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The words of the old scar made Gu Donglai, who was currently huddled up in the shadows and hugged his head shaking violently, almost tormented madly.

One last chance, one last lust to be dealt with.

And...success or failure, life and death, and whether the truth under all conspiracies can usher in a slight chance of turning around is only the last chance in front of him, so he also needs to think carefully. Apart from all these, what is really in his heart is about His personal choice before this life and death struggle.

But the choice of life and death, sometimes the closer it is to the end and the end, it will make people fall into a certain predicament about the past and the present.

Can he really trust everyone and everything?Or, after this time, after he and the one who fought side by side with him, what else can they have besides the identity of the enemy and the mortal enemy.

It was really hard for him not to think about this kind of thing.

Because he really didn't want to continue to procrastinate the little time left at this time, so as to mess up the next really important thing that would affect everything.

But at a time like this, asking him to spread the matter out once and for all is like a fight, but it is also a test.Because if it’s anything else, it’s fine, but this matter is especially special to him——

And I don't know what Gu Donglai is thinking about alone now, I just feel that he is really 'uncomfortable', almost on the verge of 'uncomfortable' and about to collapse.

The black-haired Buddha just bowed his head silently and looked at his hands, which were tied with gauze and couldn't move for the time being, and then half-kneeled and bent down gently as if only for him, making a gesture that was placed on anyone before him, Including... He himself didn't dare to think about things that a person like him would do.

"—!"

At that moment, Gu Donglai, whose back and legs were soft like a puddle of water, and whose cheeks were wrapped in cold sweat, who looked like he had no sense of security and could only lower his head and grit his teeth by himself, was also hot and cold, his face was flushed, and he looked helpless like a The first time this happened to a child.

Immediately afterwards, the long-haired devil who was still in a daze and didn't know what happened suddenly woke up.

When he was covered in hairs and looked like he had fallen into an ice cave, he moved his blood-red eyes under the palm of his hand and gave the other person a vicious look, then he pushed the person on the shoulder and roared fiercely——

"You...what are you doing, you give me...go to death, what are you going to do now!!"

When he asked this question, the two of them had already pressed against each other again in this weird and blunt posture. Although Gu Donglai, who was once again occupied by him, stared at him ferociously, it was the first time he was treated like this. Li was completely dumbfounded, his face turned pale and his eyes turned red when he was usually scared when he killed and set fire.

He closed his eyes and shivered, leaning against the bed behind him and resting his hands above his eyes.That blushed so much that he gritted his teeth and didn't want to speak. He returned to the two people's confrontational posture at the beginning, and continued to tremble with his eyes closed, while tears fell to the floor from time to time because of the opponent's actions.

"Go away... that kind of place... don't touch me..."

This exhausted all the strength in his body, roared and pushed hard, and the man fell down, but then, the black-haired bastard once again hugged Gu Donglai's back that was soaked in cold sweat, and bent down He continued to do this unfinished thing again, and Gu Donglai, whose face was full of tears and was already crying like a child, could only react to this with weakness in his hands and feet, constant struggle, and finally a complete one-off. The previous grudges broke out.

"You fucking... don't...you will die if you get close to a man! You will die! You are the one who cut it off...you are the one who turned his face and ruthless, you who have taken up all the benefits in your life... ...Give me a quick death!! Hurry up and die! It's all a good thing you did!"

"I said it before! I don't like men at all... You will die if you don't touch men in your life... In your eyes, what am I? Do you even leave me a little bit of dignity? You're not even happy... Get out of here immediately! Get out of here!! Ahhh!! Get out!!"

His frightening and manic tone, almost driven crazy by this humiliation, seemed to recall the most unforgettable nightmare entirely because of the person in front of him.

The two hit it off completely regardless.Or, this time it was closer to the fact that Gu Donglai was beating the person he wanted to hit hard by himself, but that person just didn't say anything and just let him greet his face like this.

But before he finished speaking, the more and more manic emotions in his heart were completely irritated, and the long-haired devil who punched him in the cheek roared directly, hugging his head like avoiding a ghost, pulled up one side of his pajamas and hid beside him He buried his head on the bed, and beat the bed in front of him like an emotional breakdown.

He gritted his teeth tightly and closed his red eyes tightly, but the tears that he had endured for so long kept falling from the bridge of his nose.

He didn't want to open his eyes to look at the person behind him at all, but he just grabbed his long hair with one hand, and kept repeating the words in his mouth as he fell down in the darkness, as if all the scars in his heart that had been remembered for so long were given to him in pain. said it—

"You are the most shameless selfish ghost in this world who is the most shameless and unworthy of saying love and commitment to me... You are the most selfish person to the extreme...you still dare to ask me why I never go Looking for you..."

