What to do if you are spotted by the straight man next door

After booking the air ticket, Su Bin was in a state of hot and cold all over his body. He kept covering his heart with his left hand, because his heart rhythm was too fast, and covering his heart was an instinctive reaction.

In the past, I always felt that causing physical pain because of "sadness" was an exaggerated thing. At this moment, Su Bin realized that people who have been here are sincere and do not deceive him.

Su Bin was lying on the bed, and involuntarily thought of many things related to Huang Zhengming in his mind...

We met for the first time when we were in junior high school. We got to know each other because we sat at the front and back desks. We became acquainted because we got the only two highest scores in the class in the first math quiz. We became close friends because we fought against the gangsters in the class together.After that, they called each other brothers and talked about everything.But mostly it was Su Bin who was "talking", and Huang Zhengming seldom responded because he was a rock.

When listening to Su Bin speak, Huang Zhengming likes to put on a deep expression, which makes people think that he is trustworthy, but Su Bin knows that is an illusion, Huang Zhengming is in a daze most of the time.

If you ask him why he is always in a daze, he will say that it is because his brain is too small to pretend.

They are tired of playing games together every weekend, watching discs, and shopping for game cards in small shops.

Huang Zhengming is very smart, he and Su Bin usually study and play together, some subjects Su Bin has to make a surprise test before the exam, but Huang Zhengming seldom revises, his grades are not worse than Su Bin's...

From junior high school to senior high school, the two entered the same high school with the same grades and were assigned to the same class. They met Guo Li, and the three became the "Three Musketeers" in the class at that time.

Huang Zhengming still doesn't pay much attention to his studies, and he looks like he can't wake up all day long. He can only jump up and down a few times in physical education class, which is in stark contrast to Su Bin's hard-working appearance every day.But Su Bin knows that he is a rebellious person inside, or rather, he is not like an ordinary high school student. He likes to watch Japanese ethical movies and horror novels written by Americans, which contain various blood types and pornographic descriptions. People do a boring thing repeatedly...

Su Bin always felt that Huang Zhengming was more mature than himself, because he never knew what Huang Zhengming was thinking, but Huang Zhengming knew everything about him.

Later, Su Bin confessed his love to Chen Xiaotian in the broadcasting room, got along with each other smoothly, and gradually broke away from the small group of three.

During the college entrance examination, Huang Zhengming failed to get into the Provincial University, and went to the Provincial University of Science and Technology next to the Provincial University. Guo Li's grades were not as good as the two of them, but he barely got into the provincial University of Science and Technology, and continued to enter and exit with Huang Zhengming. Back then when Su Bin wanted to chase Chen Xiaotian back, he even called them together to make a show for him...

Later, they would often get together to eat, chat, and sing k...

Many, many plain and watery details, which cannot be hidden or wiped off, are vying to emerge in front of my eyes.

Huang Zhengming looked contemptuous when he handed himself a tissue, Huang Zhengming lay on the floor of his house and concentrated on playing cards, Huang Zhengming waited for himself to make hillbilly steamed eggs, Huang Zhengming looked conceited when he said "I'm better than you", Huang Zhengming sang With an affectionate look on his face...

…The heart-warming memories I once thought were all splashed with dirty ink at this moment.

There is a saying that "women are like clothes, brothers are like brothers and feet". If Chen Xiaotian's abandonment seems to have stripped Su Bin of the clothes he wore for four years, making him feel embarrassed and desolate, then Huang Zhengming's abandonment is like tearing off the clothes abruptly. Both of his hands...Let him be dripping with blood and be disabled for life.

I have always felt very happy. Although he rarely received the love of his parents, he was admitted to a prestigious university with his own ability, studied a popular major, had a future, had a girlfriend, had friends, and claimed to be a winner in life... But now Only then did I realize that I had been living in a hypocritical emotional world, immersed in the illusion I had created...

His first 20 years perfectly confirmed the two initials of his name, idiot.

... Su Bin curled up into a ball, trembling with pain.

There was a faint sound downstairs. It was Yang Chengzhe and Ai Lun who had returned. Su Bin didn't want to see them. He was afraid of being seen by them in a miserable state.

Hearing someone call his name, Su Bin shrank into the quilt in fright, and covered himself tightly... Don't call me, don't talk to me, just leave me alone!

A few minutes later, the phone rang, and it took several minutes for Su Bin to muster up the courage to touch it out and take a look.

"Are you in the room?" It was from Ellen.

Su Bin originally wanted to reply with "yes", but when he was sending text messages, his hand was always awkward, and in the end he only sent a dot - "."

Ellen outside the door: "..."

"Are you asleep? Why don't you come out?" Ellen asked again.

Su Bin didn't know what to reply. He didn't want to see anyone, and he didn't dare to see anyone. He was afraid that if he went out, he would be found naked and without arms... all alone, with nothing left.

The text message rang again...

Ellen: "Are you masturbating?"

Su Bin: "...no!"

Ellen: "Then why don't you come out? Have you had dinner yet? I brought you something to eat."

Su Bin was holding the phone, his eyes were sore, why did he ask me to come out, why did he send text messages, why did he care about me...

Ellen: "What's wrong with you?"

Su Bin: "It's nothing, I don't want to eat, thank you."

