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To forcefully and persistently guide and hold the hand of this monk who is also a man like him, and hug his young and cold back with his backhand, and want to use violence to actively kiss him, want to have a thorough relationship with him Experience the love of mortals.

This act is crazy and doesn't care about the consequences.

In fact, Gu Donglai was already going crazy with anxiety. In this situation, Fang Dinghai, who would be separated from him at any time, had already made him lose his sense of normalcy and security.

He just wants to prove one thing now, at least this person can have a faint heart for him, or want to touch each other and kiss and cross the border. She turned her face to herself without wanting to touch him at all.

"Enough, Gu Donglai."

Fang Dinghai, whose eyes were still injured, closed his eyes tightly and remained motionless, his complexion was almost white.However, Gu Donglai went too far, occupying the increasingly narrow and suffocating distance between the two of them and keeping him silent.

"……so what."

He bowed his head and fell silent for a while, then couldn't help but began to tremble and lose control of his emotions, even the sharp and piercing Gu Donglai propped his hands on the door behind him and deliberately pressed against him.

But he felt that the other party's indifference to him was clearly expressed in almost every body movement.

"Did I make you feel so much like a scourge worse than Buddha's poison? Then why did you save me so recklessly? Look at yourself dying now. You are no longer a Dharma monk. It's..."

"I didn't give you anything, I just kept thinking about you in my mind... I plotted against you, and finally killed you, why did you pay so much to Gu Donglai in exchange for this kind of unrequited thing... "

The man with long curly hair was obviously looking at him and smiling, but his face was so crazy and extreme that his smile had never been so white as a piece of paper.His lips were covered with blood and rain, but his eyes also held the monk's face firmly and looked at him with deep obsession.

"Gu Donglai, it's enough... let's stop."

"Some things... don't need to be so clear at all."

Regarding this, Fang Dinghai, who was surrounded by all kinds of poisons, didn't even want to approach him with a single finger. He was wearing a white Buddhist monk's robe that was dust-free, desire-free, and without any evil thoughts and desires. On his shoulder was the blood of Gu Donglai's injury. A string of white Buddhist beads, he stood in the temple with his eyes closed, but he didn't look at the person in front of him who didn't look like Gu Donglai at all.

"I can't... I can't figure it out. But in your heart... you already understood it. Fang Dinghai, I have told you everything in my heart, but you still want me to say that sentence to you personally Just give up, don't you?"

"square--"

"enough."

"Fang Dinghai... Ever since I saw you at the foot of the mountain three years later, I have been thinking about one thing all the time. You shouldn't have picked up that amulet that day to meet me there. Today You shouldn't risk your life to save me, because it will only make me treat you for the rest of my life—"

"—Gu Donglai, I tell you to stop immediately, do you understand?"

Because he couldn't see anything at the moment, and didn't want to hear the words from his mouth, the monk could only stumble and use his hands on the side of the wall to go up suddenly to stop his absurdity of pushing forward and knocking each other's arms together.

Because he was blinded by the magic arrow, his eyes were seriously injured and it was pitch black.The behavior of trying to stop the other party in this chaos was too rough, and Gu Donglai, who was completely scolded by his strange tone for the first time, stopped talking.

The two of them didn't speak together and just pressed against each other's shoulders.

They were saying sorry for different reasons in their hearts, but they were full of guilt and sadness for each other.

The flower tattoo under the empty black shirt of the long-haired man was torn off and the skin was bleeding. The threatening voice in the young monk's ear had already suppressed his anger to the extreme, but this look fell on him obsessively. His Highness King Ming who was on his body just looked at him stubbornly and resignedly, then pulled away his bleeding lips, closed his eyes and recalled,

"It's because you are always like this that I get stuck a little bit, which makes me become like this for you."

"I always want to say nothing, just...looking at you...I want to go over and hug you...kiss you, and hide with you in a place where no one can do all the things that mortals can do together. I I will start to think that you look good in white monk clothes... and seriously recall the way you talk to others..."

