Boyfriend came back from infinite flow

I counted the moonrises and moonsets, waiting for his arrival.

I learned more about the emotions that only "human beings" have, and I know that this is "expectation".

I took him to every corner of the cave.Accompanied by the constant sound of water, we hugged and intertwined.

I learn more.

Kiss, caress.

One of the nights, he looked at me.How strange, I still don't have the outline of a "person" at this time, but he looks at me and moves his lips.

I listened to what he said, but didn't understand.

But he quickly smiled again, approached me, and said, "You will understand later."

Okay.

I learned another word: later.

There were also times when we were just sitting at the entrance of the cave.

As the moonlight fell, so did the fragrance of laurel flowers on his body.

He sat on top of me and unrolled the parchment.

At this time, I carefully stretched out the "hand" I just made and put it on his shoulder.

He froze, his body froze for a moment, and then turned around.

At this moment, I already withdrew my "hand" because of my guilty conscience.

I was nervous, uneasy, as if I was about to face a test.

But he asked me if it was me just now.

Of course I can only nod.

He put the parchment aside, looked at me solemnly, and asked, "Can you show me one more time?"

I feel awkward.

He looked at me with a smile, and said softly, "Show me one more time? OK?"

I listened and thought: It would be great if he could talk to me in this tone when he was crying.

I don't know how to hide.Whatever comes to your mind, tell him.

His Adam's apple rolled, and there was another layer of rosy color on his face.

I watched and felt a soft, strange emotion emanating from my body.

After a long, long time, I realized that before I had a human appearance, I already had a "heart".

He doesn't mind what happens with me in the moonlight.

He caressed me, digging his fingers into my body.Of course, I also reciprocate courtesy.After that, he leaned over and put his forehead against me, still using that soft tone, as if coquettish with me, and asked me, "How about it? Show me..."

I looked at him, saw his flushed cheeks, and also saw his long loose hair.His eyes were wet and moist, and it made me feel hot all over.

With him staring at me like this, I'm really willing to say yes to anything.

Besides, what else could he ask of me?

He won't hurt me.

So I stretched out that "hand" and put it in front of him.

When he saw it, he laughed first.Just laughing, the body will tremble.This seemed to be a bit difficult for himself, and it took a while before he recovered.

He clasped my hand gently and earnestly.

"Humans have five fingers," he laughed, "you got one more."

I listen, annoyed.

But he didn't mind.

After I retracted the extra fingers, he raised my "hand" and pressed it to his cheek.

Before that, I let the darkness flow over his body countless times, including his face, of course.I know what he looks like, how many eyelashes he has, how to kiss him to make him happier.

But this moment is different.

I touched him with my fingers strangely and jerkyly.

It's hard, harder than making the "hand" shape.It takes a lot of effort just to maintain the appearance of the "hand".The protruding fingers, the finger stuck together with another "finger" next to it, the inexplicably swollen palm... This night, we spent almost all of our time on it.

Time was wasted and he was leaving again.

When he mentions this, I feel offended.I started to regret it, thinking why bother?If there is no "hand", I will listen to him tell a complete story, and I will look at the moon outside with him, and maybe there will be a close hug that can completely engulf him.But now, we actually only do this one thing.

I was sullen, he probably noticed.

So before leaving, he held my "hand" seriously and solemnly, and kissed every inch of it.

His lips were soft and his tongue was moist.

I was kissed by him like this, and I learned it without a teacher. I clamped the tip of his tongue with two fingers, and rubbed it with another finger.

I noticed the fun in it, and I was eager to try it.

He was messed up by me and his cheeks became wet.By the end, it was far beyond when he usually left.

I suspect he regrets it.

When he climbed up the cave to cover the stone, I stayed below and watched him.

I was obviously just a mass of darkness, but he seemed to see my thoughts again.

Before the stone was covered, he looked at me and said suddenly: "I'm not angry, I'm not unhappy."

Me: "...Huh?"

He smiled and said, "Wait for me."

I wait for him.

I watched the light spill over him, and watched the light make his hair lift a little.

The stone fell down, and I returned to the silent cave.

I listened to the sound of water, that was the only movement.

It's just that in this world, darkness doesn't just exist in caves.

I don’t know when it started, but I could “see” more—the moon gradually setting outside, the birds rising in the forest... I counted the appearance and departure of the moon until the fifth day.

