rejuvenation

I looked up at Xiao Ke, his face under the light was the same as before, he said such heartbreaking words, but he was still so calm, my heart was full of confusion: "You never like to explain, and you will never make a decision." Change... Since he knows your personality, how could he still beg you to humiliate himself?"

Xiao Ke was silent for a long time, but gently stroked my face with one hand, his eyes were full of nostalgia and pain: "Then why do you disobey me again and again? You and him, to me, are different from others , why do you dare to ask for love from me, but he doesn’t dare to fight again? Is it just me who persists, and he..." He stopped talking suddenly, obviously because he didn't want to doubt my feelings for him at that time. It's not his fault, we were all too young back then... none of us believed we could love to the end.

I choked up slightly in my chest, because I had experienced parting and life and death before I knew that I loved him, but I never thought that he would become like this.I stood on my knees and supported his knees, and looked deeply into his eyes: "Xiao Ke, have you ever thought that if Lin Guansheng hadn't died, would he be like me if he had been under your doting for so many years? Just because of trust You, that’s why you feel angry and dissatisfied with the harm from you, and he also feels unhappy with your forcible control, but he still strives to get in the way of concept. Most people in this world live an ordinary life Only by realizing your own value can you have a sense of happiness in life, you should not impose your own ideas on me because of your shortcomings in life, or even use any means, you have changed, and of course he will change."

Confusion and astonishment flashed across Xiao Ke's eyes at first, and then his eyes gradually became sharper. He pushed me away, stood up, and took his coat: "No, Xiao Wu, don't try to play Lin Guansheng anymore, just be yourself, psychiatrist You should go and have a look." The fragility and loss before seemed to be just an illusion, and he turned back to the ruthless and calm President Xiao.

I knelt there, feeling chills in my heart, and suddenly said coldly: "You don't like Lin Guansheng, but it's because he's out of your control, which makes you have lifelong regrets, so your life is not perfect because of it. That's why he treats you differently... In fact, the Lin Guansheng who loves you wholeheartedly is just the perfect Lin Guansheng that you keep packaging and imagining with your memories and your own fantasies? If he is still alive, you will still marry you , Live your days at the peak of power, feel a sense of accomplishment for being able to finally dominate the lives of others, and then impose what you have experienced on others, you have become the person you hate the most, and then you still think Lin Guansheng will love you as deeply as he remembers..."

Xiao Ke took his coat and walked towards the door: "Whatever you say, you have no right to comment on the matter between me and him, even if you are his son."

He left the room and we parted badly.He didn't come to work the next day. I heard that he was on a business trip.

Zhang Lingyuan made an appointment, and I called Ning Yin. He had no interest in Zhang Lingyuan, but he still came out when he said he was going to climb a mountain.

The three hadn't seen each other for a long time, and they were a bit unfamiliar at first, but Zhang Lingyuan is not what it used to be, and the conversation was very appropriate. Even with Ning Yin, he could ask the key points one by one, as if he had been paying attention to the domestic fashion industry. In fact, It can be seen that he should have made preparations in advance. Even though Ning Yin is still aloof, he is still gradually able to talk to Hong Kong... I seem to be an accompanying guest who can't get in the way. Ning Yin obviously loves his current career very much , and Zhang Lingyuan can actually say a few more words, even quite confident, while Zhang Lingyuan is full of enthusiasm, obviously full of confidence in the future.

They are serious young people with many plans and plans for the future. They are full of vitality and their eyes are full of pride.I put on a 16-year-old shell, but I already have the heart to retire.

I really don't have the energy and mood to spend with Xiao Ke.

Maybe those loves in the past have already ended with Lin Guansheng's disappearance in this world. Xiao Ke kept saying that he loved me, but he loved Lin Guansheng in the past. In fact, our breakup was right at that time. become strangers to each other.

I don't have any interest in his life, we have a huge gap, it's time to make a decision.

I have been in a silent trance, and suddenly Ning Yin pulled the ponytail, I looked up in surprise, Ning Yin pursed his lips and satirized me: "What are you thinking? You made an appointment with someone, and now you are acting alone like this What are you looking haggard for?"

I couldn't help but laugh: "I'm like this, I can't keep up with what you guys are talking about...what brand of clothes or something."

Zhang Lingyuan comforted me: "It's because you work too hard. My little uncle has arranged everything for you. Look at your clothes, all of them are custom-made, which suits you very well."

