What to do if you are spotted by the straight man next door

Su Bin had no idea where Ellen was taking him. He wanted to ask several times, but seeing Ellen's indifferent attitude, he held back.

After driving for half an hour, Su Bin saw that he was about to leave City M, so he couldn't help but want to ask Ai Lun, but before he could say it, Ai Lun said first: "When you were with me, Are you uneasy?"

Su Bin: "Ah, uh, it's okay..." Maybe I'm a little more nervous than when I'm with other people. After all, there are some differences between them, for example, they had close mouth-to-mouth contact... Although this pair of lovers For Lun, it may not be a big deal.

Ellen: "I feel like you don't trust me very much."

Su Bin was taken aback, "I don't quite trust" where did you start?

Ellen: "You seemed restless just now."

Su Bin scratched his head: "Because I don't know where I'm going..."

Ellen: "Is this important?"

Su Bin was stopped by Ellen, so it wasn't really important, but shouldn't it be normal for Ellen to tell him where to go when he took him out for dinner?

Ellen: "If I hadn't seen you when I got home, I wouldn't have invited Fly to dinner."

This sentence is a bit difficult to understand, Su Bin thought it over several times before he figured it out... The meaning of Ellen's words, could it be that he specially invited himself to dinner? (⊙o⊙)

Ellen's next sentence verified Su Bin's conjecture: "I think who you go with is more important than where you go and what you eat."

Su Bin: "..."

Ellen looked at Su Bin and asked, "What do you think?"

"Well, you're right..." Su Bin didn't want to admit it, he was moved again and said, he really is a little bit special to Ellen, right?But he hurt Ellen, and he hasn't done anything to make him happy yet, but Ellen is still like this... This will make him feel that he owes the other party more...

Ellen smiled: "Since that's the case, don't worry about the question of 'where to go', you should trust me."

——When you are with me, I hope you only think about me.

After Ellen said so much, she made it clear that she would not tell Su Bin where they were going, and if there was a similar situation in the future, Ellen would not say, he would make decisions for Su Bin...Su Bin has no right to question , all he has to do is "accept".

Suddenly being deprived of the "right to know", or in other words, asking Su Bin, who has learned to be self-reliant since childhood, to get rid of a certain thinking habit, it is really uncomfortable for a while!

However, Ellen's sentence "who is more important to be with" gave Su Bin a hint, making him shift his attention from "concerning about what will happen in the future" to "what is going on now".

Now, he and Ellen are sitting in the car, shouldn't he talk about himself or Ellen?

Su Bin: "Ellen, can I ask you some personal questions?"

Ellen: "Yeah."—Yes, that's it, fool, you should think about me more.

Su Bin: "What was it like when you were a child, and did hemophilia have a big impact on your life?"

Ellen: "Before the age of 12, I sat in a wheelchair and had to be pushed around by others. Because of my poor physique, I would bleed when I moved a little bit. I was most afraid of internal bleeding and felt very painful. However, because I have been doing this for many years, I got used to it." Yes, I think it's okay... Do these count as an impact on life?"

Su Bin: "Forget it..."

Oh my god, it's unimaginable, Su Bin doesn't know how Ellen survived, it must be very painful...

But when he thought of "Little Ellen in a wheelchair", a familiar scene flashed in Su Bin's mind—it was also a child in a wheelchair, but that child was a girl.

Su Bin saw it when he was very young. At that time, he was still fostered at his grandfather's house. He ran wildly with Wang Zai all day long. In the process of wandering, he passed a secret villa. There is a beautiful private garden outside the villa. The garden has no walls and has a panoramic view.

At that time, there was a little girl in a wheelchair enjoying the shade in the garden, with dense wisteria flowers hanging over her head.

The girl was as delicate as a doll, and Su Bin was dumbfounded at the time, standing blankly outside the garden, unable to move, repeatedly guessing whether the little girl was a real person or a dummy.

It wasn't until Wang Zai dug the soil impatiently and startled the girl in the garden that Su Bin came back to his senses. The girl moved her eyelashes and opened her eyes... Her eyes turned out to be green!

Su Bin has grown so big, he has never seen a person with green eyes, and he screamed "Monster~" and ran away.

In retrospect, Su Bin always thought that he had encountered a kind of "fairy", because at that time, Su Bin's grandfather would often tell him stories from Liaozhai, and Su Bin knew that some animals and flowers might transform into ghosts. Leprechaun's.

It wasn't until he went to elementary school and received education that Su Bin knew that there are people with blue eyes and green eyes in the world, and they are collectively called foreigners.

Later, Su Bin also came into contact with some fairy tales. Every time he heard the heroines such as "Snow White" and "White Swan", Su Bin would automatically substitute the green-eyed little girl in the wheelchair... because she is so beautiful Su Bin didn't even know what language to use to describe that beauty.

