Let go of the past

Li Ru and Jiang Yingyue walked away noisyly, Ji Bing found a remote and open flat ground, and said to Li Ziqing, "Let's go there." After saying that, he turned around and walked towards the destination first. Go, after moving a few steps, I realized that there were no footsteps following behind me.

Li Ziqing stood motionless at the same spot, met Ji Bing's gaze, showed an extremely strange smile to him, and said slowly: "Ji Bing, do you think I didn't sternly refuse in person, so that means I'm with you?" You haven't broken it completely? It gives you an illusion that you should still have a chance?" Li Ziqing handed the club to the caddy beside him, "You have no chance for a long time. Follow you." His expression showed a bit of hearty pleasure: "An adult should bear all the consequences for doing something wrong. Do you still need me to teach you such a simple truth?"

"Li Ziqing." Ji Bing rushed forward and grabbed his arm, afraid that the other party would disappear out of thin air if he was slower, the illusion of calmness collapsed, panic and helplessness gradually broke out, and the balance began to tilt, "We have to say a few words Don't you have a chance to talk?"

Li Ziqing pulled out his arm, took two steps back to widen the distance, his expression was indifferent and indifferent: "Then you say."

Ji Bing handed the club to the caddy, took the towel and wiped his hands, but it was more like he was taking this time to collect his thoughts. After a few seconds of pause, he said, "Since you don't want to play, you should find someone to talk to." A convenient place."

"It's very convenient here, the air is good, and the view is wide. If you don't like it, I can help you find another speaker." Li Ziqing turned to the caddy next to him and asked him seriously: "Do you have speakers here? ? Just the kind of people who yell at the streets and alleys to get long hair and waste electrical appliances?"

Caddy: "..."

Ji Bing took out a wad of cash and handed it to the caddy, with no emotion in his voice: "I don't need the service for now, you should go back first."

The caddy took the generous tip, bowed politely, and turned to leave.

Looking far away, Ji Bing pointed to a small lake in front of him, "Go over there, it will affect other people's playing."

The two walked towards the lake one after the other, and when they got closer, they realized that it was not so much a lake as it was a larger pond.Some god above the sky spilled half a glass of water by mistake, and it hit the ground to form a pool of puddles, surrounded by lush trees along the coast, the leaves swayed in the breeze, and the water surface shimmered , Cozy and quiet, it is indeed a good chat zone.

Perhaps it was the surrounding environment that made Li Ziqing calm down a little bit of the impetuousness and resistance floating on the surface, his expression calmed down, and he said calmly: "Just tell me."

Looking at the calm lake, Ji Bing asked a question: "Do you still remember the first time we met?"

Li Ziqing gave him a strange look, but replied in a straightforward manner: "On the first day of high school, you bumped into me at the gate of the school."

"and then?"

"Gone."

"Did it hit hard?"

Li Ziqing asked inexplicably: "What do you want to do? Reminiscing about the past?"

"Li Ziqing." Ji Bing turned around and looked him in the eyes, "Maybe you find it incredible, but I really don't remember what you just said."

Li Ziqing was only surprised for a moment, and then he couldn't laugh or cry: "Don't remember? Have you lost your memory?"

Ji Bing looked at him fixedly and remained silent.

After a short period of silence, Li Ziqing slowly put away the forced smile on the corner of his mouth, finally a mixture of anger and disappointment welled up in his eyes, the next moment he turned around abruptly, and strode resolutely into the distance.

"Yes, I don't remember all of them. The brain damage caused by the accident three years ago caused me to have a memory impairment," Ji Bing caught up with him in a suddenly raised voice, his speech speed involuntarily accelerated because of his excitement and anxiety: "I forgot my memories for a long time before the accident, and most of those memories are about you."

"Then why didn't you fucking say it three years ago!" Li Ziqing stopped and turned around. The shock and anger that amplified in a short period of time made his voice trembling with tears, and he couldn't even control it. Hysterical want to vent emotions: "fuck you!"

