Let go of the past

Day by day, S City ushered in the hottest season of the year, and for the students, this meant that the exciting summer vacation they had been looking forward to for a long time was coming.

The holiday officially started in late July, and there was a month to let myself go. Li Ziqing also slept until he woke up naturally on the first day of the holiday, and then received a call from Ji Bing with great joy. Foreign phone.

As soon as the phone was connected, Li Ziqing's tone couldn't hide his happiness: "We're on vacation."

Ji Bing sighed seriously: "I really envy those of you who have a month's summer vacation and can experience the hard-won happiness. It's different here. The summer vacation lasts for three months, and I'm so bored to death."

"..." Li Ziqing grasped what he had revealed, and turned against the army: "Then are you coming back?"

Ji Bing paused, and gave a negative answer: "I can't go back now, my dad has arranged other things for me."

Li Ziqing's eyes dimmed, and a huge disappointment rushed up, which completely offset the excitement brought about by the holiday.

"If you're bored alone during the holidays, you can call me at any time." Ji Bing carefully tried to make amends, coaxing softly, "I basically read your blog every week, and I really like it." I miss you very much, don't be angry, okay? I will try my best to get the chance to go back."

"Ji Bing," Li Ziqing waited for him to finish speaking, and then said in a stiff tone, "Do you have someone else over there?"

"What?" Ji Bing didn't realize it for a while, but when he came back to his senses, he couldn't help laughing: "What are you thinking about in your little head every day? Did you learn it from Su Mei?"

"Don't change the subject." Hearing his smile, Li Ziqing felt even more upset: "If you really miss me, the vacation is so long, don't you have time to go back to the country for a few days?"

"I can't go back alone. I have to report to my dad. He will definitely ask me the specific reason." Ji Bing explained patiently.

"Don't use your father as an excuse." Li Ziqing got angry and said arrogantly: "You are just fooling me."

"Baby, can we be reasonable?" Ji Bing said helplessly, "You can't just give me the death penalty for nothing."

Li Ziqing's attitude only hardened for a moment, then his whole body fell completely, and he murmured into the phone: "But I really want to see you."

"Start the video." Ji Bing coaxed, "I happen to be at home right now."

"That will only make me feel that you are in a place where I can't reach out."

Ji Bing fell silent, they were too far apart, no matter how tightly they gripped the communication tool, the temperature couldn't be conveyed to the other party's heart.

After a long time, I heard Li Ziqing say softly: "Hang up first. Go get busy, I have my own things to do today."

Since then, Li Ziqing has never mentioned Ji Bing's return to China. The two seem to have started to avoid this topic very tacitly. They regard the date of reunion as a taboo and never mention it to each other.

In the remaining two years of Li Ziqing's high school career, several events that are quite vivid in my memory happened.

For example, in the first semester of the second year of high school, Wang Dawei was reported for stealing in the dormitory. After being criticized by the whole school, he was given a punishment of probation. Not long after, because he couldn't stand the guidance and exclusion of his roommates, he proposed to transfer schools. No one told, and no one seemed to be interested in his going or staying.

For another example, Xiao Kaicheng and Su Mei were assigned to the key liberal arts class together in the sophomore year of high school, and they sat at the same table for a while. At Christmas, Xiao Kaicheng secretly stuffed a letter into Su Mei's drawer. In the spring of the second year, they both abandoned it. Li Ziqing secretly talked about love.

For another example, Bai Lisheng participated in a large-scale domestic star-making program in his third year of high school. With his natural exquisite appearance, personality and talent, he made his way to the top of the championship.That winter, the streets and alleys were overwhelmingly covered by posters of star-making programs. Bai Lisheng, as the most popular among them, even occupied the top spot on the topic list for a long time.Many fans from other schools came here in droves, hoping to have a glimpse of the idol's daily life, but at that time, Bai Lisheng seldom came to school anymore.

As for Li Ziqing himself, putting aside all external interference, he acted as ascetic as a cultivator, and devoted all his energies to his studies.In the remaining two years, he participated in two national subject competitions, and finally entered the mathematics competition training team in the third year of high school, and obtained the qualification to be recommended to a famous domestic university. The school is in City B.

