After same-sex marriage was legal, we left [entertainment circle]

"No."

After Bai Zhe asked the question that had been hidden in his heart for many years, Du Zixiao gave the above answer without even thinking about it.

However, it was easy to say "no", but it took Du Zixiao a lot of energy to say the next thing.

"Being by your side, there is indeed a little pressure. Sometimes I try my best to do my best, but when I compare it with you, I find that I am still a scumbag." Du Zixiao gritted his teeth. A thorn in each other's hearts.It may be painful to pull out this thorn, but no matter how painful it is, it cannot let it rot into the flesh.

"I gave up music at the beginning, because there was too much pressure around you. But this is only a small part of the reasons. Like the depression in the music world and the difficult career, they are all one of the reasons, but it didn't make me decide to change careers. The main factor of filming. The reason why I went to filming at that time was actually because..." Du Zixiao pursed his lips, as if it would be very difficult to say the next thing, "I have no money."

Bai Zhe slightly widened his eyes.

For Du Zixiao, it was difficult to admit his embarrassment at any time.Today he is popular, and he hesitated when the salary of a film can buy a high-end apartment. One can imagine how hard that frivolous young man was to express his embarrassment back then.

"I know you worked hard to prepare my new album at that time. You opened up your own music library and selected songs from all your past works to fill my new album. You also asked many friends to sing songs, hoping to borrow their abilities, Help me make the new album the best. But Bai Zhe, the more you work hard, the more guilty I feel. Do you remember how many albums we sold before that? Twenty thousand copies, we lost everything. "

Bai Zhe opened his mouth, and Du Zixiao raised his hand, signaling him to listen to him.

"I know you don't care about this. You always think it's a good album. It doesn't matter if it's not recognized by everyone. You want to make more albums for me. You want to sing me all the songs you like. Knowing After this album was released, it was still well received by the industry, and the market is cold, and you are willing to throw your own money into this bottomless pit again and again." Du Zixiao closed his eyes and whispered, "But Bai Zhe, music is mine Your dream is true, but I can't use the banner of my dream to enjoy everything you bring me with peace of mind."

"Actually, my greatest pressure at the time was not from not being able to surpass you in music, but as your lover, I couldn't do anything for you, but instead became your burden in many cases." Du Zixiao said, "Besides, even if You can help me release an album, but my life is not as simple as releasing an album. Food, clothing, housing, transportation, everything needs money, I can’t go out for a meal, I have to reach out to you. So between reality and dreams, I choose Bow to reality. I gave up music, not because of you, not because of anyone, if I really want to find a culprit, that person is me. I am incompetent, I have been working for so many years, but I still haven’t made it.”

The backstage was dim, and Du Zixiao's expression looked particularly gloomy under the dim light.Deep distress surged in Bai Zhe's heart, and he suddenly had the urge to hug Du Zixiao into his arms.

"Why have you never told me these words?" Bai Zhe asked softly.

Du Zixiao laughed dryly, and said lightly, "I... how dare I say it..."

Yes, these are Du Zixiao's most secret wounds that he doesn't want to be known to the public. He is willing to use a thousand and one hundred excuses to cover up, but he is easily unwilling to show it to others, especially to the person he loves the most.A look of pain flashed in Bai Zhe's eyes. He walked up gently and hugged Du Zixiao.

The moment his chest was pressed against each other, Du Zixiao's body visibly shook.For two or three seconds, his whole body was stiff, as if he never thought that Bai Zhe would take the initiative to hug him.Then he stretched out his hand and held Bai Zhe tightly in his arms.

"Bai Zhe, can you forgive me?" Du Zixiao whispered in Bai Zhe's ear.

Bai Zhe said "Huh?" and got up from his arms.

Du Zixiao looked into his eyes, and he silently read the manuscript he had typed before coming here, but when he uttered it, he was still so nervous that he couldn't speak easily: "Can you forgive me and give me another chance? "

Bai Zhe's eyelashes trembled slightly.

"I know, you're still angry about that incident." Du Zixiao paused, and it was also hard for him to mention this past incident, "That incident touched your bottom line, and you won't forgive me. , that was indeed my fault."

He took a long breath: "I didn't quite understand what divorce was like before. I thought it was like breaking up. When two people had conflicts, I threatened with these two words. I was very irrational at the time. See you If you wanted to divorce me, you agreed in a fit of anger. So later, when I found out that to you, divorce means that two people never see each other again, I panicked." Du Zixiao put his hands on Bai Zhe's shoulders, as if In this way, I can gain the courage to confess myself, "For the first time, I realized what divorce means-it means that I may never see you again in this life, and if I want to know your recent situation, I can only Rely on hearsay from other people’s mouths.”

"So I regret it." Du Zixiao said, "I regret it, Bai Zhe. I don't want to see you again, and I don't want to live like I've never known you. Bai Zhe, maybe you can hear what I said now I don't believe it anymore, but I really regret divorcing you, I..."

Du Zixiao's hands sank, and Bai Zhe felt that he had made a lot of determination to be able to say these words clearly and forcefully: "I still love you."

