Su Bin: "Recently, I often think of the vow we made when we were together, and I find that I can't always do it well."

It's not so much that they didn't do well, it's better to say that Su Bin didn't realize at the time that Ellen would really make their relationship as strict as an oath—hand over all their thoughts and freedom, unreservedly trust, absolutely Obey the other party's orders and meet all needs...

Every time he made a small change to please Ellen, every time he made a compromise for a better relationship, step by step to the present, Su Bin suddenly started to panic belatedly.

He found that he seemed to have stepped into a sweet and dangerous trap in a daze, and gradually got used to Ellen's control and teaching, and Ellen's company and care. When he realized it, he had changed from an independent person to No one is complete without Ellen.

When he began to reflect on the content of the vows, it was when he began to face up to this relationship in a true sense.

Su Bin didn't realize that under the guidance of Ellen, he had gradually achieved the "one body" that Ellen once said. Ellen is the subject and he is a part of the subject.And as a non-dominant part, in the process of losing himself, his panic seems so reasonable.

Seeing Su Bin's bewildered expression, Ellen chose to restrain her hostility, and instead comforted, "You've done a good job so far."

——It’s only one step away, as long as the last step is enough.

Su Bin: "...Really?"

"Tell me, what are you worrying about?" Ellen's tone was soft and full of delusion, "Because I didn't tell you about your father and restricted your contact with them, are you resenting me?"

Su Bin shook his head, how could he resent Ellen?To be honest, even though his father has been kind to him in nurturing him, their relationship is too weak. Even if Su Bin compares him now, he still thinks Ellen is more important; but, it is his father after all, no matter how Su Bin Want to forget the past, but also cut off the fetters of the blood, knowing that kind of thing, will be terrified and worried; and the feelings for Huang Zhengming, just like Ellen to his cat, mua was with Ellen when he was loneliest He, Huang Zhengming treated him the same way. Although he hurt him, Su Bin could not forget that this person treated him well...

He doesn't blame Ellen, he's just a little afraid of Ellen's means - so decisively cut off everything for himself, so that he has no other spiritual sustenance except Ellen!

Ellen watched his expression change intently. After a long time, she asked again in a low voice: "Is it not enough for you to have me?"

——My fool, let go of those useless feelings, admit that you are in love with me, you can't do without me, you can only have me.

Su Bin stared blankly at Ellen. This person saved him when he was most desperate. To this day, Ellen has kept the promise he made at the beginning, standing behind him like a god, allowing him to rely on him with peace of mind. No surprises, no distractions... But, that's not enough...

Ellen's health is always a ticking time bomb, buried in Su Bin's heart.

Compared with abandonment and betrayal, Su Bin can't accept the separation of death...

Although Ellen looks healthy now, Su Bin often advises himself not to be unfounded. For a young man, the future is always full of hope... However, as his feelings for Ellen deepened, Su Bin found himself There is no way to be optimistic.

Maybe it is just in response to that sentence - the more you care, the easier it is to worry about gains and losses.

"I'm sorry, Ellen, I'm afraid..." Su Bin shook his head slightly.

"Afraid of losing me?" Ellen tapped Su Bin's wrists with both hands, frowning, "How many times do you want me to repeat, I will never abandon you, nor will I leave you."

...It's like this again, what's the point of saying this kind of oath?

"But you will still leave!" Su Bin spit out the fear in his heart in a hurry, "Have you forgotten your physical condition? If you leave, what will I do for the remaining decades by myself? ?I know you're going to be upset when you say this, but Lance, reality is not utopia. Although I am willing to believe in you and have good expectations for the future, I can't just rely on "hope" to deceive myself... I used to think Without love, at least I still have friendship. Without friendship, I still have family ties. If I don’t have family ties, then I still have studies and careers. These can support me to stand up again and continue walking... But now it’s no longer possible. I think about us repeatedly. I found that if I really fulfilled that oath, then you are everything to me! If you don’t exist, my life would be meaningless!”

"..." Ellen's lips trembled, her eyes lit up, ah, this idiot finally got his head in the right direction.

Su Bin murmured: "I just think, if there are more things in this world that I can miss besides you, then when that day comes, I may have less despair and pain..."

"Su Bin," Ellen grabbed Su Bin's wrist and pulled him closer, whispering, "You won't have any pain."

"Why not? Unless I'm a dead person!" When these words were blurted out, Su Bin's heart skipped a beat, and a very bad feeling suddenly arose.

He saw Ellen's dark green eyes shining brightly under the refraction of the light, and then, the owner of the eyes opened and closed his lips, and said word by word: "You will not have pain, because, I will take you along. "

Hearing these words, Su Bin's heart stopped beating...

What do you mean! ?What does it mean to walk together! ?

Ellen repeated: "Go together and there will be no pain."

Su Bin stammered and asked, "You, do you want me to die with you?"

