So What If You've Been Reborn?

"I remember when I was in the Black Abyss Valley, every morning, you would run to the pool to take a photo to see what you looked like."

Shi Feng pulled Chen Ho to sit beside him, instead of comforting him, he talked about the past.

Lifting up the hair hanging on the forehead of the junior brother with his fingers, Shi Feng met a pair of dazed eyes, and couldn't help gently stroking the small red mole at the corner of Chen He's eyes.

Shi Feng once hated this deeply, since many years ago he heard that his fate was doomed, and his destiny was destined.

In this world, kinship, even if it is thrown away, the wound still exists.

Traveling around the world with Nan Hongzi, in the market place, besides the monks, it is inevitable to meet two good fortune tellers, so Shi Feng always has to cover it with his hair or a hat, and he doesn't want anyone to mention those things. In the past, he thought he was free from bad luck until the wound was torn open again.

Shi Feng had never met Venerable Li Yan in his previous life, but it didn't prevent him from feeling joyful when he heard that Tiandao went back in time for this.

"You're fine."

Chen He was so stiff that he didn't move, only feeling his brother's cool fingers caressing his cheek.

"I was very happy when I heard Gu Wang and the little Taoist priest of the Heluo School tell the truth and guessed the truth." Shi Feng looked deeply at Chen He, and finally slowed down his voice, saying word by word, "You haven't forgotten If I tell you, you will live a better life than anyone else..."

"That's what you thought!"

Chen Ho suddenly stood up and stared at Shi Feng fiercely.

The atmosphere suddenly became dignified.

Shi Feng was a little startled, he withdrew his hand and looked at his junior brother, but didn't answer.

Chen Ho was furious at first, he never—even thought of getting angry with his senior brother, but just now he really couldn't help it, when Shi Feng said that Venerable Li Yan lived a good life in his previous life, it was as if he was severely cut by a knife After a moment, it was piercing pain and anger.

"You don't have to do that at all!"

Chen Ho lost control of his emotions. He spoke very quickly without giving Shi Feng a chance to refute.

"There is no need to sacrifice your life to inherit."

There were faint bloodshot eyes in Chen He's eyes, and the stranger seemed to be different from himself, and he blurted out the words he was going to hide for a lifetime, "You can take me back to the Black Abyss Valley, the magic cultivator can't ascend, and I don't want to become a fairy! Just like us It's the same in this world, why don't you want to live?"

Shi Feng wanted to say something, but he still didn't say anything.

"The fire burns Yunzhou, entangled in karma. After I die, these troubles will affect my life after life, until the water of Wangchuan River washes away the calamity over and over again with reincarnation."

When Chen Ho said this, Shi Feng's expression changed, he couldn't bear it.

Without waiting for Shi Feng to speak, Chen He immediately said: "But people are mortal. You left the Beixuan inheritance that day, did you really expect that I, a monk of the magic way, would be able to ascend?"

Shi Feng shook his head slowly.

"You just don't want to live!" Chen He said loudly, the reddish corners of his eyes became more and more obvious.

Shi Feng almost thought that his junior brother was going to cry, but Chen Ho didn't.

There is no sign of tears at all, the back is straight, the corners of the mouth are drawn down, and the anger is far more than the sadness.It is completely different from the obedient and smart junior who liked to rely on himself in the past.

This kind of strangeness made Shi Feng lose his mind, thinking that the junior has indeed grown up, and can be independent without himself.

"I'm just an excuse you just happened to meet, an excuse to save you from continuing to suffer in this world!" Chen Ho took a step back, closed his eyes and tried to restrain the churning anger in his heart, but with little success.

A hand reaches out.

Chen Ho subconsciously wanted to avoid it, but Shi Feng turned his backhand and held his junior firmly in his arms. The latter struggled a bit, but finally succumbed to the familiar aura.

He was reluctant.

Even though he was so angry that he couldn't restrain himself, Chen Ho couldn't bear to push Shi Feng's hand away.

——Because this is the warmth that Li Yan can't get, can't ask for, and can't reach in his whole life.

