to demand

Whether it's love or hate, it's all for one person, and it's an indescribable loneliness.

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Xu Mo sat on the edge of the bed, his two smooth and slender legs hanging down weakly, his trousers were taken off, and a blanket was put on his thighs. He looked at Shen Lingfeng blankly, not knowing why: "Why don't you do it?"

He thought that Shen Lingfeng just came to him to vent, and maybe he went back after doing it. Although Xu Mo resisted, he didn't refuse, and let Dr. Shen take off his pants.

However, Shen Lingfeng didn't go to him. He asked Xu Mo to sit on the edge of the bed, and then asked him if he was cold. Xu Mo didn't speak, so he took a blanket and put it on his lap.

Then Dr. Shen found a small bench and sat down in front of Xu Mo. The plastic round stool was very short, and it always made people feel that it could not support the tall man.

Shen Lingfeng handed Xu Mo's cell phone back to him: "Go ahead and play."

Xu Mo was stunned, with a puzzled expression on his face, took the phone over, and absently checked the forum.

His whole body and mind were almost focused on Shen Lingfeng's every move, and his nerves were completely led away by the other party. He didn't understand what he was going to do, so he was curious and flustered.

When those hot hands touched the skin of his calf, Xu Mo could feel it, like putting a warm baby on a cold winter, and the heat spread up. He couldn't help trembling slightly, and tried to back up with his hands.

"No." Xu Mo resisted.

Shen Lingfeng looked up at him, lowered his head, and kneaded seriously. Before coming to An'an, he had specially communicated with the masseurs in the hospital, and whenever he was free, he would go to see them to help patients recover. At that time, he thought he had learned how to take good care of him Xu Mo, as long as Xu Mo can return to him.

"..." Xu Mo exhaled a long, trembling breath. He simply lay back on his back, put his hand on his forehead, and stared at the ceiling in ecstasy. The phone fell and hit his heart, which hurt a little.

"Hmm." Xu Mo pressed his chest, Shen Lingfeng asked him nervously: "What's wrong, does it hurt?"

"No." Xu Mo was still stiff and resisting: "Don't do this."

"how?"

Xu Mo didn't speak again, and remained silent for a while, clutching the phone uneasily, with a blank face.

Shen Lingfeng carefully pressed the acupoints and rubbed them gently and gently.

Xu Mo raised his eyes and looked at the top of his head. His head was facing the window over there. The window was very large and high. Looking far into the distance, he could glimpse the night sky, a rich dark yellow. He knew that it was because of the shining lights of the city, so the night Not so dark.

"don't want……"

Shen Lingfeng's kneading movements became slower and slower.

"Don't be nice to me." Xu Mo said sullenly.

Everything is silent, the evening wind knocks on the door and window, closes eyes, seems to be able to hear the grass rustling, maybe there are insects, weak, small noises, this winter is over, wait a minute, spring is coming.

Shen Lingfeng raised the corners of his lips, and asked him softly, "Why didn't you treat me well?"

"..." Because I don't deserve it.Xu Mo raised his hand to cover his eyes: "It's not worth it."

"For me, it's worth it." Shen Lingfeng rebuffed straight away: "Your thoughts are not important."

Xu Mo shut his mouth tightly, yes, Dr. Shen has always been tough.What he thinks is irrelevant to Shen Lingfeng.

After about a few minutes, Xu Mo was really flustered. Shen Lingfeng concentrated on massaging his legs without opening his mouth at all. Xu Mo couldn't hold back anymore, and whispered, "Shen Lingfeng, I don't understand."

"Don't understand what?" A teacher answered the student with a gentle tone, as if Xu Mo was really asking him a question.

"What else do you want from me? The Chu family has returned it to you, Jiang Mingxuan's illness has been cured, and the divorce papers have been delivered to you. I can no longer threaten and force you... I have nothing to give your."

Xu Mo turned his head. On the cabinet at the foot of the bed, there was a round-bottomed glass vase with a narrow neck, which held the baby's breath he had arranged by himself. Beamed around the stars.