Du Zixiao is not a person who is ashamed to say love, on the contrary, during the years when the two were inseparable, he had to say "I love you" [-] times a day.But I don't know when it started, these three words were read less, replaced by endless quarrels and cold wars.

These three words seemed to have magic power, which made a certain corner of Bai Zhe's heart soften instantly.

It's been a long time, he thought in his heart, so long, he thought he would never hear these three words in his life.

Du Zixiao couldn't guess what Bai Zhe was thinking at all. After he shouted that sentence recklessly, his brain froze for a moment, making him forget what he was going to say next.The belly script was useless at this time, Du Zixiao flattened his mouth angrily, and said, "I want to apologize to you again for that matter. Although I don't know who that person is, and I don't know how he got here On my bed, but indeed, I cheated. Bai Zhe, I know you can't forgive me so easily, even if you refuse to forgive, I will..."

Du Zixiao couldn't continue. He wanted to say that even if you refused to forgive, I would admit it, but he was so looking forward to Bai Zhe's forgiveness in his heart that he couldn't say the second half of the sentence.

But Bai Zhe thought, how can there be conditions for apologizing?What do you mean not knowing who that person is?What do you mean I don't know how I got into your bed?If you admit your mistake unconditionally, will you die of grievance?

"Bai Zhe, I want to start over with you." Du Zixiao didn't notice the change in Bai Zhe's mood at all, and he was still praying to Bai Zhe, "I won't make the same mistake this time, and I will never make it again. Arguing with you. Whatever you say, it doesn’t matter if you are in a bad mood and lose your temper at me, I will definitely..."

Wait, the front is still plausible, what does the latter sentence mean?

Bai Zhe frowned slightly.

What do you mean it's okay to lose your temper when you're in a bad mood?I only lost my temper with you once, you remember?

Not only did Du Zixiao not realize that Bai Zhe's attitude had changed slightly, but when he saw Bai Zhe frowning, he thought that he would not forgive him.He is usually a very eloquent person, but when Bai Zhe is angry, he becomes clumsy.He was so anxious that he raised his right hand, trying to close the three fingers in the middle, and swore to the sky that he would not only listen to your words, beat and scold, but also promised not to hide his private money, and handed over the salary as soon as possible, who Thinking of this moment, Xiao Gui's angry roar came from not far behind: "Du Zixiao! Where are you bastard!"

It's broken, Du Zixiao slipped out, it took too long, and Xiaogui found out.

Everything was going to a critical stage. Du Zixiao was so frightened that he accidentally bent one more of the three fingers in the middle, and swore gracefully, turning into a "v".Bai Zhe frowned even more, thinking to himself, aren't you going to start over with me? You haven't made it clear yet, why are you trying to be cute with me here?

The thinking of the two is already very similar, one is trying to coax the other to change his mind, and the other may not completely change his mind, but at least he is not so repulsive.However, the result of the lack of effective communication was that Du Zixiao thought that comrades still needed to work hard, and Bai Zhe thought that Du Zixiao was talking nonsense.

Xiaogui yelled again.

"Where are you, Du Zixiao? Come out for me!...Oh, I'm sorry, my careless artist has lost again. I'm looking for him. Don't worry about me. Keep busy, keep busy... Du Zixiao, speak up!"

Du Zixiao was almost dying of worry. He felt that he must have owed this sister in his previous life, and he would only be destroyed by her once or twice in this life.He lowered his head, wanting to take this opportunity to quickly finish talking with Bai Zhe, but he saw the corner of Bai Zhe's lips twitch, and said calmly: "Xiao Gui is looking for you, why don't you go?"

"I……"

"Go, or she will come here later."

Then he lowered his eyes, as if he didn't want to say any more.

Du Zixiao knew that he was rejected again, and in this situation, he should brake quickly, otherwise, if he said one more word, it might make Bai Zhe unhappy.So he swallowed, and with a million resentments in his chest, he turned and walked towards Xiao Gui.

After walking a few steps, Du Zixiao suddenly stopped and turned around.

The deep smile on Bai Zhe's lips was still on his face. At that moment, Du Zixiao had a tacit understanding.

"Bai Zhe," Du Zixiao turned around, and the two of them looked at each other a few steps away, "Give me a chance to chase you again, okay?"

Bai Zhe didn't speak.

Xiao Gui's voice got closer and closer, but Du Zixiao felt that even if Xiao Gui was pulling his ears at this moment, he couldn't drag him away from Bai Zhe.

"I'll count to three. If you don't answer after the count, it will be regarded as acquiescing. How about it?" Du Zixiao raised his right hand and pointed his index finger up.

One.

Bai Zhe didn't answer.

In addition to the index finger, extend the middle finger.

two.

Bai Zhe smiled even deeper, but still didn't answer.

Du Zixiao raised his ring finger at the same time.

three.

acquiescence.

Du Zixiao's heart felt as if a layer of greasy honey had been smeared, it was so sweet that it was almost like sugar.

He put three fingers together, and his fingers drew a beautifully curved semicircle in mid-air, coming to his lips.He pecked the kiss with his fingertips, then raised it slightly, and blew a silent kiss to Bai Zhe.

Bai Zhe readily accepted.

Then Du Zixiao ran over quickly before Xiaogui could kill him.