Rebirth is more than a year old

The scene that happened at the uncle's house in the afternoon made Xiangxi not sleep well all night.

As soon as he closed his eyes, it was full of the soft and warm expression of the man named Feng Li when he looked at his elder brother.Among all her peers, Xiangxi has a maturity beyond her age, which has a lot to do with her growth environment. Her two older brothers are both excellent and gentle people, so her personality is more or less different. The same thing was engraved on it, so when she saw Feng Li's intimate actions towards her elder brother in the afternoon, although she was surprised at the time, she didn't express this surprise directly.

Because she knew that once she had such an expression, the careful elder brother would definitely find out.

It's just that at that time, she subconsciously didn't want to discuss this issue with her elder brother too soon.

So the next morning, when Xiang Xi came out of the room with a pair of panda eyes, the eldest brother immediately saw her and asked her in a soft voice, "Did you not sleep well last night? Why are there such heavy dark circles?" ?”

Xiang Xi hurriedly shook his head, not even daring to meet his elder brother directly.

That afternoon, when she inadvertently saw the big hall brother hugging the man named Bo Qinghua in his arms and intersecting with each other at the back door, she was shocked. At that time, she didn't even know how to react. I shouldn't have looked, but my feet seemed to be stuck to the ground tightly by something, and I couldn't move.

The two men... Xiangxi felt a little sick at the time.

She has just turned 13 years old, and although her mind is in the enlightenment period of youth, she has not yet reached the point where her face will blush and her heart beats when she sees a boy, so she can't understand why two men can hug each other so intimately in their arms, why are they so close? To be able to kiss so hard.

Until now, Xiang Xi still remembers the expression on Bo Qinghua's face when he was hugged by his cousin at that time, the usual indifference and alienation faded away, the handsome side face was stained with an indescribable expression, that expression... as if intoxicated, and Inexplicably adding a touch of charming style.

Only then did Xiangxi realize that this person named Bo Qinghua also had other expressions.

Now seeing her elder brother looking at her with concern, Xiangxi immediately felt that the elder brother in front of her and Bo Qinghua overlapped, which made her a little stunned for a moment, so much so that she forgot to answer.

Seeing that she was silent and her expression was dull, Xiang Nan frowned and reached out to touch her forehead, but Xiang Xi seemed to be stung by something, and hurriedly took a step back. There was a wall behind her. As soon as he retreated, his whole body leaned against the wall, his big eyes filled with panic and bewilderment that had nowhere to hide.Xiang Nan's brows tightened slightly, but he didn't say anything at the moment, he just said, "Mom has already made breakfast, let's eat." Then he turned and went into the kitchen to help Xiang Mom put the breakfast on the table.

After breakfast, when Xiang Nan walked out the door, he saw Xiang Xi squatting under the eaves of the yard, staring at the ground in a daze.

She was already thin and small, but squatting like this, she looked like an abandoned kitten. She was a small ball, which was cute and cute.

The sound of Xiang Nan's footsteps startled her. When she looked up, the inquiry and uncertainty in her eyes were magnified for no reason. She thought she was hiding it well, but she was still a child after all, so she couldn't escape Xiang Nan's eyes. When Nan approached, she heard her call in a low voice, "Brother."

Xiang Nan sighed, followed her example and squatted down on the open space beside her, rubbed her soft black hair with warm palms, and asked softly, "Do you feel scared?"

Xiang Xi nodded hesitantly, then shook his head again.

Looking at her sideways to the south, I found that this girl seemed to have grown up a lot in just one night. Although her mind had already matured beyond her age, the experience precipitated between her brows at this time made her whole. Vitality is born from the collision of youth and sensibility.

The air was silent for a while, and neither brother nor sister spoke.

The unsealed courtyard made Xiang Nan feel a little deserted.

It turns out that when a person has appeared like this, and suddenly loses it, it will make people feel unbearable pain. This is not torture, but he should be there. When you recover, you have already fainted , so I feel a little empty and lonely in my heart.

Unknowingly, Xiang Nan's thoughts ran a little far.

Xiangxi's voice gradually came from his mind-wandering, very slow and soft, with the delicateness and gentleness unique to a young girl, "Brother, do you like men just like your cousin?"