"I want to stay by your side, be close to you, make you happy, love to laugh, and be friends with everyone around you... I want to really understand you, help you, and walk with you Between you and me... there were originally more roads."

"I really think that the two of us will walk together, a long, long way... don't be afraid of anything in the world..."

"Ten years, 20 years, maybe longer, maybe Gu Donglai and Fang Dinghai won't have to say goodbye to each other like they did back then..."

"I even thought that everything I did was about to succeed, but...but, all this is still ruined..."

Speaking of this, Gu Donglai was completely flustered in his always proud tone.He once again began to hate himself from the bottom of his heart, hated that his hands could not protect the person in front of him, and that's why he made things like this——

"Fang Dinghai, if you... use your method of dealing with monsters to kill me now, I will continue to tell you the truth in your ear."

"My God, I'm already madly in love with you alone. Even if you kill me, I won't resist... because, you see, even if you hold my hand like this, My heart beats fast."

"I don't even know when it all started, but I really gave the two of us a chance. I think that everything is not so absolute, and we can live well without anyone, but... It was this cause and effect that made us meet again, and it was also you who asked me to stay for you, so that I became possessed, went crazy, and finally became what I am now..."

"I like you... I unilaterally violated the worst and most damning precept against you. I like you, Fang Dinghai...Fang Dinghai, I really like you...you come with me, I will save you." You, I will definitely save you..."

When Gu Donglai was in desperate need of a sense of security at this moment, he closed his red eyes and hugged his back to finish speaking. He was already crazily close to their bodies. Confession, but the long-haired man couldn't control the words anymore, and kept breaking the balance maintained by the two of them with words.

He likes Fang Dinghai.He likes Fang Dinghai.Gu Donglai likes Fang Dinghai.Fang Dinghai, please, tell me, you love me too, just tell me, you love me too.

Gu Donglai, who seemed to have given up all his self-esteem and beliefs, told this person these words loudly in his ears over and over again, braving the heavy rain on their heads.His personality was already proud and strong, and he leaned forward against the door while talking.The eyes that were completely obsessed and filled with love were at this moment insane and absurd to the extreme.

This long-haired man who was completely influenced by the inner demon clearly put all his love for this person in his heart, as if possessed by a demon, on his face.Because he is the kind of person who has such passionate emotions and has always wanted to express himself with extreme publicity.

The love in his heart must be hot and hot to tell this person all.

My God, he couldn't bear it, and really didn't want to bear it for a moment.It was also at this time that I felt that Gu Donglai was about to go crazy. The calm, stubborn, and firm monk in front of him, who seemed to be forever wanting to shine on the world with his bright and compassionate Buddha heart, let the two of them hold onto his fingers. Each other's blood fell on the white monk's robes and slowly said,

"Gu Donglai."

"...We are all Buddhist disciples."

"When I was young, I had no father or mother. I was born as an orphan who was picked up at the gate of the temple. I didn't even have another redundant identity other than Buddhist monk."

"Becoming a monk is not my way of making a living, it is not my ideal career, and it is not a way to live and maintain food and clothing. I don't have the wishes of so many ordinary people, but becoming a Buddhist disciple is my whole life."

It was this sentence that made Gu Dong lock his face tightly and refused to miss a glance, and his eyes were suddenly filled with bloodshot eyes.His expression was indescribably blank at this moment, his fingers were so pale that he had to close his eyes in pain, and let a strand of long hair on his cheek fall down.

His whole heart seemed to be beaten to the most fearful and painful place by this damn monk.

The blood flowed down the scarred atrium, but he couldn't do anything.

The young monk's eyes could no longer see anything, so he could only follow him with his shoulders and lost the warmth of each other's voices and continued to speak.

This is the most damn cruel punishment in the world.Smash the indestructible shell of such a great man as King Kongqueming, but he can't escape from the ten-direction pure land of Longquan Mountain, but this ruthless and damned monk still doesn't care about Gu Dong. Lai's mood persisted and stubbornly continued.

