Reborn ghost superstar

Jiang Feng just lowered his head and didn't speak for a long time.The long silence caused the anticipation in He Jinglin's eyes to be extinguished bit by bit because of the sentence "it's not like this".

"...Xiao Feng, have you ever tried chasing stars? For me, this was a particularly incomprehensible feeling. Why can you be so obsessed with someone who lives in another world? What you see A star, not even real, is just a virtual symbol that lives on the screen, in the entertainment news and people's word-of-mouth gossip. Why do you feel elated when you know a little about those trivial things in his life? Why would Squeeze your scalp just to meet him and get an autograph? Why do you think about him all the time, want him to remember himself, and want to be someone who has special meaning to him..."

He smiled wryly and shook his head.

"The first time I met you was when I went to that New Yorker with my college classmates to celebrate a friend's birthday. I still remember the first song you took on stage that night, singing "Numb" by Linkin Park. The distortion of the chorus The degree is even more exaggerated than the original song, my friend said, it sounds like a ghost."

He Jinglin's words awakened those long memories of Jiang Feng, and he couldn't help but smile helplessly.In fact, he didn't know which day He Jinglin was talking about, but "ghost screaming" was indeed the most comment he received at that time.Fortunately, people who come to the bar to have fun don't care what he sings, whether it sounds good or not, as long as the music is loud enough and the atmosphere is hot enough, that's enough.

"But I was fascinated by your song all of a sudden. At that time, I couldn't take my eyes off you. Watching you sing with anger on the stage, I almost felt that this song of yours, Every line of the lyrics is a mockery of me. From childhood to adulthood, every step is following the line designed by the family. Every move and every emotion must be meticulous. The whole meaning of life is to achieve the expectations of the family. Any emotion is my own."

Jiang Feng could probably understand this feeling. "Numb" is perhaps the song that touches He Jinglin the most, as the lyrics say - I'm tired of being the person you want me to be, it feels so hypocritical, the soul is lost beneath the surface.

"That night, when others went crazy and high, I sat alone in the corner, drinking and listening to you sing. Later, when I got home, my ears were still full of your singing. As soon as I closed my eyes, I could see Your passionate and angry expression on the stage can’t be stopped no matter what. I endured it for a week and started going to that NewYorker by myself behind other people’s backs. At first it was only occasionally, but later it became a must every time there is your performance. , and will go long in advance to occupy the closest position to the stage..."

"...I finally understood what star chasing is all about - it felt like taking drugs. I was still secretly glad that the star I liked was so close to me, and I didn't need to ask for leave or fly thousands of kilometers , you can catch up with every live."

"But the way of thinking that has been cultivated over the years is not so easy to change. My reason keeps telling me that this kind of fanaticism is by no means the feeling that the heir of the He family should have. So I dare not tell anyone that I like a The singer likes it to the point of madness, I dare not even tell you, dare not ask for your autograph, dare not call your name off the stage, and show too excited and intoxicated emotions... From this perspective, I am far inferior to Cheng Lou is frank and brave."

In Jiang Feng's impression, He Jinglin always seemed to be carrying the dazzling halo of the children of the aristocratic family.He had never imagined that Young Master He, who wanted everything from the wind to the rain, would also have such timidity and weakness, and put himself in such a humble position to worship and love someone wholeheartedly.And the target of all this was him, Jiang Feng.

He Jinglin sighed again.

"People seem to subconsciously feel that idols are always there. He is like a belief that will never change, never leave, and never betray. However, I am chasing after this cowardly secret. I have been with you for two years, but what I waited for was the disbandment of Fomalhaut. After that, you really disappeared, and there was no news of you, and I couldn’t find you anywhere. Only then did I start to regret it, why? I failed to summon up the courage to ask you for an autograph when you were still here, and tell you that I have listened to every live of yours, and I love you so much that I love you so much... You have been away from me for two full years. So close!..."

At the end of He Jinglin's speech, he bowed his head deeply, his tone was harsh, but his volume was extremely soft, and the trembling ending was almost choked up.However, he just rubbed his forehead wearily with his hands, and when he raised his head again, he had returned to his usual calmness and nature.