Seeing that Chen Ho was no longer struggling, Shi Feng just quietly hugged his junior for a long time. After Chen Ho's shortness of breath calmed down, he said, "You are right. At that time, I probably don't want to live anymore. .”

Chen He opened his eyes and was about to say something, but Shi Feng covered his mouth and could only stare at his senior brother fiercely.

"No one has too much affection for a strange child." Shi Feng didn't want to deceive Chen He, and because he couldn't deceive his junior, he said in a calm voice, "There may be pity, more self-harm, No matter what, I give you the inheritance of the Beixuan Sect in the hope that that child will live a good life, and he doesn't deserve to die."

Chen He couldn't speak, but his body was trembling slightly.

Shi Feng didn't let go, and continued: "I consciously did a lot of wrong things, and those eventually caused me to lose everything, but when I think about it carefully, I don't know what was wrong, and why I became like this. There is no meaning to my existence."

Chen Ho looked up at Shi Feng, and finally there was obvious sadness in his eyes.

Yes, that is the truth.

Li Yan guessed it, and Chen Ho actually knew it too, but he just didn't want to think about it.

——No matter how much Li Yan admired the person who died for many years, to Shi Feng, that child who was shivering with fear in the Chifeng Desert could not be the meaning of Shi Feng's life.

It doesn't matter.

No matter how much Li Yan never forgets, Shi Feng won't care about it under the Nine Springs.

Venerable Li Yan can step up to the sky, and maybe he can win a place in the heaven in the future, but as long as he can't stand in front of Shi Feng for a day, he will never be able to change this cruel and embarrassing fact.

Because everything is over before it begins.

In a trance, Chen He heard what Shi Feng said, but his mind was buzzing. Looking at Shi Feng's parted lips, he was stunned for a long time, unable to respond.

Shi Feng had no choice but to feel sorry for his junior brother, so he let go of his hands and bowed his head to kiss.

After a while, seeing Chen Ho struggling to regain his composure, Shi Feng whispered in his junior's ear, "But now, you are my whole meaning in this world."

Chen He's breathing was stagnant.

"The me you see today, or the fact that I am still here today, is all because of you, because 12 years ago, the Lord of the Black Abyss Valley handed you into my hands."

"Brother..."

Chen Ho nana, his throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn't speak a word.

"I once told you that you are more important than Beixuan Secret Treasure. In fact, you are more important than everything in the world put together." Shi Feng slowly stroked Chen He's face, as if to see it more clearly, but also seemed to be nostalgic unwilling to leave.

"Sever the seven emotions, have no heart and no love, don't care about anyone, don't trust anyone... What I leave you is too harsh, and I can't do it myself."

"Senior brother!" Chen He turned back and hugged Shi Feng tightly.

In Li Yan's life, he should have seldom shed tears, or in other words, "Honor Li Yan" has never cried, just because tears are useless, they are the most useless thing.That's why Li Yan hated it, and even rejected it.

In fact, Chen Ho, who was the same person as Li Yan, didn't cry when he questioned Shi Feng, and he still didn't cry when he heard Shi Feng admit that he couldn't care about Li Yan, but there was a strange feeling of dampness in his eyes at this moment.

"That's why I said, you're fine. You did what I expected and what I couldn't."

Shi Feng patted his junior brother on the back lightly, pretending to comfort him: "This made me understand that no matter who you are, you are a junior brother I am proud of. Last time I easily chose death, and I did not get along with you, did not get along with you Together, it was my mistake, and it was my lack of luck, which is why I missed my junior."

Chen Ho buried his head on Shi Feng's shoulder and refused to move.

"But thinking about it, I'd rather miss—"

When Chen He heard this, he instinctively raised his head and glared at Shi Feng.

What kind of words is this, the hundreds of years of suffering in Li Yan's previous life have been in vain?

