Psychological Control

"Brian Moss, now, has symptoms of rebellious personality disorder. Three years ago, he was cured and discharged from the hospital and was sent back again in January. The cause is self-awareness disorder. This time, I hope that everyone will make a decision after confirming his situation. "

In the serious conference room, some well-dressed psychologists were sitting, and they all held the file named Brian Moss in their hands.The profile shows a young man with pale skin, curly ginger hair, and a calm and serene expression on his face.

"This time we spent two years to complete the personality reconstruction and one year to confirm the treatment results. He passed the psychological test, deep hypnosis, and the community integration experiment. The experiment shows that his ability to integrate into society is completely equivalent to that of For a normal person, he actually started to learn psychology by himself, we have reason to believe that he can control himself..."

"Brian Moss was sent away three years ago because of another attack, but he has been very cooperative with the follow-up treatment after returning, and it even makes people feel that the attack was just an accident. After all, he came here when he was four years old. It took 11 years to return to the crowd, and it is possible that an excessive cognitive shock led to the onset of the disease."

"Since that's the case," the person sitting at the top picked up the seal at hand and aligned it with the document in his hand, "Brian Moss is approved to be discharged from the hospital."

This is the case in mental hospitals. It is easy to send people in, but few people can get out by themselves.After three years, Brian Moss was discharged from the hospital again, and the nurses and aunts in the hospital still celebrated. After all, in the depressive mental hospital, Brian, who loves to laugh and chat, is their little sweetheart.

我是布莱恩摩斯，但同时我还是我，那个在2014年11月3日死于一个疯子之手的励志小青年。而如今，我出院的这一天却是2008年8月31日。

On November 2005, 11, my consciousness awoke with this teenager named Brian Moss.At that time, Brian Moss had just been approved to be discharged from the hospital. The arrival of my consciousness disrupted the already chaotic self-cognition, and I was sent back to this mental institution by the local hospital.

Contrary to what the experts think, it took me only two days to rebuild my self-awareness.I'm still me, except I have an extra memory of a man named Brian Moss, and of course, I've taken over his body.

My own 23-year memory is very trivial but detailed. Because of this powerful self-cognition, I am very lucky not to be disturbed by the memory of Brian Moss and lose my personality.

After all, the change from a yellow race to a white race, a red-haired race that only accounts for [-]% of the world's population, had a huge impact on me.If I could look through the psychiatrist's medical records, I would have found that during those two days, I liked to stand in front of the bathroom mirror for no reason, just looking at myself.

Brian Moss, was sent to a mental institution at the age of four. In 1994, four-year-old Brian and his one-year-old brother were found at the scene of a murder by the Miami local police station.

They sat in that hellish pool of blood for two days and three nights before the police found them, and the victim was their own mother.Brian and his younger brother witnessed how the gangster chopped up their mother's body with a chainsaw, blood splattered everywhere, and there was only scarlet in front of their eyes.

Brian's brother Dexter, who is one year younger than him, was adopted by the police officer Harry Morgan who first found them, but because Brian was old enough to remember, he was identified as a rebellious personality disorder and sent to this mental hospital.

Brian's memory clearly remembers the scene where Dexter was taken away.So right after he was released from the hospital, he set out to investigate his brother Dexter.

He was eager to recognize his brother, but found that Dexter seemed to have no memory of him, and his firm belief collapsed.Brian is a personality built with the belief that he wants to see his relatives, so his mental state is on the verge of collapse again.

So here I am.

If you ask me, Brian is in a hurry.If he keeps checking, he will find what he wants.Because of Brian's obsession, I continued his investigation of Dexter during these three years.

Even though Dexter was adopted by Harry Morgan and grew up in a complete family, the scene he saw with his own eyes when he was three years old, although he can no longer fully recall it, still exists deeply in his subconscious.So, in fact, Dexter and Brian are very similar.

They are all potential offenders.It is said that poor people must have something to hate. Many criminals have committed crimes against other innocent people because they have been victims and have not received timely and correct psychological counseling to vent their dissatisfaction.