"I don't have any money anymore." Xu Mo'an said quietly, "After saying goodbye to grandpa, I never thought about going back to the Chu family. So I won't grab something with you...or Xu Yunze. Do you understand what I mean?"

What responded to him was Shen Lingfeng's kneading with increased force. His five fingers were embedded in the flesh, and he squeezed fiercely. It seemed to be kneading the acupuncture points, but he really wanted to pry Xu Mo's brain open to see what was inside. Is it hate, hate? If you have to grind your teeth, you have to hold back.

After all, liking is a tormenting thing.

She tortured Xu Mo in the past, and now she tortures him.

"Go back." Xu Mo kept saying this: "Don't worry about me."

Shen Lingfeng patted his calf lightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "That's how you want me to leave you."

"……Correct."

Xu Mo couldn't stand Shen Lingfeng's kindness, even though he had hoped countless times that one day, Shen Lingfeng would stay with him every step of the way, just like he treated Jiang Mingxuan.

When you are hungry, someone cooks, when you are cold, someone adds clothes, when you are sick, someone takes care of you, when you wake up, you are surrounded by another person in your arms, and when you cannot sleep, you have him patting his arm. Time is peaceful, but peace is the rarest.

Chu Wanjun died because of him, the more peaceful he is, the more guilty he is, the more restless he is.

He may not force it, but it doesn't mean he can let it go.

How could Shen Lingfeng be nice to him, Xu Mo killed his biological mother.

After Xu Mo finished answering, Shen Lingfeng had nothing to say, and the two fell silent at the same time.

Not long after, Shen Lingfeng found cotton trousers for him to put on. Xu Mo didn't want him to hug him. He lifted the quilt by himself, paved the bed with his arms, stuffed himself into the quilt, turned his back to Shen Lingfeng, and closed his eyes.

"Xu Mo, I can leave you." said the person standing behind him.

Lying on the bed finally opened his self-deceived closed eyes, without looking back, staring blankly at the void, he could understand every word of Shen Lingfeng, connected together, but suddenly he didn't understand what he meant.

"We can get a divorce."

"It's okay not to be together."

"But until you get better."

"Before that, you have to listen to me in everything."

"Xu Mo."

"Do you understand?"

"Xu Mo, talk."

The body under the quilt moved, Xu Mo signaled that he understood, and the head on the pillow retracted under the quilt, nodding.

"My vacation is coming to an end." Shen Lingfeng sat down beside him, and reached out to touch Xu Mo's head: "The courtyard urged me to go back, you and I will go back to Ningbei and live with me temporarily, the place may be a bit small, wait for us Go back, I will rent a bigger suite again."

"Xu Mo," he leaned over, hugged him through the quilt, and pressed his cheek against Xu Mo's soft hair, "I don't want the inheritance of the Chu family. On the day you left, I also returned to China. You, now we have no money, let's live in poverty together, okay?"

Xu Mo was hugged by him, and Shen Lingfeng's arms were on his body, which was a bit heavy. He pressed him down, which seemed to make him feel heavy, the weight of life, the weight of being alive.

It was warm, frighteningly warm.

Shen Lingfeng seemed to be afraid that he would not want to, and he was still chattering: "You said that if you want to pay back, then your body will belong to me. I want to see it get better, and see it can walk and run like before. Can jump. This is the best repayment."

Xu Mo turned around, stretched out his arms, hugged Shen Lingfeng's neck, and said in a trembling voice, "...you'd better... keep your word. When I can leave, we... part ways."

Shen Lingfeng laughed, pressed the back of his head, and rubbed: "Okay."

Starting today, every day we are together is a countdown.

The next day, Shen Lingfeng went to the study to find Xiao Chongshan. He wanted to take Xu Mo back to Ningbei.

Xiao Chongshan disagreed: "You are busy with work, so you can't take care of him well."

Shen Lingfeng assured: "The hospital is next to the health center. Most of the patients in Xu Mo's situation are doing rehabilitation there. I specially asked my colleague. He is an expert in this field and has rich experience. He will personally formulate the rehabilitation process for Xu Mo .When I am not busy at work, I can go to accompany him."

Xiao Chongshan hesitated: "He listened to you?"

