unrequited temperament

Leaving the charity banquet, Gao Cen drove the car on the highway at a very high speed, concentrating on driving and throwing away all unknown emotions.He let out a long breath, feeling that the inexplicable feeling of oppression finally dissipated, and his rationality slowly returned to his mind.

The family was already urging marriage, and he began to think about what kind of woman he should find to marry.It is best to be rational and not to pursue illusory love.He is low-key, unassuming, and emotionally stable.

"Bang..." A car came across, even though Gao Cen braked in time, it still collided with the car in front.

He opened the door, got out of the car, walked to the opposite car, and knocked on the door.The person inside held the steering wheel with both hands, his head was lowered, and he didn't move after knocking on the car door.Gao Cen knocked a few more times, but when he saw that there was still no movement, he made a quick decision, went back to the car and took a hammer, smashed the glass immediately, and stretched out his hand to open the car door from the inside.I tried the snorting of the people in the test car, and there was breath, and I checked my whole body, but there was no injury.Gao Cen's serious expression relaxed a little.

Move the person into his own car and drive to the hospital.

Before arriving at the hospital, the people in the car woke up.

Gao Cen slowed down and asked, "Are you awake?"

The man looked at Gao Cen, but did not speak.

Gao Cen: "What do you think? Are you going to the hospital?"

The man finally said, "I remember driving the car by myself."

"We crashed and you're unconscious."

"Where's my car?"

"It's still where it is. I've already found someone to deal with it. My name is Gao Cen, what's your last name?"

"My name is Liu Xu. There is no need to go to the hospital."

Gao Cen turned to look at the people behind him: "Why don't you go for a full body check?"

Liu Xu pressed his forehead with one hand, closed his eyes and said, "No need." He needed to sort out his memory.He needs to know if the time of his arrival is correct. Does "he" exist at this time?Do they have an intersection?

Thank you!Wherever you are, I will find you.

"Liu Xu" inspected his memory and smiled slowly.

Gao Cen looked at the person in the back seat in surprise, why is this person smiling so gratified... and excited!

***

There is nothing around, it is empty, like a chaotic world.There is only one woman wearing a green skirt, opposite him.

"you are?"

"I'm Xie Yun." The woman's tone was slightly melancholy.

Xie Yu looked down at himself, he was still her.She should be exactly the same as the opposite, except for the difference in clothes. "Where are you?"

"..."

"Do you want to come back?"

"Xie Yun" shook his head.

"If you can, come back, I will leave." Xie Yu's heart suddenly burned with hope, if she came back and he left, maybe he could return to his world.Even being a ghost would be fine with him.Just go back to his Baixi Township.

Only when I can't go back do I know how much I miss it.Maybe he should go see his parents too, they're old, even if they're still ashamed of him.Who told him to be born of them in this life.You have to settle the last fate to be free from worries.

But the woman still shook her head.

Xie Yun: "Can't you come back?"

She didn't speak, just looked at him with confused eyes.

"Then you...do you have any unfulfilled wish?"

"I want to stand in the most dazzling place." She replied as if she suddenly thought of something.

"Standing in the most dazzling place?"

She nodded, her gaze changed from blank to firm, and she said with a more emphatic tone: "I must stand in the most dazzling place, wait..."

"Wait for what?"

Before the words were finished, her image had turned into particles and dissipated.Xie Yun's eyes suddenly became dark.All the light comes from "her", and when she disperses, the light also disperses.

This is the seventh time I have dreamed of "her", and I don't speak every time, but this time I finally heard her speak.

Stand in the most dazzling place!Is this what she wants?

Why doesn't she come back to fulfill her wish by herself?He is willing to leave.He is not "she" after all.Or maybe she can't come back?

Her waiting, in the dazzling place.And his waiting is here, maybe this is not his waiting.

"What's on your mind recently?"

Xie Yu plucked the strings under his hand, looking at the valley with scattered eyes.Hearing Guan Shao's question, he quietly replied, "I have a wish that has not been fulfilled."

"What wish?"

Xie Yun shook his head, but did not answer.

Early the next morning, Xie Yu did not go to the top of the mountain to play the piano as usual, but went to Qingyan Temple.He stood in front of the main hall in Guanli, looking at the statue of Sanqing.He stood for a long time, until some pilgrims came to offer incense, then he turned and left.