But he didn't come.

I suspect I counted wrong.

So I recount.

He taught me to count, and I know that there are "hundreds" above "ten", and "thousands" above "hundred".I counted patiently and apprehensively, the moon rose again and set again.Animals in the forest ran by and bumped into stones.I heard the voice and thought it was him coming.However, he still didn't show up.

I counted so many "fives" that I started to wonder.

Maybe I'm remembering wrong.

What he asked me to wait was not "five" but "fifty".

I find some comfort in waiting.

But until the second "fifty" passed, he still didn't come.

I start to worry.Amidst such worries, I have nothing to do, and put all my thoughts on creating a "person".

I silently made up my mind: When I become a real "person", I will go to him.

I want to have a "marriage" relationship with him, he will love me...

When I thought about this, I naturally remembered what he had said to me that I didn't understand at the time.

At this moment, I was blessed to the heart, and suddenly: it turned out that he was saying "love" to me.

I love him and he loves me too.

I was in the dark, holding my love for him, watching the time go by.

Fortunately, I didn't have to wait until "five hundred", he appeared again.

When the rock shook for the first time, I thought it was another small animal in the forest.But the fragrance of bay osmanthus floated faintly, and I suddenly realized that it was him.

The whole cavern began to sing.

I couldn't wait to meet him and tell him that I had the outlines of a "person"—not very well, of course.I wanted to ask him if he could help me.

Just like before, he helped me determine the appearance of the "hand".

He came down through the opening of the cave and landed on me.

His hair was longer than before, falling to his ankles.

I embraced him joyfully and let the darkness flow over him.

He seemed to want to say something to me, but I wanted to say more to him.

In the huge darkness, the shadow of a "person" emerged.

He looked at me.

I could see his surprise, but also his sadness.

really weird.

Why should he be sad when he saw me?

I hug him.This time, it was in a human way: two arms passed around him and clasped together behind him.

It was not until hundreds or thousands of years later that I realized that this was probably a rather terrifying scene: the holy and handsome priest, whose body was tightly entwined by a mass of darkness, seemed to want to merge with this darkness. as one.

I asked him, "Why are you unhappy?"

He looked at me.

I noticed that there was a flash of golden shadow in his cuff.

But I never cared.

He didn't answer, and I was so happy.So I talked on my own, telling him my thoughts: to become a human being, to be with him... As I said this, a tear fell from his eye socket.

Even after many years, when I think of this scene, I still feel from the bottom of my heart: It’s really beautiful.

Even when he killed me, he was so beautiful and vulnerable.

I feel the pain.

The pain was so severe that at first, I couldn't figure out why.

It took me a long time, until the whole cave was filled with light, until the tear ran down his cheek and slid down his chin, until most of my body dissipated, I didn't realize

people i love.

is killing me.

I groaned, but what I got in return was that he stabbed the dagger deeper.

For him, I want to become a "person".For him, I have a weakness and a "heart".

He is killing me with my love for him.

I heard more cries and heard knives drop to the ground.After that, my consciousness started to drop.

I came from darkness and I returned to darkness.

I thought that was all there was to it.

But, but.

After an unknown amount of time, I heard another loud noise.

Human beings kill each other and reap the consequences.

Their evil thoughts and their deaths are the nourishment for me.

I'm still weak, but I can already hear them talk: the priest killed the bishop, killed the king, and ignited war on the continent

How ridiculous.

He killed me first, and then supported me again.

Because of the war, my strength began to recover rapidly.

I left the cave, put on my cloak, and walked among the crowd.

The eyes of the crowd were shining, and they sang "Priest".

I looked at their gray souls and listened to their words: in their mouths, the priests led them to overthrow the decadent, backward, and exploiting dynasties and establish a new kingdom.

I sneered.

kill him.

I make a decision.

Let him feel my pain.

With this in mind, I walked into the royal court.

I searched for the scent of laurel, and then saw the pale, weak man with snow-white hair leaning on the couch.

I stopped and started to hesitate.

This is indeed him.

I can still see that he is different from others.Everyone else is gray, only him, clean and bright.

But I also know that he is indeed different.

He originally had his eyes closed, but at this moment, I saw his eyelids trembling.

In the end I went forward.

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