"...One, don't kill. Two, don't steal. Three, don't commit adultery."

"Four, no lying. Five, no binge drinking. Six, no lunch."

"Seven, don't wear fragrant flowers and manly precepts. Eight, don't sleep and lie on tall and wide beds."

"Nine, don't move form/consciousness indiscriminately, have no heart, no thoughts, and desires throughout your life. Form/no/different/empty, empty/not/different/form, form is empty, empty/is/is/form, and the same is true for thinking and knowing. Take refuge in my Buddha for life and protect three thousand sentient beings."

"A lifetime of... the precept of not loving."

"Longquan Mountain has a saying from generation to generation that the monks who guard the temple must abide by the nine precepts. The last one is not to love. It cannot be changed in life. The poor monk has been a monk since he was a child. From the time he decided to become a Buddhist monk in Longquan Mountain, he could not get rid of his burden of guarding the temple. It is the responsibility of monks not to leave their duties without permission.”

"Even if these eyes are destroyed this time, it has nothing to do with me saving you. All of this is nothing to worry about, let alone Duke Ming blame himself for it."

"This is what a believer should do to a Bodhisattva. Apart from the five aggregates and seven emotions, all the poor monks in this world can give you. Even if it is like when we first met, we didn't take some things seriously, and help each other practice together again. Only for the help of becoming a Buddha."

"But only, the one you're asking me to take away now. I can't give it to you."

"Gu Donglai, what I did for you from the beginning to the end was never to influence you, blackmail you and seduce you to make you fall in love with me in the end, and lose yourself just for me alone, and now you are still messing with yourself Into... like this."

The two of them faced each other under the ginkgo tree that covered the entire temple, one step away from the pattering rain, and the person who couldn't get through was drenched by the rain just like the person in front of him. , can't tell what it feels like now.

The two of them seemed to stab each other with their scars all over their bodies as soon as they got close.With unyielding and arrogant, a long distance that cannot be crossed in a lifetime.

During this 400-year distance, they used to be able to look into each other's eyes, but now it's gone.

In this regard, with his eyes closed, the world was in darkness, and Fang Dinghai, whose whole body was made of ice, couldn't help but want to touch Gu Donglai's long hair that fell in front of him with his hand.

The two are cold to each other.This was in stark contrast to the mess of the Buddhist beads that were broken by two people and the falling rain.

"Gu Donglai's heart should always contain his persistence, just like I have my heart and what I insist on."

"Other things are not as important as the responsibilities shared by Dharma Seng and King Ming. And at this point, it is the determination of you and me to become a Buddha. The four elements are all empty, and we all take refuge in my Buddha."

"...The poor monk has always had a deep affection for King Ming."

"I am a friend who has always trusted in my heart to you, and a buddhist couple who stand side by side hand in hand, but to you, there is only... no love."

Fang Dinghai's words that insisted on bringing Gu Donglai back to his normal state despite the current miserable situation made Gu Donglai open his eyes with one hand covering his sore eyes that could not shed a single tear. When he opened it, his heart seemed to be hit by [-] Taos, and the roar in his ears passed through the air.

On the face of the long-haired man, tears kept falling, one drop after another.

Puddles of water, big and small, were still floating down the steps of the monastery following the falling flowers.

But the tears flowing down his cheeks, as if they couldn't stop, just rolled down Gu Donglai's chin without warning, like a broken thread.

Deep affection... righteousness?

no love?

Who would have thought that it would be such a simple eight words, and he would support him all the way until now, without sleep, and he would always walk side by side with this person, Gu Donglai, who never fell down, was killed on the spot.

He opened his red eyes and stared blankly at Fang Dinghai. In the chest that was shattered by a knife, there was a emptiness that had cooled down after being crushed by reality after a hot confession. Gu Donglai finally understood. What is the feeling of heartbreak for a person, but he is no longer a teenager

The peacock who can do whatever he wants.

