Rebirth is more than a year old

In the dormitory, except for Xiang Nan who is from the countryside, the other three are all urban children born and bred, but the rare few people do not have the arrogance and arrogance of urban people, and they can get along with the honest and honest Xiang Nan. Xiang Nan borrowed Cao Qiudong's mobile phone and dialed the number he had used for more than ten years. When the mechanical female voice reminded him that the number did not exist, Xiang Nan was still a little bit disappointed. No one would hate his body, right? Even if the body is ugly and insubstantial.

Cao Qiudong was sitting on the upper bunk, swinging his legs in the air, seeing Xiang Nan handing back the phone with a gloomy expression, he couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"

Xiang Nan shook his head, bent over and sat on the bed, propped his hands on his chin, stared at a certain point in a daze, and sat there for an unknown how long, Cao Qiudong answered a phone call, then jumped off the bed, Teased him, "Xiang Nan, it's my friend's birthday, you're fine anyway, let's go together."

Xiang Nan is not the kind of person who likes to join in the fun, not to mention according to the current situation, he doesn't even have a decent gift when he goes to other people's birthday parties. He is not a person who has suffered hardships, but in the morning he accidentally When I found the personal items in the original owner's small wardrobe, I still felt astringent in my heart. A [-]- or [-]-year-old boy owns only a handful of things--a small purse embroidered with crisp bamboo, an old yellowed photo, There is also a used train ticket.

The property of the original owner was packed in that retro and rare purse, counted to the south, and the sum of the zeros and corners was only 223 yuan in total.This is probably all the money of the original owner.

What can you do with more than 200 yuan in this era? It’s more than that for a casual meal, but this kid from the countryside is living and studying with this meager money. Xiang Nan didn’t know what kind of mentality he should use Faced with all this, thinking that he had inexplicably occupied this body and deprived a child of a bright and fighting future, the guilt that had just grown in Xiang Nan's heart immediately overflowed.

But now that the matter has come to this point, Xiang Nan feels that the only way to live up to that young man named Xiang Nan is to live a good life.

Cao Qiudong actually likes Xiangnan quite a lot, and the age difference between the two is only a few days, but Xiangnan is usually very sensible and careful in doing things, so Cao Qiudong is more willing to play with Xiangnan than Xu Bin and Ye Wei , also felt that it was not easy for him to study from the countryside to a big city, so he usually thought of Xiangnan for any delicious and fun things. Seeing that Xiangnan couldn't say anything, Cao Qiudong also guessed his thoughts, Then he said, "That person is my buddy. Xu Bin and Ye Wei both went home for the weekend. It's boring for me to blame alone, so you can just accompany me."

In fact, Xiang Nan really didn't want to go, thinking what a person in his thirties was with a group of teenagers, but he couldn't hold back Cao Qiudong's three-inch lotus, and Xiang Nan really didn't know how to refuse people. , In the end, I had no choice but to follow Cao Qiudong.

The family of the classmate celebrating the birthday is quite well-off, and the whole floor of the hotel is also covered for the birthday.

When Xiang Nan and Cao Qiudong arrived, they saw that the subdivided floor was used as a cafeteria. There were crowds of people in twos and threes, and there were many people from society in the student party. Cao Qiudong pulled Xiang Nan by his sleeve, afraid He lost people with a wrong eye, Xiangnan was dragged all the way, and he didn't forget to get a glass of champagne from the waiter. Although he didn't want to come at first, but since he came, he had to drink some Things, he was almost dying of thirst along the way.

Cao Qiudong pulled Xiang Nan to Shou Xing's side.

Shou Xing looks several years older than Cao Qiudong, dressed casually, and his clothes don’t look very eye-catching, but Xiang Nan has been in the clothing business for more than ten years, so he still has good eyesight, so Shou Xing wears this outfit casually It costs four figures to come out, and if you have money to burn, you can smash your mouth to the south.

After finishing talking with Shou Xing, Cao Qiudong introduced Xiang Nan, "This is Yan Hao, my buddy, this is Xiang Nan."

After Cao Qiudong's introduction, Yan Hao stretched out his paws in front of Xiang Nan, swept his eyes around Xiang Nan, and smiled unpredictablely, "Hello, Xiao Nan."

