Doomsday Superstar [Rebirth]

The "Adventure of the Brave" program group is currently in a state of desperation. When they first approached, both Bai Jingran and Lin Chuchen signed for half a season. On Bai Jingran's side, he is not going to shoot the whole season. He is purely here to bring popularity to his new program. Once the show was on track, he would retire.On Lin Chuchen's side, he is a chicken thief from the program team. Lin Chuchen is a rescuer, and at first he borrowed the popularity of the previous hot searches. The program team has been thinking about finding a more suitable one and replacing him. Since the publicity started, Lin Chuchen's enthusiasm has not dissipated, wave after wave, and now he seems to be the most popular guest in "Big Adventure".

So after the show aired, the show team began to try to renew the contract, hoping to at least let him finish filming this season, even if it was an extra money, who would have thought that a big news would come out halfway because of this show.

But the program team is not afraid, such a rowdy event can increase the topic even more, but then the short news from the parents is more embarrassing, and then it is even more embarrassing, Lin Chuchen's company refuses to renew the contract.

The brand of "Adventure Group" they just put up, will be dismantled before it becomes popular.

The program team held an emergency meeting, and in the end, I don’t know who came up with a bad idea. I decided on a batch of candidates among the currently interested and scheduled artists, and then brought a few in each episode, and took turns to fight, depending on their own reputation and topicality. If there are outstanding ones, they will be finalized immediately. It doesn’t matter if there are no outstanding ones. This kind of model will bring about topics. At worst, the next few episodes will become a secret poking competition, and the final winner will sign for the second season or something.

After Lin Chuchen's incident, they didn't believe that there was a positive correlation between celebrity and topicality, not to mention that they couldn't find a star with a big celebrity in such a hurry.

So when the eighth episode was filmed, the guests were the four members of the adventure group except Bai Jingran, and two people who came to fight.

The four members of the adventure group performed normally, and the two new guests also integrated well. This issue passed without any risk.

Although these two episodes are not as exciting as the previous episodes, they are generally passable, and as soon as the news of the fight was released, several artists who were confirmed as candidates worked hard, and fans from all over the world began to give themselves blood. Idol calls to brush traffic.

And at this time, Cheng Ye suddenly realized that the opportunity he was waiting for was coming—Jiang Yueyue was on the list of candidates, and it was just in the next issue. It's time to build momentum, and Jiang Yueyue's team is also ready to move.

However, unfortunately, Lin Chuchen will not be filming in the next episode. It seems that the program crew has deliberately avoided guests who are likely to cause conflicts. What's up.

Cheng Ye held the flow of the next program with a sarcasm on his face. The program team may not know that Lin Chuchen really can't do anything, and he is the one who can make trouble.

He moves his fingers and shoulder joints.He has prepared the fly swatter now, and just waited for Jiang Yueyue, a moth, to flap its wings, and then go straight up and swatt it to death without explaining.

After recording the eighth episode of the program, Lin Chuchen was completely free, and began to study scripts for more than ten hours a day. As usual, Narino Lai ate and drank at his house, except for occasionally going out to shoot magazines and events. He spends part of the time helping Lin Chuchen into the drama, and by the way instructs Lin Chuchen to make him delicious food that he doesn't know where to find, especially enjoying the rent-free landlord + mentor treatment with peace of mind.

Lin Chuchen is not doing very well these days. He really has no talent for acting. This character who is obviously very similar to himself can't be substituted in life and death. Narino has repeatedly told him that he can use similar experiences to make analogies, but he holds With a large number of basically consistent memories, the brain refuses to recall the feelings at that time.

"Ye Jiamu is a person with an unbearable past. In fact, this memory is not very embarrassing, but he doesn't want to recall it. He thinks that An Tuo died because of his cowardice, so he has been in regret after retiring. Extreme remorse Let him hate himself, wishing to kill himself, but at the same time let this life that already belonged to others continue, under the double entanglement, he became hopeless for life, very decadent, and cowardly hid himself in a shell , refused to touch new things. Because he felt that he was betraying his dead comrades by going forward."

"He hates himself, that's why he doesn't want to live a good life. The whole person has no vitality, and he is very depressed. The general level of mourning can't meet the requirements at all, and he has to pull out the whole person's energy and spirit."