He has lived so long that he can understand everything in the world, but he has not lived so long that he really doesn't take this simple sentence to heart.

For a moment, he licked his bloody lips with forbearance and despair, and his wet long hair blocked the endless tears from his eyes. He just wanted to knock the face of this damn Buddhist monk to one side, but he couldn't lift it up. He raised his own hand that was so weak and incompetent.

Seeing that the two of them really came to this point, the two Buddha hearts in the broken chest really looked like Gu Donglai who had been split open, so he completely unilaterally grasped himself with this person's hand and let go of it little by little. .

At this point, the two hands that only touched a little skin were completely separated.Then, the long-haired man seemed to open his heart completely to the world and open his arms to face the rain.

"...haha...hahaha! Love...devotion...devotion and righteousness, but no...love...no love..."

After a great pain and grief that was irreversible, Gu Donglai, who seemed to be experiencing a great enlightenment, had already taken a step back and fell on the pillar. He raised his arms to block his eyes.His whole body was shivering in the terrible cold rain, but he didn't want this person to touch his embarrassment.

His lips were bleeding, and blood flowed out of his mouth.The hoarse and crazy laughter in that voice sounded like a madman in the rain.

He lowered his head and laughed with all his strength, while leaning against the pillar of the steps to cover his eyes, and at this moment, with the palm of his hand, he pushed away Fang Dinghai whose arm was about to lean against him.

In the next second, the drenched hair and red eyes of the long-haired man were replaced by a back figure who turned around and left without any regrets.

"..."

At that moment, the two passed each other quickly at the gate of the temple in the rain.

Pulling away from the beginning to the end, except for the sound of him getting farther and farther away from him, Fang Dinghai didn't know what happened to him at all, through the foggy white bandage, he only saw the other party pulling away from him at close range.

The voice from the other party seemed to be about to cry, almost trying to make him grab him.

But when he wanted to grab the opponent's hand, he failed for the first time, and only held it in the air.

It was pitch black, Gu Donglai's aura disappeared, and the young monk who was so startled by the sound of the ancient bell ringing from the top of the mountain in the middle of the night that he couldn't recognize where the other party was stopped, his heart went blank.

Where is Gu Donglai?He said where he was going.

Gu Donglai, where are we going? Why can't I see him no matter what.What the hell happened to him.

This was the first time in his life that he could only hold up his hands in a daze to catch the air, and his hands were so weak that he couldn't even tell where he was standing under his feet.

He finally fully realized the consequences of not having light.

At that moment, Fang Dinghai looked at Gu Donglai who he couldn't find in the darkness. He was obviously blind and was poisoned by Buddha, but he was still doing his best to firmly support the young monk who supported everyone in Longquan Mountain. He even felt that he was a stone. There is a strange pain in my heart, which is as hard and ruthless as ever.

His lips were so white that he was about to fall down in the next second, and the blood that could no longer be swallowed in his throat mixed with raindrops and fell to the ground along the pale corners of his mouth, and was diluted again, as if he would never have pain .

Fang Dinghai, who must be ruthless, has no color even in blood.

Other people's blood is red, but his is white, but his eyes can't see anything, half-life may already be a cripple.

And with his current state, he couldn't walk towards him staggeringly and firmly, he could only reach forward and groped in a dark daze, and couldn't feel the cold and sad tears on Gu Donglai's face.

Neither of them saw the other's appearance at this moment.

Although it was only a step away, no one saw anyone.It was like returning to the screen where no one could see the other again, and the one that prevented people from seeing each other appeared in front of the two of them again.

View at ease.Contemplation of self-nature.

You can't see each other's suffering, and you can't touch each other's hands.

In the end, none of them continued to surpass their own distance under such determination. When Gu Donglai turned around and missed the moment of the true expression on Fang Dinghai's face, he only let go of the water drops in his palm, closed his eyes and pressed his head. Looking at the rainwater that fell from the two of them one after another, they closed their eyes that seemed to be unable to open at the moment with a self-deprecating but helpless look and pulled the corners of their mouths.

