Out of place

Cheng Boyan always felt that Xiang Xi was so stubborn that he had no more tears, but recently he saw Xiang Xi crying twice in a row, which made him a little bit at a loss as to what to do.

Xiang Xi would feel uncomfortable seeing those photos and words. He had thought about this, but he didn't expect to be uncomfortable to this extent.

He hesitated whether to walk over, or to pretend not to see and walk away.

While hesitating, he suddenly saw Xiang Xi's bare legs, and he froze for a moment.

Xiang Xi's legs are straight and long, and they look longer because he is a little thinner. After staring at them for a while, he couldn't help but say, "Where are your pants?"

"Hey! You came out?" Xiang Xi seemed to be taken aback, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes, then looked down at his legs, "I took off my pants, I want to wear them outside You can’t drown me with disinfectant when you sit here with pants that have been shopping all day.”

"I'll get you a pair of pants." Cheng Boyan withdrew his gaze and turned to go into the bedroom.

"Don't take it, let's do it like this, once I come, you take one, and if you wear it, you don't think it's clean and don't want to give it to me?" Xiang Xi's voice was nasal, "I'll bring my own pants next time."

"I don't send you off, just wash it." Cheng Boyan went into the bedroom, took a pair of pants and threw them on Xiang Xi.

"Actually, I don't need it," Xiang Xi took the trousers, but still sat on the chair, "it's good...I don't want to move now."

Halfway through Xiang Xi's words, his voice dropped again. Cheng Boyan didn't speak. He poured a glass of water and put it on the computer desk, keeping himself standing on the back of the monitor very carefully.

But Xiang Xi's voice and red eyes were too obvious, and it would be too fake if he didn't ask, so he asked, "What are you looking at? Are you still crying?"

"Looking at pornographic nets." Xiang Xi opened his mouth and said, rubbed his eyes after speaking, and then grinned at him.

"Yellow.com selected AV's top ten moving actresses, right?" Cheng Boyan said, "I see you are moved."

"Fuck," Xiang Xi lowered his head, thinking about it, and after a few moments of music, he lost his voice again. After a while, he said softly, "Brother, let me tell you something."

Ever since he told Xiang Xi about Cheng Boyu, Xiang Xi never called Cheng Boyan brother again, but now he suddenly called out Brother Cheng Boyan, and Cheng Boyan's hand shook slightly.

"What's the matter?" Cheng Boyan asked.

"It's Fang Yin, the photographer I told you about." Xiang Xi glanced at him, shrunk his legs to the chair and hugged him, resting his chin on his knees, "He came to me before and said he wanted to shoot something Topic, want to shoot me."

"Yeah." Cheng Boyan walked to him, leaning on the edge of the table and looking at him.

"I didn't think it was interesting at first, but then he said to give money, fifty fifty a day, and I...agreed." Xiang Xi glanced at him again, and quickly lowered his eyelids, "It's been a while, he... just Follow me to shoot."

"And then?" Cheng Boyan asked softly.

"He suddenly told me today to let me see those photos," Xiang Xi said, his voice trembling again, and he paused before looking at the screen, "I just watched it."

Cheng Boyan didn't speak, he leaned forward tentatively, seeing that Xiang Xi didn't stop him, he turned the screen towards him.

The page stopped at two photos, the first one was the door face of Casserole Rice, and the back view of Xiang Xi who was walking into the store after serving the dishes to the customers, wiping his sweat with his hands.

Xiao Z is the only worker in the store. In addition to serving dishes, he is also responsible for tidying up and other miscellaneous tasks, such as sweeping the floor, taking out the garbage, and washing dishes. When there are many people, the food is served slowly. Yes, he will be scolded by the guests, many times he will be scolded.

But he was generally silent.

There were still a few lines of writing in the middle, Cheng Boyan didn't look carefully, but directly looked at the photo below, there was no Xiang Xi in this picture, only the blurred figures of the boss and his wife and a few people who were tugging with them in the shop.

After these people smashed a few casserole pots in the store, Xiao Z called me and asked me to help call the police. After that, he never appeared in the store again.

He lost his job.

