I'm on the top of my cp [entertainment circle]

The reason why Tan Feiyue entered the entertainment circle was very simple. His parents divorced when he was young, and they each formed their own families. He grew up with his grandmother and always wanted to make money.

Since junior high school, ever since he knew that his appearance was very prominent among the crowd, he dreamed of being spotted by a talent scout one day and thus entering the entertainment industry, but his grandma told him that he should study hard in middle school and not eat culture. loss.

In the first year of high school, there was a wave of chasing stars in the school. At that time, it was the time when domestic talent shows and variety shows were hot. The girls in the class talked about which little brother or sister you picked again during the break time.

And it was at this time that Tan Feiyue began to pay attention to the entertainment industry.He saw a poster on the desk of a girl at the same table. The man on the poster looked quite young, sitting on a swing, smiling gently towards the camera.

He asked the girl, "Who is he?"

"Him?" The girl noticed his gaze and took the initiative to explain to him, "Have you watched the recently hit "Vanilla Scented Summer"?"

Tan Feiyue shook her head.

"Although he is the male second, he is much more than the male coach!" The girl got a little excited when she mentioned this, "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh in my dreams I want to have a boyfriend like him!"

Tan Feiyue didn't pay much attention to her dreams, but paid attention to this TV series. After returning home, she turned on the TV and found that several channels were broadcasting this drama.

He followed suit.The strange thing is that he was not a person who liked to watch romantic soap operas, but this time he watched them by accident.

This man is really handsome, he thought so.

Not long after, during the summer vacation of the first year of high school, he found that the TV screen was basically dominated by this man named Song Zixing. He had three popular dramas on the air. No matter what time, no matter what channel, he could watch them whenever he turned on the TV. to the man's face.

Probably because it was so deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, Tan Feiyue actually accompanied her grandma to watch all these brainless love dramas all over the summer vacation.

At that time, it was popular to collect celebrity posters, and you could get a free stack of things they endorsed. Even if Tan Feiyue didn't intend to buy them, she saved a lot, so she just kept them.

At that time, celebrities were more open-minded on social media than they are now, and they were willing to post anything. Netizens were not as young as they are now, and they were generally more kind.Tan Feiyue registered a Weibo and only followed Song Zixing.

Gradually, he discovered that the person he was following was not at all as flawless and unapproachable as he appeared on the outside, but seemed like a chatterbox on Weibo.He likes to share some interesting things that happened recently, he will venomously complain about his good friends, and he will actively interact with netizens on the Internet.

And his comment area is often more exciting, unlike fans of other celebrities, no matter what they post, they always make various fancy confessions underneath. His fans like to pick his thorns, backhand him, and even like to give him p Various black figures.

This probably has a lot to do with his fans who always like to hate him.

The "intimate" interaction with fans has also made Tan Feiyue more active. He is the only one in his follow list, and he will receive reminders as soon as the other party posts Weibo, so there are many opportunities to grab the front row .As soon as there are more hot comments, everyone will remember this fan whose username is a string of meaningless English letters.

He even got several replies from Song Zixing himself, although his tone was still very beating.

During the summer vacation after the end of the second year of high school, Song Zixing's Chaohua released the news that he would select active fans to hold a fan meeting for the fourth anniversary.There is no doubt that this popular acquaintance easily got the ticket.

Originally, the host wanted to give him a position in the front, after all, he was also considered to be a "reputable" task in the hot comment area, but Tan Feiyue took the initiative to ask for the position in the last row.Considering that some fans did not want to show their faces, the host agreed.

At that fan meeting, Tan Feiyue realized for the first time that she might not like Song Zixing in a pure sense.

Unknown ideas gradually broke through the ground and sprouted, growing crazily and wantonly under the fermentation of time.

He no longer grabs the front row of his comment section, and he no longer randomly places his photo posters where they can be easily seen by others.

He started to have his own little secret.

Facts have proved that if you never forget, there will be echoes.

Tan Feiyue's original plan was to find an opportunity to enter the entertainment circle in college, spend a few years polishing himself, and then work harder to stand where he can see him and let him notice himself.

Unexpectedly, on the day the college entrance examination ended, the god of luck would favor him.

In the last exam, he was not good at reasoning, so he didn't know how to write, so he didn't write at all, he just wanted to finish the exam and go home.He was the first student to come out of the test room at that test site.

Many media had been squatting at the door for a long time. Seeing him coming out first, a large group of reporters immediately surrounded him and asked him how he felt after the exam.Tan Feiyue had seen the first student to leave the examination room being interviewed before, but it was quite unexpected that it happened to him.

Probably because he was handsome, the reporters asked him a few more questions.And during this time, he was discovered by Cheng Yi.

