenly remembered that when Zhou Ye told himself that Chi Fan would indeed not attend the party, he said another sentence at the end.

——The matter of the showdown I mentioned earlier, you can wait a little longer and talk about it later.

In fact, even if Zhou Ye didn't say that, Fu Nianyu didn't plan to show his cards so quickly, because he knew very well that there was no chance of winning now.

In his last life, when he and Chi Fan had the best relationship, it was about the same as it is now. Even because the two lived together and shared the same bed every night, there were much more ambiguous behaviors than now So much so that he once thought that Chi Fan had feelings for him.

But it turns out, not at all.

Chi Fan left as soon as he said he would, and Fu Siyan was the last choice instead of him. What he thought was ambiguous was just ridiculous wishful thinking.

I have the experience of my previous life as a reference, and I am very clear that now is not the best time, but Zhou Ye started to support him in the showdown, but suddenly changed his mind a few days later, Fu Nianyu didn't think there was a problem at the time , Now that I think about it again, I feel very strange.

He guessed that Zhou Ye might have felt something after chatting with Chi Fan.

For example, he saw that the reason why Chi Fan temporarily changed his mind was related to himself.

So, the question comes back again?

why?

Why in the end!

Fu Nianyu supported his head with his hands irritably, feeling his whole body trembling slightly.

After the play ended, the subtle estrangement between the two of them was indeed not his illusion. Not seeing each other for two months already explained the problem. It was him who was unwilling to accept this reality at all, so he deluded himself into believing in the other party? Just too busy.

However, it is no longer meaningful to dwell on the reasons at this time.

After all the results? Already? Obvious.

——Chi Fan is hiding? Him.

Avoid meeting him even at the expense of lying.

After a long time, Fu Nianyu put down his hand covering his eyes and took a deep breath.

His eyes were dark, and his expression was a bit gloomy. Only when his eyes swept across the small music box on the desk, did he have some ripples.

He picked up the music box, stared at it for a long time, gently twisted the mainspring, the wind chime-like music flowed out, and the warm light was projected from the hollowed-out stars. Two little people sat on the steps, facing each other. Fu Nianyu, who was gazing quietly at them with a smile, had no expression on his face.

The music of the music box stopped, and the room became quiet again. The golden stars on the music box were still twinkling, making the dark eyes staring at it also stained with a little bit of golden starlight.

Fu Nianyu was silent, and suddenly stretched out his hand to press the switch. The golden stars disappeared, and the golden starlight in his eyes also disappeared, leaving only a cold darkness.

Desolation and silence permeated the room wantonly, and laughter came from someone, making this corner with only one lamp lit even more quiet and desolate.

After an unknown amount of time, Fu Nianyu stood up, put his coat on his body, and strode out.

***

Chi Fan put away his books and glanced at his phone. It was almost eleven o'clock.

What he told his roommate was not entirely a lie, he really wanted to go to bed early tonight, but the sound of the party on the side of the school square was very loud, and he wondered if he would be able to sleep for a while.

In order to relax, he went to the bathroom and took a hot shower. When he came out to dry his hair, he opened WeChat again.Those people at Shimu may be playing some kind of game, and those who are punished will be given red envelopes in the group. Chi Fan clicks in and swipes the screen quickly, and those who are lucky will shout twice in the group, completely One can imagine how hot the scene was.

Chi Fan casually clicked on a few red envelope records and looked at them, suddenly feeling a little strange.

He didn't see Fu Nianyu's name.

Although it can be considered that the other party didn't grab the red envelopes at all, it doesn't make sense that he is also on the scene in a game that everyone participates in. He is the only one so special.Chi Fan frowned, and scrolled through the chat history for a long time, and saw that Shang Yang had posted a few videos an hour ago, clicked on it, and it was a video of them singing in a KTV, and the camera of the video was rotated After one lap, basically everyone present was photographed, but... Fu Nianyu was not present.

Could it be that he didn't actually go?

Chi Fan's heart suddenly tensed up. After thinking for a moment, he clicked on Shang Yang's chat interface.

——Brother Yang, didn't Nianyu join you tonight?

It may be because Shang Yang has been staring at the phone, he replied very quickly.

--No!He said he couldn't come.

Chi Fan was taken aback.Fu Nianyu really didn't go?

—Why didn't he go?

——I don’t know about this, what’s the matter?

——Nothing, just asking.

Chi Fan put down his phone, thoughtful.