"It's all like this," Xiang Xi closed his eyes, "Looking at a story from the sidelines, this person ran out of Zhaojiayao, then, then he got sick, and then, later, he went to work with his illness, Later, later, he was troubled to find him and lost his job... Oh, this is so miserable... No matter how hard I tried, no matter how hard I tried, no one knew, and no one wanted to know, because this was originally None of their business."

Xiang Xi closed his eyes and tilted his head, Cheng Boyan still saw his wet eyelashes, a small tear slid down from the corner of his eye, slid across the mole, and finally dripped on his leg.

"You work so hard, so hard, so hard," Cheng Boyan followed his words, reaching out and gently touching his tear mole, "I know."

Xiang Xi didn't speak, but grabbed his hand and pressed it to his eyes.

The palm of his hand became wet instantly, Xiang Xi's hot tears were burning in his palm, Cheng Boyan stood still.

"Mantou didn't run away, I always thought he had gone home, but he was still there, he didn't run away," Xiang Xi's voice was a little hoarse, "I saw him on the news, working in a fake liquor den , I went to see it today and said that he has been beaten by the boss..."

Cheng Boyan finally understood why Xiang Xi had been staring at the TV news for several days in the hospital.

"No one cares about him. If I don't ask a question, no one will think of him." Xiang Xi's voice trembled, "Who cares about him? No one even reads the story. Where did he come from and where is he going? , why did it stop here, who cares who wants to know!"

"Me too!" Xiang Xi grabbed Cheng Boyan's hand with all his strength, pinching his fingertips into his skin, his voice hoarse, "Where did I come from! Where am I going! What am I doing! What do I want! Read the story People don't want to know in the end! None of them want to know! What they want to see is this man! He is rolling! He can't get up no matter what!"

"Xiang Xi," Cheng Boyan bent down, pulled out the hand that had been pressing on his eyes, touched his forehead, and looked into his eyes, "No one needs to know where you are from, where are you going? What are you doing?" I know what I want, really, I know."

Xiang Xi's eyes were red, and he stared very wide. He stared at him for a long time before saying: "Will you leave? Just leave after the show."

Cheng Boyan sighed softly, straightened up, and lightly scratched Xiang Xi's head with his hands: "No."

Xiang Xi didn't speak any more, stretched out her arms and hugged his waist tightly, and buried her face in his stomach.

Cheng Boyan didn't move, just stood where he was, Xiang Xi didn't make a sound, just hugged him motionless, he couldn't tell whether he was crying or not.

"Dr. Liu was on duty for the dumplings I ate today. His wife made them and sent them to the hospital. I grabbed some." Cheng Boyan scratched his head up and down, "I ate too fast, it seems that I didn't chew them too well. , listen to it, can you hear the sound of turning over?"

Xiang Xi didn't speak, and after a while he laughed a few times in a muffled voice, and let go of his arms.

"Are you done crying?" Cheng Boyan looked down at his clothes, there were two small wet spots on his stomach.

"I don't actually like to cry. I always cry after I met you." Xiang Xi stretched his legs, leaned on the back of the chair and raised his head. His eye circles were still red, but there was a smile on his face. "I used to feel like crying. It sounds really stupid, especially since Uncle Ping always said that he would click off my mole, so I don't want to cry anymore."

"Is it a switch?" Cheng Boyan pressed the mole on the corner of his eye, "Cry."

"I'm sick." Xiang Xi raised his face and laughed happily.

Cheng Boyan smiled and said nothing, Xiang Xi smiled very beautifully, with his eyes bent and the corners of his mouth curled up, it was only when he smiled that he could feel that he was a young child.

His finger on the mole slowly moved to the corner of Xiang Xi's mouth, and gently hooked his lips along the corner of his mouth.

When Cheng Boyan bent down to approach Xiang Xi, he was still laughing, but when Cheng Boyan's lips fell on his lips, he stopped suddenly.

Grasping the armrest with his hand, the whole person froze on the chair.

Cheng Boyan's lips were moist and soft, and he breathed lightly, blowing his face with warmth.

Xiang Xi only felt that there were sounds all around his head, and he couldn't tell whether it was the sound in his head or what he heard in his ears.

What is this... doing?

Xiang Xi's eyes widened, "Will you... kiss!"

Before he could react, Cheng Boyan's lips had already left, and when he adjusted the focus of his eyes, he saw Cheng Boyan turn around and walk into the bathroom.

