The Seeing Eye Dog

I don't know how long I sat there, from dawn to dusk, Zhang Hang's body was so cold that he couldn't feel it. Lu Chengye knew he couldn't let him outside like this, so he bit his clothes and dragged him up, his nose arched his butt , Let Zhang Hang go home.

Although that house probably won't be Zhang Hang's home in a few days, but at least it can shelter from the wind and rain, and people can't go outside in winter.Lu Chengye understood Zhang Hang's feeling of not wanting to go home, he had also experienced this proud age, he would rather starve to death than bow his head.But no, people always have to live, no matter how difficult or painful, as long as you get through it and look back on the past, you will feel that the pain and difficulty at this time are just a simple footprint on the road of life, whether it is deep or shallow, it depends on how you are look at this.Perhaps Zhang Hang would rather stay outside blindly than go back to that home, nor accept gifts from Zhang Qiming and Zhao Xiaolian, but now, he has to go back, for the sake of the not-too-distant future, and for himself.

Every step is taken by oneself. It may be painful or embarrassing, but you must go on.

Lu Chengye almost bit Zhang Hang's ass and walked forward. Zhang Hang rubbed his almost unconscious hands and said in a low voice, "Dahei, I don't want to go back."

Awow bit Zhang Hang's butt, but didn't bite the meat, just hooked the outer cotton pants, since he didn't want to go, then he pulled.Lu Chengye tried his best to hold Zhang Hang, a trace of helplessness appeared in the young man's bewildered expression.

"That's right, I have to give you something to eat." Zhang Hang rubbed Dahei's head. This is his dog, and he has been with him since he was a child. He was reluctant to let this dog suffer from cold and hunger.

One person and one dog walked back slowly, the snow was getting heavier and heavier, and it was almost too dark to see clearly.

Under the streetlight, a familiar car stopped in front of Zhang Hang. Zhang Qiming poked out his sober face from the window, and said to Zhang Hang, "Get in the car."

Zhang Hang froze on the side of the road, Zhang Qiming left him in the hospital, and now came back to pick him up, but he didn't know how to face this familiar yet unfamiliar man.

"Get in the car!" Zhang Qiming was obviously irritable, and fell asleep when he returned to his parents' house from the hospital.After waking up, she decided to go home and talk to Zhao Xiaolian, but no one was there, and neither was Zhang Hang.

At this time, he suddenly thought that he left the child in the hospital, and he, like himself, also knew that the two were not biological father and son. He could bear it as an adult, but Zhang Hang was only 16 years old after the new year. Such a small child, can he bear it?

After waking up, Zhang Qiming wanted to slap himself a few times, and hurriedly drove out to find Zhang Hang. He wandered around the hospital without hope, and finally he was really lucky to see a person and a dog walking slowly by the side of the road.

However, at this moment, Zhang Hang was looking at him with strange eyes, full of distrust.

Yes, how can Zhang Hang trust what he has done in the past few days.

Zhang Qiming got out of the car and wanted to reach out to hug the child, but Zhang Hang took a step back and Dahei ran between the two of them, grinning at him with a fierce look on his face.

Zhang Qiming took a deep breath and said softly: "I always thought you were not born at full term. You were born in less than nine months and weighed only five catties. You are small, wrinkled, and very ugly in your arms. The body is half as long. At that time, I thought I had a deformed baby. I stood silently and didn’t even dare to touch you. I thought about how to comfort your mother and grandma. Fortunately, the doctor told me at this time, the child The skull is soft, and it’s normal for a child born naturally. It’s good to open it after a few days. I look and look, and I look at you without turning my eyes every day, and I can’t bear to look away for a moment. Really, within a few days you It just opened up, with a round head and tender skin, not at all as ugly as when it was just born."

While talking, he tried to hug Zhang Hang again. Zhang Hang rubbed his feet, but this time he didn't retreat.Lu Chengye gritted his teeth, threatened Zhang Qiming, stepped back a few steps, and let Zhang Qiming hug Zhang Hang.

"I watched you at that time, and I couldn't bear to close my eyes to sleep at night. When I woke up the next morning, my eyes were dry, but I still couldn't help watching. You are so cute. Cameras were a rarity at that time. I took everything at home. I bought a camera to take pictures of you with the money, I thought, I want to save and paste all the pictures of you in every period, I don’t want to miss any moment of your growth.”

Hugging Zhang Hang tightly, Zhang Qiming's voice was choked with sobs: "Hanghang, why aren't you my son? I would take off the stars and the moon and give them to you, but why aren't you? How could you not be! "

"Dad..." Zhang Hang couldn't control himself, hugged Zhang Qiming, and burst into tears.

Even though they are not biological father and son, even if the damage is irreparable, but the relationship of more than ten years, every day of happiness is accumulated by them together, such a relationship, how can it be let go just because of blood relationship.