Fu Nianyu didn't go to the party with everyone, so? Where did he go?He definitely won't go back to his home. Either he has another appointment with other friends, or he didn't go anywhere and went back to the rented house by himself.

The former is fine, if it's the latter...

When he came back to his senses, Chi Fan realized that he had turned on his phone again, with his finger resting on Fu Nianyu's number.

Want to ask one? Ask?he thinks.

But what about after asking?If the other party is really alone, what should I do?

If it was him a year ago, he would definitely go to Fu Nianyu without hesitation, but now that he has more worries, he hesitates instead.

He stared at that number for a long time, finally made up his mind, and was about to press it when there was a knock on the door.

At first, Chi Fan thought he had heard it wrong. After all, no one should come to visit the door at this time, but someone was indeed knocking on the door.

"Who?"

I don't know if I didn't hear his inquiry, but the people outside the door didn't speak.There was a square window on the door of the dormitory. Chi Fan didn't open the door hastily, but opened the square window first and took a look.

"You..." Seeing the people outside the door, Chi Fan was stunned, "Why are you here?"

The teenager standing outside the door didn't answer. He didn't have any expression on his face. He just glanced at the quiet room through the square window, and finally turned his gaze to Chi Fan.

"Senior Chi Fan," Fu Nianyu looked at him steadily, with a light voice, "won't you invite me in for a sit down?"

***

After Fu Nianyu came in, he didn't say a word.

When Chi Fan handed him the cup containing warm honey water, he didn't take it either, but just looked at him without saying a word.

Chi Fan originally tried to explain why he was alone in the dormitory, but seeing Fu Nianyu like this, he knew that there was no need to explain.

Fu Nianyu must have known.

Knowing that there are no group activities in the dormitory at all, knowing that I? Deliberately rejected the Shimu party, and I may also know...I? Deliberately avoided him.

The silence in the dormitory was like a sticky swamp that couldn't be opened, it was suffocating.Chi Fan knew he had to say something, he took a deep breath and said softly.

"I... I thought you went to Shimu's party."

Fu Nianyu twitched the corners of his mouth abruptly, and there was no smile in his eyes: "You didn't go, why should I go?"

With a sudden jump in his heart, Chi Fan subconsciously clenched the cup in his hand. He was silent for a moment, then pulled over a chair next to him, wanting to sit next to Fu Nianyu.

But just as he sat down, the boy suddenly stood up, as if he didn't want to get too close to him at all, walked to the other side, and distanced himself from him.

Chi Fan was startled for a moment, and then an unspeakable bitterness rose in his heart. This clear refusal made him embarrassed and embarrassed, and he had no right to question or feel wronged.

Because this is simply what he did on his own.

He was afraid of exposing his feelings and dared not see Fu Nianyu again. Now that the lies are backfired, the other party hates him and hates him, so he deserves it too.

"You came here specifically to stand here for one night?" Chi Fan looked at the person by the window, "Just say what you want to say."

"I said?" Fu Nianyu smiled coolly, "Shouldn't it be the senior you said? Tell me why you alienate me, avoid me, or even lie to me these days?"

Chi Fan moved his lips, and then muttered after a while.

"……sorry."

"Don't apologize, I didn't come here to hear this!" Fu Nianyu suddenly took a few steps forward and stared at the person opposite.

"I want to know why, I want to know why you did this."

Chi Fan clenched his fingers. He knew that the only way to calm Fu Nianyu's anger was to tell him the truth, but he couldn't.

He couldn't say it, and he couldn't say it. If he didn't say it, they would at least remain friends. If he did, maybe today would be the day they broke up.

"Why don't you talk?" Fu Nianyu was cold on the surface, but he was anxious and chilled in his heart. He didn't understand why at this time, the other party still didn't say a word, "Chi Fan, what are you thinking? You must have something to do Hiding it? Me."

"I just..." Chi Fan lowered his head, not daring to look at Fu Nianyu at all, "I just... don't want to destroy our relationship."

"Don't want to destroy our relationship?" Fu Nianyu repeated it softly, and laughed angrily, "Don't you think this is ridiculous? Hasn't our relationship been completely destroyed? A few days ago, if? No I took the initiative to look for you, maybe we haven't met yet, it's you who have been pushing me away, if this isn't breaking the relationship, what is it!"

Chi Fan's eyes were a little sour. He took a deep breath and tried his best not to tremble too much.

"I really can't say."

Fu Nianyu held his breath in his chest for a while, and he paused for a long time before he spoke one word at a time.

