What to do if you are spotted by the straight man next door

It began to rain shortly after going out, and the winter at the end of December seemed extremely cold.

Fortunately, there is a car, and there is no wind or rain, but the sky is gray, with the patter of falling on the windshield, which is slightly gloomy.

Jin Fei drove Su Bin from the Surrounding Road, the Third Ring Road, and then to the Second Ring Road. In the car, he pointed to the Temple of Heaven, the Temple of Earth, the Temple of Sun, and the Temple of Millennium. This is Beihai, that is the Forbidden City, and here is ***: "If anyone wants to go, tell me, let's stop the car and go for a walk."

Su Bin: "Oh..."

Jin Fei: "..."

This was Su Bin's first visit to Beijing, and also the first time he saw the police, but he was not excited at all. Looking at the Jinshui Bridge and the Great Hall of the People through the car window, it was like watching a news broadcast, and his heart was still. .

It's not a very good day out, not just the weather, but the mood.

Jin Fei let go of the accelerator, rested his elbows on the steering wheel and said, "What's wrong, my young master? Here comes my aunt!"

"You're just here for my aunt..." Su Bin said sullenly, "Can I take off my shoes?"

Jin Fei: "Are your feet stinky? Don't take off the smelly ones. My mother usually drives this car. If I want to return the bad smell to her, she will kill me!"

Su Bin took off one first, lifted it up and smelled it himself: "It doesn't stink."

Jin Fei gave him a disgusted look: "You are so disgusting!"

"I take a bath and change my socks every day. I ate my socks because they smelled so bad." In front of Jin Fei, Su Bin didn't need to restrain himself at all. He took off his shoes, hugged his knees and shrank up.

Jin Fei glanced at him, amused: "You are a watermelon bug! Why shrink yourself into a ball?"

Su Bin: "Upset."

Jin Fei: "Annoying, annoying... the aftereffects of being dumped haven't healed yet?"

"If I'm still thinking about getting dumped, I'm really stupid," Su Bin sighed, and looked out the window, "I've looked away, it has nothing to do with that..."

Jin Fei was puzzled, it had nothing to do with that, what was bothering him, could it be... Ellen suddenly fainted last night, and Su Bin was stimulated?But Ellen is fine this morning, isn't she fine?Or was it because Ellen wasn't here?Is Su Bin lonely?

Jin Feiyue thought more and more about it, and couldn't help but secretly cursed "Damn", the relationship between these two people is too strange, are they really just bed partners?How do you feel like you're in love?

As soon as he stepped on the accelerator, he drove the car to the high speed. Driving in the urban area was too suffocating. Jin Fei wanted to speed up the car with itchy hands, and relieve the atmosphere by the way.

Su Bin took out his mobile phone, and has sent several messages to all.89 since he set off, but there is no reply, and the other party's profile picture shows "offline".

His mind was full of Ellen now—Ellen left alone at King Fei's house.

What is Ellen doing now?Are you still not feeling well?Is your head still hurting?Will he be lonely alone?Why don't you open Skype?Did you forget to turn it on or did you deliberately not want to talk to yourself?

Su Bin saw Ellen sitting on the sofa frowning and closing his eyes again, and his heart twitched inexplicably... Sighing, he doesn't feel like playing at all now, he just wants to go back and be with love as before. Ellen was tired of being together, but he knew that even if he went back, Ellen would ignore him.

Ellen asked him to think about it, maybe letting him go out to play with Jin Fei alone is to hope that they can separate and calm down separately, right?Although it is very tormenting, although I really want to surrender desperately and return to peace, this is still an escape and cannot solve the fundamental problem...

He really should think carefully about what to do, otherwise he would be too irresponsible to himself and Ellen.

"Where are we going?" Su Bin asked Jin Fei blankly after driving for more than an hour.

Jin Fei: "Take you to Shidu to relax."

Su Bin: "Where is Ten Degrees?"

Jin Fei: "A place with mountains and water, where you can see the scenery."

