I won't wait for you

Yang Wenyu suddenly grabbed the coffee cup in his hand, "You mean, Qin Ning?"

"Well, we have to start from the beginning." Xiao Qisi put out his cigarette, took a sip of coffee, "You are my boyfriend, you go to city B to study at university, and you only come back once in a while, I really can't bear the loneliness I will find someone else." Seeing Yang Wenyu frowned, Xiao Qisi said, "Don't look at me like that. I liked you at the beginning, but you didn't take me too seriously. Later, you broke me, and with I broke up, and I chased you to City B to get back together and apologize to you, only to find out that there was something unusual between you and Qin Ning. According to what Qin Ning said back then, he had a girlfriend at that time, and the two of you had nothing to do with each other. , but I only believe in my own eyes, when have you ever cared so much about someone, even if you were not together at the time, didn’t you still get him later? You refused to get back together with me at that time, so I just feel resentful.”

Although Xiao Qisi said that he had already looked away, when he mentioned the past, there was still a hint of resentment. He turned the coffee cup in his hand, his eyes were serious, and he continued: "The night you left me, we went to the bar. Someone came You harassed me, but you decided that I was stubborn, left me and left. That night, I was drugged/raped by five people."

"I'm sorry." Yang Wenyu said, pale and powerless.

"I said, you didn't apologize to me. When I thought about it later, I couldn't blame you. It was just my own bad luck. Later, I met a bad person and got poisoned by accident. I borrowed money from you several times. I haven’t paid back, and my credit has been consumed time and time again. When I went to look for you in City B for the last time, you were too lazy to listen to me anymore. I looked at you from afar, and I could see clearly that you were extremely disgusted. Hanging up the phone I called you made me very uncomfortable. Indeed, it was all my own fault, but after I followed you and Qin Ning, I found out that you two were indeed together. Your appearance, your iceberg face that has never changed for thousands of years and never moved anyone, was so gentle that it melted into water in front of him. That is the expression I have never seen on your face. So, I was stunned by jealousy and anger Out of his mind, I kidnapped him and redoubled the misfortune that happened to me on him."

Yang Wenyu found that he couldn't sit still, and asked eagerly, "What did you do?"

Xiao Qisi looked at Yang Wenyu coldly, "I also drugged him, but it wasn't an aphrodisiac/drug. I just made him weak to resist, and he was raped by ten people while he was sober. It was very rough and cruel."

"You!" Yang Wenyu was about to strike, he was outraged, but he found that he was even more angry with himself for making Qin Ning suffer such inhuman treatment.

Xiao Qisi sneered, "Are you angry just hearing a story? Haven't you already forgotten him?"

"You continue." Yang Wenyu managed to adjust his mood, he had to listen to Xiao Qisi's words.

"After I edited the recording of the conversation with Qin Ning, I sent you the sexy bed photo with him. As I wish, you misunderstood him and abandoned him." Seeing Yang Wenyu bow his head and close his eyes, Xiao Qisi clasped his hands to support his forehead He Chin, looking overwhelmed, continued, "At first, I thought, Qin Ning loves you so much, he will try his best to solve the misunderstanding. If you really love him, you should still be together in the end. Doing, although it is a simple and vile revenge, is it not a test? I never thought that you would come here. Now it seems that maybe something happened in the middle, you lost your memory, and you disappeared. It came from life. But to be honest, I really felt very happy at that time."

"Later, my retribution also came. I committed a drug/addiction, and it became more and more serious. I couldn't borrow money and couldn't repay the debt. I was chased everywhere, and a leg was broken. But in the end I survived. , I went to the drug rehabilitation center. After I came out, I saw Qin Ning in a magazine one day. He is a young talent and has a successful career. I suddenly woke up. See what life is like after suffering? It’s so high-spirited. You People I like are like this. Looking at myself again, I suddenly realized that I don’t hate you at all.”

After the story was told, Xiao Qisi saw that Yang Wenyu hadn't responded for a long time, and knew that it was difficult for him to accept it for a while, but he still said: "I have both the before and after recording and editing. If you need it, I can pass it on to you."

"Where are the photos?" Yang Wenyu asked, and he heard his voice hoarse.

"I'll destroy it, I don't think you want to see that."

"Thank you."

"No need." Xiao Qisi said, "There is at least one thing I am sorry for you. This house, even when I was desperate, I never thought about selling it, I have been guarding it for you."

Yang Wenyu raised his head: "Is this house mine?"

"This is the house you lived in since you were a child. It is all the memories of you and your grandfather. Although I am not a good person, I still miss the old days. Now that you are back, I can move out at any time."

"No, you should live here. Now, I need to get all my memories back."

The complex and chaotic emotions were rampant in the chest cavity like the raging karma from hell, burning wantonly, Yang Wenyu clutched his chest, tortured by this burning feeling extremely uncomfortable.

Guilt, debt, self-blame, anger, helplessness, confusion...

But he couldn't empathize with what happened to Qin Ning back then, but he knew that he hurt him deeply and thoroughly.Even if he didn't accidentally lose his memory, his distrust of Qin Ning back then was an unforgivable sin.

When he came out of Xiao Qisi's house, the sky was already pale, and the winter wind in the north was bleak, Yang Wenyu felt nothing but burning pain, he had no time to think about anything else, he just wanted to rush to Qin Ning to apologize to him, Even without forgiveness.

He stood on the side of the road and waited for a long time before he stopped a car. He was going to the airport to catch the earliest flight.

Along the way, the details after countless re-encounters played back clearly in my mind.

When Qin Ning saw him again, he was so shocked that even his subordinates lost their importance, and the child burst into tears.

"What you can't remember is naturally unimportant."

It's a simple sentence, now I know how cruel Qin Ning was to himself when he said it.Qin Ning must have been very disappointed in him, and must have thought that he was deliberately pretending not to know him, so every time he saw him afterwards, he was so indifferent, and he must have hated herself extremely.

When Qin Ning was drunk, he could bear to cry, the tears seemed to drip into Yang Wenyu's heart, but they couldn't extinguish the fire that gnawed at his heart.When she hugged him in the mist and told him not to leave, the hands that grabbed him broke out with such desperate strength.But after waking up, he forced himself to say that he had admitted to the wrong person.

These are more painful than scraping with a needle, and now, everything hurts Yang Wenyu's heart.

No wonder, Qin Ning's wives and friends all gritted their teeth and hated him.

He is a sinner.

Due to the windy weather, the flight was delayed for two hours. After returning to City C, I got out of the airport and was stuck in traffic for another hour. In the middle, I received two audio clips from Xiao Qisi. Since I didn't have the habit of carrying headphones with me, I felt anxious in an instant. When it reached its peak, he almost lost his mind due to the burning, almost knocking off the door of the taxi.It was already 01:30 in the afternoon when he arrived outside the community. When he got out of the car, Yang Wenyu ran wildly. When he got out of the elevator, he had no time to catch his breath, so he couldn't wait to raise his hand and knock on the door.

However, after knocking for a long time, no one opened the door.

Yang Wenyu leaned back against the door, unbuttoned his coat to let the heat out, and he walked down the door exhaustedly and sat down on the ground.

I don't know how long I waited until the sweaty clothes became icy cold in the cold air, and Yang Wenyu gradually regained his senses from the cold.

Seeing Qin Ning, what would he say?

Now that Qin Ning pretends not to know him, does it mean that Qin Ning doesn't want to look back on the past, and is no longer willing to accept him?

He can't be impulsive, and can't bring him any more harm.

Then what should I do to get Qin Ning's forgiveness?