He was still holding on to the armrests of the chair with both hands, with his back straight, unable to recover for a long time.

A few minutes, or a few seconds, maybe a little longer or a little shorter, but when Cheng Boyan came out of the bathroom, he still didn't move.

"You..." He looked at Cheng Boyan, and asked stiffly, "Did you wash your mouth?"

Cheng Boyan glanced at him, touched his mouth: "...No."

"Then what are you washing?" Xiang Xi felt a little short-circuited.

"I didn't wash anything," Cheng Boyan was helpless when he asked, "I went to the bathroom."

"Oh," Xiang Xi was still stiff, "Then you don't wash your hands after going to the bathroom?"

Cheng Boyan took the glass and was about to pour a glass of water. Hearing his words, he sighed and turned to look at him: "You..."

"I'll just...ask," Xiang Xi continued to stiffen, "just...ask."

Cheng Boyan stared at him for a while, then suddenly stepped over in two steps, put the cup in his hand on the table forcefully, then squeezed his chin and kissed him.

Xiang Xi was finally sure this time, it was... kissing.

Cheng Boyan kissed very hard this time, pressing his lips tightly, and even touched his lips with the tip of his tongue when he left.

This kiss finally made Xiang Xi fully understand. When Cheng Boyan turned to pick up the cup, he jumped up from the chair.

Then he realized that he didn't wear any pants, and felt extremely embarrassed. He jumped up and grabbed the pair of pants that Cheng Boyan gave him, trying to put them on his legs, but quickly threw them away.

Cheng Boyan stood aside and watched as he ran to the door and pulled out his own pants from the closet, put them on quickly, and spun around in place twice.

"Xiang Xi." Cheng Boyan cleared his throat.

"I... haven't eaten yet," Xiang Xi realized after turning around for the third time that he was going to put on shoes. He opened the shoe cabinet and took out the shoes, and knocked off all the shoes next to him. He opened the door, "I'm hungry, I'm going to eat."

Cheng Boyan didn't speak, and watched Xiang Xi rush out the door, which was shut with a bang.

He squeezed the space between his eyebrows, hesitating between tidying up the shoes that had fallen all over the floor and sitting on the sofa and sighing, finally he sat on the sofa, closed his eyes and let out a long sigh.

Then he stood up and went to put all the shoes on the ground back into the shoe cabinet.

After Xiang Xi ran out of Cheng Boyan's house, he was still a little confused. He got on the bus and returned to the "den of thieves". Before he went upstairs, he didn't forget to buy a drawer of steamed dumplings for himself.

Why did you buy steamed dumplings... probably because Cheng Boyan said he ate dumplings?

He returned to the house with a lunch box of steamed dumplings, sat on the bed in a daze for a long time, then washed his hands and was about to eat dumplings and found that the lunch box was empty.

"Fuck me?" Xiang Xi stared at the lunch box, when did you finish eating?

He touched his stomach, but he didn't feel anything, neither hungry nor full... He took the lunch box to the garbage dump at the door and threw it away. The young couple next door were talking about something. Shattered.

He entered the house, closed the door, and leaned on the door and didn't want to move again.

Cheng Boyan kissed him once, no, kissed him twice, and kissed him on the mouth... He finally woke up now, but he couldn't tell what it felt like.

When Tan Xiaokang touched him a few times, he was so disgusted that he wanted to chop him with a knife, but Cheng Boyan didn't think of taking a knife for these two kisses, and he just fainted.

It feels like I can't see things clearly even if my eyes are rounded.

dizzy badly.

Scared?

He was tired after standing by the door for a while, the surgical incision on his leg hadn't fully healed, and it would swell after standing for a long time, so he frowned and lay down on the bed.

After lying down for 2 minutes, I got up again, took off the clothes on my body, changed into the ones I wore at home, and lay back on the bed again.

Tired and a little sleepy.

But when you close your eyes...

When he hugged Cheng Boyan by the waist and buried his face in his stomach, the sense of steadfastness was still there.

Cheng Boyan looked into his eyes and said that the warmth was still there when I knew it.

The comfort when Cheng Boyan's hand was gently grasping his hair is still there.

