Return to the Road of God

Butler Zhong: "Mr. Xia's life experience is pitiful. Second Young Master Bai met Mr. Xia when he went to Europe to study in his early years. He saw him wandering overseas alone, lonely, so he brought him back."

Guan Hongze: "I heard that Mr. Xia has mental problems."

Butler Zhong: "Yes, but the symptoms were very mild at first, and no one could tell. I heard that when he was in Europe, Er Shao Bai took him to see a psychiatrist, and he was diagnosed with mild depression, but these are the symptoms of foreigners. It’s just a trick, early mental illness is not taken seriously in China, and everyone just thinks that he has a colder temperament than ordinary people.”

Guan Hongze: "What happened next?"

"The master and the second young master Bai are very good friends. When Bai Changqing and Mr. Xia returned to China, the master went to pick them up in person." Butler Zhong sighed, and when he thought about it later, he suddenly realized that Guan Linyun had met Mr. Xia at first sight. When he arrived at Xia Xiaochuan, he had different feelings.

"Since I met Mr. Xia, the master has become very different. He was originally a calm and reserved person, but later, in his own words, he was like a fool..." Butler Zhong had a complicated expression, "When he saw Mr. Xia, his whole body Everyone was very happy, he showed his kindness carefully, and gave Mr. Xia all the good things he could give at that time, but he would feel sad for no reason when he saw Mr. Xia and Bai Changqing getting close."

The corners of Guan Hongze's mouth twitched when he heard this, isn't this obviously jealous?It is really hard to imagine that such a person and the father could be the same person.

"So, this is a love that you can't ask for. Although the master likes Mr. Xia, he still controls it very well, and only maintains the distance between friends until..." Butler Zhong sighed, and said, "Until, Second Young Master Bai suffering from tuberculosis."

Guan Hongze: "Tuberculosis?"

Butler Zhong's tone became inexplicably serious: "Back then, this disease was very difficult to treat, easily contagious, and had a high mortality rate."

Guan Hongze's mood also fluctuated with Zhong Butler's words: "Then what happened next?"

"Bai Ershao plans to go abroad to recuperate, but he can't let go of Mr. Xia, because Mr. Xia is too dependent on him," Zhong Butler said carefully, "how should I put it, Mr. Xia should be a very insecure person, he and Bai Ershao During the two years when they returned to China, they were inseparable. Where Mr. Xia was, he would definitely see Er Shao Bai. I remember one time, the three of them took the train together to visit a museum in Lincheng, and I followed. There were so many people at that time, I got off After the second young master Bai separated from us, Mr. Xia was very panicked. Although we were all by his side, he seemed to be unable to see anyone except the second young master Bai... This matter was also a big blow to the master, because He originally thought that Mr. Xia at least regarded him as a friend."

Lao Zhong still clearly remembers that scene——

At the station where people come and go, Xia Xiaochuan was looking for Bai Changqing's figure at a loss, while Guan Linyun stood one meter away from him, looking at him sadly...

Not far away, Bai Changqing squeezed out of the crowd, holding a few hot tea eggs in his hand, suddenly stopped in his tracks, and looked at his friend staring at his lover in amazement...

Xia Xiaochuan looked for Bai Changqing, Guan Linyun looked at Xia Xiaochuan, and Bai Changqing looked at them... None of them saw each other, except for the old Zhong who was a bystander.

Guan Hongze was speechless for a long time. He felt that he could understand his father's pain at that time. If his father could appear in front of Xia Xiaochuan one step earlier than Bai Changqing, maybe... But there is no if.

Butler Zhong: "At that time, Bai Changqing already knew that he was sick. He often coughed and would wear a mask when he went out. So, within a few days after seeing that scene, he found the master and said that he wanted to entrust Mr. Xia to him... ..."

It was also very painful for Bai Changqing to make this decision, but he had no other choice, because he didn't know if he could recover, and if he passed away, this relationship would hurt Xia Xiaochuan instead.

Old Zhong remembered that day, Bai Changqing held Guan Linyun's hand and said with tears, "Xiao Chuan has lost too many relatives in his life, and he can't lose any more, so...Lin Yun, I beg you, Please...give me a promise to make me feel at ease."

Guan Linyun also cried, choked up and said something.

It was raining that day, and Lao Zhong squatted outside the teahouse, recalling Guan Linyun confessing his feelings for Xia Xiaochuan in front of Bai Changqing...

He may not be able to understand the love of these two men for the same man in his whole life, but he feels inexplicably sad.

Butler Zhong: "After the master agreed, Second Young Master Bai left. In order to prevent someone from revealing to Mr. Xia, Second Young Master Bai's illness was kept from almost everyone. Second Young Master Bai hoped that Mr. Xia could live on."

Guan Hongze also couldn't imagine that his rigid father had such entangled feelings, maybe because he was his own father, so he instinctively leaned towards him, expecting Butler Zhong to tell him whether Xia Xiaochuan understood his father's intention... …

Butler Zhong: "In the first year after Bai Changqing left, Mr. Xia was very painful, but the master still kept his promise and took care of him meticulously. Slowly, Mr. Xia's attitude towards the master changed. Friends', became his own friend, the master was very happy. But at the end of that year, Mr. Xia made a painting of Bai Changqing's back when he left. right in the middle of his studio."

Guan Hongze: "..."

Butler Zhong: "So, the master should understand very well that no matter how hard he tries, he can't shake Er Shao Bai's position in Mr. Xia's heart. The master also hopes that Er Shao Bai can be cured, so he coaxes Mr. Xia, but time When it grows, everyone will find something is wrong... Second Young Master Bo has not come back, and Mr. Xia has become more and more silent, and the master feels uncomfortable, but never says anything."

