Three rooms and two halls

"Lily, I'm going to answer the phone."

Jian Ran took her mobile phone to the corner of the shopping mall to answer her mother's call, and when she was about to say hello, she unexpectedly asked her to blame her: "Jian Ran, tell me the truth, what is the relationship between you and that Jiang Li? ?”

"It's just the relationship between classmates." Jian Ran stammered, "But it's been a long time since I've contacted you."

"Nonsense! I know it all! Are you gay with him?"

"Mom, I..."

"What? I misunderstood you!" Jian Ran's mother cried out in pain, "Jian Ran, you don't want to go home and want to stay in the big city. I'll take care of you. You shouldn't be a watcher without a good white-collar worker." I agree with the salesperson who has a face, but how can you be gay?"

Although Jian Ran knew that such a day would come, she never thought it would be so sudden.Hearing his mother's anxious and angry crying on the phone, he quickly explained that he didn't learn it, but that he was born to like boys, since he was a child.

"Then you can't be gay! Besides, how can someone be born gay? You just learned it badly!"

In reprimanding Jian Ran, Jian Ran's mother finally gradually regained some of her long-lost dignity as a parent.

In fact, she has been unwilling to admit that Jian Ran is very much like his father.And it was these shadows that allowed her to recall the people she once loved, and made her love and hate Jian Ran, the child who was dependent on him.

When she is in love, she is willing to carefully cook a meal for Jian Ran, to clean Jian Ran's clothes and shoes, and to call him "Ran Ran" affectionately; when she hates him, she will complain that raising him is too much. Hard work, she will blame him for being her own oil bottle, he is a bad debt, ask him why he can't get in the top ten in the exam, why can't he get in the top five, and ask him why he can't have money to buy gifts for herself like other children on Mother's Day .

She unscrupulously vented her love and malice that had nowhere to go on Jian Ran.Because she knew clearly that Jian Ran could only depend on herself, no matter how she treated him, the young Jian Ran would silently resist with her not broad shoulders.

Because Jane has one and only her relatives.Jane has to bear it, and there is no place to escape.

Of course, she also has moments of sobriety. When she listens to Jian Ran's suppressed cries from the other side of the thin wall in the middle of the night, she will blame herself for going too far.So she pulled Jian Ran up in the guilt compensation and almost neurotic scolding, and watched Jian Ran who was cheerful and lively when she was a child grow into a flower standing still in the corner with its buds hanging down and not daring to bloom.

And since Jian Ran graduated to work, she began to feel that Jian Ran was out of his control - he had his own career, he had good friends and colleagues, his world became more and more abundant, and his knowledge It is getting wider and wider, and he is very happy every time he takes a video, he is like a bird with wings flying farther and farther, higher and higher, which makes her feel extremely insecure.

She felt that Jian Ran's heart flew away from her with others. Sooner or later, Jian Ran would leave her to build a nest outside, just like his father did when he abandoned her in this dilapidated place full of obscenities. The place.

Jian Ran's mother didn't want to sit still. She felt that she could live well without Jian Ran, just like she had a family without a man.She started getting in touch with people she had never met before, and started flirting with the parents who pretended to be enthusiastic, and accepted their invitation to have dinner and chat together.

Until one day they asked her if she could play mahjong.

"It happens to be three missing one today."

"It's okay, whether you can or not, you just need to play a few rounds of poker. Today, in order to teach Sister Jian, the first few rounds of poker don't count as money whether you win or lose."

While chatting and playing cards, under the stimulation of winning or losing, Jian Ran's mother discovered that playing mahjong is such an interesting thing, so she gradually fell in love with that feeling.

But the mahjong parlor and mahjong veterans are all pointing at this to eat, it is impossible to keep counting, so they started to increase her gambling capital little by little, and gradually persuaded her to ask for sex and go to work. There is enough money for food, anyway, she doesn't have any pressure anymore, why not enjoy life after working hard for most of her life.

She thinks it makes sense, but ever since she started playing mahjong "full-time", she found that the good luck of winning money every day has gradually disappeared, and she has no income, so she can only start asking Jian Ran for money every month.

Then start asking for more and more.

But Jian Ran's ability is also limited, and she also has the dream of buying a house of her own, so the mother and son set a number after communication.

It's just that these thousands of dollars are far from meeting Jian Ran's mother's needs.She started to borrow money, and when she wrote the first IOU with trembling hands, even she herself was very surprised. Once when Jian Ran was ill and almost had pneumonia, she didn't ask anyone to lend him a penny, and forced him to eat anti-inflammatory The medicine survived until the day when I paid my salary.

She still remembered that because of guilt, she bought Jian Ran two spare ribs that were not discounted, and when she went back, she divided them into several meals and made soup for him.

Since then, she has written more and more IOUs, and the numbers are getting bigger and bigger. When those gamblers who usually tell her that winning or losing is a common thing with a smile on her face, tell her When she owed 50 yuan with interest, she was shocked.