S City No. [-] Middle School, as the city's leading key middle school, has produced an endless stream of outstanding graduates over the years. Even so, Li Ziqing's achievements still make the school leaders feel proud and gratified.His name and photo were posted on the honor roll. Such a handsome student with quiet eyes captured the hearts of many female students for a while.

Just when everyone thought he would never come to school again, Li Ziqing unexpectedly reappeared on campus, and even started to be chased by girls to fill in love letters, which surprised Xiao Kaicheng and Su Mei After a while.

"Didn't you all get escorted? Why do you still come to school?" During lunch, Xiao Kaicheng and Su Mei blocked Li Ziqing in the cafeteria, with confused expressions one by one.

"The majors available for recommendation are limited, and I don't really want to leave S City."

Xiao Kaicheng listened half-obediently: "Isn't there a saying that a good man has ambitions everywhere? You see that Ji Bing in our freshman year, everyone ran to the United States."

"What kind of ears do you have? I didn't hear Ziqing say that it's mainly because the recommended majors are limited?" Su Mei interrupted, "Why can't you forget Ji Bing so much?"

"Hey." Xiao Kaicheng suddenly smiled wretchedly, and winked at the two of them: "Isn't I the same junior high school as him? What's wrong with caring about old classmates?" He leaned closer and said, "And I heard that a while ago he I posted two pair of rings on the blog, and someone saw that they were both men’s. Unexpectedly, he was gay, but I guessed one thing a long time ago, he and Xie Jiaqi are fake.”

Su Mei subconsciously looked at Li Ziqing, but the other party moved the collar of the sweater unnaturally, as if trying to cover something.

"Li Ziqing," Xiao Kaicheng bumped his arm suddenly, and the topic changed quickly: "Is your birthday next week, so let's go out and sing K."

Li Ziqing stood up and put away the plate, "The college entrance examination is coming soon, let's concentrate on studying."

"What's the matter, I've been too tired from studying recently, so let's relax before the exam."

"Then I suggest you listen to some light music to relax and relax, and don't overdo it."

Time continued to move forward, and the results of the college entrance examination were announced. Li Ziqing was successfully admitted to a famous local university in S City with the No. 6 score in the city. He applied for the Department of Computer Science, majoring in software engineering.

Although he had foreseen the result a long time ago, when he told the news to Ji Bing who was far away across the ocean, he still couldn't hide his desire to be praised and recognized in his heart.

At that time, Ji Bing was also preparing for the SAT test in August. Li Ziqing only realized that it was the early hours of the other party's side after his mind was racing.

He reacted quickly, and was about to hang up in a hurry, but there was a click in the receiver, and Ji Bing's voice sounded hoarse and tired, but it didn't look like he was awakened from sleep: "... Hey, Ziqing ?”

Li Ziqing was stunned, and asked softly, "Are you still asleep?"

"Yeah." Ji Bing coughed, and then the chair moved. The other party seemed to stand up, walked a distance, and then lay down on the bed, his voice trembling from the mattress: "I forgot the time."

"Have a cold?"

"It's almost healed, but the throat is still not comfortable."

"Snow pear stewed in rock sugar can cure cough."

Ji Bing finally laughed softly: "Are you coming to cook for me?"

"Ji Bing," Li Ziqing asked, "Have you been under a lot of pressure recently?"

There was silence over there, and after waiting for a while, the other party sighed faintly, and replied unabashedly: "Yes."

He then laughed at himself with a dejected tone: "There are too many uncertain factors, and I'm not [-]% sure. I feel like the monkey breaking corn in the storybook, he cares about one thing and loses another, and in the end he may lose everything." Can't get it."

Ji Bing's innate self-confidence and composure, as well as the overly harsh goals his father set for him, oppressed him not to allow himself to make the slightest mistake. If it goes well, it will prompt him to start to doubt himself and constantly reflect on what he is doing along the way.

"I think you need to rest." Li Ziqing said: "Go to sleep, let your mind empty and don't think about anything, sleep until you wake up naturally, and then think about the stupid thoughts you have had. Don't worry, I won't laugh at you .”

Ji Bing was silent for a moment, let out a long breath, but suddenly asked: "Is there a lullaby?"