After saying these words, the door was knocked. Su Bin trembled in horror. He heard Ellen's voice from outside: "Open the door."

Su Bin: "..."

Ellen: "Come out."

Su Bin shrugged and got out of bed, walked to the door... With a "click", the door was locked.

Ellen: "..."

Through the door, Su Bin tried his best to use a steady voice and said to the people outside the door: "Ellen, I'm sorry, I'm in a bad mood right now, and I want to be alone..."

Su Bin didn't hear Ellen's answer, but he was relieved to hear the sound of the other's footsteps going away, and felt more and more sad...

Just as I was about to crawl back onto the bed and continue to lift the corpse, the sound of footsteps came back!

Su Bin tensed up all over, and in the next second, he heard the door pin rattle, and then, the door was opened!

Su Bin: "..." QAQ

Ellen pulled out the door key and looked at Su Bin who jumped onto the bed and squatted in the corner with an unfriendly expression...

The little fool's eyes and eyebrows were drooping, his mouth was flattened, and he looked pitiful and nervous after being bullied: "You, why do you have the key to my room..."

"This is my former study." Ellen seemed to have the key as a matter of course.

"..." But you have already rented this room to me!How can you do this!Su Bin wants to cry but has no tears.

Ellen walked to the bed, stared at Su Bin for a while, and whispered: "Come here."

In fact, they are already very close. The 1.2-meter-wide bed is not separated by the Pacific Ocean. Su Bin didn't know where else he could go. Going down... can't you just let me be alone for a while?

Ellen didn't fulfill his wish, she sat directly on the edge of the bed, stretched out her hand, grabbed someone's arm, and dragged him out from the corner of the bed.

Su Bin originally wanted to fight hard, but when he thought of Ellen's inhuman palm strength, he gave up...

Then, he was dragged in front of the other party... Then, he was hugged again.

"You are sad..." Ellen hugged him and whispered in his ear, "Why are you sad? Huh?"

Su Bin: "..." q..q

Ellen: "Tell me."

—I don't want you to be sad because of something I don't know.

Su Bin's face was forced to be pressed against the soft sweater of the other party, smelling the clean smell of the other party's body, Su Bin was moved for a moment.

Ellen stroked his back tenderly, Su Bin didn't know what to do...

Gradually, the stiff body relaxed and softened. In the end, Su Bin seemed to have lost all his strength and softened into a noodle man.

He leaned in Ellen's arms, wanting to cry...

Why are you just ordinary roommates, but you want to make such an intimate gesture?

Why do you comfort me in this way?

"...Don't say it?" Ellen waited impatiently, paused her hands, stepped back a little, looked at Su Bin's reddened eyes, and threatened heavily, "If you don't speak, I will do something else gone."

Su Bin was startled, and looked at Ellen nervously... something else?

...Seeing Ellen's mouth slowly curled up, Su Bin said anxiously: "I, I say!"

——Is he going to do the previous trick again?It's too much to threaten in that way! q///q

Su Bin's heart was beating wildly. This kind of distraction seemed to cover up the previous pain and made him feel better... But he really didn't know where to start!

After struggling for a long time, Su Bin plucked up the courage and said to Ellen, "I was betrayed by a good friend..."

As soon as these words came out, Su Bin seemed to have opened up a chatterbox. Su Bin couldn't hold back anymore, and began to confide to Ellen bit by bit.At first it was very messy, because I had to translate the Chinese tragedy into English, all kinds of bumps and bumps, but later it became smoother and smoother, it was like Shakespeare possessed, Su Bin couldn't help crying while talking, completely in Ellen's arms Crying like a lump of instant noodles...

Face, self-esteem, pride, etc., go as far as you can!

The man does not flick when he has tears, but he has not yet reached the point of sadness!

... Woohoo!

Ellen hugged him and let his head rest on her shoulder...

From the beginning to the end, he didn't say a word, he didn't comment on those who hurt him in Su Bin's mouth, and he didn't correct Su Bin's messy grammar and word mistakes.

Just let him talk, let him cry freely...

He looked at Su Bin's pitiful face full of tears, which was originally his favorite appearance, but at the moment, he didn't feel excited.

He was very jealous, what he wanted, Su Bin easily gave to others except him.

He wiped away the other party's tears with one free hand...

——Little fool, I'm sorry, I don't feel sorry for you at all.

—I'm glad they betrayed you, hurt you, and made you despair.

——It’s better to stay away from you and let me be the only one in your world.

——I want your tears to flow only for me from now on.

……

With such dark thoughts, Ellen felt that he was a demon, but he didn't want to suppress these crazy thoughts, allowing them to spread wantonly in his body and mind.

Su Bin finally finished speaking, but he was still immersed in his sad story, wondering over and over again "Why did they treat me like this"...

Although he didn't get an answer, and knew that there might not be an explanation to make him feel at ease, but at least at this moment, he vented part of his frustration and pain, and felt much more relaxed...

He leaned against Ellen, a little drowsy.

The other party is very strong, and the body is very warm, what should I do, I don't want to separate...

Moreover, that person was still stroking himself repeatedly, and kissing his forehead with his lips...

Subconsciously, Su Bin put his arm around Ellen's waist, hugged Ellen gently, and slowly fell asleep.

...Only at this moment, let me rely on it.

Thank you for being with me, Ellen.