Xiang Nan was made uncomfortable by his familiar address, but he still reached out to shake Yan Hao's hand, and when he was about to withdraw his hand, Yan Hao grabbed his hand calmly, fingers still Xiang Nan's palm stroked ambiguously, a chill came from behind, Xiang Nan's face changed, and he quickly withdrew his hand, but Yan Hao smiled helplessly as if nothing had happened. Harm, "Qiu Dong, your classmate is very cute."

Cao Qiudong glanced at him, "Hey, don't make up his mind, or I'll be the first to let you go."

Yan Hao laughed exaggeratedly, but his eyes fell on Xiang Nan from time to time. Xiang Nan felt like a rabbit being watched by a big bad wolf, and he was in a very dangerous situation.

Cao Qiudong has a lot of acquaintances here, and Xiang Nan sneaked to the side of the buffet table to search for delicious food when he was caught by someone. If you say that a man in his thirties who has not yet married is not shameful His secret is that he is so poor that he has no money to marry a wife, but Xiangnan has neither of these. He is simply afraid of contacting women. It is probably because the image of his mother who was tough and unreasonable when he was a child left a deep impression on him. This impression Under the continuous catalysis of the years, it has evolved into a state of high nervousness when he talks to women, except for grandma.

When he was about to turn [-], some friends tried to introduce him to a girlfriend or arrange a blind date, but in the end, nothing happened. As time passed, even his friends dared not introduce him, and Xiang Nan walked alone. Ten years.

Apart from making money, Xiang Nan's biggest hobby is to eat. It is his dream to eat delicacies all over the world.

The current buffet is pretty good, but after eating a few pieces of pastries, Xiang Nan already felt that his stomach was not full. He knew that grandma had no money and couldn't make good tricks for him, so he was very sensible to give him whatever he wanted. , but Xiang Nan was a big eater at that time, and often took the lunch prepared by grandma to school and ate it on the way to school, and then watched other students eat at noon and starved himself, probably because This is why Xiang Nan is full of paranoid obsession with food. After he starts working, besides making grandma's life better, Xiang Nan is more and more able to toss about eating.

When the buffet was almost finished, Cao Qiudong came back, holding a glass of red wine in his hand, and leaned over to look at the plate he put on the table, "Why? Isn't it delicious?"

Xiang Nan shook his head, "I can't eat anymore."

Cao Qiudong frowned, "I told you that now is the time to grow your body, so don't skip meals just to save money. Look, your stomach is so hungry now."

Xiang Nan thinks about it too, this is indeed something a child with no money would do, and thinking about it like this makes him feel more distressed about that soul who doesn't know where it is floating.

"Wait to go to the bar to renew the stall, do you want to go?" Cao Qiudong asked him.

Xiang Nan shook his head, "I don't really like that kind of occasion, why don't you go, I'll go back later."

Cao Qiudong also knew that he must not be used to staying in that kind of place, so he didn't force it, but Yan Hao came out of nowhere and interjected, "Today is my birthday, and it would be too shameful for Xiao Nan not to go. "

Xiang Nan is speechless, a ten-year-old kid, squandering the hard-earned money earned by his parents, keeping his mouth shut in face, children nowadays are really getting more and more ignorant.

"Xiang Nan is different from us, don't try to spoil him." Cao Qiudong turned his head and glared at Yan Hao, his expression already a little unhappy.

Yan Hao didn't seem to notice his expression, he came over and hooked Xiang Nan's shoulders, and when he leaned over, there was a pungent smell of alcohol, "Xiao Nan, go, there will be a surprise later, you will definitely like it."

Xiang Nan didn't like this way of getting along very much.

Although the friends he made in the past may not be said to be very rich, they are at least gentle and kind, unlike the Yan Hao in front of him. He couldn't even hide his name tag, so he took a step back towards Nan Chao, avoiding Yan Hao's hand indiscriminately, "I'm a little sleepy today, let's try another day."

Yan Hao was rejected by someone, and his face immediately turned ugly. Cao Qiudong knew that this man could do anything when he was angry, so he hurriedly pulled Xiang Nan over, and said to Yan Hao, "It's almost enough to eat here, let's Let's go, see you at the bar." After speaking, without waiting for Yan Hao's reaction, he pulled Xiang Nan away.