The subtle dizziness when Cheng Boyan's soft lips pressed against his... was also there.

"Ah..." Xiang Xi turned over, hugged the pillow and buried his face in it, shouting.

How could this be?

What is Cheng Boyan doing?

comfort?

Drank too much?

Or... do you like it?

No, no, no, it's impossible to like...

Xiang Xi turned over again, thinking of this liking, he remembered the question why before, embarrassment and embarrassment suddenly surged up, making his face hot.

The phone rang.

Xiang Xi raised his arms abruptly, staring at the cell phone thrown beside him.

Cheng Boyan's name was displayed on the phone.

He learned to write Cheng Boyan's name a few days ago and changed his number from 1 to Cheng Boyan.

He stared at these three words, a little afraid to answer the call.

The phone rang for a while and disconnected.

The room fell silent.

Xiang Xi suddenly regretted not answering the phone again. He took the phone and was hesitating whether to dial it back, but the phone rang again, which startled him and almost threw the phone out.

After taking a breath, he answered the phone: "Hello?"

"Have you eaten yet?" Cheng Boyan's voice sounded calm.

"I ate steamed dumplings," Xiang Xi recalled the lunch box that was inexplicably empty, "I probably ate it."

"Huh?" Cheng Boyan was stunned for a moment, and after a while he said, "I'm at your intersection, come out, I'll take you to eat something."

"What?" Xiang Xi jumped up from prone position to cross-legged, "Where are you?"

"Intersection, I usually take you back to the parking lot." Cheng Boyan said.

"What are you doing here!" Xiang Xi yelled, he didn't expect Cheng Boyan to come here at night, and he felt sorry for a while.

"Oh, don't shout," Cheng Boyan sighed, "I'm afraid of you... If you don't want to come out, forget it, and I'll ask if you've come back."

"I've eaten it," Xiang Xi hesitated, he didn't dare to stay face to face with Cheng Boyan now, he was sweating after just a few words on the phone, "I... have eaten it."

"Xiang Xi," Cheng Boyan cleared his throat, "Well, I was sorry just now, I..."

"No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no!" Xiang Xi's face immediately burned up when he heard the words "just now", "I'm fine, fine, fine, nothing, nothing... I... you go back quickly, I'm fine."

"...Oh," Cheng Boyan paused, "Then you should rest early, I'm going back."

"En!" Xiang Xi responded, and nodded vigorously.

After hanging up the phone, Xiang Xi didn't move with his phone, and sat cross-legged on the bed. He didn't lie down and straighten his legs until he felt a little pain from the wound.

Cheng Boyan was worried about him and chased after him.

Xiang Xi regretted that he panicked like that when he left, and ran away without even finishing his sentence.

Cheng Boyan even made a trip at night.

He rolled over on his stomach.

Cheng Boyan even ran over, and he actually let him go back like this!

This is too... inappropriate, right?

Xiang Xi sat up again.

When he asked Cheng Boyan, would you go, Cheng Boyan's down-to-earth and moving answer rang in his ears.

will not.

Cheng Boyan said no.

What now?

Xiang Xi was suddenly worried, what about now?

Will you go?

What should I do if I leave?

Xiang Xi grabbed the phone, he didn't dare to think about Cheng Boyan without Cheng Boyan's side, but just such a random thought made him start to feel scared.

He dialed Cheng Boyan's number, who answered it quickly.

"Are you leaving!" Xiang Xi shouted.

"Hey, don't shout," Cheng Boyan said, "you haven't left yet."

Xiang Xi was stunned: "Where are you?"

"Intersection." Cheng Boyan replied.

"Don't go, don't go, don't go! Don't go!" Xiang Xi jumped out of bed, put on his shoes, opened the door and ran out, "I'm going out, wait for me!"

When Cheng Boyan hung up the phone, he still felt buzzing in his ears, and Xiang Xi's crisp voice made him feel that his phone was going to explode.

He turned off the car, opened the door and got out of the car, leaning against the front of the car and looking at the dark road opposite without street lights.

When Xiang Xi ran out, he was quite conspicuous. He was wearing a T-shirt from his high school days. There was a reflective pattern on his chest, which flashed out in the dark.

When he was still a few meters away, Xiang Xi slowed down, seemed a little embarrassed, and looked like he was going to run along the side.