"Gu Donglai's teachings from Fa Seng today... will be kept in mind throughout his life, and will never be forgotten."

"At this moment... the Buddha poison in your body, the crisis outside, and the person who made you like this today, I will definitely find it for you, but as you wish, we are no longer cause and effect, more I'm not friends anymore, I'm leaving right now."

"I don't have the face to appear again... in front of you."

As he said this, the long-haired man who could no longer hold back a drop of tear down his chin when he lowered his head walked up the steps step by step with his soaked shirt on.

King Peacock Ming, who was proud and never bowed his head all his life, finally lost his heart for a monk.

In the past, when he was deeply in love, he shed tears because of his hometown and his sister when he missed them.He is not that strong, and even tears easily because of his rich emotions, which he has known for a long time.

But this is the first time in so many years that he shed tears for personal love.

When a drop of rain poured into Gu Donglai's neck, it was almost cold along his neck all the way to his heart.

After all, it is impossible for him to let others go at this juncture. King Peacock Ming is a Buddhist disciple, and since the day he entered the Buddhist sect, he only wanted to kill and become a Buddha, nothing else.The two of them are the most ruthless and heartless people in the world, after all, they still can't allow themselves a little hesitation and weak hands to cut off this last possibility.

Even if the knife edge bleeds, even if the wound is dripping.But when all of these are frozen and carried out cold-bloodedly, then, all of these will not be allowed to stand in the way of two people's cultivation of Buddhism.

But the two people with their backs to each other didn't understand what their indescribable reluctance was at this moment.If only friends.Then they shouldn't go to keep each other.

Because both of them are proud people.To become a Buddha is their common wish.Seeing through each other and achieving each other is what they should do.

It's just, maybe after this night, they really don't have a tomorrow that they can see together.

When dawn comes, Fang Dinghai and Gu Donglai are just a gleam of light living in the past for each other, it comes lightly, goes easily, and the light disappears after dawn.

From then on, yin and yang cycled and never met each other, which had nothing to do with the original karma cycle in them.

——But Gu Donglai couldn't help thinking about something that happened a long time ago.It turned out that what the sycamore tree Bodhisattva said back then was still correct.Sure enough, his fate went round and round like this.Buddhas and Bodhisattvas are merciful and merciful to the world, except for him.

【"Gu Donglai."】

【"Never expect to have a hug that can make you rest and rely on the warmest place in the world."】

["Hugs will make all living beings start to become weak, become greedy for the warmth under the wings, and learn to cry to another person, but you can't cry in front of anyone, and you can't be a person who needs to rely on others. people."】

【"Anyone in this world can be such a person."】

【"But only you, Gu Donglai, can't."】

【"Remember, even if Gu Donglai's life falls into hell, he can't bow his head to beg for mercy from any demon, he can't cry, he can't be weak, even if he dies, he must die with a radiant light that burns all over the three realms like a raging fire." 】

【"Because, Gu Donglai is the prince of this land."】

【"It is the elder brother of the little girl on your back, the protector of the world who is suffering at this moment, and will be the king in everyone's mind in the future, so you can no longer ask for hugs from others."】

【"After three generations of reincarnation, my old bodhisattva will die at this moment. The gods and Buddhas of Lingshan and Xiaoxitian will bless you and make you the new king of birds in Lingshan."】

【"From now on, King Ming Gu Donglai is the only guardian of Lingshan, Peacock Daming King Bodhisattva—"]

Early the next morning.Gu Donglai, who disappeared all night, took the car keys from Secretary He and walked down the mountain gate in a modern dress. Gu Donglai, who walked a step or two faster, got in the car and drove away from the scenic spot. A figure of Dinghai standing motionless at the entrance of the temple overnight.

Young Shang's eyes were covered with a white cloth, only his pale lips and chin were covered with rain from the night.He didn't care that his lips were so white, and his shoulders and knees were covered with white flowers that fell from the temple all night.