"His cowardice is manifested as an instinctive avoidance of all related things. He thinks he can escape without listening or seeing, but his nerves are too sensitive. Many things can stimulate him, such as thunderstorms, such as setting off firecrackers. , such as sudden nightmares, even two young people walking side by side can remind him of the past, and then fall into a kind of morbidity. This is indeed a symptom of post-war PTSD in the eyes of others, but in fact, it made him appear like this It's not sounds and things that cause this symptom, he's not afraid of them, what he's afraid of is that these things will remind him of that person, and that person is his nightmare."

……

Chengye said so much that he was spitting and staring, and filled two pots of tea, but Lin Chuchen was still dumbfounded and unable to enter the state.

He went to the refrigerator to get two ice creams, handed one to Lin Chuchen, and started to eat the other by himself: "Why don't you understand what I said? Or can't you understand the similar feeling?"

Lin Chuchen was silent. It's not that he doesn't understand, he understands too much. Ye Jiamu - the role he is about to play, is simply himself. The experience is so similar that he can't help recalling many things.

But just like Ye Jiamu, this script reminded him of some unbearable people. He was rejecting him mentally and physically, and tried hard to keep him as an outsider.

Narino sat down on the sofa dejectedly, and he was quite helpless. In fact, he could teach Lin Chuchen some tricks, such as how the eyes should be, how the corners of the mouth should be, and how the cheek muscles should be, so that he can artificially present a "decadent" state. But this kind of technical emotion can only be used to cope with the directors of idol dramas who make money, and the directors of art films with serious themes who are going to win awards. I'm afraid it won't work.

Movies of this kind require actors to be spiritually decadent, and makeup and facial expressions don't work.

In order to avoid misleading, Chengye simply didn't teach such opportunistic things, nor did he set an example for Lin Chuchen to learn from. He had to find a way to bring Lin Chuchen's state into it.

However, it is impossible for ordinary people to have this kind of experience, so I am afraid that it is not enough to just talk about the plot. It is necessary to find some common events that can produce the same kind of psychology.

"Have you ever done anything bad, it doesn't need to be big or bad, maybe you just talked back to your parents, said something bad about a classmate, skipped a class, and indirectly caused other people to go wrong or not at all. For example, you had a quarrel with your friend, and the last sentence was a curse, and then the friend died of gas poisoning that day, and your quarrel became the last memory of each other.” Narino tried to broaden his thinking, trying to be able to Pick an analogy from common occurrences.This work is a bit difficult, because he basically doesn't need to be so substituted. He has a very good empathy ability, basically he can get into the play after watching it once, and he doesn't need to bother to bring in his miscellaneous experiences and emotions.

Lin Chuchen, who scooped a scoop of ice cream, looked up at him: "..."

What is this all about?It's so bloody, it's not as common as the stories in the script.

Narino sighed: "What should I do? I'm not good at making up stories, why don't you tell me what you think?"

Lin Chuchen lowered his head and stared at the ice cream again: "I don't know."

He didn't want to think about it, and he didn't want to lose his composure in front of others.But a gaffe is necessary, now there is only Naruto, and when it comes to the crew, there are director, screenwriter, rival actors, and countless staff members.

Maybe he is really not suitable for this line of work.

After a long while of relative silence, Narino suddenly got up and threw the ice cream box into the trash can, and brought two more glasses of water.

He stared at the hair spinning above Lin Chuchen's head and asked, "Do you have similar experiences?" He bit the word "similar" very hard, because he found that under his persecution, Lin Chuchen did not show any confusion or confusion. Anxiety, but hesitation, or forbearance and entanglement, there is only one situation where this state can appear: he has found the same experience, but he refuses to recall it.

It is very normal that no one is willing to mention the experiences that can cause such negative emotions.

Sitting opposite Lin Chuchen, he leaned forward, crossed his hands and put his fingers on his knees, as if he was about to have a long talk: "Actually, the profession of an actor is very inhumane. There may not be many professions in the world that can give practitioners the same benefits as this profession." Bringing so many involuntary bodies. In addition to the hype, marketing, and tearing resources that you are unwilling to accept, it is difficult to do it even when you are on the crew. When acting, the body of an actor does not belong to you. Others make you become Whoever you are, you have to become whoever makes you cry and laugh, makes you wear a padded jacket in summer and goes into the water in winter, makes you smoke, drink, play hooligans and take off your clothes, because the person you don't know in the script has lived like this, you It has to become like this. And these are still good. The most fearful thing is to shoot some serious themes, controversial film and television dramas, or even just some emotional conflict scenes. You have to think desperately, and those who have no experience have to work hard Thinking, if you have experience, you need to dig out the pain and embarrassment hidden deep in your heart, and open it up in public for others to see."