"Oh..." Su Bin responded slowly, and asked Jin Fei, "Fly, I want to ask you a question..."

Jin Fei: "What?"

Su Bin: "What do you think of death?"

Jin Fei was stunned for a moment, and confirmed that he had heard correctly: "Why are you asking this?"

Su Bin turned his head and said: "If there is a person who is very close to you, such as your family, you thought you could live to be 80 or 50 years old, but he got terminally ill when he was [-] years old or earlier. What would you think if you died?"

Jin Fei was startled, and looked at him: "Isn't it, your father is going to die?"

Su Bin said angrily: "Fuck! Can you say something auspicious!"

Jin Fei: "..."

——It’s not to blame Jin Fei for thinking wrong, he really couldn’t connect such a heavy topic with Ellen, because what Su Bin said was “close family members”, rather than just confirming the bed a few days ago... Uh, couples relationship people.

He frowned: "If it really happened, it can only be said that it was bad luck."

Su Bin: "Aren't you sad?"

"Of course I will be sad! But there is nothing I can do about it. I am not a god, I can bring people back to life..." After Jin Fei finished speaking, he thought for a moment and said, "Your question is very meaningful. I have never thought about it before. Cough, let's cherish it while the family members are still alive, and if something happens in the future, it will be easier."

Su Bin: "...Treasure it well?"

Jin Fei: "Well, I remember a professor in our psychology class said that the most painful feeling is not loss, but regret. The pain of loss will accompany a person for a while, but the pain of regret will follow a person for a lifetime ...So, cherish it while you are alive, so that you will not regret it in the future."

Su Bin fell into deep thought. What Jin Fei said was good, but this answer could not answer all the doubts in his heart.

"I'm not right? Still frowning?" Jin Fei glanced at him.

Su Bin shook his head and continued to ask: "If you say that this family member is optional, and you know that he will die in ten years, would you choose him as your family member?"

"How can the family choose? You have to recognize whether you live long or short." Jin Fei was stunned for a moment, then turned his head and asked, "Are you talking about your future wife?"

Su Bin: "But, you can understand it this way..."

Jin Fei: "It depends on whether it is before marriage or after marriage."

Su Bin thought, since he and Ellen have already made an oath, it should be regarded as "married"? (=_=) Amount...

Before taking the oath, Su Bin knew that Ellen had hemophilia. After agreeing to Ellen's proposal, Ellen also confirmed with him several times, and even asked him to kneel down to express his determination... But Su Bin found that he still So flippant.

Su Bin's default "life" is his own life, and he ignores the prerequisite in Ellen's oath - "during my lifetime".

Therefore, whether it is ten years, 20 years or 50 years, as long as Ellen's life comes to an end, it is considered a complete "life". Ellen did not deceive herself.

Jin Fei: "If it's after marriage, if you have a deep relationship, you'll have to accept your fate. Live a good life for ten years. Give birth to a monkey to play with. When the monkey mother is gone, the monkey will be seven or eight years old. I won't let myself be alone. .”

Su Bin: "..." Jiw, such a thing as giving birth to a monkey can never happen to me and Ellen!

Jin Fei continued there: "If it's before marriage and the relationship is not deep, then it's hard to say... After all, you want to marry a wife for the rest of your life. If you can only live for ten years, then you might as well raise a dog."

Su Bin: "..." Keep a dog?He really thought about orz...

Ellen said that he can at least guarantee "ten years", isn't that equivalent to the lifespan of a dog? TAT

Su Bin tilted his head in embarrassment, looked straight ahead, and continued to ask: "If you and your wife are newly married and have a little relationship, but not very deep, then you will know that your wife can only live for ten years, and you will be shocked. ... At this time, your wife told you that you can choose to divorce, what would you do?"

Jin Fei cursed secretly, "Fuck": "Where do you have so many assumptions? You only know that your wife can only live for ten years after you get married? You should act in a TV series!"