"I'm sorry." Ji Bing stopped chasing halfway, and kept a small distance from Li Ziqing so that the other party could feel safe, not daring to approach any further. "I'm too conceited." He looked at him from a distance, with regret and sadness in his eyes, "losing my memory made me very defensive about everything, especially my parents, but they told me, You are a gay person who has been in love with me for many years, how unbelievable. Because in my memory at the time, they didn't even know that I was gay. And," he hesitated, frowning slightly, as if thinking about how to speak: "...I later learned that you have to go to my parents' house every month, which is even more unacceptable to me. You and I are not on the same front. This is the only thing I have for you at that time. cognition."

"You are too powerful, Ji Bing." The emotion was pushed to the limit, but he calmed down again. Li Ziqing smiled and asked: "Since you can investigate me, why don't you investigate the past that you suspect? It's been three years, what are you doing?" Didn’t do anything, but pointed the finger at me, is it because you can’t believe it, or just don’t want to believe it at all? Don’t you still realize it?”

Ji Bing choked for breath, and stood slumped on the spot. Li Ziqing took one last look at him, with the despair and sadness in his eyes changing from old to new, and then looked away without hesitation, turned and left without saying a word.

Beside a bunker not far away, Jiang Yingyue hit Li Ru on the back with a cue, looked towards the lake, and asked him, "Did your friend quarrel?"

Li Ru raised his hand in front of his forehead, looked in the direction Jiang Yingyue pointed, clicked his tongue, and walked towards Ji Bing's direction.

"What are you going to do?"

"I'm afraid he committed suicide by jumping into the lake."

Li Ru speeded up and trotted all the way, and when he was approaching, he deliberately slowed down, slowly approached to observe his expression, and asked cautiously: "Have you had a fight?"

Ji Bing turned his back to him, and Wei An's tall and straight back was slightly hunched for a moment. Li Ru turned around half a circle, caught Ji Bing's reddish eyes, and suddenly shouted in shock: "Fuck? Li Zi Qing made you cry?"

Ji Bing's eyes froze, and Li Ru fell silent for a moment. After holding back for a while, he still couldn't hold back and asked, "What's the matter with you two?"

Ji Bing looked at Li Ziqing's fading figure with a complicated expression, and said in a deep voice, "I told him everything."

Unexpectedly, Li Rufei was not surprised, but shook his head suddenly, "You should have told him earlier."

Ji Bing pinned out the strangeness in his tone, "Do you also think that I should fully accept him from the beginning?"

Li Ru let out a sigh, squatted down, picked up a flat stone and threw it towards the lake. Rebellion. When anyone says anything to you, you have to go through it a few times in your head first, and in the end you still believe half of it and keep the other half. Your parents will not talk about it. Xiaobai and I have played with you since we were young, and who do you talk to? Overwhelmed?"

Ji Bing stared at the waves on the lake, frowned slightly, but remained silent.

Li Ru then went on to say: "You had an accident at that time, no, it was you and Li Ziqing who had an accident together at that time, you were in a coma for a whole week in the ward, and in the month after you woke up, Your parents still prohibit outsiders from visiting." Li Ru looked up at him, "Do you know how Li Ziqing came here that month?"

He seemed to know that Ji Bing would not answer, so he didn't give the other party time to interject, "I didn't deal with him at that time, but I heard what Xiaobai said later." He paused, as if trying to organize his words "Every morning at six o'clock, he appears outside your ward door unshakably. He sits when there is a stool, and stands when there is no stool. Except for eating and going to the bathroom, he almost stays with you every step of the way. I met your dad a few times during the period, so I just pretended to be him." It is transparent, and the ward is definitely not allowed to enter. He begged at the beginning. Your parents watched coldly, but your aunt is very powerful. She pointed at him in the corridor and scolded him, saying that he did not learn well and seduced men. Although the hospital There are not many patients, but the doctors and nurses all have long ears. They come down again and again, and they all start pointing at him, watching jokes, isn’t that the case since ancient times? Although you don’t say it, your eyes can kill you. Civilization It's really amazing for people to do dirty things. So sometimes I admire Li Ziqing, he has the tenacity that can't be beaten no matter how hard he fights, even when he was in school."

