Boyfriend came back from infinite flow

When I say this, I know it well: neither me nor Ji Xiao, after going through the previous dispute, it is impossible to fall asleep.

But at least at the moment, my heart is too emotional.If it continues, I don't know what will happen.

endure.

I warn myself.

After all, it's not the first day I realized Ji Xiao's "nature".

There seemed to be a scale with precise scales in front of him, with different things on both sides.

Sometimes, one side is me and the other side is him.

He chooses me.

Sometimes it's him on the one hand and the other on the other.

He chooses others.

Sometimes it's me and someone else

I rolled my Adam's apple and turned on the faucet.

We wash up on the balcony side by side.

For a while, no one spoke.

The water was running, and I washed my face and brushed my teeth.After me, Ji Xiao picked up facial cleanser and toothpaste.

I know he is wronged, but the more this happens, the angrier I get.

I don't want to do anything to him right now.It's still early, and we still have more than a month of peace to live.

So, be patient.

With a cold face, I went back to the room after washing and lay on the bed.

During this process, Ji Xiao stayed on the balcony.

Since we lived in this dormitory, we have always slept in only one bed.But today, it will be different.

——I do think so.

It was past seven o'clock, and Ni Xue's voice on the phone came from the next door.The girl's voice is very soft, but it can clearly fall into my ears.

She was telling Director Hu as she said before that something happened last night and we went to the police station.So today during the day, I may not be able to go to work.

I can even hear Director Hu speaking.He first asked about Ni Xue's situation with concern, Ni Xue said everything, and also mentioned that Ji Xiao and I helped her, and Ji Xiao and I seemed to have conflicts.

This made Ni Xue feel uneasy.She asked Supervisor Hu, wondering if she could do something about it.

Accompanying Ni Xue's voice were Ji Xiao's footsteps.

He finally came from the balcony.

But after entering the room, he hesitated again and stood between the two beds.

I feel the gaze on myself.

Ji Xiao looked at me.Last night, he wanted to get hurt and bleed for someone else.But at this moment, he can only see me.

I thought of this with a strange tenderness in my heart.

Maybe everything is not so complicated.

Ji Xiao's nature is hard to change, well, let him not face the choice.

When he can only see me, only hear my voice, he can only pay attention to me.

At this time, he will no longer get hurt for others, nor will he ignore me for others.

I had such thoughts in my mind, but soon, I gritted my teeth because of it.

Why, why? !

Because I love him, do I have to lie to myself and deceive myself like this?

My mood was fluctuating, and I heard Ji Xiao's footsteps again.

Instead of going to the other bed, he came towards me and sat next to me.

My breathing has become stable, and it is indeed "asleep".Before that, he also waited for a long time on the balcony.

But I still feel, maybe he knows, that I'm not asleep.

While thinking wildly like this, he raised his hand and caressed my cheek vainly.

I felt a slight itch, and when I got to the back, I felt him lying down again, right next to me, hugging me like this.

My kitten, after making me angry, will take the initiative to act like a baby...

I heard my heartbeat again.

Jixiao, Jixiao.

I still closed my eyes, but the previous scenes were reflected in my mind.

The joy he brings me, the pain he brings me.

I love him precisely because he is so different.

The world is always greedy and selfish, but Ji Xiao stands in front of his steelyard and weighs everything in the world fairly.

I know, he puts himself last.But I don't know where he put me.

"Husband," he called me in a low voice, "are you still awake?"

I ignored him, but still wanted to hear what he had to say.

I listened so intently, but Ji Xiao stopped talking.

He sighed softly, put his arms around me, and rested his head on my shoulder.To put it bluntly, it's like an octopus clinging to me so much.

My mood was ups and downs, and at the back, my consciousness gradually fell into the dark.

The faucet on the balcony didn't seem to be tightened, and I heard a little water.

At first, it was just "tick" and "tick", but later, the water droplets became streams.

Gurgling, gurgling.

Accompanied by the sound of water flowing like this, the darkness spread without end.

until a light came in.

Light up the darkness and break through the past.

My eyelids fluttered and opened a slit.

It's Jixiao.

Ji Xiao got up at some point.He was leaning against me, holding his phone.

The screen lights up and the light hits my face.

Ji Xiao probably didn't expect the screen to be so bright.In a hurry, he first turned the phone over and lowered the brightness.After this, it seemed to be a sigh of relief.

He types.I watched his fingers move, and after a while, the message was sent.He put down his phone and turned to look at me again.