"Later, I found the little boss, hoping to promote the music of Fomalhaut. Feng Xiao agreed with me to buy out the copyright and adaptation rights of a few songs, but after you left, he had no intention of doing heavy metal anymore, and only wanted to concentrate on playing the piano. , so I specifically asked me not to publish it in the name of Fomalhaut, nor to sign his name."

Jiang Feng remembered what He Jinglin said before——

——The thing I regret the most now is not being able to give him a bigger stage when he was still there, so that more people can share the pain and joy I felt in his singing .

Before, he always thought that He Jinglin was the little boss, but now that he knew that was not the case, he really understood the meaning behind this sentence.Because he missed it once, He Jinglin clings to that little possibility, and paranoidly wants to keep him by his side no matter what, wants him to be popular, wants to give him the best stage, and let everyone You can hear his singing.

The thread that had been disconnected before was finally connected here.

He Jinglin looked at Jiang Feng deeply, without much emotion in his eyes, just extremely calm.He once again put his hands on his knees and bowed solemnly. "This is where the song "The Light" came from. I know it sounds like a sophistry, but I really didn't steal it. I tricked you, sorry."

The empty fist propped on the knee tightened slowly, until the whole arm was shaking, and then let it go again as if he had finally given up.

"If you are willing to accept me because you believe that I am the little boss, I can agree..." He hesitated for a while, and then continued softly in a calm and mechanical tone: "Break up with you. I promised you All the treatment in Yimei can be fulfilled, as for me personally... I will never disturb your life again in the future."

As a part of crisis public relations, apology is a compulsory course for every successful businessman.For them, it is an apology in name, but it is actually closer to a show. They must show sincerity, but they must not be too low profile and lose their identity.

However, when He Jinglin bowed his head to Jiang Feng, Jiang Feng really felt that this person put himself in the lowest position, cut everything about him layer by layer, and showed him without reservation or defense , begging his forgiveness.

He was silent for a while, and finally replied: "I said earlier that I don't need those extra preferential treatments. As for the matter of the little boss... I admit that I had a special affection for you because I recognized the wrong person, but in the final analysis, It's not because of this that I want to be with you."

He Jinglin raised his head suddenly, and the hope that had been completely extinguished was kindled again, but Jiang Feng just shook his head.

"Have you ever heard the story of the wolf coming?... I don't know how you did it, but every explanation and apology you make can move me, making me feel that every word of yours is so sincere, you Everything you do, even if it is wrong, is justifiable. It may be true that you are born with a halo of a male god. I can no longer tell which of your words is the truth and which is a lie..."

He paused for a while, then sighed softly, "In short, I need some time to think about it, if—"

After "if", Jiang Feng didn't continue.

When he left He Jinglin that day, the two of them were calm as if nothing had happened, but their demeanor was extremely polite and restrained, like ordinary friends who hadn't seen each other for many years.

It was close to 5 pm when he got back to the hotel.When having dinner with Cheng Lu, the girl chattered endlessly about the brief and pleasant meeting with Chen Yan, and showed off a signed DVD and a group photo in her mobile phone, looking unparalleled in happiness.

Jiang Feng felt strange while listening: "I remember when I first saw you, you didn't seem to be so talkative. Didn't you blush when you talked to people?"

Cheng Lu was also taken aback for a moment, and buried her head in thought for a while. "Really, I don't know when it changed. Maybe it was because I met various people at work every day, and I slowly practiced it..."

After the two of them had dinner and took a shower, the girl took out a deck of playing cards to pass the time.But there are too few cards that the two can play. Finally, Cheng Lu slapped her thigh and decided to go back to the basics, and came to the most traditional one - drawing bastards.

"Brother Feng, I heard that you stole the limelight in the audition today. Director Chen knew that I was your manager, so he repeatedly asked me to send your resume again. I was working on your resume this afternoon. I just sent it to him. I think if it goes well, it is not impossible for you to enter the entertainment industry!"

Jiang Feng didn't answer her words, and threw down a 10 drawn from her hand along with his own 10.

"Lulu, I have a question... What do you think it feels like to chase stars?... You like Chen Yan so much, do you want to be with him?"