"Unable to let go, pain, and resistance are all normal. It is said that people with stories act better. Those experiences are wealth bestowed by God. In fact, who doesn't want to be happy? Who wants these bloody wealth? I don't want it anyway."

Narino looked at the coffee table between the two of them, and through the transparent top of the coffee table, he saw the box of candies below: "Everyone wants to have candy in their lives, and few people want to have all kinds of flavors. But we are actors, and we are actors. Once you enter this line of work, you are shouldering the responsibility of bringing the person in the text room into this world. Whether you are in pain or uncomfortable, since you have chosen this path, you have to go to the end, and you have to be responsible for this story and this character. It is useless to escape, because as an actor all the time, sooner or later you will encounter this kind of experience that makes you dig out your heart and let you show all the secrets that are pressed in your heart."

Lin Chuchen didn't speak, he understood everything, but understanding and being able to do it were two different things.

Narito understood what he meant, he smiled slightly, and leaned back on the sofa.He looked very comfortable in this posture. He raised his face and counted the patterns on the ceiling. Lin Chuchen couldn't see his expression, but from the slightly dull voice, he didn't seem very happy: "I've been studying very well, The whole school can be ranked in the top 60. I am in the honor class. There are [-] to [-] people in the class. .But I have never felt that there is anything, can you understand? People are like this, they feel that something they have from birth is their own, and it is not worth cherishing."

"En." Lin Chuchen replied, but he didn't know what to say other than that.

"Because I don't cherish it, the relationship with the teacher is basically hot. I don't know how to maintain a friendly teacher-student relationship. When I was in junior high school, I inevitably entered the rebellious period. The little boy was stupid and always felt that Young and Dangerous are handsome and grown-ups. They want to break the rules all day long, so they hang out with a bunch of bad kids—in fact, kids in junior high school can be so bad, but they just don’t study well. Talking in class, not writing homework, forming cliques, talking back to the teacher, nothing major happened, but for a top student in an excellent class, this is already beyond the line. The head teacher tried to persuade me several times, and I No reason. At that time, the boss of the small group was a girl. She was very flamboyant. The school uniform could be changed into a version with holes and mopping the floor. Her hair was dyed like a parrot. This girl was my deskmate in the first grade of junior high school, so I knew Her story. She has low self-esteem and insecurity, and the state of bluffing is like a protective shield."

"Then you feel distressed?" Lin Chuchen asked, and at the same time his attention was attracted.

"... A bit. Seeing her cry is the same as watching a man cry. It hurts my heart. We are not in the same class in the second grade of junior high school, but I often hang out with them, mainly to accompany her. She always says that I am just a friend, I don't know if it's true. Anyway, at that time, the little boy always felt that he could save the world, so he became friends with her without hesitation. When her younger brother was around, it was inconvenient for us to whisper, so we were in the self-study class Write a letter, hand it to the other party when you meet, and write some private words in the letter. Eh..." Narino suddenly touched his nose in embarrassment, "Now that I think about it, I don't have many secrets, just complaining about too much homework, who is so stupid, etc. I don’t understand why I have to write letters, maybe I’m too free.”

"and then?"

Then?Then I was caught by the teacher.

"She read the letter I wrote in the self-study class, and was caught. Her head teacher was my physics teacher. The teacher didn't say anything, and handed the letter to my head teacher—what did I do at that time? I don’t even know. My head teacher held a class meeting that day and gave us a long lecture, telling us to write about what we’re going to be doing ten years from now. After we finish writing, we’ll collect it. He collected it himself, one by one. He rolled it up and held it in his hand. He grabbed the paper and turned it around in the classroom twice, then handed it to me, saying that I would help him to look at it, "Look at it yourself, look carefully" Said so at the time."

"I don't know why, so I went back to the dormitory and lay down on the bed to open it. Inside the stack of papers were two letters, one was the one I wrote to that young lady and was caught, and the other was written to me by the head teacher. It was very long, and the manuscript paper was written on several pages. In that letter, I said, "I am not afraid of the head teacher, if he catches him, I will catch him", and I also said something like looking down on the teacher. Little boys are always inexplicably rampant in front of girls— ——I wish I could wear it back and beat myself to death, but I can’t help it. At that time, I couldn’t put it into words... In his letter to me, he didn’t criticize me for playing with bad boys, and he didn’t suspect my puppy love. He just expressed two points, the first , he felt that I was cheated, and the other party didn't cherish my feelings - after all, being able to circulate a private letter to the whole class was really not cherished. Second, he was a little sad when he saw my words. He said that he had missed the road and regretted it all his life, so he didn’t want a child like me to go astray.”