"It was you... who betrayed our friendship and promise first, and made all the friendship between us like this. If you hadn't betrayed the four words you said first...how could I never do it again?" If I don’t look for you, how can I go on for not accompanying you, even, even... At that time, you have already said that it’s a knife... How could I really let go of the word love..."

"I'll just continue to haunt you like I used to...chat, talk with you in any place we both like, and then make endless jokes together...until, one day, you really With my own most amazing path to becoming a Buddha, I will never be jealous of you, hurt you, want to kill you, or even compare with you darkly and viciously over and over again. Go on, because at that time, I just wanted to...be better with you...I don't want you to be hurt by anyone at all...I just want to protect you all the time, and the one who is holding you hand……"

"..."

"It's you...so that I can neither be your enemy nor your friend... let alone be the person who stands by your side all the time, and I also lost...the friendship that I thought I could trust for the rest of my life ...It was you who made me unable to fulfill my friend's promise for you...Even if I was thinking in my heart, if you are in pain, or if the injury has not healed after so long, I can't see you again... ..."

"It's you who made me...it's impossible not to see you anymore. I became a person who voluntarily escaped from betrayal of promises and denied all my past...I even thought that I cared too much and let me down. You...have let down the love you once were willing to sacrifice your eyes for Gu Donglai and exchange my life for me..."

"And people like you will never understand... from the beginning to the end... what I want from you is not desire, what I want... is not desire at all!! What Gu Donglai wants... is not you at all, Fang Dinghai The desire given——I don't want this!"

With this sentence, his eyes turned red, and the long-haired demon who was crying like a child hugged his knees, gritted his teeth fiercely and stared at the person in front of him under the moonlight.

But he is like this, he must not be a person who obeys his desires.

In Gu Donglai's eyes, love is always more precious than lust.Without the existence of love, he would not even touch anyone with a finger, let alone anyone in the world, because the people who don't love him, the people he doesn't love, are not the ones he wants to really embrace, and he will never touch anyone in his life. A person who doesn't let go, and in this world, no one can force him to be an unbearable, ugly person who betrayed his belief in survival and value.

Neither life nor death can defeat him.However, he also gave up forever the only thing he pursued in life.

In front of him, Gu Donglai's eyes are so sad. Those eyes that should have been strong and arrogant from his wickedness and presumptuousness followed the moonlight, and all the shattered tears flowed to his chin. Like the night before, this person who has never been invincible cried like this in the heavy rain just because of the person in front of him,

Crying... This only makes people look at it one more time, and feel that their hearts are going to be broken along with him, and they really deserve to die.

"..."

Thinking about it this way, Prince Randeng, who has always been indifferent to all people and things in the world, and has a cold and indifferent personality, seems to have an empty heart, or a similar pain in a distant place that is not here. Same.

Immediately afterwards, the young and unintentional black-haired Buddha looked at the tears on Gu Donglai's face. He stretched out one hand to Gu Donglai's face very gently and slowly, and then stretched out a hand under the gauze. The moment he grabbed the opponent's hand with his palm, his eyes were always gray, and there seemed to be some strange and unfamiliar astringency around the eyes that couldn't reach the ground...

"..."

Then, a cold, light tear, almost like snow that would disappear as soon as it hit the ground, just fell on the palms of the two of them.

--This is.Rapunzel's shoulders froze.impossible.This is.

Can be a drop.

drop.Like the rain with a broken thread, and like snow falling in front of the mountain gate, the tears flowing from the godless and dazed eyes of the black-haired Buddha reflected Gu Donglai's cry for him incomparably. The appearance, but, it cannot be denied that this is really the only tear that this heartless person shed in his life.

He seemed to be heartbroken that Gu Donglai cried like this in front of him again.

He was feeling sorry for Gu Donglai.

Tears fell uncontrollably because of these words, and because of these words in Gu Donglai's mouth, he was so heartbroken that he couldn't say a word.

Even though he was still silent as before, and didn't know what to say to Gu Dong to make him happy, even though his cold and inhuman face still didn't have any expression that a living person should have , but this time, the young Buddha, who should not have had such a tear in his life, followed Gu Donglai and shed the first tear of a mortal in his life.

And the two people with tears on their faces, red eyes staring blankly at each other are sitting here in a state of confusion, confiding in the most important moment in their hearts, Gu Donglai, whose expression is blank, looks at the tears on his chin , When he had already forgotten what he was going to say, the long-haired devil saw the black-haired Buddha dragging his legs that could no longer move and leaning down, and gently using his hands wrapped in white gauze. And after holding his face emotionally——

...burned a kiss on his lips that was so light that it fell between them like a butterfly flapping.