It wasn't until the two of them got into the elevator that Cao Qiudong let Xiang Nan go, and looked at him apologetically, "I'm sorry, Xiang Nan, I really shouldn't have brought you here today."

Except for being hugged by Yan Hao just now, Xiang Nan didn't feel anything, and smiled immediately, "It's okay, your friend is actually quite interesting."

"He," Cao Qiudong sighed for a long time, "people from the big family have been destined for him from birth, no wonder he made himself so bad, he can't resist materially, then Demonstrate mentally."

Under the bright light in the elevator, the melancholy on Cao Qiudong's face disappeared in a flash, and he lowered his eyes to the south, thinking that maybe the crazier the person is, the better he can hide his thoughts, and he can hide those things that he doesn't want to show or can't show others in his heart. It is easy to hide under the bright and crazy appearance, so that people will not notice, and you can live more freely.

The sky was still bright when the two of them came. At this time, it was already the first lights outside. This cold city was whitewashed by street lamps and billboards, but it also showed a bit of warmth in this desolate winter night, facing the south to the air. With one breath, the gas immediately rolled up a circle of hoarfrost and slowly dissipated in the cold air.

"I'll just go back later by myself," Xiang Nan said.

Cao Qiudong shook his head, "I'll go back with you, I don't want to renew the stall anyway."

So Cao Qiudong took out his mobile phone and called Yan Hao, then followed Xiang Nan out of the hotel.

The two had just left the gate when a car stopped right in front of the gate. Cao Qiudong subconsciously stopped, and Xiang Nan followed suit. The hotel waiter opened the door of the back seat, and a tall man walked away. down.

A very handsome man, with real eyebrows and handsome eyes, Xiang Nan's eyes stayed on the other's face for two seconds, and then moved away, although he has never seen such a handsome man in his age, But it's impolite to stare at others, and Xiang Nan is not the kind of boy who has never seen the world. He is dressed in black and black pants, and he walks like wind. I know this is a role that ordinary people can't afford to mess with.

In a blink of an eye, the other party had strode in.

Xiang Nan clearly felt that when the man's face appeared under the bright light, Cao Qiudong's body froze for a second.

Cao Qiudong was very afraid of the man who passed them by, more precisely, he was at a loss.He was completely unprepared to meet the other party at this time, and then the other party appeared in such a grandiose manner, killing him by surprise.

Although this thought came fiercely and inexplicably, Xiang Nan had such a clear understanding.

On the way back, Cao Qiudong was unexpectedly silent, and Xiang Nan guessed something, so he didn't say anything, and stayed silent with Cao Qiudong.

The two went back to the dormitory, and Cao Qiudong lay down under the blanket when he said he was sleepy.

Xiang Nan stared at the bulge on the bed, and sighed in his heart, the child's mind is getting more and more serious now.

It's still early, and Xiang Nan couldn't sleep, so he took the computer shared by Ye Wei on the desk and connected to the Internet. Apart from the empty mobile phone number, his Q Weibo and other online accounts miraculously existed. And the password is also the one he set, and the bank account is still there, but it has been frozen, which means that no money can be withdrawn.

Xiang Nan set the penguin's avatar to be invisible, and found that "he" was dead when he came up for the first time these days.

Almost everyone who has made friends with him sent a message titled "Xiang Nan, go all the way." The time was July two years ago, which was summer.

In fact, Xiang Nan was not surprised. In fact, no matter how inexplicable he felt when encountering such a thing, he was more or less mentally prepared after the past few days. A sense of desolation in front of me, since the mobile phone number no longer exists, it also reflects that Xiang Nan, a self-employed individual in his thirties, probably does not exist anymore, but he did not disappear quietly after all, at least , and some people know that he has existed as Xiang Nan, although it has already been.

Xiang Nan squatted in front of the computer, the dormitory did not turn on the lights, only the blue light from the computer screen illuminated a small world, the dormitory was quiet in the winter night, Xiang Nan propped his chin with one hand, staring at the colorful interface in a daze.

The city where he has lived for half his life is in the far south, far away from here. Although there is a very convenient means of transportation now, he can't afford that much fare for a while. What's more, Xiang Nan is a little cowardly thinking, As long as he doesn't set foot in the city where he has lived for more than [-] years, then self-employed Xiangnan will not disappear.