"You don't want to?" Ellen tightened her palms so hard that Su Bin almost cried out in pain.

Su Bin: "..." Die together, what should we do?Was Ellen going to kill him? QQ

"I've already arranged everything. If that day really comes, I won't leave you behind." Feeling the involuntary trembling of the person in her arms, Ellen let go of his wrist, hugged him instead, and stroked him Back, comforted: "I have made the formula of the potion,"

Su Bin: "..." Yes, it's poison!Ellen is proficient at these!

Ellen asked softly, "Are you hesitating?"

"I, I...let me think..." Su Bin's three views have completely collapsed, he is more than hesitant, he can't accept it at all!

"Believe me, there will be no pain," Ellen kissed Su Bin's forehead, but she uttered the devil's death spell, "When we lie down together, I will hold you like sleeping, etc. If you close your eyes, you won't feel anything..."

"...Don't talk about it," Su Bin hugged the other party back in fright, and panicked, "You won't die, you won't..."

"Hehe..." Ellen chuckled, his chest trembled slightly due to the deep laughter, and passed on his obsession to the person in his arms—fool, we will not be separated, selfish like me, how could I be willing to stay Are you alone in this world?

……

At night, Su Bin fell asleep in a daze, but Ellen's words echoed in his mind like a curse. He had nightmares all night, dreaming that Ellen was dying, and he wanted to feed him poison and take him away with him—— He's only 23 and he really doesn't want to die (wu-wu)...

Early the next morning, Su Bin was so frightened that he had a fever. As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Ellen wearing a mask and giving him an injection. He instinctively retreated into the bed, and Ellen grabbed his arm and stabbed him hard. , and fainted again.

I don't know how long I slept for this sleep, the dream is gone, but Su Bin is half awake, the two villains in his mind are always in harmony when facing the danger of life, at this moment, they are They waved the flag and cried together, urging Su Bin to flee quickly.

Su Bin's pulse was throbbing, thinking of strategies... Ellen's thinking was crazy, he obviously didn't have the mentality to die for love.

So, he really escaped.

Hasty, impulsive, without any plan.

Because of the fever, Ellen left him to rest at home alone.

Su Bin crawled out of bed, put on a coat and went out, creating a perfect illusion for his family that he was just going for a walk nearby.

The mobile phone has a positioning system, and carrying the mobile phone is equivalent to telling Ellen where he is. Su Bin only hesitated for a moment before leaving the thing on the bedside table.

The same is true for bank cards. Using Ellen's card will reveal his whereabouts, not to mention his passport, ID card and other personal items, and he doesn't know where Ellen hides them. idea.

It was only after Su Bin walked a long way that he was woken up by the cold wind.

—Where am I going?he asked himself.

"Ellen actually wants to die with me!" The brain answered him like this.

……

Su Bin trembled all over and shook his head. He just wanted to find a place where Ellen could not find him. He wanted to let his burnt brain cool down before he could think normally.

All the friends he shared with Ellen in City M, including Jin Fei, Brother Cheng, Qi Xin... could not be found. These people would reveal their whereabouts to Ellen, so he decided to go to another city.

However, you must have money to go to other places. Su Bin touched his trouser pocket and found a crumpled ten yuan bill and a few coins, which were only enough to buy a train ticket!

Su Bin thought for a while, bought a train ticket to City L, and then rushed to Boss Su's takeaway shop in City L as quickly as possible, and asked for Li Meihan's address, although Ellen didn't allow Su Bin to continue contacting Li Meihan, But Su Bin still heard by accident that this girl, like Sun Yujie, stayed in school to continue her master's degree.

When Li Meihan saw Su Bin coming to the door, she was stunned: "Su Bin! Why are you here? Why didn't you call me?"

Su Bin's face was flushed, and he said weakly, "Li Meihan, can you do me a favor?"

Li Meihan: "Tell me! I will help if I can!"

Su Bin: "I want to find an apartment here that doesn't require identity registration, and then... I want to borrow some money from you."

"Ah?" Li Meihan was at a loss, but she contacted Su Bin as soon as possible. It was also a coincidence that one of her friends went to the United States for a short-term exchange, and the dormitory was empty. After the other party's opinion, he arranged for Su Bin to live in. After that, Su Bin asked Li Meihan to borrow 200 yuan in cash.

Li Meihan hesitated to gossip about what happened to Su Bin, Su Bin shook his head and said, "Don't ask, please keep this matter a secret for me, and don't tell anyone who asks you, or I'll be finished!"

Even here, Su Bin was very disturbed. With Ellen's means, if he wanted to find himself, wouldn't it be a matter of minutes?

Without identity certificates and money, Su Bin couldn't move a single step here.

Li Meihan was speechless for a moment, and asked: "Then you have to tell me what you plan to do here, and you won't do anything bad?"

Su Bin sighed and said, "It's nothing, I'm a little messed up, and I want to be quiet."

Li Meihan: "..."

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