Su Bin: "...you tell me quickly!"

Jin Fei was filled with righteous indignation: "Of course I won't get a divorce! Let me declare first, don't look at my brother changing girlfriends quickly, but getting married and marrying a wife is a serious matter. I can't be with a woman I don't love. So no matter if you are newly married or old, once you decide to get married, it means that I have identified this person... Well, isn't there a sentence in the marriage vows that you must stay together regardless of birth, old age, sickness, death, disease and pain? If you want to leave, leave, then Is the oath just for display? Divorce when you know the other party is sick and will die, that's a coward... Oh no, what a beast would do! Isn't it just to avoid pain and responsibility!"

Su Bin was speechless. He suddenly realized that although Jin Fei looked cynical, he was not as scumbag as he imagined. On the contrary, he was the scumbag.

He is the coward that Jin Fei said, oh no, he is a beast...

Jin Fei did not drive to Shidu Scenic Area, but stopped at an empty roadside after getting off the expressway.

The two got out of the car and stood on the side of the mountain condescendingly looking down at the Juma River in the distance. It was a valley formed by cutting the northern end of the Taihang Mountains. Historically, there were ten ferry crossings in this valley, hence the name "Ten River". Crossing", now no longer exists.

The rain had stopped, and the air was a little damp from the transpiration of moisture from the ground.

Jin Fei lit a cigarette and said, "I just thought that your question seems to be quite in-depth..."

Su Bin didn't understand, so: "Huh?"

Jin Fei: "Remember when you just returned to China, you sent me a text message... Shall I tell you that I can take care of something?"

Su Bin: "Remember."

Jin Fei: "It's my cousin. He is five years older than me. He graduated from university last year. He married his college classmate whom he had been dating for four years. I even went to be the best man... This year, they divorced."

Su Bin: "Why did you get divorced so quickly?"

"Actually, it's not a big deal. I just quarrel about trivial things every day. I'm young and energetic, and I won't let anyone else. The more quarreling, the weaker the relationship, so I left. He asked me to drink, and felt that he regretted it after the divorce. , wanted to get back together again, but couldn't bear to apologize, and the ex-sister-in-law was also stubborn, with a posture of never getting in touch with each other. I think they both committed their own crimes and suffered..."

Jin Fei sighed, and thoughtfully said: "If you know that your wife can only live for ten years, the two of you should cherish the time together more, maybe you won't quarrel...the time is so short, don't hurry up Have a good time?"

When Su Bin heard this, his temples seemed to have been smeared with cooling oil, and he immediately thought of many things that Ellen had said to him...

——Don't hate, it will consume your life, the best way is to forget...

——From this moment on, only think of me, all the time, only think of me.

——What’s the point of talking about liking and love?Verbal liking and love will change. The love I want will never allow a trace of betrayal and abandonment...

——Isn’t the ultimate goal of liking and love staying together forever?So why not go straight to the destination together?

——Your time, your energy, should be spent on more valuable things...

……

Looking at the mountains and rivers in the distance, at this moment, Su Bin found that he could forgive all the hurts of his relatives and friends, yes, why should he hate?Why bother?Life is so short, just remembering the good things is enough...

Only those who are deeply aware of the limited life will spend time on more meaningful things. No wonder Ellen taught him how to forget and let go. No wonder Ellen always emphasizes that he only thinks about him, because he always knows, Not much time to waste...

And such a person who values ​​life has promised himself his whole life, and he still despises that his "ten years" are too short, so he doesn't bother to ask for it... Ellen must be very hurt when he heard that, right?

Imagine Ellen staying alone in Jinfei's house, like a proud leopard, hiding in the dark alone and licking its wounds.

Su Bin lowered his face: "Brother, let's go back..."

Jin Fei: "..." Do you understand now?What does a face about to cry mean?

Just finished smoking a cigarette, Jin Fei put the cigarette butt on the ground and extinguished it, and returned to the car with Su Bin.