Li Ziqing thought for a while and said, "Recently I learned a new English song, is that okay?"

There were rustlings on Ji Bing's side, as if he had changed his position on the bed, and then his voice became hazy and low: "Come on."

"Ifiwalk would yourun," Li Ziqing sang softly: "Ifstopwouldyoucome, Ifisayyou'retheone, wouldyoubelievemeIfiaskyyoutostay, wouldyoushowmetheway"

Ji Bing's clear breathing sound gradually became irregular.

"...The world catching up to you, while your running away, tochase your dream, It's time for us to make a move, cause wear asking one another to change."

"...If say you're the one, would you believe me"

Li Ziqing's voice unexpectedly revealed a blurred and hoarse tone, and the final sound was like a feather scratching at the tip of the heart, which made people feel numb like an electric shock.

There was no response from the other side, Li Ziqing was the first to feel embarrassed, and hesitantly asked knowingly, "Are you asleep?"

"Ziqing," Ji Bing said almost at the same time, and said slowly, "Are you confessing your love to me?"

"I..." Li Ziqing hurriedly wanted to deny it, but Ji Bing said again: "I'm very happy, thank you, baby."

Holding the phone, Li Ziqing felt his heartbeat start to accelerate uncontrollably again, and quickly said: "Then you go to sleep, it should be Saturday for you, turn off the alarm clock, don't think about it, and get enough sleep .”

"Yeah." Ji Bing turned over on the bed with some effort, "I'm going to take a shower."

"Then I'll hang up first, and I'll call you later."

"Ok?"

"I'm afraid you'll faint in the bathroom."

Ji Bing chuckled: "I don't mind playing a video for you while I'm taking a shower."

"I mind." Li Ziqing said quickly, "Uncle Li is at home."

"What are you afraid of?" Ji Bing climbed along the pole: "The ugly son-in-law always wants to see his father-in-law."

Li Ziqing resolutely said, "Go and take your bath."

The following is not the text, there are words that cannot fit so many words.

The English lyrics and translation are as follows——

Ifiwalkwouldyourun

If I walk up to you, will you run away?

If stop would you come

If I give you space, will you approach slowly?

If say you're the one

If I say you are unique and destined

would you believe me

will you believe me

Ifiaskyoutostay

If I want you to stay right now

would you show me the way

would you give me a hint

Tell me what to say

so you don't leave me

Let me know what words to use to keep you by my side forever

Theworlddiscatchinguptoyou

While your running away

tochase your dream

When you run away from the world to chase your dreams, the reality is constantly pressing

It's time for us to make a move

it's time for a change

causewearaskingoneanothertochange

Just because we all look forward to walking into each other's hearts

And maybe be 'm not ready

Maybe I'm not fully prepared

Buti'll try for your love

But I will never give up for your love

I can hide up above

I can hide all my hesitations and fears

I will try for your love

Never give up for your love

We've been hiding enough

we've been hiding for too long

Ifising you asong,wouldhousingalong?

If I send you a song, will you resonate with me

Orwaittilli' mgone, oh how we push hand pull

Or when it's hard to part, how can we part

If give you my heart, would you just play the part

If I give my heart and lungs to you, will you be in my every heartbeat and breath

Ortellmeit's the start of something beautiful

Or tell me all that's wonderful and beautiful is just the beginning

Amicatching up to you

While your running away, tochase your dreams

I'm not sure if I should be chasing your dreams with you

It's time for us to face the truth

I just know it's time to face reality

cause wear are coming to each other to change

Because we want to give each other a gorgeous turn

And maybe be 'm not ready

Maybe I haven't done enough to face the unpredictable future

Buti'll try for your love

But I'll try my best for your love

I can hide up above

I can act cold and fearless as steel

I will try for your love

all for my love for you

We've been hiding enough

This feeling has been hidden for too long

I will try for your love

I will do my best to love you

I can hide up above

become fearless

Ifiwalkwouldyourun

If I stop wandering in place, will you follow without complaint

If stop would you come

If I don't move forward again, you will come to me the first time

If say you're the one

If I say you will be the only one in my life

would you believe me

would you gladly agree

……