For a moment, the fragrance of flowers lingering around was so soft and peaceful that it was unbelievable.This kiss, which was so intimate that two people could smell the fragrance of flowers on each other's body, broke down all the outer protective shells that Gu Donglai had on this person.

The shoulders of the long-haired devil who once lost control of his emotions were tense, his black nails were pinching his fingers, and he was staring at the other party's eyes with disbelief, but he could only feel the kiss that was gently placed on his lips by the other party. It deepened a little bit, and it seemed that Gu Donglai was really in love. Gu Donglai was like a Buddha flower and kissed so completely that the two of them were breathing chaotically and their hearts were beating fast. Then they held his face and pressed it against the two. The bridge of the human nose closed his eyes with great reluctance and slowly opened his mouth.

"...The Buddhist scriptures say that the Buddha used to be a monk and a noble prince, but since he was ordained and escaped into Buddhism, he must abide by the nine precepts throughout his life and must not love anyone."

"So, when Prince Siddhartha became a monk, he went to the Great Leiyin Temple for five full years and never returned, while his wife, the Buddhist concubine Yasodhara who stayed in his hometown that year, waited all the time, but five years later, Siddhartha Da Duo still hasn’t come back from the Western Heaven World.”

"Everyone persuaded Yasodhara to give up her relationship with the Buddha, because the Buddha had forgotten her after becoming a Buddha, and could no longer continue to love her with the heart of a Buddha... But Yasodhara But Tuo Luo still refused to give up, and even climbed the sword mountain outside Mount Sumeru with the body of a mortal woman, only willing to go to Siddhartha for an answer in person."

"When she crossed the knife mountain, everyone thought that her first sentence was to blame the Buddha for his ruthlessness and abandonment of her, but the first question that the concubine Buddha asked the Buddha to the 17 Buddhas was, I am a Buddha, I came here, I don't want to ask about your betrayal, but what I want to ask now is just a question, a result that at least lets me know if you are okay even if you have forgotten."

"Because in the past five years, I'm really afraid that you are having a bad life every day. This is even more worrying than if you don't love me anymore."

"So, Gu Donglai, I know that what you want is never lust...I really know."

……

"Because you are my Yasodhara, the flowers of my Buddhist kingdom, and my spiritual mountain rose."

"Wherever you will bloom in the future, where your flower fragrance is, my heart will follow."

"Gu Donglai, I've been asking you over and over again, why don't you come to me for the last sentence, it's never because you and I have broken karma, and I have accepted this matter, thinking that we have no end, but... …I really miss you."

"I really miss you, I miss you all the time, I'm wondering why you haven't come, why don't you come to me, and when will I see you again..."

"I like you, my Buddha flower, I really... love you."

"Gu Donglai, the words I want to say to you have always been that I really... love you, I love you, you...do you hear clearly now?"

The author has something to say: ①The Sanskrit wording of Buddha is.

It seems that this Sanskrit text cannot be displayed in the book, but those words that my uncle spelled out alive with the bones of the evil Buddha are this text.

② [-], [-] kg men can basically put on any women's clothing without pressure, and as long as the body is well maintained, the body fat will be particularly low without affecting the abdominal muscles, plus the body fat of men Once less, the legs will be particularly slender, long and beautiful, and the muscles will be particularly tight. Don't ask me how I know it. I specially studied the wretchedness of various measurements of European and American male models when they walk on the stage. sheep()

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Inexplicably, I feel that my uncle is a living hell outside, and when he comes back, he can only hide in the bathroom and smoke like a child, and he doesn't want to be found out. The appearance is very cute hahahaha.

While looking in the mirror, praising myself crazily is also true. The desire for personal performance is very strong hahahahaha.

Prince, your wife was just narcissistic about a man, why did she become such a pleasure-crazed showman now? Don’t you really feel that you have to take a little bit of responsibility? Hahahahahaha, you are behind him Scattering roses, boasting wildly about what he did hahaha

Speaking of which, I originally wanted to write the gang fight scene later, but I think this kiss needs a separate chapter.

This kiss has really been waiting for too long for them, it must have a sense of ceremony!Be beautiful!This is how I am sorry for my uncle holding back for so long and crying so many times alone, right?

In other words, there are very few comments in the last chapter T? T If you have any ideas, you can comment and comment. In fact, every time I write it for a long time, I feel that it is not good for everyone to watch in the middle, and I write it in the middle of the night with great enthusiasm. End, even if I was sleepy, I really wanted to chat with everyone at that time... Yes, my heart is so weak, I can't do without you at all, woo, everyone, don't despise me, wow wow cry……

感谢在2020-02-25?00:45:22~2020-02-27?14:10:52期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：喵啊?25瓶；枕鹤?10瓶；六曲在傲峰十三巅?8瓶；谶语?5瓶；奕殇沉?2瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!