Sophie Zelmani's "Going home" came out of the car stereo, and the warm female voice sang over and over again with a little melancholy—"Yes, I'm going home, Imusthurry home (yes, I want to go home, I must go home quickly)..."

Listening to this song, Su Bin couldn't wait to go back to Ellen...

Although Ellen said that there is nothing he can do if one party violates the spiritual contract, but Su Bin feels that there is a force in the dark that engraves the content of the contract deep in his soul—from that moment on, Ellen is his. The family is gone, where Ellen is, is where he should go back.

Back at Jin Fei's house, Su Bin hurried upstairs. Jin Fei looked at his back with a puzzled expression.

Su Bin opened the door, but did not see Ellen, his face changed, and he ran downstairs nervously: "Where did Ellen go?"

Jin Fei: "I don't know..."

Su Bin ran upstairs to look for it again. He didn't look in the bathroom just now.

At this moment, Ellen came out from the restaurant: "Are you back?"

Jin Fei was taken aback: "Fuck! Why are you here?"

Ellen: "Auntie made some snacks for me..."

Jin Fei asked him: "Hey, did you have a conflict with Su Bin?"

Ellen: "...what's wrong?"

Jin Fei: "I didn't give me a good face all day, it's like a dead father, and I asked a lot of strange questions."

Ellen: "What's the problem?"

Jin Fei: "What should I do if my wife can only live for ten years..."

Ellen: "..."

Jin Fei: "Go up and have a look at him, he's looking for you everywhere, like a puppy who hasn't seen its owner..." Jin Fei shook his head, and said, "I'll lie down on the massage chair and drive for a day, I'm exhausted...go to Brother Yang in half an hour."

Ellen: "Well, thank you for your hard work."

Ellen walked up the stairs slowly, and bumped into Su Bin who was rushing down again on the stairs.

Su Bin hugged him excitedly, and asked with a sad face, "Where have you been?"

Ellen chuckled and said, "Go upstairs and talk."

Back in the room, Su Bin took the initiative to close the door and locked it, then pulled Ellen who was speechless to sit on the bed, then took the ID card and passport on the desk and stuffed them into Ellen's arms: "Here You." Then, he leaned down and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I was wrong, don't be angry..."

Ellen looked down at him without speaking.

Su Bin said: "I shouldn't say that kind of thing, I will trust you."

Thinking about what Ellen did for himself, and comparing what he did for Ellen, Su Bin felt ashamed.

Ellen raised her hand and touched Su Bin's ear, giving him some encouragement.

Su Bin continued: "Even if it's only ten years, it doesn't matter."

Just like what Jin Fei said, it should be the awakening before raising another Wang Zai. Although Ellen is not a dog, in a sense, the promise of ten years of perseverance is similar to that of a dog... Thinking about it, I feel a lot easier.

Ellen asked in a low voice, "Really?"

Su Bin: "Yeah."——I will take good care of you, anyway, I am a man, it's not that I can't live without Ellen, and since I decided to be together, I should give something, right?

Ellen: "So, you still think I only have ten years to live, don't you?"

Su Bin was taken aback for a moment, and raised his head. He didn't see a smile in Ellen's eyes, but a trace of disappointment.

Su Bin panicked: "Did I say something wrong?"

Ellen shook her head and said, "Mu, you still don't understand our relationship..."

Su Bin: "..."

Ellen: "Your expression tells me that you are very guilty, and your tone tells me that you are eager to make peace because you want to get relief from this tormenting state..."

Su Bin suddenly felt aggrieved. He didn't understand what was wrong with him. He had thought a lot and done a lot. Why was Ellen still not satisfied?

Ellen: "Let me ask you, do you feel sorry for me if you don't promise me or apologize to me?"

Su Bin was struck by the words and was immediately speechless, but he still didn't feel that he was wrong.

Ellen asked again: "Do you feel that if our relationship ends like this, it will make you feel that you used me during this time... so you feel guilty?"