Brian clearly remembered the scene of his mother being dismembered, so he had actually been longing for the separated pieces of flesh and flowing blood.Even though he tried his best to disguise himself in front of those psychiatrists when he grew up, this desire often turned into a fantasy, which exists in the memory left by Brian.

Dexter only remembers the blood red in his memory, but he still can't suppress the desire for blood, just like the desire for the memory of the past.In my investigation of Dexter, I found that the pet dog of his neighbor's family disappeared more than once or twice.

I don't know if Dexter has started to attack people today?How will his responsible adoptive father, Sheriff Harry, treat an adopted son with murderous desires.

Unlike Brian, I'm lucid, sickly lucid.I will not attack innocent people because of the bloodthirsty tyranny in my subconscious. I can control myself very well, just like I controlled that lunatic psychologically back then.

Before, I wasn't a sociopath.Then after becoming Brian Moss, I also believe that I will have a way to control myself.

……

The sunshine today is very good. After I was discharged from the hospital, I went to the bungalow allocated by the community and placed all my things, including a few ID cards, two books from a psychologist, a few pairs of underwear and a few pairs of socks. A backpack can easily keep in.Then I bought a newspaper and found the recruitment page with a clear purpose.

The good thing about being an orphan is that you have the ability to support yourself.

I was wearing my only set of clothes other than the hospital gown, white short-sleeved light blue jeans with closed feet and black Tom cloth shoes. I was as simple and clean as an ordinary student living in an ivory tower.

According to the information on the recruitment page in the newspaper, he came to a coffee shop closest to his residence and got a part-time job as a barista.The work content is simple and easy, and the salary is not too low.Thanks to my hard work in my previous life, I have mastered enough life skills to support my expenses.

After an afternoon of familiar work, I will officially start work the next day.

But even if the social security allowance and the money from this part-time job add up, it has just covered my living expenses.The money will not allow me to restart my studies.

From blue-collar to white-collar, what separates is the education and knowledge.And if you want to earn enough for those book fees, exam registration fees, and even college tuition fees, it is not enough to just work as a simple waiter.

Maybe a commercial dance company would need a skilled jazz dancer?

As early as a year ago, I began to plan the direction of work after I came out.I'd better do my old job. Although I'm a little tired, the jazz dance that I practiced as a hobby before can still bring me more income than ordinary part-time jobs.

For this reason, I still do a lot of restorative training on weekdays.But even if I put back just the right muscles to make up for Brian's original skinny appearance, his naturally harmless face has always made me very embarrassed.

For Brian, this overly elegant face with curly hair that looks shaggy in the sun, and a smiling face with precise corners of the mouth are his strongest disguise.

But for me, it is too difficult for me to find a formal job in a commercial dance troupe with such an appearance.Just talking about Brian's usual temperament, no one thought he would be a dancer.Not to mention that he still looks so immature now.It is estimated that the owner of the dance troupe will think that he is just a beginner in dancing.

From Brian, I couldn't find the sense of maturity that I once deceived many people.Even the dance style that I was used to, has been completely changed in order to match Brian's impression.

If the type I focused on was dangerously sexy, the dance moves are full of explosive power and sense of urgency.Then when I became Brian, there was only one direction of my efforts, the pleasure of sin.In the originally strong and unrestrained jazz dance movements, the movements that are more biased towards female jazz dancers have been developed, which are feminine and provocative.

Innocent angel faces and sexy dancing poses create a sense of guilt in viewers, and this guilt can make them addicted to it.I can only prove my ability to the dance troupe boss with facts.

At eight o'clock in the evening, after the sky darkened, the coffee shop closed early.I walked towards the famous bar street in Miami.Generally, only some waiter jobs are published on the recruitment page, but jobs like commercial dance troupes that seldom recruit outsiders have to be discovered by yourself.

I walked into a seemingly prosperous bar under the scrutiny of those men and women who were puffing. This kind of fighting dance show has accumulated popularity.They like to let the dancers hand out some flyers here, soliciting customers for the group dance show they run in the club.

And the dance troupe I'm looking at and wanting to apply for has no plans to recruit people for the time being.Even so, I don't want to give up this opportunity.I have carefully investigated several well-known commercial dance companies in this city, and the one I like has the best potential for development.