It was obvious who he was sitting here waiting to send off.This is the only god and Buddha in this world that this person sincerely worships except for the Buddha in his life.

But the back of the monk who seemed to have never left the rain all night was so firm and pious, as if there was nothing else in his eyes except the person in front of him, he just let him go without a sound, and finally... put his hands together Give it a bow.

After this worship, he has become a lifelong believer of the person in front of him from now on.

Bathed in the sunlight in front of the mountain, the golden leaves intertwined, and the monk with closed eyes, with ginkgo leaves falling down, knelt in front of the glory of the sunrise with a pale face, and the long-haired king looked at the monk with drooping eyes as if he had been read and understood again. .

The silhouettes of the two are immersed in the light of the sunrise, mountains and pagodas.He didn't send Gu Donglai off.It also stopped the relationship between the two of them here again.In the same way, Gu Donglai is the same as him.

The two remained silent.A silent and indifferent rubbing of shoulders is already a silent parting. At this time, the ancient bell of the thousand-year-old temple rang from the pavilion in the mountain. In the dark, the two turned around and walked back, and the back of the one slowly walking down the mountain was frozen. In the mountain, in the cold mountain, it seemed that the words that no one else heard the night of watching fireflies sounded faintly.

"Donglai, you and Uncle Faseng, why can you become each other's best friends even though you two were born in different places and lived far away since you were young?"

"Because, in this world, you can have many friends, as long as you feel like you can be each other's friends, but there is a kind of person, no matter whether you were born in the same place, how far apart, how long, you will want to sacrifice your life Give it to him again."

"He'll understand everything you do."

"After all, stubborn people and stubborn people, it will be difficult to get close to each other."

"They are all people who refuse to bow their heads to anyone until they die. Compared with people who can live happily and freely all the time, these two kinds of people seem to be less relaxed and happy, and they can't even see through their own hearts."

"But fortunately, when you can't hold on for a moment, he will always appear suddenly and tell you that it's not that bad, and you've seen his likes and sorrows, and he also understands your past, everything As if it couldn't be better."

"Thinking about it now, every day after meeting him seems to be happy."

"However, sometimes, I still want to tell him."

……

"Fang Dinghai."

"In the past three years, I have never really forgotten you for a day."

"Gu Donglai, it's true...I've always wanted, really wanted, to fly back to the world from Lingshan, even if it's just to see you once."

The author has something to say: love is deep and righteous, there is no love.To make Peacock and Fa Seng fail miserably together, these eight words are really enough.

I've been listening to "Love Lost" while writing this chapter. Thinking about the happiness and friendship that two people spent together every day during this period, comparing the pain and separation at this moment, it is really hard to explain.

Uncle was originally a very confident person, but the senior brother voluntarily suffered for him this time, and the fact that he himself did not control the magic arrow completely smashed his self-confidence that he had lived for so long.

Especially the purer Xiao Fang's feelings towards him at this moment are, the more he feels that his liking has hurt his senior brother.It is understandable that people like my uncle would blame themselves and feel sad when it was discovered that they secretly fell in love with each other, but did not do anything for the person they liked but had the opposite effect.

The guilt of hurting the person he likes and the sudden lack of confidence in himself, if the senior brother can't help him, there is really nothing to do.

PS A small explanation about the following text.

I haven’t finished writing the exciting plot I mentioned before, because after finishing most of the climax, I found that the main plot line needs more time to outline. In addition to the flu outbreak, there are people in the family who need to be taken care of, which delays a lot of normal work. Codeword time.

But in the next big chapter of the plot, I basically finished half of each chapter.

I hope that this very important and important unit can be written without wasting the pre-shaping of all the current characters. Everyone can guess what happened to Longquan Mountain. By the way, I will tweet everyone, Happy New Year, take care of yourself.

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Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: Guan Qing? 20 bottles; Yishang Shen? 11 bottles; Meow? 2 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!