Su Bin: "..." Yes, Ellen is right.

Ellen asked again: "Do you think, in order to repay me, in these ten years, you can play the game of master and servant with me for a while, and find a sustenance in your heart for a while, and after ten years, you can continue your work." my own life?"

Seeing that Su Bin was silent, Ellen smiled lightly. The smile was full of bitterness and disappointment. He looked into Su Bin's eyes and said, "What I want is not sympathy, nor repentance, nor sacrifice."

Su Bin: "..." QAQ

When Ellen wanted to get up, Su Bin thought he was going to leave him, so he hugged his leg anxiously, and cried out in a crying voice: "Master..."

Ellen glanced at him, pulled him up vigorously, and the two stood facing each other.

Su Bin was completely at a loss, he didn't know what to do, he was about to cry... Will he be abandoned?

The next second, Ellen suddenly hugged him tightly... He sighed in his ear, kissed his forehead, and said, "I'm sorry, Mu, I was too impatient."

—I'm angry, but I'm angry with myself.

Su Bin: "..." Woo Q_Q~

Ellen kissed Su Bin's forehead, pen tip, and finally his lips. He gently sucked Su Bin's pure, feeling the warmth of the person in his arms.

——I am angry at myself why I don't have the lifespan of a normal person, so I can boldly promise you more.

After the kiss, Su Bin felt healed all over his body, but he was still very worried, so he raised his head and asked, "Will you not want me?"

Ellen stared at him with fiery and deep eyes: "I want you...I'm afraid that what I want, you won't be able to bear."

Su Bin: "..."

Although this sentence sounds a bit weird, Ellen's promise finally relieved Su Bin's heart that had been hanging for a day.

Ellen patted him on the back: "Okay, let's go to Joe's house first, we'll talk when we come back."

Before setting off, Su Bin asked Ellen: "Where is the gift you planned to give my parents?"

Ellen: "In the box, what?"

Su Bin took the tea and lotus root powder and said, "Give it to Yang Chengzhe's parents."

Ellen was taken aback, took it out with a smile, and said, "Okay, I'll tell Joe that it's from you."

Su Bin waved his hand: "How can this be done!"

Ellen tapped Su Bin's head lightly with the cigar box: "Why not? If you give it away, it's not like I give it away, because you are mine."

The two went downstairs one after the other, and Jin Fei was already waiting downstairs. He saw Su Bin, who had been frowning all day long, beaming at this moment, flirting with Ailun, the lingering eyes in the open eyes...... Goosebumps all over.

Damn, I feel more and more that these two people are in love!

Yang Chengzhe's home is near one of China's leading prestigious schools, and the environment is quiet. I heard that the people living nearby are all intellectuals.

Yang Chengzhe came down to pick them up and asked them where they had been during the day.

Jin Fei glanced at Su Bin, and said melancholy: "Driving to Shidu to smoke a cigarette, damn it, I will never take this kid to play again!"

Yang Chengzhe laughed loudly. After going up, Yang's father and Yang's mother were already standing at the door to receive——

"Welcome, welcome! Is that Ellen? Welcome to China." Mama Yang greeted Ellen in English, looked at Su Bin and Jin Fei, and called out their names accurately.

Su Bin was surprised: "Auntie, how do you know our name?"

Mother Yang smiled and said, "Azhe has described you to me, and I can tell it at a glance! Xiao Su, are you from the south? You speak softly, like a girl."

Su Bin: "..."

"Hehe, come in and sit down. You are a small family, so you don't need to be restrained." Father Yang warmly invited a few people to the living room for tea.

The house is not small at all, at least [-] square meters by visual inspection. The apartment is decorated warmly and elegantly. There is a row of large bookshelves in the living room. It looks like an intellectual family.

Father Yang and mother Yang can chat with them in fluent English, just like friends of the same age are full of vitality. Su Bin was infected by the strong family atmosphere here, and cast admiring eyes on Yang Chengzhe.