Cao Qiudong, who had been covered in the blanket all this time, suddenly stretched out his head, looked at the slender figure squatting in front of the computer, and called out, "Xiang Nan."

Xiang Nan turned his head, his cheeks sunk in the shadows, and his voice was a little hoarse, "Are you thirsty? Shall I pour you some water?"

Cao Qiudong shook his head, turned his head to look at the dark ceiling above his head, and said slowly after a while, "The man we met in the hotel just now."

"...almost became my brother-in-law."

Xiang Nan opened his mouth, but finally said nothing.

Cao Qiudong didn't seem to want to wait for him to say anything, and said directly, "I didn't expect that when I saw him again, I would recognize him at the first sight. I was only seven or eight years old when he got engaged to my sister. I don't know what happened later, he and my sister suddenly divorced, and they left cleanly, and then my sister... committed suicide."

Xiang Nan felt his fingertips tremble, because Cao Qiudong's voice had already started to cry. He stood up from the computer and walked over to stand beside Cao Qiudong's bed. The light reflected by the computer was not enough to illuminate the entire dormitory. , so Xiangnan couldn't see the expression on Cao Qiudong's face in the dark. Even so, Xiangnan still touched his wet hand on his face. Cao Qiudong probably felt awkward, twisted his neck, Xiangnan's hand Leaving his cheeks and rubbing his hair instead, the young man's crisp voice was dyed with a thick layer of kindness by the night, "Do you hate him?"

Cao Qiudong's breath dragged on a bit, "At the beginning, I hated him very much, because he killed my sister, but everyone in our family didn't think so, and their attitude towards him was better than before, as if The person who did something sorry for the other party is like my sister, I don't understand, I didn't want to stay at home for a while, and then, then my mother told me something."

Cao Qiudong fell silent again, Xiang Nan didn't rush him, his right hand slowly and gently rubbed his hair, the air seemed to be stretched infinitely by the silence, until Cao Qiudong's voice sounded again, "My mother and I Said, my sister actually died of illness."

On such a quiet and silent night, it is obviously inappropriate to discuss such a topic.

Because illness and death are easily associated with loss and disappearance, and human feelings are often the most fragile in the dark night that is too thick to melt.

The kind of loved one who closes his eyes slowly in front of his eyes, slowly loses his breath and heartbeat, is more painful than any encounter, thinking that from now on, there will be no such person in this world, and there will be no such person in his own life. People's participation, great helplessness and despair can almost swallow people, and Xiang Nan understands the pain of losing a loved one better than anyone else, because he only has this one and only relative in this world.

Many times, ownership is a breeze.

I like it, I want it, I want it, and I get it.

Therefore, when you put more and more thoughts and feelings on a thing, losing it becomes a pain like cutting flesh.

When Xiang Nan's parents divorced, he hadn't reached the age of loss. He just watched his parents walk out of the house together with innocent eyes, and then parted ways.

He is too young to feel that he is too sad to be himself. At the beginning, he was still arguing for his mother, but then he gradually forgot that throughout Xiangnan's childhood, there were only grandma's plain clothes and face. A smile that is as warm as spring but full of wrinkles.

"My mother said that my sister loves him very much." Cao Qiudong said sullenly, "I love him so much that I would rather die than marry him, but she still hasn't waited until that time." At this point, he turned over on the bed Standing tall, lying on the bed, looking at the boy standing beside the bed with a pair of eyes in the dark, "I also think my sister loves him badly. Once I accidentally opened a book my sister had read before. The pages of the book It's full of that person's name."

Xiang Nan couldn't understand this kind of love so extreme that he could even die, but he respected from the bottom of his heart the woman who died for love whom he had never even met.

Cao Qiudong talked a lot that night.

Probably the man I met in the hotel touched Cao Qiudong's many memories of the past, and he couldn't stop talking once he opened it. Xiang Nan played the role of a good listener, and he took the trouble to listen to him talking about his relatives at home and the cats raised by relatives. Finally, at two o'clock in the morning, Cao Qiudong said that he was tired, and the two of them lay down and fell asleep.