"Stop talking." Ji Bing cut off his words suddenly, but his voice was completely hoarse, with obvious choking, the breath stuck in his throat, and he spit it out tremblingly, the feeling of suffocation like drowning made him want to die And unable to struggle.

Li Ru straightened up slowly, but Ji Bing turned his back again at this moment. Even so, the tears that filled his eyes and refused to flow, still fell into the eyes of the other party.

Li Ru was stunned, looked at his back, and said compassionately: "If you really don't want to part with it, then chase him back, and then make up for it."

Gu Xien caught up with Li Ziqing who was hurriedly walking out of the arena, noticed his flushed eyes, and asked him, "Are you leaving?"

"Well, I'll go back first." Li Ziqing replied vaguely, his hoarse voice was choked in his throat, as if the follow-up was weak, the ending was lightly broken in the air.

"I'll see you off." Gu Xien said bluntly, "It's not easy to take a taxi in this place, so don't shirk it."

After he finished speaking, he grabbed Li Ziqing's arm and said to Shen Bai who was walking over: "I'll send Ziqing home, do you want to go or stay?"

"You said that." Shen Bai said with a smile: "You are gone, why should I stay here?"

"Isn't Jiang Yingyue still there? If we both leave, he should be upset."

"He has too many partners, throw him wherever he wants, and he can pull out a ball for you." Shen Bai said casually: "It's very capable."

Gu Xien was still worried, turned to Li Ziqing and said, "Wait a minute, I'll give him a call."

After the call was connected, Gu Xien told Jiang Yingyue that he would leave early on the pretext that the children at home were making noise.

"Wow, you two are heartless. You asked me to play golf and let me go. I pushed back a very important date today." Jiang Yingyue yelled and said through gritted teeth: "Then I'll go too, go Your family is playing with children."

"..." Gu Xien admitted that he was in the wrong, and reluctantly said, "Okay then, let's go to the parking lot first, hurry up."

Shen Bai directly brought the phone over, and gave Gu Xien a look, and while walking outside the stadium together, he teased, "What's wrong? Don't go fishing anymore?"

When the other party heard that it was Shen Bai, his tone became even worse: "Fishing for woolen thread, do I need to catch a winner?"

"It wasn't you who was pestering that one just now, right? It looks like your twin brother."

"..." Jiang Yingyue said angrily: "Those two people have long since disappeared, and they ran faster than rabbits one by one. Damn it's poisonous here, I've been chatting with the caddy for a long time, and I haven't got a tip yet!"

The three of them went to the parking lot to get their car, drove out of the venue, and parked on the side of the road to wait for Jiang Yingyue.

Not long after, a roar of a sports car came roaring, Shen Bai followed the sound, then raised his eyebrows and smiled: "Yo, we meet on a narrow road."

The silver-gray supercar drove out of the gate, turned a corner and drove towards the same direction. It was about to pass by, but finally stopped.

The window of the car was lowered slowly, and Shen Bai was the first to say hello to last Ji Bing's gaze: "Don't play anymore?"

Ji Bing glanced at the back seat, and answered irrelevantly: "Is Li Ziqing in your car?"

"You looking for him?"

Ji Bing paused for a moment, then said calmly, "It's okay, let's go first."

"Go slowly, don't see him off." Shen Bai waved at him, and the other party looked away, with a gloomy and indifferent profile.

Gu Xi'en, the co-driver, watched the car go away, turned his head and asked Li Ziqing who was silent in the back seat: "What did you tell him? Why are the two of you not in the right mood?"

Li Ziqing shook his head, "It's nothing."

Gu Xien stopped probing, smiled and said to him: "If you are upset, you might as well close your eyes and sleep."

"Ah."

He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and clicked on WeChat. The conversation between the two on the interface was friendly and cordial, but this moment made his eyes sore and his mind confused.

Nathan: I had an accident and hit my head, so I forgot some things.

……

Nathan: Are people who lose their memory guilty?

Lee: I forgot to ask earlier, what level are you senior?