Xie Yu left the hall and walked towards the door, the Zhike Xiaodao who was guarding the door shouted: "Miss Xie Yu, go slowly."

Xie Yun stopped, nodded towards the path, and was about to leave when the master of the temple, Qingshan, came from the path on the left, and there was another older Taoist beside him.

"Miss Xie. Is there anything that cannot be decided?" Qing Shan asked Xie Yun slightly after looking at him.

Xie Yu was not surprised, and replied: "There is someone else's wish that has not been fulfilled, and I don't know whether to fulfill it or not."

"Go." Qing Shan said directly.Xie Yu was slightly surprised, and Qing Shan smiled slightly: "It's better to ask for it before it's over."

Xie Yu let go of his tightly locked brows in an instant, and said, "Thank you, Taoist priest." After paying tribute to the Taoist priest next to him, he left.

After Xie Yun left, Qing Shan's calm face showed worry.The Taoist next to him stroked his beard and said, "Master Qingshan, this girl has a strange face."

"Daoist Qi, what did you see?" Qing Shan asked hastily.

Daoist Qi shook his head: "It's strange if you can't see it."

Qing Shan showed disappointment and said: "I'm not good at reading fate, so the Taoist priest can't tell?"

Daoist Qi shook his head, and after a while he suddenly asked: "Does she have the intention to join the Taoist sect? I think she is a person who is different from ordinary women."

Qing Shan: "I once asked, and she said that she has already agreed with a Taoist priest to be a teacher and apprentice. She is unwilling to join other sects."

"Oh. Is that so?" Daoist Qi said, "Who did she make an appointment with? There are not many people in this world who are really capable. I don't know how strong the Daoist she made an appointment with? Don't miss my son. That's good."

Qing Shan shook his head: "That's not clear. She once asked a Taoist priest surnamed Min. According to her, I have never heard of that Taoist priest."

Daoist Qi: "My surname is Min? Old Daoist, I have never heard of any outstanding people with this surname."

Qing Shan: "There are always a few talented people in the world who are unknown to outsiders, maybe the Daoist with the surname Min is that. Or maybe he is the lay surname of a real person who is famous for his Taoist name."

"It's possible what you said."

**

"You want to get out of here?"

"Well, I'll leave in a few days." Xie Yun said.

Guan Shao: "Where are you going?"

"Go back to town."

"Then I'll take it to you."

Xie Yun: "I will drive."

Guan Shao: "I'll also go to the city by the way."

Xie Yun nodded: "That's fine."

The day before Xie Yu planned to leave Baixi Township, Liu Xu suddenly came again.

Xie Yu was very surprised to see him, not surprised that he came, but surprised that his whole person seemed to be different.It looks much deeper, and it is no longer the boy who can be seen through at a glance.

The two sat facing each other on a stone table next to the magnolia tree in the yard.There is tea on the table.After Liu Xu drank a glass, he filled the glass again.Xie Yu looked at his movements of pouring tea, as if he was very skilled.

"What's the matter with you?" Both of them were silent for a long time, and Xie Yu spoke first.

With a smile on his face, Liu Xu raised his own cup and lightly touched the cup in front of Xie Yun to show his toast, then he finished drinking in one gulp.Xie Yu picked up the cup and took a sip slowly, then put it down.

Liu Xu finally spoke: "Do you still remember our agreement?"

"Agreement?"

"Yes, we have an agreement? Have you forgotten? You promised that one day I will make a film and you will act. Now I am officially the director. There is no heroine. Is your promise still valid?" Liu Xu said calmly, But the eyes kept looking at Xie Yun.

Xie Yun: "Are you officially directing the film?"

"Yeah. I'm a newcomer and no one wants to shoot. You have to help me."

Xie Yu looked at the tea floating in the cup, and said slowly, "Okay."

"what?"

"it is good."

Liu Xu laughed: "Are you serious?"

Xie Yu stretched out his hand to brush off the magnolia flower that fell on his shoulder, and said, "I'm also planning to return to the city to continue my original work."

"You mean you planned to go back to the city to make a movie?"

Xie Yun nodded: "Yes."

Liu Xu's face slowly showed joy: "Okay, then we have a happy cooperation."

In the dead of night.

Beside the magnolia tree, Guan Shao and Liu Xu sat facing each other.

Liu Xu looked at Guan Shao: "She's going back, won't you go back too?"

Guan Shao looked at Liu Xu and thought to himself: I haven't seen him for a month, and this person has become a little unclear.