Ning Yin smiled but said, "It's really an enviable life in the palm of your hand. You don't need to use your brain, you just need to follow his arrangement."

I didn't speak, Ning Yin stabbed my sore spot.

I have never faced the fact that my fate with Xiao Ke was broken 15 years ago.No matter how affectionate and infatuated he is, he is just a poor man who is immersed in the past and unwilling to wake up, and I am confused by the missed stories he created, mistakenly thinking that he really loves me.

In fact, it's just because we haven't made it to the end, and we haven't had time to show our true colors, so that what we can't forget about each other is the good side of the past.

In the evening Zhang Lingyuan sent me back and asked me, "Xiao Wu, why do you look unhappy?"

I looked at him and smiled: "No, but if I am no longer your uncle's son, will you still consider me a friend?"

Zhang Lingyuan was slightly stunned: "Uncle is very good to you, but I am not friends with you because of uncle. I will return to China after the Chinese New Year. If I am busy with homework, I may not be able to come back from time to time."

I smiled and waved him to go. This young gentleman with a nimble, mature and stable wrist will only make more and more friends, and then gradually forget me.

I should go back to my class, everything in the Xiao family has nothing to do with me.

In the evening, I sent an email to Xiao Ke.This e-mail has been useless for a long time, but Xiao Ke is surprisingly nostalgic and stubborn, so I think he can still receive that e-mail.

Sure enough, the call came soon: "Do you have Guan Sheng's email password?"

I smiled: "I still have an email address that you don't know about."

Xiao Ke paused there, and said word by word: "What do you mean by sending those things?"

I laughed softly: "It's just a screenshot to prove that I have this thing, a birthday gift that has not been sent out for 15 years, can I get my own life back? Xiao Ke, are you curious about what he kept? What for me? Since you like Lin Guansheng so much, you should want this gift very much, right? The last memorial he left for you, a birthday gift that was forever suppressed because you suddenly decided to get married, inside And what he said to you... It's very suitable for you who live in the past forever. You can watch this video every day to satisfy your obsession. Your lover will always express his love to you youthfully and will not violate you. love you forever."

There was anger in Xiao Ke's voice: "Are you threatening me?"

I smiled: "You don't need it, but don't ask hackers to hack my computer. You can't find it. I haven't logged in at home. I will ask you to pay the conditions first before logging in and sending it to you, or You choose to still want me to fulfill your dream, so let this gift be buried in the past forever, because it was never given anyway."

Xiao Ke was silent for a long time, his voice was bone-chilling: "Your conditions."

I clearly put forward my request: "I want to break away from the guardianship relationship with you. I have reached the age of 16. Although I am not, I know that you can just find any orphanage for me to be affiliated with; I want to make a complete decision. You will never interfere with my own life, including studying and working; I want innocent people not to be threatened by you because of me."

It was a long time before Xiao Ke said coldly: "Xiao Wu, I really underestimated you." Then he hung up the phone.

I can almost imagine his rage over there, as I've been living powerlessly in the palm of his hand along the track he's set... I'll once again impress him with my successful escape from his grasp, I believe he will agree, and once he agrees, he will never break his promise.

Because it was a very large-scale short video, it was popular at that time to shoot such photo videos to commemorate their youthful and young bodies, and even many couples went to take pictures together as a commemoration.I had nothing at the time, but my heart was full of love. Seeing him staying up late every day to pursue his career, and being gloomy and silent every day, I had nothing to repay. I got inspiration from the Internet. Of course I didn’t dare to let outsiders take pictures. I quietly bought a video camera myself. , I filmed this at home, of course it was very clumsy at first, I took a lot of rough films, then I gradually let go, and then edited by myself for a long, long time, to find out all the things that I think can best show my young body and not The explicit shots, I even taught myself how to do video special effects for a long time, took many shots repeatedly, edited repeatedly, and planned to give him a birthday present - I tattooed for him, shot this short video for him, and made a lot of things that I have never seen before. Something out of the ordinary that I didn't think about, because I really wanted to make him happy with all my heart.

After such a long time, even though I finally sealed this short video tightly, I still remember that I was exposed to the camera with a red face, and wrote "Xiao Ke, happy birthday, I will always be yours" on my body in watercolor. Eager to please my lover.