Xiang Nan came back to her senses and met Xiang Xi's eyes. She probably didn't know how much expectation and hope were in her eyes. She hoped that he would say no. Xiang Nan knew, but he was not willing to lie to her.Lying aggravates guilt when we're dealing with lovable and kind people.What's more, Xiang Nan didn't intend to hide from the beginning, just as he said to Xiang Bei, he also made such a decision to Xiang Xi.

"Yes." After a while, he replied softly.

Xiangxi opened his mouth, as if he knew this answer early on, but when the answer really came out of his mouth, he found it difficult to accept.A thin layer of water vapor quickly appeared in her eyes, and she just looked at her favorite, strongest and best brother since she was a child, and thousands of words seemed to be directly conveyed from this look.

She didn't say a word because she didn't know what to say.

She just feels sad.

I don't want my eldest brother to follow the path of my cousin one day, and my father will beat him with a barbed stick one day, and I don't want my elder brother to be the laughing stock of everyone.Her outstanding and restrained elder brother has always been so proud since she was a child. Even though he is still poor now, he will eventually stand on a high tower worshiped by thousands of people and live with high dignity. Therefore, he should not kneel down and beg for mercy for a man. I hope In order to get the understanding of parents.

The ground quickly fainted with circles of water stains, and there was no rain in the sky, which was tears from the west.

She wept for her elder brother's grievances, she also cried for his unknown future, and even more, she shed tears for whether Feng Li was sincere to him.

Xiang Nan's tears made Xiang Nan feel flustered, and even more sad. This girl is always so sincere and calm. In this warm embrace, she seemed to have found an outlet in an instant, and finally no longer suppressed it, and cried loudly, "Wow... woo..."

Xiang Nan hugged her body tightly, buried her head and whispered in her ear: "Xiaoxi, brother has found someone he likes, you should be happy."

The crying sound in the ear is a girl's expression of all her feelings for her brother. Because she is afraid that he will fall, get hurt, sad, and desperate, so she wants to use tears to wake up his footsteps that have not gone far. In the early morning , Such cries can arouse the most pious fragility in the heart.

Helplessness, hesitation, pain, death.

This is a process that everyone must go through, so no amount of tears can change this established fact.

Xiang Nan had no intention of comforting the girl, he could only hug her tighter, gently stroked her back with his palm, and said over and over again, "Xiang Xi, be good, don't cry."

don't cry.

There will be falls, there will be injuries, and sadness and despair will definitely be waiting at a certain intersection ahead.

Because people live all their lives to experience these emotions.

It may be sad, it may be intense, but in the end we still have to move forward, because no one wants to end their life early and say goodbye to this indifferent but warm world early.

After an unknown amount of time, Xiang Xi was tired from crying and sobbed softly.

Xiang Nan patted her on the back, then let her go, and then asked, "Is there any boy Xiaoxi likes in our family?"

Xiangxi shook his head.

Xiang Nan continued, "When you have someone you like, you will understand what it feels like to be with someone for the rest of your life. Perhaps this feeling will grow over time. However, life exists in this world, and it is destined to walk with another person. Because life is long or short, but there are dozens of years of time. If the time is too long, it is inevitable that you will feel lonely. Even if some people I haven't found it yet, but that doesn't mean that person doesn't exist. I want to be with him, say good night at night, good morning at dawn, we sit on both sides of the same table, he pours tea for me, and I serve him Serving porridge, even if it is rainy, the mood is clear. Maybe there will be many tests, such as society, family and children, but I always believe that the man I love must be honest and strong. Since we choose each other, this I will never let go in my life.”

He speaks so slowly, every word is like sucrose stained on peanuts, delicious, crisp and memorable.

For the first time, Xiangxi saw this almost confessional calmness on her brother's face, as if she had made up her mind and never looked back. Between the lines, he could feel the most sincere desire in his heart. This outward desire made Xiangxi speechless for a while, quietly looking at his brother in the distance, his side face was still handsome, in this kind of In Juan Xiuli, there is only an extra epiphany and determination.

Xiang Xi couldn't help stretching out his hand, grabbed the elder brother's slender fingers, and said in a hoarse voice, "Then what if he...he bullies you?" After the eldest brother was so gentle, she felt that Feng Li was a bad person, and he couldn't wait to spy on her brother.