However, there is no going back.Even if the relationship remains the same, even if they both love each other deeply, but such a thin layer of blood relationship is enough to decide everything.

Zhang Qiming sent Zhang Hang and Dahei home, and when the boy and the dog went to take a bath, Zhang Qiming made ginger soup for Zhang Hang and made warm meals.Zhao Xiaolian has been doted on by Zhang Qiming since she got married, she has never been in the kitchen once, and Zhang Qiming has always been the father and mother since she was a child.

Zhang Hang came back from the hot bath, drank the ginger soup in mouthfuls, lowered his head not to look at Zhang Qiming, and didn't know what he was thinking.Lu Chengye wanted to secretly go to Zhang Hang's room to show Zhang Qiming the outpatient diagnosis records, but he didn't know if it was right to do so.

This man is in love with Zhang Hang. It is a deep paternal love. For Zhang Hang, he would rather endure the anger in his heart to maintain a complete family for him, but because of this too deep love, the two of them are even more unbearable. No blood relationship.Lu Chengye could understand his contradictions and his pain, but he couldn't forgive him.

That day's slap and Zhang's mother's merciless scolding were the scars in Zhang Hang's heart, bleeding and festering, and had become incurable scars during the days of waiting for the results of the paternity test.

Moreover, even if he loves Zhang Hang, Zhang Qiming may not be willing to raise Zhang Hang after the divorce.It's not that I don't want to spend that little money, but that I can't face it. The more I love, the less I dare to face it.

Lu Chengye didn't know whether he should let Zhang Qiming know that Zhang Hang was destined to be blind at this time, and he was not sure whether Zhang Qiming would choose to fight for custody because of this disease, and he didn't dare to bet that Zhang Hang would go blind without this blood relationship. , Can you maintain the past relationship with Zhang Qiming, and can you face the difficulties of Zhang's father and Zhang's mother?It is better to miss each other than to meet each other. Sometimes, instead of choosing this love and letting it be obliterated by time, it is better to settle this love and let it turn into guilt, which is an extra bargaining chip for the future.

Probably in business, he likes to analyze the pros and cons of everything, regardless of feelings, and choose the method with the best results.

So Lu Chengye didn't move, watched Zhang Hang eat the meal silently, and was relatively speechless with Zhang Qiming, and walked into the room silently.

Divorce is not a simple matter. In the era when there was no prenuptial agreement, property was a big problem if you wanted to divorce.Zhang Qiming is definitely unwilling to give half of the property to Zhao Xiaolian, and Zhang Hang's paternity test is a strong evidence of property division.However, in this way, Zhang Hang is destined to follow Zhao Xiaolian. If Zhao Xiaolian is not given money, Zhang Hang will have to drop out of school to beg for food in a few days due to her character.

Deep love, concern, these feelings, in the face of interests and money, eventually turned into a naked tit for tat.

Years ago, Zhang Qiming went to a lawyer, but Zhao Xiaolian still didn't come home.

It was a cold and lonely new year, the first lonely new year in Zhang Hang's life. At this time, he didn't know that he would spend every new year like this in the future.

He bought a lot of fireworks and firecrackers. At that time, fireworks and firecrackers were not banned when the market opened. In the sky full of fireworks, only Dahei accompanied him to watch the lonely fireworks.

In the new year, at the age of 16, in the years of growing up, pain also came quietly.

The colorful fireworks wrapped in blue paper were placed by Zhang Hang next to the Christmas tree in the yard. When he went to get the fireworks, he touched them several times before he could touch them.Lu Chengye felt something was wrong, and looked at Zhang Hang with concern, but saw the young man looking at him helplessly.

"Dahei, I, I... I can't tell the difference..."

It's not that he can't see clearly, but he can't tell the difference. He can't tell the difference between the green pine tree and the blue paper.

Color blindness has already begun to appear.

Lu Chengye put his head on Zhang Hang's leg, as if to give him enough strength to support himself.It's okay, he's still here.

Even if you don't mention it or think about it, the facts are cruelly reminding Zhang Hang that his eyes are getting worse day by day, and modern medicine is helpless. His steps towards blindness are cruel and merciless.

The fireworks all over the sky illuminated the night like day. Zhang Hang squatted in the yard. In this bright night, he only felt that the future was dark.

At some point, he will fall into this darkness forever and never see the light again.

After the new year in 2006, Zhao Xiaolian received a lawyer's letter, and Zhang Qiming filed for divorce. What was left to Zhao Xiaolian was the 80s old building where they lived when they got married, and Zhang Qiming was willing to pay Zhang Hang's alimony every month until he graduated from college.

If Zhao Xiaolian disagrees with Zhang Qiming's approach, then the paternity test will be filed in court.