"You fell off the Motian Cliff and grew up in the Heiyuan Valley. The fire in the stone did not burn Yunzhou, and you did not bear karma. Even if you were trapped in the fragments of the small world, there is still Daoist Changmei." Shi Feng said patiently "Although I don't know what your past life was like, but a child with a psychic disorder and our Beixuan Sect's troublesome past, it is too difficult and too bitter for him to live and eventually become a venerable leader of the evil way. "

Chen Ho blinked hard, trying to say something with a stern face, but Shi Feng's last sentence made the tears he had finally restrained slip down silently.

"...Brother is very fortunate that all this can be done again, and I have given my brother everything better."

Chen Ho buried his head on Shi Feng's shoulder again, thinking in his heart that Li Yan once loved Shi Feng deeply, let him hide it like this, otherwise it will be difficult for senior brother to know.

"The dead are gone, the past cannot be pursued, junior brother, don't think about the past anymore."

"Do not."

In order to divert the topic, and to change the sad atmosphere in his heart, Chen He said in Shi Feng's arms, "Does brother know why I fell off the Motian Cliff?"

Shi Feng paused slightly, he had thought about this too.

Didn't this happen in the previous life, or did the owner of Heiyuangu send the child back to him?

"I didn't know it before. After seeing the memory of the previous life, I reorganized the memory of my own life after waking up. Only then did I find out what my cousin Chen Mi said before he died." Chen Xiao He seems to be happy, but also ironic, "He is also a person who has memories of his previous life. In order to prevent the Chen family from being reduced to ashes, when I was six years old, he took me out while the whole family went to Akiba Temple to offer incense. Pushed down the Motian cliff."

"..."

"He's really a good cousin of mine!"

Chen He said with a strange expression, "It's a pity that his bones have been reduced to ashes, otherwise I would have to go to worship. Thanks to his kindness, I was able to meet my senior brother early."

Shi Feng didn't want his junior brother to show such an expression, so he interrupted: "Then you have to thank everyone in Heiyuan Valley, because they are too lazy to go out, so they gave you to me."

Chen He didn't change his appearance during the Nascent Infant Period, which made him angry, his face still swelled involuntarily, and even his nose wrinkled.

"I know, only senior brother wants me."

As Chen He said, he made another note in his heart for "people in Heiyuan Valley who are too lazy to go out".

"Not angry anymore?" Shi Feng tapped the tip of his nose.

Chen He lowered his eyes and turned his head in embarrassment.

"Since you're not angry, why are you still keeping things from me?"

"I want to teach those who don't give up a lesson..." Chen Ho thought that Shi Feng was talking about Zhao Weiyang and others, so he murmured unwillingly to defend himself.

"Who cares about those people?" Shi Feng withdrew his smile, and asked with a cold face, "A few days ago when you were unconscious, you clung to me, and when you woke up, you hid it. Is there anything wrong?"

"Oh." Chen He was listless.

"say!"

"Brother, I was wrong."

Shi Feng looked at him intently, and suddenly sighed: "No, I was wrong. I didn't expect that just that one time, that one sentence would make you fall into the sea of ​​love and suffering, and you will not be happy."

Shocked, Chen He raised his head suddenly.

"Because you have ecstasy, that sentence, I gave it to you together with the sect inheritance, I never thought-"

"It has saved me many times!" Chen Ho said decisively, he interrupted Shi Feng, just wanted to ask what happened, "Li Yan...you like senior brother, how do you know?"

"You are so angry at me, yelling, just resent me for choosing death so easily?"

Shi Feng looked at his junior helplessly, Chen He exerted great strength because of his excitement, and held his hand firmly, Shi Feng did not break away even though he held it.

"The most you complain about is that you are unhappy, and you are glad that this time is different, instead of losing your composure like this." Shi Feng has a deep meaning. He knows his junior, so how could he be easily deceived, "You listened to me carefully, the catastrophe of love and evil , what else should it be? In the final analysis, it is the brother who is sorry for you, sorry for... him."

Chen Ho wiped his eyes indiscriminately, forced a smile, and said deliberately dissatisfied: "Brother is so complacent, do you think I will fall in love with you every time?"

Shi Feng kissed away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and followed Chen He's answer in a good-tempered manner: "That's right."