I won't wait for you

It was already very late when we returned to City C. The funeral parlor had already dispersed except for a few relatives who helped keep watch at night. The dirge and music played in a loop non-stop. In this quiet and desolate night, every note seemed extraordinarily sad.

Qin Ning restrained the urge to cry along the way. He kept emphasizing to himself that he hated this man who hurt his mother, so there was no need to be sad or cry for him.However, at the moment of hearing the sorrow and joy, the power of family love overwhelmingly overcomes everything, and all the restraints are about to collapse. No matter what this man has done, the fatherly love he gave him is real, he is his own father ah.

When Qin Ning saw her mother, Kang Xiaoying looked at Wang Xiaofei who was standing aside with red and swollen eyes, and said coldly to Qin Ning, "Come with me." fell far behind.

Kang Xiaoying brought Qin Ning to Qin Hong's ice coffin, and said in a deep voice, "Kneel down."

Qin Ning looked at Qin Hong lying in the ice coffin, and always felt that he was just asleep. He knelt down as he said, but his eyes were still fixed on Qin Hong's closed eyes, praying that they would be able to recover in the next second. open.

"Snapped!"

The left cheek was in hot pain, and Kang Xiaoying slapped Qin Ning hard.

"Why are you beating him! He's still sick, and he came back with great difficulty." Wang Xiaofei rushed over when he saw the movement here.

Kang Xiaoying glanced at Wang Xiaofei, ignored her, and then said to the kneeling Qin Ning: "Yesterday, a woman ran to your father's work unit and made a scene in front of all the colleagues in the work unit, asking him to discipline his gay son. Don't pester her son anymore. Your dad was so angry that he had a heart attack, and he couldn't be rescued after being sent to the hospital. You said, I slapped you, is it a light one?" Kang Xiaoying choked up, tears running down her cheeks, The already red and swollen eyes became even redder.

"Mom... I'm sorry..." It seemed that everything she said was so weak, nothing could express a millionth of the emotion in her heart, tears burst into tears, and she couldn't hold back anymore, Qin Ning couldn't say anything except sorry not come out.

"You! Are you admitting it?" Kang Xiaoying covered her mouth in surprise, even though she knew that there must be no fake, after all, there was still a glimmer of hope hidden in her heart, hoping that everything was just a misunderstanding, but she was still disappointed when she heard Qin Ning admit it herself. and amazed.

"I'm sorry..." Qin Ning could only repeat these three words.

Kang Xiaoying raised her hand in anger and wanted to slap Qin Ning again. She watched Qin Ning stare blankly at her father, repeating the word "sorry" in a hoarse voice, and a scabbed wound opened at the corner of her mouth. Come on, leached tiny drops of blood, finally couldn't do it anymore, turned around and walked away.

Wang Xiaofei wanted to pull Qin Ning up, but he couldn't do anything, so he had to sit on a small wooden bench to the side and watch.

Qin Ning just knelt beside the ice coffin, staring intently, kept saying sorry in his heart, kept hoping that his father was just asleep, for fear that if he blinked too much, he would miss his waking up...

Two days later, Qin Ning carried Qin Hong's urn to the mountain for burial. By this time, Qin Ning still felt unreal.In the past two days, countless thoughts were turning in his mind.

Sometimes I think that during the Chinese New Year, we still have dinner and jokes together, how can we just say no and then disappear?Why can death happen so casually?

Sometimes I think, I haven't had time to take revenge on you, you just left without a word, can't you hold your breath and wait for me to come back and scold me?

Sometimes I think, you treat my mother so much, and my mother still loves you so much, do you have the nerve to just leave?You owe my mother all your life...

Sometimes I think, I plan to slowly find the right time to introduce my lover to you in the future, I didn’t expect you to be so unacceptable, if I still love him, will you be disappointed?

……

A piece of fruit was stuffed into Qin Ning's mouth, it was sweet and sour, it was Wang Xiaofei who forced himself a piece of apple.

"I've been calling you for a long time, why are you in a daze?"

"It's nothing, thank you." Qin Ning withdrew his thoughts.

"You haven't eaten much in the past two days, is your throat better now? Add some vitamins."

Qin Ning looked at Wang Xiaofei who was peeling apples in Feili Bara and said, "Xiaofei... thank you these days... I..."

"Don't! Don't say anything hypocritical. Why are you being polite to me?"

"Ah."

"Then what, I know you've been through a lot these days. If you have anything you want to talk about, don't hold back. I, I actually have a similar experience. You can tell me, don't go into a dead end. This kind of thing, actually Just think about it." Wang Xiaofei said as carefully as possible.