During that time, Lao Zhong couldn't stand it several times, and persuaded Guan Linyun to give up, but Guan Linyun said: "Even if he doesn't love me, as long as I can see him every day, that's enough."

Of course, Lao Zhong, who has never experienced love, can't understand such a humble love.

Guan Hongze knew that Bai Changqing must have been cured, otherwise he wouldn't have killed someone and gone to jail... He eagerly waited for Butler Zhong to continue.

"It's been about three years. In these three years, no one has realized that Mr. Xia has a mental problem. He started to lose his mind." Butler Zhong showed a look of displeasure, "He often mistook the master for the second young master Bai. .”

Lao Zhong recalled that the first time he admitted his mistake was during the Dragon Boat Festival of a certain year. On that day, Guan Linyun was busy with his business and went to Pinshengfang to order a box of candied rice dumplings and almond cakes to find Xia Xiaochuan. Mr. Xia loved it. Sweets, especially the handmade desserts in Pinshengfang.

That night, Xia Xiaochuan went against his usual quietness, pulled Guan Linyun to talk a lot, and asked Lao Zhong to eat those snacks with them. His attitude was very different, and anyone could feel it. And the attitude towards lovers are two different things.

Guan Linyun was very moved, thinking that Xia Xiaochuan could finally "see" himself and began to accept himself, but unexpectedly the other party said while talking, "Changqing, do you remember when you were in a small shop in Lance? , a kind of cookie you have eaten?"

Guan Linyun was stunned at the time, and confirmed uneasily: "What did you call me?"

Xia Xiaochuan looked at him, and said with a smile: "Changqing." There was nothing in that look, that expression, that tone of voice, as if he was joking.

Lao Zhong couldn't describe the shock at that time in words, and even Guan Hongze, who heard about it, didn't know what to say. Such a thing, for his father who loved Xia Xiaochuan deeply, was really a bit cruel.

With one time, there will be a second time, a third time...

"Xia Xiaochuan has misidentified the master more and more times. It is not that the master has not seen a doctor, but the doctor suggested to maintain this state. If he is forced to treat him, I am afraid that Xia Xiaochuan will not accept the reality that Bai Changqing left him, and will do more. Dangerous actions, such as self-mutilation... The master is very helpless, but he can only accept this reality. If Mr. Xia admits him wrong, he will let him admit his mistake and cooperate with him in acting. At least, Mr. Xia will never treat him when he is awake. He's so intimate."

"..." Guan Hongze's whole heart was about to twitch when he heard it.

"If Mr. Xia is in a good mood or in a good state of mind, Guan Linyun will occasionally correct him calmly. He is not Bai Changqing, but Guan Linyun. But Xia Xiaochuan will block all the external indoctrination to him in that state. Set, only live in your own world."

In fact, such reminders are not completely ineffective. Lao Zhong once found that when Guan Linyun corrected Xia Xiaochuan a few times, Xia Xiaochuan would also feel a little dazed, and then looked carefully at Guan Linyun, showing a very disturbed expression, but The time is very short, that is, an instant.

Guan Hongze: "Is father always satisfied with such a relationship?"

Butler Zhong: "If it's just a simple chat and heart-to-heart talk, I think the master can do it. He is usually patient and suppressed. When he is acting with Xia Xiaochuan, he can also let go and say some confession."

Guan Hongze was surprised: "Didn't you say something when you were sober?"

Butler Zhong shook his head: "Never."

Guan Hongze: "..." It's too bearable!

Butler Zhong: "But gradually, Mr. Xia could no longer be satisfied with simple heart-to-heart talks. He began to seek physical comfort from the master in a lost state..."

Guan Hongze: "..."

Although he doesn't know how the two men behave, Lao Zhong knows that when Xia Xiaochuan and Bai Changqing are together, they are not purely in a spiritual relationship. They will kiss, hug, and have sex like normal men and women.

However, Lao Zhong really doesn't know whether there was any relationship between Xia Xiaochuan and Guan Linyun. Otherwise, he can watch, but if the two of them kiss or have sex, it's not normal for him to watch...

"I think the master can distinguish between the true and the false, and he also has the self-esteem of a man." This sentence was an explanation, and Butler Zhong continued, "If he really did that to Mr. Xia, master Shouldn't be getting married."

Yes, he got married, and then his wife did something to hurt Xia Xiaochuan...

Butler Zhong: "There is no way for the master to get married. The male college should be married, and the female college should be married. He spent a lot of time on Mr. Xia. He didn't have a normal relationship until he was 30 years old... But , he is the eldest son in the family, and he has to take on the responsibility of the eldest son. In the past seven years, Xia Xiaochuan has never responded to his feelings. A man of good fortune would never agree to the master falling in love with a man. The subsequent marriage was also arranged by the old master, but the marriage partner was an acquaintance of the master and Mr. Xia."

Guan Hongze: "My mother?"

Butler Zhong: "Well, the second daughter of the Fang family, Fang Ruoyao."

Guan Hongze: "They knew each other before?"

"Yes, the master is lively by nature and likes to call out friends, so he often holds some parties. In this way, the young master is very similar to him." Butler Zhong smiled and continued, "The Fang family was also a wealthy family back then. I met your father at a party, and I could see that she fell in love with the master at first sight."

Their story is like a stage play, everyone is the protagonist, everyone wants to be a role in comedy, but none of them know how the script will proceed.

And Lao Zhong is the most loyal spectator in this stage play.