Liu Xu approached Guan Shao and said softly: "You are from Buddhism, you will convert to Buddhism in the end. It is impossible for you and her."

Guan Shao's clear eyes darkened, and he looked deeply at Liu Xu.A strange smile suddenly appeared on Liu Xu's face, and he said, "You always have no chance. No matter in the past, present, or future."

"Who are you?" Guan Shao asked for the first time.

Liu Xu stopped the smile on his face and said in a low voice, "The person she will choose in the end."

……

Holding the Buddhist beads in his hand, Guan Shao sat cross-legged on the hard floor with his eyes closed, reciting the Heart Sutra silently.But the endless ghosts of ghosts are in the mind.They all said to him "he is the one she will choose in the end".

No, it never occurred to him to possess.He just... temporarily guarded her for a while.Of course he will eventually convert to Buddhism...

With a "pop", the beads broke, and the beads scattered on the ground.

Suddenly opened his eyes, looking at the broken string of beads, Guan Shao's eyes became clear.

Early the next morning, Xie Yun took a guqin and some clothes and got into the car.Guan Shao stood beside his car and said to her, "Since someone is with you, I won't see you off anymore."

Xie Yu looked at Guan Shao and nodded: "Okay."

Guan Shao: "Contact me if you need anything."

Xie Yun nodded again.

Liu Xu came over: "Xie Yu, are you sure you want to drive your car to the city? Are you afraid that someone will recognize you? Although after more than a year, you have been silent for most of the time. But there is no guarantee that no one will miss it. I I saw someone posting your car and license plate on the Internet. You used to hide here all the time, and no one could find it. Now if you go to the city, you might be discovered by someone with a heart and cause unnecessary trouble.”

Xie Yun hesitated a little.Liu Xu smiled and said, "Let's leave your car here. Take my car. No one knows you."

Xie Yu thought for a while, then said: "Forget it, let's do it like this." She must have her own means of transportation.Or change the license plate number.

"Leave your car, take mine." Guan Shao said suddenly.

"Your? Yours is not low-key." Liu Xu reminded.

"The car that drives here is not the one used in peacetime." Guan Shao explained.

Xie Yu thought for a while and said, "Then use your car first."

Guan Shao went to drive the car out, parked it on the side of the road, and moved Xie Yun's things to his car.

Xie Yun and Liu Xu drove away one after the other.

Watching the two cars go away, the faint smile on Guan Shao's face gradually faded.

It seems that something is missing...

Looking at the villa in front of him, Guan Shao thought of the words of Venerable Wen Du, "Everything is nothing but vain, and you must not keep clear. You are born with a predestined relationship with my Buddha. I am waiting for the day when you voluntarily and completely convert to my Buddha."

He never thought he would convert to Buddhism.His ideal has always been to make music and sing the most affectionate songs.He wants to sing affectionate songs, but he has never loved deeply.If you haven't loved, how can you write soulful music?

Until I met her!

But he has already stepped into the Buddhist gate curiously, which is a path with no retreat.

He never thought he would convert to Buddhism.His ideal has always been to make music and sing the most affectionate songs.He wants to sing affectionate songs, but he has never loved deeply.If you haven't loved, how can you write soulful music?

Until I met her!

But he has already stepped into the Buddhist gate curiously, which is a path with no retreat.

**

The car drove unhurriedly on the not spacious concrete road in the countryside, passing green crop fields and houses in the village along the way.

Xie Yu remembered that he used to live in the master's farmhouse and never set foot outside.So I have never seen what the scenery along the way from the farmhouse to the city looks like.And when he first went there, he was in a daze, didn't take a good look at the surrounding scenery at all, and didn't know whether the scenery on the road in that world was the same as here.

He must go back.

Even if you can't find your way back.

He believes that since he can come here, there must be a way to go back.

If there is no way, one must go back to cultivating the way.

Practice, practice, practice...

He had to practice, that was the only hopeful way.

Liu Xu looked at the car speeding away in front of him, and immediately accelerated.Look at the closer distance.It's as if the distance between them is also shrinking, until finally, they can always sit together seamlessly.

Just the two of them.

Ah meteor.This time, in this life, he will never go wrong again.He will remove all obstacles.No one can stop him.

A dim light burst out from Liu Xu's eyes.When I saw the figure in the car in front of me, I softened again.