At a loss, she called Jian Ran and cried.It's not that she doesn't know that Jian Ran doesn't have this ability, it's just that Jian Ran is her last straw.

The more she knew that she had done something wrong, the more Jian Ran's mother was willing to use toughness to cover up her guilt.She kept blaming Jian Ran for selling the house left by her father, and blaming him for refusing to borrow money from those wealthy clients. In fact, she knew that Jian Ran was right to do so.It's just that if she doesn't blame Jian Ran for her mistakes in this way, she won't be able to sleep peacefully.

Once again, she spread all the difficulties she suffered outside on Jian Ran like she did when she was a child.

And the better Jian Ran treats her, the more afraid she is. Instead, she hopes that Jian Ran will rebel like an ordinary child and have a big fight with her, so that she will have an excuse to continue to teach Jian Ran.

But Jane is as clean as a porcelain doll, without any cracks. Even his friends are willing to lend money to her, an aunt who has never met, without hesitation. This shows that her son is so good, he has long been far away She has surpassed her mother who has been struggling with fireworks and dust for many years.

Jian Ran's mother stubbornly felt that she couldn't bow her head to Jane, and couldn't let Jian Ran cut herself off like this. She wanted to be tied to Jian Ran forever, and she also wanted to stay with Jian Ran in hope. In the dark beyond the edge.

So she quit the job that Jian Ran begged for her, pretended to make up an unfounded favorite object to deceive Jian Ran's sympathy and understanding, and continued to live a muddle-headed life.In this way, no matter how far or how high Jian Ran flies, he can always remember that he has a mother who does not live up to expectations, and that she will always be a mark on him, a trouble he cannot shake off.

When she heard Jiang Li say that her son was gay, her first reaction was not to worry about Jian Ran's life, but to feel the joy of finally finding a handle on him.

A third party spurned by the world, a homosexual feared by the world, there is nothing more suitable than this mother and son.

She felt that she finally got a respite from the long feeling of guilt, Jian Ran was finally no longer the pure white angel-like child flying in the sky, but also became a person with stains like her.

Jian Ran was scolded by her mother for a lot of nasty words, such as being shameless, being greedy for vanity, rushing to post when she sees someone rich, what is not good to learn, but she wants to learn how he likes men, and even asked him so submissively, Is it the one who is willing to let people get it down there?

He kept silent, and was interpreted by his mother as a guilty conscience, and the scolding became more and more ugly. Some of the sentences were familiar, and Jian Ran remembered that they were all scolded by some people when she was a child.

"Mom. I admit that I like men, and I also admit that I am the one you mentioned below, but I'm not here to sell." Jian Ran's eyes were red, and even her vocal cords were trembling, but she didn't give a damn. Tears flowed out.

"The seven years I was with Jiang Li were innocent, I never spent a penny on him. I broke up with him as soon as I said it. Even if there was an entanglement, he couldn't let it go. I never contacted him after we broke up. .Why can't you trust me more?"

"Believe it?" Jian Ran's mother screamed as if she had heard a very funny joke, "Hahahahahaha, that's what your father said back then. Let me believe that he really loves me, let me put I gave it to him myself. What happened? Didn’t I lie to my body and I didn’t want to take responsibility for it!”

Jian Ran heard her mother complaining endlessly again, endured and endured, and finally squeezed her fists, and interrupted her mother softly: "Mom—"

"First of all, it was not me who lied to you back then, but my father."

Jian Ran's mother didn't expect him to say such a thing, so she asked him to say it again in disbelief.

"Besides, I still remember that once you drank too much and told me in tears that you had already found out that my father had a family."

"You're talking nonsense! When did I say that!" Jian Ran's mother shouted hoarsely, as if her scars had been lifted, "Who did you hear the nonsense from? Could it be that dead ghost father of yours? Did I contact you? Or that old woman? Tell me! Tell me! Who taught you?"

"No one taught me." Jian Ran let out a long sigh of relief, tried her best to restrain her anger and finished what she wanted to say to her mother, "No matter what purpose Jiang Li told you about my sexual orientation, I hope you don't worry about me and It's his business. I'm fine, you just have to take care of yourself."

Hearing that Jian Ran was going to hang up the phone, she became anxious, and she didn't choose what to say, thinking of Jiang Li's words that he talked about friends again, she didn't know where to say: "Are you going to get dumped if you get rich?" Who am I? Let me tell you, don’t even think about it! In the future, all my IOUs will have to be written that I have no ability to repay, and I need my wealthy son to pay me back. Don’t even think about getting rid of me for the rest of your life!”

Before she finished speaking, Jian Ran hung up the phone.

He leaned against the cold tile wall and slowly squatted on the ground.

Looking at the month on the date, he hugged his legs a little dejectedly, and began to miss Chen Yi's generous arms.

He never imagined that this year's winter would be so long.

[The author has something to say: This chapter is a bit heavy.But don't be afraid, everyone, all the wind and rain are for the last rainbow. 】