Cheng Yi had a rest that day, and originally came to pick up her niece who had finished her college entrance examination, but who knew that this boy in front of her caught her attention.

She asked him if he would like to act, and Tan Feiyue agreed without hesitation for almost a second.

Cheng Yi told him that a well-known director Shang Fu was looking for young actors, and after talking about non-menstruation, he recommended him to try out the play.

God knows how he felt after seeing that the other male lead was Song Zixing.

In the few days before the audition, he hardly slept, studying the script every day.He knows that he has never acted before, basically has zero experience, but he has watched all the dramas that Song Zixing starred in countless times, has he never eaten pork, has he never seen a pig run?

He became a dark horse among a large number of young people who came to audition.

He has no background and no backer, even if someone wants to hack him through the back door, there is no evidence to be found.

Tan Feiyue felt that he seemed to be living in a dream.So unreal.

When meeting and getting along with Song Zixing, he was always in awe.He was afraid that this was a dream, and when he woke up, he should leave.

But God still cares for him, he has become Song Zixing's closest person, no matter whether he takes care of him when he is young, or really loves him, he has indeed become a special person.

Once a person gets more things, the greed in his heart will grow.

Originally, I just wanted to see him, but after the relationship got better and better, the thing called possessiveness began to cause trouble.He is not satisfied with the status quo, he wants more, and wants him to be his own.

The time in the crew passed quickly, and he knew that once they separated, the contact would decrease, and gradually, they would become nodding acquaintances.

What's more, Song Zixing is a person with high emotional intelligence, half of the entertainment industry is his friend, what means and ability does he have to make him the only one in his eyes?

Sure enough, in an interview after wrapping up, he boldly confessed to Qin Su in front of everyone.In order to attract people's attention, the media at that time wanted to portray Song Zixing as a deeply affectionate person who couldn't woo him.

He knew he shouldn't be jealous, but he couldn't help himself.He clearly knew that he had no right to lose his temper, but he was still too young after all.

But Song Zixing was willing to coax him, and even swore to him that he only cared about him.

What made him give up completely was Song Zixing's evaluation of "I Come From the Darkness" in front of the media.

He is very good at talking, and he obviously answered the media's questions with impeccable answers, but Tan Feiyue can tell that he keeps a respectful distance from same-sex relationships.

The liking for him is only as a younger brother.

If he tarnishes this pure liking, then he will truly disappoint Song Zixing.

He watched the few minutes of Song Zixing's interview over and over again until his eyes were red and he gritted his teeth to keep the tears from falling.

He knew that he had a strong desire to control, and if he went on like this, he would hurt the two of them sooner or later, so he might as well stop here, it would be good for him as well as for himself.

As long as she looks at him one more time, Tan Feiyue's thoughts that have been hidden in her heart for too long will come out and make him do irreversible things.He knew this very well, and he was the ungrateful person first.

It's just that he can tell himself not to get close, but the natural reaction of the body is difficult to control.

Occasionally, there are activities with him, and he is always the first to notice him in a group of people. His dark and cautious eyes almost become the shadow of Song Zixing, and he will follow wherever he is.

Those subtle jealousy will also show up from time to time, he deliberately finds opportunities to cooperate with Qin Su to anger him, and deliberately wants to steal the limelight from him wherever he goes.

It's just that these little things, on the day Song Zixing passed away, became the cause of his guilt all his life.

He blamed God for not giving him a good start.He hated himself for giving the story such a sad ending.

He was in so much pain that he couldn't sleep all night, and even thought of committing suicide.But Song Zixing told him in his dream that he still has grandma.

He entered the entertainment industry to make money to honor his grandma, how could he do stupid things before grandma left.

He finally accepted the reality than himself.Just being alive made him extremely painful, not much better than dying.

He turned down all his work and adjusted for two months, spent every day in a daze, and forcibly pulled himself out of his memories with his obsession.

Back on the set, everyone said that he had changed, but only he knew that the former Tan Feiyue had died with him, because he was heartbroken.

Until that scene, when a few extra actors failed to perform, he was in a bad mood, but when he saw that white boy who had "mistakenly broken into" his lounge come up, he seemed to see the ignorant and ignorant of myself.

In that scene, his eyes made Tan Feiyue suddenly think of Song Zixing——

Such a familiar feeling can only be experienced by close people.

He didn't believe in past and present lives at first, but after meeting that child, he suddenly felt that perhaps the heavens still couldn't bear to see him sad.

The repeated temptations came true, gradually warming up his heart that had been silent for a long time——

Fortunately, he listened to his words and lived well.

Otherwise, where would the reborn Song Zixing go to find him?

At the moment of confirming his mind, Tan Feiyue thought that he was the luckiest and happiest child in the world.