"Did you eat it or didn't you eat it?" Cheng Boyan said.

"It must have been eaten," Xiang Xi scratched his head, "I bought a box of dumplings and went back to rest for a while. When I wanted to eat, I found it was empty... I probably ate it."

"Still hungry?" Cheng Boyan smiled.

"I don't know, I don't feel anything anymore." Xiang Xi walked up to him, lowered his head and rubbed his nose.

He didn't dare to look at Cheng Boyan, even though he liked to see Cheng Boyan smile, when Cheng Boyan smiled, he would always raise the left corner of his mouth first, with a sense of insincerity in his seriousness.

Usually, I feel that when he smiles, he seems to be trying to see through something, but now his mind is still in chaos, and he feels that what is being carried on his shoulders is not a head, but a jar of paste. He dare not look at Cheng Boyan, even if he has not thought of anything yet. Come on, he was still afraid of what Cheng Boyan would see.

"Is there any place to eat near you?" Cheng Boyan asked him.

"No," Xiang Xi lowered his head and thought for a while, "It's a place where you have to rinse your mouth with disinfectant after taking a bite."

"...Where did you buy the dumplings?" Cheng Boyan smiled, "Let's go there and eat some more."

"Oh," Xiang Xi turned his head and pointed, "It's that Sha County over there."

At this time, there is no one in this Sha County, and the boss is cleaning up, and all the tables in the house have been taken away, except for one table at the door.

Xiang Xi sat down on the edge of the table, Cheng Boyan also sat down, Xiang Xi felt he hesitated when he sat down.

"The stool is quite clean." Xiang Xi raised his buttocks and touched the stool and whispered.

"...I didn't say dirty." Cheng Boyan also whispered.

Cheng Boyan's lowered voice was pleasant to hear, and Xiang Xi was suddenly a little dazed, and quickly turned his head and shouted at the boss: "Boss, let's make steamed dumplings again, and noodles. Is there any more soup?"

"Yes, wait." The boss replied.

"What do you want?" Xiang Xi turned to ask Cheng Boyan, and quickly turned away after meeting his eyes.

"Small steamed buns." Cheng Boyan said.

"Is this enough?" Xiang Xi asked, "The noodles are delicious, would you like to try them?"

"No," Cheng Boyan whispered with his hand covering his mouth, "I always feel that the noodles are made by hand..."

Xiang Xi was delighted when he heard it, and smiled for a while with his head down: "How about some soup? It's in a small cup, even if it's taken out with your hands, it's boiled."

"Yeah." Cheng Boyan nodded with a smile.

The boss moved very quickly, and within a few minutes, he gave them all their things.

Xiang Xi was still quite embarrassed, and didn't say much, so he buried his head and started eating.

Cheng Boyan took a small steamed bun and ate slowly, looked at him for a while and said, "That photo."

"Huh?" Xiang Xi looked up while biting half of a steamed dumpling.

"If you feel uncomfortable," Cheng Boyan said, "tell Fang Yin that you don't want to shoot anymore."

"Oh," Xiang Xi lowered his head again, remembering that he went to Cheng Boyan's place today just to look at the photos, and it was quite uncomfortable after seeing the photos, but in the end, he was completely dizzy by Cheng Boyan's two kisses, and almost put it all together. Forgot, he swallowed the dumplings, "Actually... I don't know... 50 yuan a day, if I really don't want to shoot, I still don't want to part with that money."

"You agreed to shoot for the money, right?" Cheng Boyan asked.

"Well, it's not a lot in a month." Xiang Xi took a sip of soup.

"Then if there are other ways for you to earn that 50 yuan, would you still shoot?" Cheng Boyan thought for a while.

"Don't shoot," Xiang Xi frowned, "I want to earn this money elsewhere, so I won't shoot. Whenever I think of those things, I block them. There are comments below. I know the words well." I didn't read a few lines... I don't want to read it... I feel bad."

"How about it," Cheng Boyan put down his chopsticks, "I'll ask you to do a private job."

"What?" Xiang Xi was stunned.

"I'll get you a camera tomorrow," Cheng Boyan said unhurriedly, "You take three photos a day, and you can take more, or you don't want to take photos that day, and I'll give you fifty a day."