"Today I must know the answer." He took a step forward with his long legs, and sat directly next to Chi Fan, holding his arms in a posture of wanting to smash to the end, "If you don't tell me, I won't leave!"

At this time, it was approaching zero, and the atmosphere of the party in the square reached its climax. Several hosts could clearly be heard shouting excitedly? Counting down, and even downstairs, there were people laughing loudly? Counting down the seconds together.

Compared with the hustle and bustle outside, the atmosphere inside the room was tormented and dull. After a moment of stalemate, Chi Fan stood up.

"Okay, if you don't go, I'll go."

He turned around and left. When he put his hand on the doorknob, he was suddenly grabbed by someone. He opened the door with a small crack and then slammed it shut, leaving layers of echoes in the empty corridor. .

Chi Fan gritted his teeth and tried to open the door again. This time, the other party pressed his whole body over, leaning against his back and firmly pressing him against the door, holding his hand It hurt him so hard.

"Chi Fan!" He heard that?

"If you dare to walk out of this door today, we will break off our friendship!"

Chi Fan's body trembled violently.

Break up.

Cut off friendship.

There is no longer any contact, any relationship, turning a blind eye, like a stranger, always?

——This is what he fears the most, and even thinking about it is completely unbearable.

I can't tell whether it's despair or hopelessness, it's like a spring stretched to the limit suddenly collapses completely, at this moment, it seems that nothing matters, and it can't matter anymore.

"You really want to know the reason no matter what?" Chi Fan heard himself? Asking this? His voice trembled violently.

Then? Just hold? His hand never relaxes: "Yes."

As if standing on the edge of a cliff and staring into the abyss, Chi Fan's heart suddenly became silent, and he put his head on the cold door for a long while.

"Okay, I'll tell you."

The people behind seemed to be relieved, but they still held his hand tightly.Maybe it was numb, Chi Fan couldn't feel the initial pain anymore, the only thing left was the scorching temperature of the other party's palm.

But maybe, this is the last time for him to feel the temperature of the other party.

The zero o'clock bell was heard from the square in the distance, and the sound of cheers was louder and louder. Suddenly, gorgeous fireworks bloomed in the dark sky, one after another, one after another. In the film, the eyes that look up excitedly cast unforgettable beautiful colors.

"because……"

Chi Fan was suddenly very glad that his back was facing Fu Nianyu's, so that he would not see the other's expression, and would not be discovered by the other party's cowardice and weakness.He closed his eyes, and the tears he had been holding back all the time finally flowed out uncontrollably after he opened his mouth.

"because I like you."

He finally spoke up.

The person walking on the edge of the cliff jumps in relief at last, and is then swallowed by the bottomless abyss, just like the room is swallowed by great silence and silence at this time.

After a long time, he heard the unbelievable voice of that person behind him.

"You... what did you say?"

The hand that was holding him loosened.

Even though he was psychologically prepared, Chi Fan's heart still ached like a prick.Pressed? The strength of his body also left, and he couldn't stand anymore, and he slid to the ground while holding on to the door panel.

"Because I like you..." He curled up and covered his face with his hands, weeping uncontrollably, "Fu Nianyu, I like you!"

He endured it for a long, long time, and finally he was able to express his heart unscrupulously. At this moment, he didn't want to think about anything, and he didn't dare to think about it. If he had to say something, then at the last moment, Let him be willful for a while.

"I like you, not from friends, but from lovers. I know it's wrong. I'm panicked and scared. I don't dare to let you see it. That's why I alienate you and hide from you. You, I'm afraid of you." Once we know, we don't even have to be friends, I'm scared, I'm really scared..."

"Senior." He heard that panicked voice, "Senior, Chi Fan, I was wrong, I was wrong, stop crying, okay?"

He tried very hard to hold back the tears, he didn't want the other party to see himself so embarrassed and weak, but the tears still couldn't stop overflowing from between his fingers, and fell to the ground drop by drop. .

In a daze, he felt a soft touch from his fingers, as if...someone was kissing? His hand.

Chi Fan was stunned.

The shock made him relax the strength in his hand, and the hand covering his face was easily pulled away by the other party, and then that person's gentle kiss fell on his face.

The other party kissed away the tears on his face little by little, from the corners of the eyes to the cheeks, and finally settled on his lips.

"If you're really that scared, stop being friends."

That? Personally.

"Chi Fan, be my boyfriend."