Hearing this, Xiang Nan smiled slightly, and held her hand instead, with a clear and ethereal voice, "He," the drawn-out ending sound seemed to express endless lingering, "He won't bully me."

Looking at him to the west, he said after a long time, "If he bullies you, my second brother and I will stand up for you."

Xiang Nan reached out and stroked her cheek, and smiled slowly, "Okay."

******

The Xiang family is not big, and the relatives in the family left soon.

The longer this Spring Festival goes, the less festive atmosphere becomes, which indicates that the start of school is coming.

The results of the final exam came out before the Chinese New Year. Xiang Nan's results were about the same as he expected, neither good nor bad. This year's admission to a local university is enough, but there is still some distance from T University's admission scores in previous years, and Xiang Nan Xi Ze entered the top three in the school and ranked second. It is said that there is only six points behind No.1. Xiang Bei felt sorry for her for a long time, but Xiang Nan felt that it was nothing, as long as there is a goal, and then keep working towards that goal As for the opponents in the process of struggle, there is nothing to be afraid of, because the real opponent is always only yourself.

Xiangxi’s school also kept its promise. At the beginning, it was promised that it would be a bonus of 6000 yuan for entering the top three. In view of Xiangxi’s family background, the principal even raised 7000 yuan for her from his own pocket. Xiangxi felt natural about taking the money Without saying anything, he gave the money to Xiang Nan that night, saying that he would pay his second brother's tuition fees next year.

Xiang Nan looked at her face with a bright smile under the lamp, pursed her lips, then pushed the money back, and said with a puzzled expression on Xiang Xi: "You should keep this money first, and use it when you run out of money." Take it out when the time comes."

Xiang Xi refused, "The tuition fees in your middle school are very high, and the money earned by your parents is definitely not enough, and you will go to college soon, and there will be more places to use the money. This money will be given to you and me. The second brother is the most suitable, when I got the notice, our homeroom teacher told me that because I have always performed well in school, the tuition fees for this semester are all exempted, as long as I pay some miscellaneous fees."

Xiangxi's eyes are big and beautiful, and the light shines on them, like the light of the North Pole, which can shine into my heart from afar.In the end, Xiang Nan didn't accept the money, because it was paid for by a young girl. What qualifications do they have to get involved?

He put the money back into Xiangxi's pocket, and said softly: "You keep this money, and I will find a way for the second brother's tuition."

Xiang Xi still didn't believe it, and looked at him with open eyes, "Brother, you are getting more and more stubborn."

Xiang Nan shook his head, "It's not stubborn." It's just that I don't want to disappoint your expectations.

The three brothers and sisters of the Xiang family stayed at home until the seventh day of the Lunar New Year before returning to school. The night before they left, Xiang's mother handed over the tuition fees for the three of them to Xiang Nan. Mom would be suspicious if she didn't pick it up, so she slipped the money under the pillow again while Mom wasn't paying attention.The next day when the three of them set out, Xiang’s mother stuffed a lot of cured meat into their schoolbags. Xiangnan weighed the bag, which was not very heavy at first, but now became extremely heavy. He thought that walking down the mountain road for a few hours would be choking. .

Starting from home early in the morning, I went to the small town at the foot of the mountain and took a bus to the county first. I paid the tuition fees for Xiangxi and Xiangbei. After I settled down, Xiangnan went to the nearby bus station to take the bus to the city.

Most of the middle schools in the city start on the eighth and ninth day of junior high school. This is the peak time for returning to school. The bus to the city is basically too weak to squeeze in. I squeezed in to the south, but I was alone. He had to hug his back, and was squeezed directly against the glass, looking so embarrassed that he couldn't bear to look directly at it.

Facing the car window glass facing south, tightly holding on to the handrail above the glass, with the backpack folded on his chest, looking at the scenery outside the window.

Because the car was full, it walked like an old scalper. It stopped and went all the way, quite slowly. When it was time to go to school, it was almost dark, and the three in the dormitory hadn’t arrived yet. As soon as the things were put away, the bed was simply tidied up. I was so tired after a day of tossing, I didn't even want to eat dinner, so I just fell on the bed and fell asleep.