As time passed, even Su Bin himself couldn't tell whether he had really seen that girl or if it was just a dream of his own.

Now, when Ellen mentioned that he was in a wheelchair when he was a child, Su Bin recalled it again...but that memory was just a flash. After all, Ellen was a man, and it was impossible for him to appear in China.

……

"At the beginning, there was a boy with the same disease as me, who committed suicide because he couldn't bear the pain."

Ellen's words brought back Su Bin's thoughts, and Su Bin was shocked: "What about you?"

Ellen glanced at him with a smile: "If I commit suicide too, I won't be sitting here."

Su Bin: "... Then you, how did you get better?"

"I knew from the beginning that I might not live to be 15 years old, so I was facing the threat of death every day... because our system is too fragile and dangerous, like a glass bottle in the air, and the support A bottle, but only a pencil... But, I never thought of giving up on myself."

Ellen's tone was very calm, and he described "life and death" in the eyes of outsiders as a "cold experience" in childhood.

He said, I didn't think about giving up on myself, as if to say, my cold will be fine.

Such Ellen is undoubtedly powerful in Su Bin's eyes... He didn't know what to say. At this moment, Su Bin felt that he was so weak that he was so miserable because of such a trivial matter as breaking up his love!

Ellen: "When I was 12, I had gene therapy."

Su Bin: "Gene therapy?"

Ellen: "Well, gene therapy is not a common treatment, it's just an attempt by the hematology team at the Royal Hospital for my case."

Su Bin understood, this is the meaning of "a dead horse is a living horse doctor"... How pitiful!

Ellen: "Although it was not completely cured, after that treatment, my body has improved a lot."

Su Bin: "But you were still bleeding profusely yesterday..."

Ellen looked at Su Bin: "At least you don't have to sit in a wheelchair and have to rely on others to pour a glass of water. As long as you regularly inject blood coagulants in your body, and carry trauma coagulation potions and anti-allergic drugs and anti-infective drugs, you can live like normal people , isn't that enough?"

Su Bin looked at him in silence, but the sadness in his eyes was obvious.

Ellen said with a smile: "I go to the Royal Academy of Arts for a full-body examination every month. Every large hospital in country B has a blood warehouse equipped for me. If I am in danger, just a phone call away. A dedicated medical team came to save me...so, don't worry about me, okay?"

"..." Su Bin couldn't bear to look directly at these words, which made Su Bin feel so self-indulgent in his worries...

Su Bin looked out the window in embarrassment, trying to change the subject: "Wh, when can I arrive?"

Ellen's eyes froze, and she suddenly stretched out her hand...

When someone grabbed his palm, Su Bin almost jumped up: "What are you doing..."

Ellen asked: "Is this the only way you won't think about messy questions?"

The two were sitting side by side. At this moment, Su Bin's right hand was firmly held by Ellen's left hand. He struggled a bit, but instead of breaking free, he was pulled a little by a reaction force..."I still want to Let me hold you?" Ellen curled her lips and smiled wickedly.

Su Bin: "..." o////o why, why is this...

... Ellen's bad temper flared up again!

There was no need for Ellen to say more, Su Bin didn't dare to move.

Moreover, he didn't think about anything else at all, because his attention was all on the hand he was holding...

Ellen didn't just hold it honestly. He used his index finger to gently scratch Su Bin's palm for a while, and then rubbed his thumb with his tiger's mouth. , separated his five fingers, interlocked with his ten fingers...

Ellen has been doing this palm-playing movement for a long time, and Su Bin later felt that the hand was not his own, but a toy of Ellen's...

Woohoo~~~ How to break the ambiguity, how to break it so weird, how to break it if you dare not break free!

I don't know how long it has passed, but Su Bin only felt that after being held by Ellen, the time passed for a very long time and was extremely difficult.

But after the car stopped, he felt that this period of time was very short, as if it passed in the blink of an eye...

I thought that the tense nerves could finally be relaxed, but Ellen didn't let go, and directly led him out of the car!

Su Bin didn't notice where they were at all. He was always worried whether anyone saw them. In country B, two men holding hands like this would be misunderstood... Damn~ let alone in country B, It will also be misunderstood in China!

Su Bin was led into a high-end restaurant by Ellen in such a way that his head was full of thoughts of "how to break it", and he was not relieved until he was seated.

Looking at Su Bin whose face was already flushed, Ellen smiled happily.

The author has something to say: [Remarks]

1. The suicide example of a hemophilia patient in this chapter is an example from a distant relative of the reader "ist-cai". Thank you for providing the information =3=

2. Seeing that many readers are concerned about the issue of Xiaogong not being able to "vigorously exercise"... shout out: Don't worry~ this is a novel!Don't forget to have golden fingers!