I won't wait for you

When Qin Ning struggled to move his weak legs and came out of the toilet, he didn't see Wang Xiaofei who had just grabbed the toilet with him in the dormitory. He poured two glasses of milk with warm water, and found Wang Xiaofei sitting on the steps smoking in the corridor.Wang Xiaofei was unprepared that Qin Ning would come out to find him, he choked a puff of smoke in his throat, and coughed violently.

Qin Ning walked quickly to Wang Xiaofei's side, put down the milk and patted his back with his hand, and asked, "Aren't you a non-smoker?"

Wang Xiaofei didn't have the time to speak at all, his face flushed red from coughing, and his eyelashes were wet with tears.When Wang Xiaofei finally took a breather, Qin Ning handed him the milk, "Drink some, drink it all night, nourish your stomach."

Wang Xiaofei took the milk and thanked him.

"Are you sober? You're a little weird tonight." Qin Ning asked softly with a casual tone, and sat side by side with Wang Xiaofei, looking at the night in the distance, slowly savoring the aroma of the milk.

There is always not a single star to be seen in the night sky of City B. The normally bright moon is now shrouded in a thin cloud, with only a faint glimmer of light, just like a person with a sad face who can't see through his own heart.

After a long while, Wang Xiaofei sighed deeply. The sound was very heavy in the silent night. With a crackling sound, the fire ignited, and Wang Xiaofei lit another cigarette. This time he didn't put the cigarette in his mouth, but held it between his fingertips and looked at it. The rising smoke transforms into crooked lines in the air, as if troubles can dissipate in the air along with these lines.

Qin Ning drank the last sip of milk and said, "If it's not convenient for you to tell me, I won't ask. If there is anything that can help, just ask."

Wang Xiaofei wiped his face with one hand irritably, "I'm just confused, I don't even know what to say."

"You have such a good relationship with Dongzi, why don't you talk to him?"

"He... hey..." Wang Xiaofei hesitated to speak.

Qin Ning thought about the atmosphere at dinner, and was sure that there was no conflict between Wang Xiaofei and Wei Dong, and said, "Xiaofei, I plan to rent a house near the school next semester, and in the future, it may be difficult to have the opportunity to get together every day like this .If you can trust me, you might as well tell me, and I promise to keep it secret."

"You're going out to live? Why? You don't want to live with us?"

"How come, it's more convenient to go out and live. You can often come to play with me in the future."

"Have you made up your mind?"

"Ah."

"I will miss you."

"I miss you too."

"It's not easy for you to hold Marshal Yang, what will we do when you leave..."

"..." Qin Ning decided not to tell Wang Xiaofei about Yang Wenyu going out to live together for the time being, and returned to the subject, Qin Ning asked: "If you really don't want to talk about it, don't sit outside for too long, it's cold at night."

"Ningzi, I can trust you, but, my matter is indeed a bit special."

"What kind of special law?"

"That's right... No, no, you have to promise me first, you can't laugh at me after you hear it!"

"I promise you. Come!" Qin Ning raised a fist, and the two of them clashed their fists to make a promise, "Now you can speak with confidence."

"That's it, that, Dongzi said, he likes me..." After Wang Xiaofei finished speaking, he didn't dare to look at Qin Ning's expression.

"That's it? Gone?" Qin Ning, a big-hearted child, naturally wouldn't be very surprised. He didn't think this kind of thing was a big deal at all, just like he didn't hesitate to get together with Yang Wenyu back then.

"What else do you want?!" Wang Xiaofei was a little mad, the matter that has disturbed him for so long seems to be nothing to Qin Ning, "You can hear me clearly, I said that Dongzi likes me, who likes me?" !"

"I'm not a servant. Did he confess his love to you, and you don't know how to reply him?"

"Yes, tell me, how can I reply to him? Both of us are, both are..."

"They're all old men, right?" Qin Ning took the unspeakable words out of Wang Xiaofei's mouth, "Tell me what you think first."

"I don't know. I'm not bothered. I've told you all about it, but you give me some advice."

Qin Ning thought for a moment, and said, "You only regard Dongzi as a brother, don't you?"

Wang Xiaofei nodded.

"But you are afraid that after rejecting him, you won't even be able to be a brother."

Wang Xiaofei continued to nod.

"Dongzi said he likes you, do you feel disgusted, resisted or disgusted?"

Wang Xiaofei thought about it seriously, "That's not true."

"I'll ask you a few more questions, and you should answer them honestly." Qin Ning heard Wang Xiaofei say "Oh" dully, and began to ask: "Have you ever been in a serious relationship? Do you know the feeling of liking this word?"

"We talked about it once when I was in junior high school. It was like playing house." Wang Xiaofei's ears felt hot. "To be precise, I don't know exactly what it feels like to like."

"Do you hate the gay community?"

"I don't know, but I think it's weird anyway."

"For example, if I was gay, would you think I was disgusting?"

"No, are you telling the truth?" Wang Xiaofei felt that Qin Ning's question jumped a little too fast.

"I'm just making a hypothesis, don't be surprised."

"Oh... probably not."

"Did Dongzi just confess his love? Did he kiss you or do other things?"

"No! He just made me think clearly and answer him."

"Why don't you imagine, if Dongzi kisses you, would you feel disgusted?"

"Ah...?" Wang Xiaofei didn't know how to answer this question, he imagined the scene of Wei Dongchao approaching him, and didn't know what to do.

"Tough work!" Qin Ning turned to Wang Xiaofei's face with both hands, "I kiss you, you feel it."

"You?!" Wang Xiaofei's eyes widened, terrified. Seeing this, Qin Ning moved forward mischievously, as if to kiss her. "Damn it! Don't, don't!" Wang Xiaofei pushed Qin Ning against the wall out of desperation, and with a "bang", Qin Ning gasped in pain.

Wang Xiaofei said anxiously: "I'm sorry, I... I didn't mean it."

"It's okay, I basically have a conclusion, but it's just for reference." Qin Ning rubbed his sore right shoulder, and continued: "First, you don't dislike making friends with gays; The usual care and maintenance of the child has produced a certain degree of dependence. Since you have never really liked anyone, you cannot draw an equal sign between dependence and liking. But it is worth noting that I let you imagine things Kiss you, your reaction is at a loss, but if it were me, you showed strong rejection. This signal makes me think, maybe you like Dongzi a little bit?"

"Are you sure?" Wang Xiaofei felt like he was going to be stupid.

"I'm just speculating. Did he ask you when to answer him?"

"It's probably only these two days. I was tricked before by saying that I would eat crayfish if I figured it out, but I haven't figured it out yet." Wang Xiaofei said dejectedly.

Qin Ning wondered why Wei Dong was so preoccupied with eating crayfish. "I can't advise you whether to agree or not. My suggestion is to follow your own heart and don't care about the opinions of irrelevant people around you."

"Follow your heart." Wang Xiaofei repeated in a murmur, pressing his hand to his heart.

"Maybe you can try to imagine what your relationship would be like if you had a girlfriend? How would you feel if Dongzi had another partner? But I still have to remind you, even though I said don't care The eyes of people around you, but you have to think about whether you can really not care, this is very important." Qin Ning stood up, holding two empty cups in his hand, "I know you are sleeping Don't sleep anymore, go back and lie down and think about it slowly, don't catch cold outside, Dongzi still has to serve you."