I close my eyes again.

Earlier, Ji Xiao once said that he hoped that I would turn into a ten-centimeter-tall doll that could be carried by him at any time.

Up to now, he is indeed treating me as a "doll".So careful, as if I were a fragile object.

Every time he showed more respect for me, the pain in my heart would be more severe.

I can't always understand him.

He obviously loves me, and obviously cares about me so much.It's just that there will always be "others", and "others" will always be more important, making him completely ignore me.

Ji Xiao said: "You are right, I am like this."

I was taken aback, almost thinking that he saw that I was awake.

But then, I discovered that Ji Xiao was just talking to himself.

He paused for a moment before continuing, "Did I... make you unhappy?"

I listen quietly.

Ji Xiao: "Shao Zuo, being with me, is it more happy or unhappy for you?"

I can't speak.

If the answer is the latter, then ten years ago, I would not take the initiative to approach him.

This should be a pretty clear answer.However, I couldn't ignore the times when he made me sad.

I want him to feel my pain, but I also know that if the situation is reversed, I have made the same choice as him...

Still not the same.

When I was thinking about this, Ji Xiao lowered his head and kissed me.

He touched my forehead at first.Then, probably because my "no response" encouraged him, his kiss fell to my lips little by little.

"Husband," he called me softly, "I...don't know what to do."

When I heard this sentence, I was calm.

—You don't know what to do.

It's okay, I'll tell you what you should do.

Ji Xiao would sympathize with Bai Wei and Jiang Xian, but would not jump into the water to save Sun Jing and Pei Hao.

He wanted to use self-harm to protect Ni Xue, but he was not soft on Zhang Su.

Instead of lying to myself, I want to face the problem head-on.

Just take down everything that Ji Xiao put on the scale and on the other side of me and him.

……

Ji Xiao was still asleep.

After he confirmed this, I opened my eyes and looked at Ji Xiao who was stuffing himself in my arms.

It's past eleven o'clock, almost time for lunch.In all fairness, I didn't "sleep" for long.But I have a clear mind, and at the same time, I know that Ji Xiao will sleep until the afternoon at least.

It's rare that he leans obediently in my arms, but I don't have any more thoughts.

There are more important things to do.

I got up, washed up, and went to the cafeteria downstairs.

At lunch, I met Director Hu.

Director Hu was taken aback when he saw me.

He asked me: "Xiao Shao, you are alone...ah, where is Xiao Ji?"

I said, "He's still sleeping."

Director Hu blinked and said, "Oh, oh. Ni Xue told me what happened to you last night."

I said, "The closing time was too short last time. But this time, it should be fine."

Director Hu felt relieved and said, "That's right."

The two of us talked, and the topic seemed dry.After finally finishing the meal, Director Hu asked me if I wanted to go to rest.I was tossing all night yesterday, and now the whole morning has passed, and I probably still have no energy.

I said, "No. Supervisor, I can go to work in the afternoon."

Director Hu looked at me for a moment, smiled, and said, "That's fine."

After dinner, we went upstairs together.

Besides us, there is Lao Du in the office.

Lao Du glanced at me, hesitated, and politely asked about last night.

I answered casually, sat down at my desk, and started making the form.

For me, this job is completely mindless and just a mechanical job.

More of my attention, on the other side of the window.

After half an afternoon, the curtains of Ji Xiao and I's room were drawn.

From a distance of tens of meters, I can still see Ji Xiao's expression.

He stood at the window, looking left and right, trying to find me in the yard.

But he failed.

After that, Ji Xiao's complexion changed slightly.

He quickly disappeared at the window.After a while, he came out of the building.

Counting the time in my mind, I stood up and went to the bathroom.

During this process, I had a little thought: Do I want Ji Xiao to really not be able to find me?

At that time, how broken and painful will he be?

This is a good time to reciprocate courtesy.But I let out a sigh of relief and gave up the idea.

Not urgent.

It turned out to be very fast.

I squeezed the hand sanitizer, washed my hands, and went outside.

The moment I stepped out of the bathroom door, the opposite elevator happened to open, and Ji Xiao was standing in it.

There is a corridor between us.Unlike before, this time, he was standing in a darker place, and the sun was behind me.

I look at him and think, if everything could really be reversed

Before I had any clearer thoughts, I saw Ji Xiao walking towards me.

First he walked, then he ran.

I realized that even though there was no intentional obstacle, just being there before had scared him to such an extent.

season night...

He bumped into my arms.

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