"Yes." Shen Lingfeng nodded: "He agreed."

Xiao Chongshan called Xiao Yuan in to discuss, and Xiao Yuan slapped his hands: "Isn't this good."

Xiao Chongshan frowned, and Xiao Yuan whispered in his ear: "Except Dr. Shen, none of us can make Xu Mo willing to do rehabilitation. It's not like you haven't seen how he resisted before."

"..." Xiao Chongshan sighed, and reluctantly agreed: "Okay."

"If Xu Mo is not satisfied, we can pick him up at any time." Xiao Yuan added, and Shen Lingfeng nodded solemnly: "Okay."

He said, "Thank you."

Xu Mo still hesitated in his heart. Although he agreed to Shen Lingfeng, it was a temporary obsession after all, and if this was the only way to make Shen Lingfeng leave, Xu Mo didn't mind doing it temporarily.

So when Shen Lingfeng asked him for his return ticket and when he was leaving, Xu Mo turned his back to him and said, "There is no rush."

In this way, it dragged on for another three days.

Shen Lingfeng didn't say that he would go first, nor did he urge Xu Mo, but woke him up on time every day, took flower arrangement class, massaged his calves, and carried him to take a bath and sleep, leaving Aunt Zeng, who was taking care of Xu Mo, with nothing to do.

On the fourth day, Xiao Chongshan went to the company, Xiao Yuan went to a friend's party, and Shen Lingfeng went to hold flowers outside the door. They were all delivered on time every day for Xu Mo to practice flower arrangement.

Xu Mo was at the door of the flower arrangement room, trimming the branches and leaves of potted camellias.

In the cold winter, the backs of his hands exposed to the air were red from the cold, and Xu Mo concentrated on picking off the branches.

The mobile phone on the window sill vibrated, Xu Mo accidentally cut an extra leaf, and was immediately annoyed. Looking at the reputation, it was Shen Lingfeng's mobile phone.Xu Mo didn't want to respond at first, but the vibrations were frequent.

He pushed the wheelchair over, picked up his mobile phone, and the caller showed Xiao Zhang from the administrative department.

Mostly Shen Lingfeng's colleagues.

Xu Mo thought for a while, answered the phone, but didn't speak, the other party hurriedly said: "Brother Shen? When are you coming back, Brother Shen? Your vacation is over! The leaders of the courtyard held a meeting and specifically mentioned you, very angry. Busy... Hey, come back soon! Many patients are waiting to register with you, and the school has also suspended the project..."

"He's not here." Xu Mo interrupted him.

Xiao Zhang was taken aback: "Then you, you are?"

"Xu Mo."

There was silence on the other end of the phone, and after three seconds, there was only a hopeful roar: "Damn it, really? That's great!!"

"..."

Xiao Zhang seemed to see the savior with his own eyes: "Xu Mo, is it really you? That's great. Everyone in the courtyard knows that Brother Shen went to look for you. Now that he has found someone, he should come back. It's great that he finally found you. Already! You don't know how much he worried about you those two days!"

……

After hanging up the phone, Xu Mo put the phone back on the window sill, and looked back at the pot of camellia, the double-petalled camellia, which is still gorgeous in the cold winter.

When Shen Lingfeng came back with a bosom full of flowers, he saw Xu Mo sitting in a daze in the cold wind. He hurriedly trot over, put down the bouquet, took off the blanket hanging on the shelf to wrap him, and asked with concern: "Isn't it cold? What are you thinking? "

Xu Mo came back to his senses and shook his head.

Shen Lingfeng pushed him into the flower arrangement room, which was much warmer. He squatted down in front of Xu Mo, wrapped his hands with his big palms, and rubbed them to warm them up.

"Let's go back." Xu Mo suddenly said, "Doctor Shen, it's time to go back to Ningbei."

The author has something to say: Well, in fact, it’s not particularly cruel, right!

It's mainly a knot in my heart, I can't let it go

everything will be fine~

I feel that the articles written this year are so sweet, um...

As expected of me, Tianwen wrote Hand Breathing Shuangshuang!

Sweet Wen chooses me, I am super sweet =w=