Even if they don't lack people, or they don't like to recruit people indiscriminately and only accept recommendations from acquaintances, I am sure to find another way to enter this dance troupe.

My eyes patrolled the bar, passing over the women who watched the autumn light, and I saw two dancers who were fighting wildly on the dance floor.

A relatively mature and handsome man distributed leaflets among the surrounding crowd.From the dim light in the ballroom, I can vaguely see the text on the leaflet, Chippendale Professional Dance Company Dance Show, is exactly my goal.

I wouldn't just go up and join this dancing show that is obviously to enhance the effectiveness of publicity, it's more like provocation than striking up a conversation.I just watched the leisurely man handing out leaflets from a distance.

At this moment, he happened to pass the flyer in front of the two girls.

These two girls are very shy in front of men, and it is very easy to analyze the psychology of these two girls.When they come to Hot Bar for the first time, they fantasize about being approached, but when they really meet such a dangerously sexy man, they shrink back.The unfamiliarity with the environment also makes it harder for them to accept this kind of sales promotion.

With a gentle smile that is harmless to humans and animals, I stepped towards the man and the two girls who were distributing leaflets.

"I...we...we still have friends waiting for us, so...we won't go..." I heard one of the girls push back in a low voice.

"Hi, my girls. Since you still have friends, why don't you all come and see them? Don't worry, the Chippendale Dance Company is a professional dance company that has danced for many big stars. It's very It's a decent business." I walked up to the man and put his shoulders under the man's surprised gaze, and said to the girls as if I were a familiar friend.

For girls of this type, words that are too commanding can be stressful, and I know it's more useful to tell them about the legit safety of the show than to compliment them on how good it is many.Because they have long been attracted by the charm of the man in front of them.

The man looked at me playfully, opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, and fell silent for a while.I know he wants to see how things go.

Still with that harmless smile on my face, I took out a few leaflets from the man’s hand, “How many of you, take this first. Don’t you arrange some programs in the evening during such a busy holiday? You can go back and discuss with your friends, Deciding whether to go or not, okay?"

The two girls looked at each other with blushing faces, and Nuonuo responded and took the leaflets from my hand. "There are nine of us... Let's talk to them first..." As he spoke, the two lambs who seemed to have strayed into the pack of wolves helped each other and left in a hurry.

The man's eyes fell on me again. "Well done boy, being able to squeeze the leaflets into their hands in that situation is half the battle."

……

Mike and I stood at the corner of the street and looked at the line of more than ten meters long at the opposite door. There were men and women, all of whom were well-dressed young people. Row after row of Chippendale fight show posters were posted outside the club. It is particularly eye-catching under the illumination of colored lights.

Mike was the man who handed out the flyers.God seems to finally feel guilty. This man named Mike Tatum is not just an ordinary dancer at the Chippendale Club.It can be said that Mike is the veteran of this commercial dance troupe, a golden sign.

Caught a big fish.

"Brian, I don't know if you are just curious about the career of a professional dancer, or if you just want to find a place to vent your excess energy. But I want to tell me that this job is not as easy as it seems. I Promise to take you in and let you participate in our dance show this time. But if you lose my face, be careful I will kick your ass." Mike said half-jokingly half-seriously.

"Of course, I can rely on this job to support myself." I blinked and said with a smile, "I think you are also worrying about not being able to find high-quality male jazz dancers in the dance troupe except for female jazz dancers. Bar."

Mike turned his head to look at me with a half-smile and said, "You guessed right. It seems that you are very confident in your own strength."

I smiled and didn't speak.

This is no random guesswork.By the time I set my sights on Chippendale, I knew a little about every dancer in their company.The two most useful species in commercial backup dancing, Hip-Pop dancers, are mostly male.As for jazz dancers, there are only women in their dance troupe.

This makes them embarrassingly insert a Hip-Pop dancer who is completely incompatible with jazz dancers when they receive some female singers who want to cooperate with male dancers.

Originally, I just planned to make friends with a Chippendale dancer who was handing out leaflets, and then induce him step by step, and let him recommend to the owner of the dance company, so as to get a job opportunity.And now, if I can show overwhelming strength in this group dance, it will be the most convincing self-recommendation.