"Did any of your relatives die?" Qin Ning asked puzzled.

"No, no, I mean..." Wang Xiaofei simply gave up on peeling the apple, and said, "I was raped before, so...don't think too much, many things are the shackles you put on yourself, Everything will pass, trust me."

Qin Ning pondered for a long time before saying: "Dong Zi raped you?"

"No, no! What are you thinking? How can Dongzi be considered strong? Before he was with him, by, by other people..."

"Oh……"

"Oh what, I know that your experience is worse than mine..." Wang Xiaofei felt that it was not good to say it was miserable, so he said instead, "I also had a period of time when I was very uncomfortable. I was afraid of being known and looked down upon by others. What, except for those few people who really care about you, who would really care, even if they know it for a while, they will forget it. And those who really care about you don't want to see you sad..."

Just as he was talking, Wang Xiaofei's cell phone rang, and it was Wei Dong calling.

"Hello, Dongzi?" Wang Xiaofei answered the phone.

"Are you with Ning Zi? There is news about Marshal Yang, but..." Before Wei Dong could finish speaking, Wang Xiaofei turned his mobile phone to public release, and Wei Dong's voice continued, "But I don't know how to talk to Ning Zi. explain."

"You said, I'm here." Qin Ning said.

"Ahaha, Ning Zi... Well, that's right, I haven't been in contact with Marshal Yang for the past few days, but just now his mother came over and said that he has gone to the United States, and the transfer procedures have been completed, and she asked me to help him Packed his things..."

"If you tell me to clean it up, you can clean it up! Don't you know how to stop it?" Wang Xiaofei jumped up and shouted.

Qin Ning couldn't listen to what Wei Dong and Wang Xiaofei were saying later, he just felt that his heart seemed to have stopped beating, although he knew it was impossible, but at that moment his whole heart suddenly became empty, that lingering feeling The sense of unreality became so strong that he didn't know what to do.

He still remembered Yang Wenyu's appearance when they met for the last time, that expression was so strange, an expression he had never seen on Yang Wenyu's face before.He's always been gentle, hasn't he?Even if you are indifferent to everyone, you are never the same to yourself.But what happened to the violent and resentful eyes he looked at himself in the end?Even if he knew that he had experienced those dirty things, shouldn't he ask the person involved first?

why?

Why did the people he knew change in just one night?

Why did his life change drastically in just one day?

Is all this true?

Qin Ning's eyes were slack, and there was something in his eyes that he couldn't focus on. He stared at it for a long time, and finally saw the things on the table clearly. A sudden idea came to his mind, and he suddenly reached out to grab the fruit on the plate. The knife made a sharp cut in the palm of his hand.

The blood stained the left hand in an instant, and another drop after drop hit the ground fiercely, and bright red flowers bloomed, which was shocking.

It hurts, it hurts.

"Qin Ning, you are crazy!" Wang Xiaofei threw away the phone, knocked out the fruit knife in Qin Ning's right hand, and hurriedly pulled a large pile of tissues to press the wound on Qin Ning's palm.

"It's real...it's not a dream...he really left, didn't say anything, didn't listen to me, just left..." Qin Ning murmured, his eyes were empty, as if the world There was no longer any thing he was nostalgic for, which made Wang Xiaofei feel flustered.

Wang Xiaofei accompanied Qin Ning to the nearest clinic to bandage the wound. The doctor gave them some precautions, and Wang Xiaofei wrote them down one by one. On the other hand, Qin Ning looked as if he had nothing to do with him.

After returning home, Qin Ning finally recovered some of her spirits. Wang Xiaofei was afraid that Qin Ning would do stupid things if she was alone, so she forced Qin Ning to watch TV on the sofa.

Put away all the dangerous items and hide them, and then clean up the blood on the floor. Wang Xiaofei just sat on the sofa, feeling that there would be endless troubles in the future, when Qin Ning called him in a low voice, Wang Xiaofei was nervous Looking at Qin Ning, he smiled calmly and said, "Xiao Fei, don't worry about me about what you said just now."

"Ningzi..."

"Anyway, I'm used to being bitten by a dog. It's just that there are a few more dogs this time. I won't take it to heart."

Wang Xiaofei had never seen Qin Ning's miserable smile on any face before. This smile made people palpitate, flustered, and distressed for no reason...

Qin Ning looked in Wang Xiaofei's direction, but there was nothing in his eyes, and a decisive voice sounded in his heart.

You go, I won't wait for you.