"He is concerned about your face, and he is afraid that asking you face to face will make you unable to step down." Lin Chuchen concluded.

"Yes. He has always been a very considerate teacher. He is not very old. He is courageous in the outside world and gentle in the inside. He is my favorite teacher. But what I said in the letter is not the truth. I am afraid to let him Disappointed, and I just let him down like this. He should be very sad, even angry, but he still didn't come to me directly, but used such a method, hoping that I can calmly think about this issue. But I still feel very shameless , It's not that kind of embarrassment, but, how should I put it, I feel ashamed to see him, and I feel that I am a sinner."

Lin Chuchen can understand that although this is actually not a big deal, adolescent children have never experienced anything, and Cheng Ye, although his performance is not obvious, but an actor with a particularly strong empathy ability, his mind may be very sensitive .

"I didn't reply to him, and I even avoided him, especially when I was not in his class when I was promoted to the third grade of junior high school. Everyone went to play with him, and I always refused. I didn't blame him, I just felt that I had done it. Such a mistake, and I don’t have any good grades at the moment, so I’m ashamed to see him. I want to wait until I’m admitted to a good university, go to him with the university admission letter, and tell him that I’m wrong, and I’m now qualified to apologize. I don't know why I'm so persistent, it's just... Maybe it's stupid, too stupid, I never thought that he doesn't need my grades to apologize."

"What happened later? Did you go to apologize?" Lin Chuchen had a faint feeling. Later, Cheng Ye became famous, and logically speaking, he had reached his so-called qualifications, but if he could apologize, I'm afraid he wouldn't say it today.

"No. From the second year of junior high school to the first year of high school, three years, I didn't go to countless opportunities. I didn't go to the class reunion in high school, everyone ran to his house, and he got married. Then in the summer vacation of the first year of high school, He was in a car accident and he was gone. There are still two years left, and he didn't give me this chance."

Lin Chuchen could understand his regret. Although it was a coincidence, and its nature was not as serious as the story in the script, regret does not have any degree or level: "...so you are blaming yourself for not being able to follow He said 'I'm sorry, I didn't mean that', blaming myself for not telling him that you actually liked him, and you even occasionally put the responsibility for his death on yourself?" Even if you know intellectually, this matter has nothing to do with you.

Emotions are just like that, it doesn't make sense.

"En." Cheng Ye sat upright, and Lin Chu realized that his eye circles were red. As soon as he sat up, tears rolled down his cheeks.Narino is a face-saving person, but he didn't hide it, and he didn't wipe it off. He just continued in a state almost like a "fairy crying", "I've been thinking about all kinds of possibilities. If I do something, In case I am like that, every time I think about it, I feel that I am unforgivable. Only he and I know about this matter. He didn’t tell others, and I didn’t tell others. The taboo of touching was suppressed to the bottom of my heart, I dare not mention it, I don’t want to mention it, and I feel like I’m going to collapse when I mention it, although I have encountered many more serious things than this since then.”

But only this one, has been stuck in my heart like a thorn, and there is no way to remove it forever.

Lin Chuchen didn't know how to comfort him, so he hesitated for a long time before he said, "He won't blame you."

"I know." Narino wiped his eyes, "He is so nice, he must not blame me, and he may know what I'm thinking. He is very thoughtful, and I can't hide my awkward temper for a long time. Actually After I graduated from junior high school, I found the school’s radio station and ordered a song for him. He was in charge of the radio station. When I heard it, he was very happy at the time, and he even pulled people around to show off. The classmate I was looking for told me Me. I knew then, he understood. But, it's different."

It is not the same, if the person is still there, everything will be different.

Narino sniffed: "But this is not the purpose of me telling you this, nor is it to let you cherish it or something. I mean, you see, I also have such an experience. I have hidden it for so many years, and it is almost rotten , but when you can’t cry on the set, you have to take it out. If you don’t have enough emotions, you have to turn out the heavy past, and sometimes you have to turn it out for others to see.”

Lin Chuchen understands that if Narito acts in this movie, he only needs to go through the matter in his mind, and then adjust his state.But now, in order to let him go, he talked and cried in front of him, without hiding it or hiding it.

"It's shameless to do this, because you need to forget yourself when acting, and you have to strip your whole soul, your love and hatred, these are not important. You think, "I" is gone, and you have to What is the face doing?"